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and very, very often, self care is not plants and ice rollers and fluffy blankets of peace.

it’s standing over your kitchen sink and crying while doing the dishes because you just want to go back to bed but the dishes need done. and you don’t know why you’re crying but you're trusting you need it. and you aren’t listening to the music that pulls you into a spiral; you’re listening to some cheerful shit your friend sent you. it’s getting up and staring at your fridge and closing your eyes and then cooking yourself food even though you hate it and it’s miserable. because you know that you’d cook for your friend, and you are trying to befriend yourself. it’s dragging yourself into the shower because you know you’ll feel better afterwards. it’s doing mundane tasks with patience, cursing under your breath, trying desperately to give yourself grace. grace is the beginning of care. care is the beginning of love.

we think it’s supposed to be peace and yet the most powerful self care moments are when we hate everything but especially ourselves. and life does not feel worth the loving. to look into that pain and yet choose to care for yourself in however many pieces you are — that is care. love. grace. trust. belief. it hurts because it’s love where there was no love before. it heals because it believes there will be love, one day, soon.

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"كرامتك قبل خرابيط قلبك"

"Self respect over the desires of your heart."

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DON’T BRING DOWN YOUR ORIGINAL CHARACTER (the way she speaks, the people she deals with or entertains, her thought process) JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE CRUSHED BY SOME NEED THAT YOU WANT TO FULFIL THROUGH SOMEONE ELSE.

For instance- accepting someone & entertaining them ( whom you naturally wouldn’t have accepted or let in ) just because through them you are gonna avail some opportunity. OR bearing someone’s BS abusive behaviour towards you just because you don’t wanna loose them.

It is absolutely dis-regard for yourself & utter shame because it signals your soul that you are betraying yourself & you ain’t enough for yourself.

Listen to me - YOU DON’T NEED ANYONE! YOU ARE SELF SUFFICIENT! WHAT DESERVES YOU, WOULD FALL INTO YOUR LAP NATURALLY. You don’t need to be worthy for anything/one. You are born worthy of magnificent things that lights your soul. It is you who needs to keep on being true to yourself & working hard.

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Re-parenting yourself is like: I will hold you because no one ever did. I will show you tenderness because all you ever knew was hardship. I will protect you when everyone else left you to fend for yourself. I know it’s not fair what happened to you. But I am here for you now.

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A happy ending:

“She agreed to love herself deeply.She was finally the sun of her own life.”

-Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

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CHOGYAM TRUNGPA RINPOCHE

Love

Love is not really the experience of beauty and romantic joy alone. Love is associated with ugliness and pain and aggression as well as with the beauty of the world; it is not the re-creation of heaven.

Love or compassion, the open path, is associated with "what is."

In order to develop love - universal love, cosmic love, whatever you would like to call it - one must accept the whole situation of life as it is, both the light and the dark, the good and the bad.

One must open oneself to life, communicate with it.

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"Somewhere, someone is falling in love with a person who loves them back after a whole winter of being alone and broken. It is the earth's magic to make people trust in the warmth of love again."

– Juansen Dizon, Via "juansendizon" on Tumblr

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"How do I stop carrying everything that has ever happened to me?"

– If My Body Could Speak, Book by Blythe Baird

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This is so true, because pride is actually making your own self your God - if you think all the way to the actual root of whatever sin it is - you will find self.

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The biggest power is allowing people to be whatever they want to be & allowing them to do whatever they want to do. This way not only will you liberate yourself but also others.

PS- don’t call yourself a lover if you don’t truly want the eternal happiness of your mate. If so, then you’d allow them to be and do whatever they wish to!

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"Jaane woh kaise log the jinke pyar ko pyar mila, Humne toh jab kaliyan maangi kaanto ka haar mila."

"I wonder what kind of people were they who attained love I only got a garland of thorns when I asked for flowers."

-sahir ludhianvi

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I aspire to be one of those people who are known for always smelling good and treating people kindly.

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