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If I find that shape wear I have maybe I wouldn’t fucking get bullied for being fat

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I love the look of blood idk if that's bad

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I’m so fucking tired of this. I was fine most of December up until exams, was okay ish after Christmas, two days before school started again I attempted (70+ pills. At once.) and now I feel like I’m gonna start spiraling. I wish it had worked back at the beginning of the month

#Suicide tw #suicide attempt tw #Sh tw #vent tw #Rant tw #block don’t report <\3

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I honestly don’t know if Ima be able to make it through the year

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All my mom cares about is my grades and it’s annoying as FUCK because then all she does is take my things. It only “helps” cause I want my shit back, she should know this by now. We’ve been doing it since sixth grade. I don’t even care about my grades that much

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Looked up how much my weight in kg from the last time I went to the doctor was in pounds. Shouldn’t have done that 😶

#It’s a lot <\3 like. A LOT. All ima say is more than I can lift. #Ed tw #< jic #idk if I have one. Bc like. I DO eat but then I’ll feel like shit mentally after. Especially if it’s more than what I told myself I was- #- gonna eat.

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Damn. Guess who didn’t do what they said they were gonna do!!! Me!! I fucking ate ramen at lunch instead of just fruit, had dinner, and then had ice cream like an hour ago. I wish I could just like, cut off my fat.

#Ed tw #< just in case

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I kinda already fucked up not eating a shit ton of unnecessary stuff this month BUT

tomorrow I’m gonna try to only eat fruit and dinner (only bc I have to eat dinner, but I’ve rarely been actually finishing it)

#Ed tw #< just in case

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I’ll shut up eventually lmao!!

does anyone else’s body part that they sh on like..ache the next day?? I’ll be walking around school and my thighs will hurt like HELL, not the actual cuts but like, just my thigh in general

#sh tw #self h@rm #sh twt #shblr #s3lfh4rm #self mutalition #self destructor #self harm tw #S3lf h@rm #Sh #shtw #Tw sh #sh questions #Sh tips

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Not really a vent or anything but, if someone ever says any shit like “stop for me 🥺” they’re gonna get bitch slapped

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I should try to scan my leg sometime

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mutuals what’s ur sign and how often do u cry im doing research.. for example im a capricorn and i probably cry 3 times a year

#Aries and uhh…not that often actually 💀 I FEEL like crying literally every day but I rarely actually do

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So like. I do this thing where I’ll be like “I’m not gonna eat today until I HAVE to” (which is dinner) and then I end up eating anyway, and it’s really fucking annoying bc I just wanna be pretty and skinny <\3 I am able to do it some days, ik water helps but where im in school it’s kinda hard to use the bathroom a lot so yeah. I don’t have a food scale or whatever it’s called and if I asked for one it’d probably seem hella weird bc I used to not give a fuck

if anyone has any tips or anything like that I’d really appreciate it <3

#Ed tw #<- just in case #sh tw #ed tumblr #ed vent #Ed tag #(all Ed tags are just in case. I don’t think I have a full on Ed so yeah)

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The urge to sh everytime in in stress or just anytime something annoyed me

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Me omw to play fruit ninja on my legs bc Ik I won’t be able to for another week (bc I literally have no place to do it, and nothing to do it with at my dads)

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Literally..

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someone help please <\3

I use blades from a razor (an unused one) and I want it to go deeper, I HAVE a box cutter I stole but it doesn’t do shit for whatever reason when I actually TRY but when it’s an accident it actually cuts?? I’ve heard that swiping faster helps??

note: I HAVE done a few styro but it didn’t go super deep or anything, I just pressed the corner of the blade against my thigh and swiped it across slow(ish) if that makes sense

#Sh tw #styrotumblr #baby styro #styrotwt #baby cvts #self h@rm #styroblr #self mutalition #shblr #baby cuts