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they're unhealthily co dependant. they're enemies. they're lovers. they're best friends. they're each other's everything. they hate each other. they love each other. they want to kill each other. they wouldn't survive without each other. they're each other's fucking undoing. they've been doomed by the narrative right from the very start, they were destined to break apart, they never had any future together, they were always stolen moments. and yet they loved each other, even if it was just a cruel dream, or maybe a seductive nightmare- for a split second, they loved each other and that didn't change anything that didn't change their stories that didn't save them from being doomed but the love was there. it would always be there. it didn't change anything, but that doesn't mean it wasn't there. i didn't say their names but they popped in your head didn't they.

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this is so “do you love him?” “yes. more than anyone else in the world” and “fight well. keep us safe. i love you.” and “he loves her. of this he is certain” and “is there anyone in the coalition you trust?” “venka” and “lovely, wonderful kitay” and “she would draw this moment out forever if she could” and “i left for you” and “i’ll hate you for it but i’ll love you forever” and “she terrifies him and he loves her so much it hurts” and “should’ve realized that venka was trying to save her life” and “kitay. her best friend. her anchor” and “ah, i get it. you’re in love” and “did they love one another so fiercely, so desperately?” and rin and nezha and kitay and venka

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i am having traumatized kid thoughts so dont read the tags if it makes you uncomfortable

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the scary part is that I don't want to fix the system. I don't want to help trauma holders and recover and lower amnesia barriers and get better communication until we're all one seamless identity. I know that's not the only option, but I don't want functional multiplicity either.

I don't want anything to change, I think that's the issue. I don't know what recovery feels like and that's terrifying. I don't know who will be left once we recover or what our dynamic will be like and I don't want to lose what we currently have.

That's not fair, I like it, don't take it away from me, I've lost so much already.

This is my family and we've been through so much together, more than anyone else in our life has ever experienced. It'd basically be killing my family if I did full-blown recovery; they will all be sacrificed to become one whole person.

But what if I don't want to be just one person? I know we constantly complain about not having enough time for multiple lives in one body, but I don't want to be alone... is that selfish? I don't want to lose my friends, my children, my partners, my parents, my siblings. They're all so fucking important to me and it feels so wrong to try and "fix" that. There's nothing to fix; we are family.

We don't function right now, we are the reason why we can't hold down a job or maintain relationships or feel any kind of self worth.

But why is the alternative system death???? Why do they have to go...?

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girl im bored lets browse academic articles

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The meme

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If you had teeth and a jaw strong enough to chew and eat metal, what do you think the best would be? Copper's obviously a basic bitch answer, but I just don't think aluminium would have the depth of flavour. I mean, I don't want to be the lead guy, but why mess with a classic?

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had a genuine revelation in therapy that made me burst out laughing, been a while since I had one of those

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collection of posts for a very specific dynamic

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For anyone looking to describe wind in fic! Beaufort Wind Scale. I found some of these descriptions amusing.

Update: Sorry this is so hard to read. I may type it out when I have a minute.

Further update: Source is The Complete Sailor by David Seidman which is really very helpful and well written!

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guide to states

NO ONE TO CHANGE BUT SELF

-what is a state? it is a collection of thoughts, feelings, emotions, & beliefs that you identify with. it is who you are being. your I AM

you are ALWAYS in a state. we go in & out of states ALL day. there are INFINITE realities & YOU choose what state to occupy. when we say that creation is finished that is exactly what it means. you do not have to create anything. there's a version of you that is rich & one that is poor. one in a loving relationship & one where you are single. being a good student or a bad student. having your dream job or a job you hate. etc. YOU get to CHOOSE which state you experience. if you can see something in your mind & think what it would be like to experience those things, then it is possible. imagination is the only reality. nothing can happen unless it is experienced in imagination FIRST.

how do i get into a state?

decide what you want to manifest

fulfill yourself in imagination to get into the wish fulfilled

how do i get into the wish fulfilled?

you could just say "i am in the state" or "i am in the wish fulfilled" & you're in it! it is as easy as intending to be in it

use methods to help maintain the state

affirming- pick a few affirmations that help you to capture the feeling (knowing) that your desire is a fact in imagination. (how do i feel now that i have my desire? what would i be thinking if i had my desire?) whatever answer you had to those questions, would be great affirmations! make them yourself. don't ask someone to make some for you. affirmations should be NATURAL to YOU. affirming is not something that should be forced. there is a BIG difference between having natural thoughts & forcing yourself to think structured sentences. you do NOT need to affirm 24/7. why? bc that is not NATURAL & you were not doing that before you found out about the law. also, affirmations DO NOT get you into the state, they are a technique that is used to MAINTAIN the state of wish fulfilled. personally, when i enter the wish fulfilled, i feel calm, peaceful, and content. i feel the inner KNOWING that my desire is fulfilled (bc it is) and thoughts come to me NATURALLY. thoughts come from your state, so they are a great indicator to help you know which state you're in.

visualizing- spend time in imagination. (what would a a day look like with my desire?) visualize where you want to be/what you want to experience. visualize a scene that implies that you have your desire. keep doing this until you have the feeling that it is a fact in your imagination.

scripting- write a diary entry. describe what a day would look like with your desire. get as detailed as you want. you are the author.

inner conversations- this can kind of go together with visualizing. talk to someone in imagination about your desire, talk to the person you desire, or imagine someone congratulating you for obtaining your desire.

SATS (state akin to sleep)- do this as you're about to fall asleep. visualize one scene that implies that you have your desire on a loop until you fall asleep. feel the scene to be real (bc it is). neville talked about this A LOT in his work & was his favorite method. he always said to fall asleep in the wish fulfilled.

lullaby method- create a short phrase that indicates you have your desire. neville suggested phrases such as "thank you" "it is finished" "it is done" i personally like to use the phrase "it is mine" bc it is more natural to me. say the short phrase of your choice over & over until you fall asleep knowing it is a fact. now when i say "say it over & over" i do NOT mean to say it like a robot. FEEL THEM. personally when i do this, i say the phrase slowly & calmly to myself to REMIND myself that it is done & is A FACT.

key takeaway from methods: do whatever is natural to you. do not have the mindset of doing them to get something. you are just reminding yourself of what you already have. you must have it in imagination first to get it in the 3d, so if you have the mindset of "i am gonna do xyz method to get my desire" i'm sorry but it will not work

persist- keep going back to the wish fulfilled. stay faithful to your imagination.

do i have to stay in the state all day?

NO! go back to the state whenever you think about your desire. it is NOT about how long you are in a state but the frequency (amount of times you go back to it) ex: if you think about your desire 5 times a day, but 3 of those times you are thinking from a state of lack (not having it), while the other 2 are the state of wish fulfilled. the state of lack is your dwelling state (which is what you will see in the 3d)

is manifestation really instant?

YES! what you are experiencing right now in the 3d is your CURRENT dwelling state. how do you change it? by going within & leaving the 3d alone. once you have made your desire state your dwelling place, it will instantly be reflected in the 3d. the 3d is simply showing you who you are being/identifying as. this is why we tell you that you have to change yourself first. the outer world is a mirror to our inner world. why would you expect to see rainbows & sunshine in your 3d, when your 4d is lightning & thunder? how could you see a change of clothes, unless you changed them yourself first? once you change, the rest will follow. it is LAW.

how do i know if i fell out of the state?

you may be checking the 3d, worrying, or having opposing thoughts. again, THOUGHTS ARE THOUGHTS. they are NOT what manifests. they have no power over you unless you give them power. don't identify (accept them as true) & let them pass. since your state manifests, a few silly thoughts that you don't accept as true mean NOTHING

how do i get back into the state if i fell out of it?

intend to go back & use the methods i described above to maintain the state

what do we mean by feeling?

feeling ≠ emotion. it is the KNOWING. you may feel calm, happy, peaceful, relief, etc. it is NOT some groundbreaking euphoric moment. it is NATURAL. you are in a dwelling state for EVERY aspect of your life (love, school, work, career, finances, etc.) so feeling your desire to be real, is not going to be some rainbow explosion. you know a lot of other things to be real that you are not placing as much focus on, so your desire is no different.

i stopped desiring it?

ex: you got a new pair of shoes. when you first got them you were excited to wear them. as the days went on, the "spark" kind of went away. it's not that you weren't excited to wear them, but you got used to having them & KNOW that they are yours

ex: once you start dating someone, you are excited to text them good morning and to hang out with them. over this, this becomes normal & expected. ofc you're going to be texting & hanging out with the person you're dating.

you may stop desiring your desire bc you KNOW that you have it. it's normal for you to have your desire. how could you continue desiring something you already have? that's like saying you want the pair of shoes you are wearing right now.

summary

STOP being a slave to your senses. shut the 3d out bc it is a reflection of your past dwelling state. since you're going to the wish fulfilled & thinking of your desire in your favor, the 3d doesn't matter. it is NOT who you are anymore. once your dwelling state is the wish fulfilled, it will reflected in the 3d INSTANTLY. stop bringing up the past bc it only exists in your mind. go within & fulfill your inner man. you desire something? see it in your imagination. want to talk to someone? have an inner convo or visualize talking to them. want to hang out with someone? do it in imagination. everything stems from imagination. it will not fail you. the world is a mirror that is reflecting who you are being. as within, so without. you MUST change FIRST to see the change in the outer world. there is nothing & no one to change but self.

reread this post as many times as you need until you understand. this all you need to know. apply what i mentioned & you WILL SUCCEED!

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the adventures of huckleberry finn - mark twain // seven - taylor swift // moonrise kingdom (2012) dir. wes anderson // @petrichara // the kids aren’t alright - fall out boy // @slugspoon // you’ve got a friend in me - randy newman // friedrich nietzsche // anne with an e (2017) // fredrik backman // the housebuilding song - david ferguson // park bench dedication in central park // emily brontë // luca (2021) dir. enrico casarosa // this town - niall horan // way back when - kodaline// @beetlejuices // winnie the pooh // you & me - feldberg // bank robbers nursery rhyme - goodnight, texas // ribs - lorde // tom sawyer and huckleberry finn // setting the woods on fire - hank williams // @honeytuesday // frog and toad are friends - arnold lobel // bridge to terabithia (2007) dir. gábor csupó

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the world of living and loving in parallel with one another.

@bakwaaas / Tamino, “My Dearest Friend And Enemy” / journal entries of a twentysomething year old, Mia (Mimi) Garcia / Hozier, “Like Real People Do”/ James Fenton, “The Ideal”/ Sally Rooney, Beautiful World, Where Are You / comic strip found here: x