221023 Doyoung’s Bubble Message (after THE LINK+ Day 2)
“The concert that I poured all my heart into is over.
There’s a lot that I wish to say.
There are things that I want to say carefully too hh
Because Y/N who is receiving this message is the person I’m most grateful for so albeit carefully, I will say it all.
As I do this job, it seems like I would become a little tired when there’s a misunderstanding or when I have responsibility for what I do.
However, if there are more of such tough/tiring things and I keep feeling hurt, then there will be a time when this feeling would turn into self-blame towards myself. Why do I feel hurt about such things and have a hard time, why am I like this, I spend each and every day with these feelings but when we had the fansign this time round, I read a letter which I received and there was one sentence that comforted me.
If you ask what was written, it was "I know very well that it is impossible for Doyoungie to not feel hurt, so I can’t say don’t feel hurt but I hope that you can spend that (time) resolutely and have the strength take it in stride.”
When I saw that line, the thought that “all this while, I thought of this job as one for me to show myself off, to receive love and evaluation, but there are actually people who guessed even my pain and worry about me” came to mind & it gave me comfort.
It was that thought and the whole process of preparing for this concert which accompanied me that became a source of comfort to me and saved me.
Perhaps it’s because it was a concert with those meanings, I cried quite a bit without even realizing it. hh
Really thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for being together with us yesterday and today Thank you for giving me strength and helping me live.
With the thought that a day like this with us performing at such a huge concert venue may not come again, I’m going to remember today for a long, long time. As much as I hate that my memory is limited, I want to remember today for a really, really long time