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Just watched Netflix, Kai the axe Weil ding hitchhiker & his original song amazing

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This year I’ve decided to keep all my energy. And to not be there for anybody who doesn’t really love me or hear me. I need to focus on myself this year and give everything i want to myself and those who support/love me.

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Dialogue Prompt #265

“When I imagined this year, aliens were not on my list of possibilities.”

“They’re not aliens.” 

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This year I’ve decided to keep all my energy. And to not be there for anybody who doesn’t really love me or hear me. I need to focus on myself this year and give everything i want to myself and those who support/love me.

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Limerence is a trauma response and anyone who enjoys the “attention” isn’t thinking of your best interests

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The thing is that at some point you need to confront the fact that thinking you’re the worst person on planet earth is also a form of ego.

“You’re not the main character” often applies to people who think everything will go their way. But not every story is a heroes journey. Some are tragedies. Do you see yourself as the main character of a tragedy? You’re not the main character applies to that as well.

Thinking that you’re so uniquely annoying that that literally nobody on planet earth would like you is also a form of thinking you’re special and can also in certain ways be harmful to the people around you.

At some point you need to realize that there is no main character. Nobody on planet earth is inherently at their core more or less lovable than other people and even with very big mistakes almost nobody is beyond redemption or love. And you are not some special exception to either of those things. Thinking that you are is just your ego and mental illnesses talking.

Sometimes getting better involves being kind to yourself. Sometimes it involves getting a damn grip. Which one do you need? That’s up to you to find out. Probably some combination of both.

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I love shows that take you on like. A mental health journey while you watch them. Like

Me: oh man I’m having trouble finding people to date that sucks :/

*watches first two seasons of crazy ex-girlfriend*

Me: I will be alone forever nobody will ever love me or be attracted to me I am in desperate need of therapy

*watches last two seasons of crazy ex-girlfriend*

Me: I am absolutely capable of finding romantic love but I don’t need it cause I’m worth so much more than who I date and happiness comes internal peace and not external validation

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God, who is this song's composer?

OFMD//Crazy Ex Girlfriend

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when crazy ex girlfriend said your self worth is not dependent on romantic love. when crazy ex girlfriend said your self worth is not dependent on the love and validation your parents fail to give you. when crazy ex girlfriend said your self worth is not dependent on how well you can contort yourself and your reality into a watered down, palatable version that makes narrative sense. yeah.

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i love sitcoms, even the "bad" ones, even the ones that get worse as it goes on, i just love them. i love all of the long running jokes, the slow burn romances, the impossible situations, the meaningless drama, i love having something comforting to watch. they make me so happy.

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Do you ever talk to your mutuals?

not really i just post things and hope they fall in love with me

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You are allowed to like your own writing. You wrote it, it's tailored to yourself, you should enjoy it. You took plain words and put them in a beautiful order to create an awesome story. Beat that imposter syndrome and be proud.

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Fuck whoever fucked me up so bad that I convinced myself I’m not even worth anyone’s time

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“You can say anything and I will not abandon you.”