““Sometimes beautiful things come into our lives out of nowhere. We can’t always understand them, but we have to trust in them. I know you want to question everything, but sometimes it pays to just have a little faith.” - Lauren Kate, Torment”
You know who you are. I’m not even sure you care to speak to me or even read my words.
First, I want to apologize for everything I had done wrong to or with you. I am going to therapy and I am growing. I noticed some things that had happened in our brief relationship & I am now realizing the reason we didn’t work - was me.
Second, I am growing and becoming a better person. You would have been great for me. However, because I am so damaged I was unable to see the things that were possible. You provided me things I actually needed and wanted at the time. I was unable to see the goodness in your heart and I SINCERELY apologize from the bottom of my soul.
Third, i totally understand if you do not want to speak to me again if ever. I understand and I respect your choice.
I am so sorry for everything I had done to you. Just know, I am growing and becoming a better person every day as trying to see the good in myself. I did love you Brian. You will always have a spot in my soul as I was the one who was completely wrong.