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soooo have you seen this picture from Chris’ instagram yet? because i’m literally barking

NO?? I FOLLOW HIM TOO WHAT THE FUCK. HOLY CHRIST. HIS AHUHRMMSS??? H AUHFS FHH AUHG

SOMEONE WRITE. A BLURB ABOUT ME RIDING HIM WHILE HE LAYS LIKE THIS RN RN RN RN RNRNRNRNNRNRNRN PLEASE

#I’m losing my fucking mind

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“i hate it here” is peak escapism and hearing her talk about how she lives in a garden no one else has access to in her mind (unlike the rest of her life) for most of the year is sooooo. made up scenarios and imagining living in the 1800s… it’s giving the lakes except she’s alone and she can’t actually leave. so much of the album is about feeling stuck and this one is about feeling stuck in herself.

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not to give a man credit but shout out to killatrav for pursuing his celeb crush who turned out to be an unhinged mess at the time and sticking around anyway to be her hype man

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My toxic trait is thinking the Manuscript was written after Minneapolis N2. Sure ATW was changed because of us, but we're forgetting something. June 24, 2023 was the first time since the Speak Now Tour that she sang Dear John live. All Too Well was sang many times since Red, Dear John wasn't.

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the funniest (for the lack of a better word) part of the TTPD release is that taylor explicitly says she’s so fucking done with our introspection of her life and with us being invasive and we wouldn’t survive if someone did that to us, but she’s also given us her most dense album to dissect and is imo the most honest and raw she’s ever been, revealing everything to us because that will set her free.

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i think a lot of people are forgetting that taylor wrote a lot of these songs while she was having her manic phase and felt like dying and was ignoring joever and was channeling everything into matty, and not with hindsight and perspective. and this is not me saying that she’s lying about how she actually feels, rather i think she’s never been this honest. maybe she feels differently about it now (we have songs laced with regret and hate on the album too). what i am saying is that you can’t want to know her life and then get mad when she reveals just how dark and twisted it was.

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what i think this album did was separate people who treat taylor as taylor swift the human vs taylor swift the brand

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everyone is talking about taylor’s relationship with us and im just like. she hates us because we analyze her, but she loves us because we see her. it’s a contradiction she can’t escape. on eras tour, she literally talks about how sharing her feelings with us helps her heal, and then in TTPD, she says how the curiosity and opinions feel stifling. i think it’s just one of those things. she hates blurring the lines of our relationship because of what it does to her, and she’s valid in inserting herself in the space that discusses her and being mad, but she also can’t have us without sharing herself and opening herself to the scrutiny. and this is not me abstaining fans of being invasive, but rather just making a point.

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what's so clever about Clara Bow is that when she references her own name at the end, she's not talking about the present but the future, quoting the inevitable way people are going to one day talk about her, imagining it will only be in regards to the woma(e)n who surpass her. because there will be someone who surpasses her, eventually. that's the cycle of fame, isn't it? we're simultaneously captivated by the alluring trick of the past while looking for the next big thing. we compare current stars to the lights that shined before them, "you look like taylor swift." but we're also constantly waiting for someone new and greater to take the crown and captivate us anew, "you've got edge she never did." And half the song is about acknowledging that being revered is hell on earth for the people who are in it, because you're always trapped between what came before and what will come after. you're only safe insofar as you remain shiny. But the real beauty of the song is that it never succumbs to this dichotomy, but embraces it. It's Taylor acknowledging she wouldn't be who she is were it not for the women who came before her, who shared the same dreams, and recognizing her place in the chain of the women who will come after. The future's bright, dazzling.

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the manuscript ending the album on the utter jawdrop moment that neither of the muses of the actual album were the first men to fuck her up with promises of marriage and babies, and that first heartbreak so long ago laid the scene for the woman she would become and the ways she would approach love and how we all watched her life like scenes in a show but she kept coming back to the manuscript of the first torrid affair that ruined her, to bookend an album about two love affairs that destroyed her utterly in almost the exact same way, because all her muses are acquired like bruises........ it's bone-chilling

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I think Matty Healy is awful but I’m still proud of Taylor putting “but daddy I love him” on the record.

There are songs on the album about her realising he love bombed her and manipulated her. Realising she fell for all of it, she was never going to fix him, and he was never going to be her saviour. She is scathing towards him, but also towards herself for falling for it. She could have left it at that and maybe copped less criticism. Instead she acknowledges the backlash and the defiance she felt in that moment.

It makes me feel the same way her putting Ours on Speak Now does. Grateful that she is open to sharing her stories even when the muse isn’t deserving of the words she wrote, even when releasing it fans the fires of the “I told you so” crowd.

And much like Ours is not a defence of Mayer, BDILH is not an acquittal of Healy. The phrasing she uses is not “he’s a good man they just don’t know him like I do”, it’s “I’m not coming to my senses” “I’d rather burn my whole life down”. The message of the song is not her trying to convince you he’s a good person (he’s not), it’s about a woman stumbling through a crisis and her desperate need to be able to make her own decisions, and that includes her own mistakes - which she seems to be acknowledging Matty was.

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people that say they can’t enjoy lover/lavender haze as love songs anymore are so weak. you wouldn’t survive one day as an ours stan

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This album is about how two men broke her heart just months apart and how she was quite literally going through a mental breakdown while trying to put on a front while performing for millions of people on a world tour but you wouldn’t know that because you’re either so caught up in trying to figure out who each song is about or your so caught up in your hate for her that you’d rather make fun of her in her most vulnerable, raw, and honest state just to make yourself feel better