severeconnoisseurnightmare

[severeconnoisseurnightmare]

Hope things go well in plan. i really cant handle things especially when i prepare and settle things in order. Laging hindi nasusumod accordingly. but promise, ill manage to do what's in plan. Promise.

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tama na. di na kaya.

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i really dont need someone who will just say "pahinga ka muna" or "hindi masamang magpahinga" like i knew that. And it wont work. Coz there's no other way to stop me from doing what im doing rn. like this is what i need. Even tho it's kind of suffocating, i need to.

I need someone who will be my rest. And reason to continue.

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I love you, tumblr.

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Dont know how to fix things. Like, everthing's a mess.

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badly wanna end things in an instant.

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Ayaw ko na mag-aral

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Things are kinda exhausting here. Am really craving for success.

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i miss you. :((

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bigla bigla na lang ako nalulungkot, hindi ko alam anong dahilan. ayaw ko na ng ganto. Para kong pinagtitripan ng sarili ko

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i always have this "gusto ko na mamatay" hours. And i dont like it. :<

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i really convince myself that i deserve more. But on the other hand, i see myself smaller. Like, im not pretty. not smart. Im bad at makinh conversation. Im not improving. And even if i tried growing. I dont know how.

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I rlly believe, the reason why u still alive is bcoz u still need to complete ur mission in life. Ur purpose. And idk, heto, tinatapos ko na yung akin. Ang problema hindi ako sigurado kung eto ba mission ko, kaya di ko alam kung matatapos na ba, o nagsisimula pa lang. Ang tagal.

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i really regret time meeting u. Really do.

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sabi na e, kahit anong galit ko sa tao. Makarinig lang ako na mabuti kahit na di ko nakikita. Nawawala galit ko

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mybe the reason why am obssesed wit u is because i am just hoping and seeking for comfort. And i find it with u.

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Quarter to nine, yes pm. 19th of July.

i dont feel anything, but hate.

I hate you. I dont bother look or worried what might this fight end up. I dont know. I am sad? Maybe.

Those words just keep hugging me, i feel like i am worthless :<