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river would literally hit Ronnie with a baseball bat rofl he hates her sm

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i've never known someone like you ;

and i can see us twisted in bed sheets. august sipped away like a bottle of wine. cause you were never mine.

august - taylor swift

linger - the cranberries

sweater weather - the neighbourhood

cinema - harry styles

ivy - frank ocean

infrunami - steve lacy

i think - tyler, the creator

in a good way - faye webster

snow on the beach - taylor swift

i wait for you - alex g

glue song - beabadoobee ft. clairo

i thought you wanted to dance - tyler, the creator

#this is cute !!!!! #miserable man ╲ river hendrix › dexter.

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river hums softly, thinking of how to let the words fall from his lips. "i'm scaring you? that's hilarious." all he wants to do is smoke a joint and lay in bed. he's not sure if it's actually hit him that sawyer suddenly won't be apart of his life. "no reason to talk to him, dex. we're not together anymore, that's the news he dropped on me the night i left." its even more painful to think about because that night all he wanted to do was crawl into his arms. "he said i'd be happier with you, but here is the funniest fucking part." he chuckles, running his fingers through his brown locks. "you don't even want me so i guess the joke is on him."

"i think i might when it comes to you." to be honest, dexter had grown worried when he didn't hear back from river. he kept calling and would only be met with his voicemail which happened to be full. "is everything okay, riv? you're starting to scare me." sirens went off in dexter's head the second river mentioned something about moving in thomas's unused apartment. "move here? why? did something happen with sawyer? do you need me to talk to him? i'll tell him he has nothing to worry about when it comes to me."

#miserable man ╲ river hendrix › interactions.

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"why are you apologizing? not like i'm divorcing you." river shrugs. "and no you're not a dick. it's gross how good of a friend you actually are."

"well, do you think i'm a huge dick? of course i wanna know, you're my friend river. come on, you'd never be a bother to me. i also wanna apologize on behalf of my brother. he's a fucking dumbass."

#miserable man ╲ river hendrix › interactions.

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he is half of my soul as the poets say ;

“I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.”

iris - goo goo dolls

i guess i'm in love - clinton kane

kiss me - ed sheeran

yellow - coldplay

stand by me - ben e. king

slow dancing in a burning room - john mayer

if you're not the one - daniel bedingfield

echo - jason walker

it's always you - kris allen

ever the same - rob thomas

good to you - marianas trench

i don't want to lose you - luca fogale

save this dance for me - alexander nate

#miserable man ╲ river hendrix › dexter. #my hand slipped

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"there's nothing wrong with you. i mean not everyone can have a reaction when something this big happens. give it a few days, it'll hit you before you know it." she knows how sawyer is so isn't surprised about his reaction. even when they were growing up, letty always felt like sawyer had a delayed reaction in certain situations. "i don't know, i always found that side of you kind of hot. in a very platonic way of course." she laughs softly. letty lays her head against his shoulder, letting out a small sigh. "no babe, i don't think this is something you can fix. i've always thought marriage is a big deal, and you don't toss around the d word just for funsies. you're gonna feel like complete dogshit for a while but one day you'll wake up and know you made the right choice."

"i honestly don't know how to process my emotions. like i want to be sad about this whole situation but i just can't? what the hell is wrong with me?" sawyer probably seems heartless but he's truly upset over this. it'll probably hit him all at once when he least expects it. "river would've hated me if he ever saw that side of me. i tried so hard to hide it too. i didn't like that side of me at all. yeah, but you know how spencer is sometimes. he loves a good 'i told you so' moment, even if that person is feeling down." he can't bring himself to cry no matter how bad he wants to. "i'll go to a meeting tomorrow, i'll even drag sloane with me. someone has to stay on top of her too. you don't think i'd be able to fix this? the way you and spencer always did?" he feels silly even asking that. river most likely hates his guts.

#baby you're so classic ╲ leticia hendrix › interactions.

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"i mean you probably have some kind of spidey sense." there was a reason that river hadn't bothered to tell dexter about what happened after he had left. his best friend was going through his own grief, and the last thing he wanted to do was pile on top of that. "turned my phone off, the less human interaction i have the better." he's not sure how to tell dexter which is silly. "think i'm gonna move here, thomas said he doesn't use it anymore."

"come on, you think i don't know how to find you? plus i kinda had a feeling you'd be here." it feels like river has been avoiding him, which is valid. he did sort of reject him, but it was for river's own good. "surprisingly, she has a life of her own. chances are she'll be looking for me later though." he thinks about it before shaking his head. "nah, i'm good. you haven't been responding to my calls, what's up with that?"

#miserable man ╲ river hendrix › interactions.

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"i mean depends on who you ask. you really wanna know? think i've cried enough, don't wanna bother anymore."

"i know i'm a dick but i didn't thing i was that much of one. how are you holding up? need a shoulder to cry on?"

#miserable man ╲ river hendrix › interactions.

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TOO YOUNG TOO DUMB TO KNOW THINGS LIKE LOVE 😭😭😭😭

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"how'd you find me?" he already knows the answer to that seeing as thomas was kind enough to let him stay at his apartment that he's not really using. it'd been a week of ignoring everyone, he finally had to turn his phone off because dexter wouldn't stop calling. "no ronnie attached to your hip? wanna do a line?"

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#MISERABLE MAN ╲ river hendrix › phone.

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why am i imagining ronnie texting river like "lmao dexter is laying next to me rn" and river just full on "i'll literally kill u smelly rat"

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"save the 'i told you so', i already know."

#miserable man ╲ river hendrix › interactions.

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we deserve a soft epilogue, my love

a river & sawyer playlist! DIVORCED EDITION

dancing with your ghost - sasha alex sloan

you were good to me - jeremy zucker

walked through hell - anson seabra

i found - amber run

all i wanted - paramore

if i could fly - one direction

traitor - olivia rodrigo

ghost of you - 5SOS

movies - conan grey

heartbreak anniversary - giveon

#miserable man ╲ river hendrix › sawyer. #:((

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"hey you're allowed to be sad about this. don't think just because you're the one ending it that somehow you have to be the strong one." ending any relationship hurts, letty remembers how it was when her and spencer broke up the first time. she felt like someone had ripped out her heart and stomped on it. "never be scared, sawyer. your partner should see every side of you, even the ugly sides that you wish didn't exist. if spencer says that to river i'll withhold sex for a whole month. it's just cruel to throw an 'i told you so' at someone during a breakup." she feels her phone vibrate, and ignores it. "well i know what comes next. you get yourself to a meeting, call whoever you need to call because what can't happen is a relapse. and i read that they tend to happen after big life events so you gotta take care of yourself."

"i'd let you, to be honest. i deserve it." he feels like such an idiot right now. but self sabotaging is his specialty though. just when things are going great, he finds a way to fuck things up. it never fails. "i don't know. i guess i was just terrified of scaring him off? it's pretty bad when i get angry, ask spencer or sloane. they'll tell you." he has his father's anger, that's for sure. "and i don't blame him. i wouldn't want to see me either after that. yeah, he's probably gonna tell him 'i told you so' too." he winces slightly, knowing letty's right. this entire situation isn't alright. "sorry.. i just don't know what else to say? i feel like i'm supposed to be alright with my stupid decision after all."

#baby you're so classic ╲ leticia hendrix › interactions.

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HART BROCKEN 💔MY BABIE RIVER

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"i like a lot of things about you, dex. you're easily the most loyal person i know. we've been through a lot together and without hesitation you're always there for me. i mean you're not bad on the eyes either so that's nice." his own words make him smile. "i also don't think i have such deep conversations with anyone else. you're so smart, and have so much to offer." river knows he could go on and on about what he likes. "i get it," he replies softly. "but i don't think you'd be that way with me. which is silly because what makes me so special? but i'm not them, i'm the person who knows you better than anyone in this entire world." he's not hurt by what dexter said, knowing he's just trying to protect river. and he's not stupid either, river knows exactly the type of person dexter is. "tell ronnie i said she's still a desperate smelly rat for me. see ya later." he presses a kiss against dexter's cheek before making his way out of the room. all he wants to do is crawl into the arms of his husband, and apologize for how shitty he's been lately.

FIN.

"i feel like only you'd find beauty in things where most folks don't. i guess it's true, beauty is in the eye of the beholder." he does feel warm inside, after hearing river's words. but he still can't bring himself to believe them. "i don't think i've ever noticed that about myself. you like that most about me?" he questions, a small smile on his lips. "but who knows me better than you? there's no way i'd be able to find another best friend who knows me like the back of their own hand." letting river down definitely wasn't something he wanted to do. "you don't have to go, riv. look, i was just saying that i'm an incredibly fucked up person. and i don't want to put you through the shit i put both brooklyn and ronnie through." he tries to explain lamely. "oh- alright then." he half shrugs. "sawyer is probably waiting up for you, i should've remembered. and ronnie is probably waiting for me to hit her line."

#miserable man ╲ river hendrix › interactions.