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Trust doesn't come with a refill. Once it's break, you probably won't get it back, and if you do, it will never be the same & that's a fact.

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The Broken Glass Of Dreams

What is trust? Is it essential for the way we live our everyday life? A quality or condition of being trustworthy; loyal; reliable, trust is an essential way of life because you cannot make a relationship, friendship, a business, or an organization if there is no foundation. Part of that foundation is trust and loyalty because you should be able to depend, rely, and trust others that they will do exactly what is right for them and you. Trust can be broken so quick, that it is scary, because once trust is broken it is a lot harder to gain back then when you first gained trust in someone.

          In my whole life, I never thought that something would happen to me that would cause me to not trust again, the type that even my considered family didn't trust him because of what happened.  In the middle of our good sleep, there is an event that will destroy us. While we were sleeping I felt someone moving in my delicate body part, when I turned my head, I was shocked, scared and filled with questions as to why he did that to me, I considered him my older brother, because that's what I wanted the most to have an older brother, but I didn't think that that person would be the one to do something I didn't expect. An event that will leave a mark on me and I will never forget it. Because of the incident, I have learned. I've learned not to trust immediately even if what I'm shown is good because that's what they do to get you close to them and when you get close they'll take advantage of it. But even though the fear and anger I feel are still there, I can't get it out of my mind.

          I know it's hard. Giving your trust to someone is like letting someone point an arrow to your head and hoping they won’t shoot. Like doing a free fall and hoping that someone or somebody will be there waiting to catch you on the ground. Like jumping out of an airplane to do sky diving and hoping that your parachute would come out. Yes, it's hard. Giving your trust is giving your heart to someone you love or someone important to you and hoping he or she wouldn't break it. Trusting someone takes a lot of courage, you need to be courageous enough to let yourself stand on a thin line that is being held by someone. It's either you'll stay standing because that someone is holding it steadily or you'll fall off because he or she keeps on shaking it. But no matter what happened it still depends on you if you'll continue trusting that someone or if you're just going to pick yourself up and just trust yourself.

        To trust someone is giving that person the privilege to take control of your emotions while hoping for the best. It's letting someone keep your half even though you're not sure if they're going to take care of it or not. That's why some people became hard as a rock. That's why there are others who choose to keep themselves, refusing with their all to open up, to be vulnerable and trust someone. Because they know, that if they trusted someone they would take a huge risk and they might just end up hurting themselves. Hurting themselves because of trusting, hurting themselves because of hoping, and hurting themselves because of loving. Why? Because you wouldn't give your trust to someone you didn't love. You wouldn't allow someone to have the chance to hurt you emotionally just because you gave them the key to open your chest and take your heart. You wouldn't allow someone to melt the ice that is surrounding you just by looking at you straight in the eyes. You wouldn't allow someone to break the high thick walls that is keeping you from the cruel world outside if he or she isn't important. Because loving is letting someone explore your depths and hoping they wouldn't exploit your riches. Loving is hugging someone completely even though you're blind to see your back and defend yourself if there would be anyone to stab you. Loving is like gambling that you keep on playing even if you're not sure if you're going to be victorious. Because loving is taking a risk, and taking a risk is trusting.

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Nature is not a place to visit. It is home.

Nueva Ecija is a landlocked province in the Philippines located in the Central Luzon region. Its capital is the city of Palayan. Nueva Ecija borders, from the south clockwise, Bulacan, Pampanga, Tarlac, Pangasinan, Nueva Vizcaya and Aurora. Nueva Ecija is one of the top producers of agricultural products in Central Luzon. In fact, the province’s name comes from the mainland Spanish town of Ecija in Spain. Geographically, Nueva Ecija shares borders with the provinces of Bulacan, Pampanga, Tarlac, Pangasinan, Nueva Vizcaya and Aurora. Furthermore, the province is nationally recognized as the Rice Granary of the Philippines. That is because Nueva Ecija is home to a broad plantation of rice and beautiful landscapes. These and the variety of cuisine, traditions, and culture create Nueva Ecija’s diverse fine cooking. In addition, there are many historical landmarks to visit and attractions to explore. This makes the province of Nueva Ecija one of the best places to visit in Central Luzon. Nueva Ecija has a lot of things to offer. If you are after the scenery, history, or whatever that you are looking for, Nueva Ecija has wonderful places to explore. One Town One Product (OTOP) all over the province patronizes and sells numerous arts and crafts made by local producers and craftsmen.

Nueva Ecija is home to some of the country's best-preserved Spanish colonial architecture, as well as beautiful mountains, rivers, and beaches: Minalungao National Park, Gabaldon Falls, Dupinga River, Gapan Church, Mount Kemalugong (Paasa Peak), Dingalan Beach The province is also known for its delicious food, ranging from Carabao milk products, rice cakes, to popular traditional dishes like sisig and longanisa. Nueva Ecija is endowed with rich cultural heritage. The expansion of Christianity and the influx of migrants from Ilocos region and Pampanga influenced the foundation of the unique culture of Nueva Ecija. The province served as a melting pot of different cultures that molded the way of life of Novo Ecijanos. Besides being the rice granary of the Philippines, Nueva Ecija is also a land of unique natural wonders that have continued to amaze visitors through the years.  As the people have strived to be at harmony with nature, the province has continued to be a haven for those who wish to go on an adventure or just a place where the casual tourist can sit back and relax and take in the refreshing scenery.

Every municipality has a spectacular fiesta to honor their patron saints and demonstrate the people’s humility and devotion to them. in fact, with five cities and 27 municipalities, Nueva Ecija province has a wide cultural heritage that has become an important element of Novo Ecijanos culture and history. That said, Nueva Ecija is a historic province with vibrant and memorable festivals located in Central Luzon. 

Pantabangan, Nueva Ecija hosts Pandawan celebration every last week of April. Furthermore, Pantabangan is one of Asia’s largest fish-producing cities, and it plays an important role in Novo Ecija’s culture and heritage.  Pagibang Damara is a festival in San Jose City, Nueva Ecija, to praise Christ for a healthy crop, which aligns with the city’s annual fiesta, which takes time in the second or third week of April. Meanwhile, Taong Putik is from a unique ritual among Saint John the Baptist worshippers in Bibiclat, Aliaga, and Nueva Ecija. On June 24, the ceremony will begin.

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BULLYING. STILL. OCCURING.

If you saw bullying, what would you do to stop it? Would you stand by and let it happen? or take part in it or try to stop it? Not many students and even teachers think about this issue, and that will be the biggest tragedy of all.

 “Maybe I'll try to stop it because it seems like the self perspective of the bullies seems to raise their gaze once they lower the dignity of the person they bully so I would try my best to stop it like we don't want to see someone lowering their gaze to themselves just because they were bullied or whatever”. Being bullied can leave you feeling helpless, humiliated, depressed, or even suicidal. But there are ways to put a stop to it.

"Of course I would take a part on it. I know what it feels like to be bullied cause I've experienced it when I was young so if I have the strength to stop it, I won't hesitate to take a part to stop it". Bullying is aggressive behavior that is intentional and involves an imbalance of power or strength. "I would help him/her get out of that situation. Aside from talking/comforting him/her, I would willingly accompany him/her to the authorities to explain what happened". Use active listening skills to give him/her time to express themselves. Explain that many students experience anxiety and that treatment can be very helpful. "If I, will ever saw bullying anywhere, I will absolutely help the victim. there is no reason to bully someone who did nothing bad on you." Some bullies simply lack care, so they have no problem dominating, blaming, intimidating, or taking advantage of others.

The Golden Rule states that you should live by it in all facets of your life: "Treat others the way  you want to be treated." How would you feel if someone had the power to protect you from bullying but did nothing? If you believe that is not appropriate. You must do every effort to stop others from harming others. I like the idea of teaching students different things about bullying, however, it must be taught at a young enough age so that the students can grow up with the knowledge. But there's also the issue that this approach may not stop the bullies, for it's just teaching students that there's no excuse not to step in and help. And a lot of times, bullies become bullies because they want attention, they were raised in a rude-manner, or even because they have an emotional disorder/anger issues.

Bullying happens in school, so it is the responsibility of every students to protect their classmates and schoolmates and to show everyone the dignity and respect they would like to be treated with. The first line of defense in bullying is in student's own behavior. But when that fails, it must be brought to the attention of someone in authority, like a teacher. The concept of someone in authority failing to address the problem is simply not acceptable. This is why you must speak to a teacher you trust and know will do something to stop the bullying. Bullies they don't want to know of any other behavior. Bullying behavior can have negative effects on both the bully and the victim. Being bullied isn't a childhood or a teenage rite of passage. But the question is how the school should address bullying?

The school should address this very concerning issue because bullying can affect people long into the future, circumstances such as fear, anxiety, unfocused, low self-esteem, emotional and physical illness, health problems like becoming anorexic because someone calls them fat, feeling depressed because someone calls them ugly and so with other stories that we might never hear about or never heard about.

Educators and parents should tell students about bullying and show them examples of what the consequences can be. I think bullying is unnecessary behavior and lives don't need to be wasted on it. Bullies need to know that bullying others does not help answer their own problems but actually the complete opposite. For those students who likes to bully others should ask themselves "How would I like it if someone bullied me?" Bullying is very wrong. It needs to be stopped. We must stop bullying. It starts here and its starts now. Having a better understanding of bullying can help you identify students who need help – whether they are the one being bullied or doing the bullying. By taking action, you can prevent both short-term and long-term negative outcomes.

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Schindler's List

On the 1982, Schindler's List recreates the true story of Oskar Schindler, the Czech-born southern German industrialist who risked his life to save over 1,100 of his Jewish factory workers from the death camps in Nazi-occupied Poland. Thomas Keneally's "documentary novel", based on the recollections of the Schindlerjuden (Schindler's Jews), Schindler himself, and other witnesses, is told in a series of snapshot stories. It recounts the lives of; the flamboyant profiteer and womanizer Schindler, Schindler's long-suffering wife, named Emilie, the brutal SS (Nazi secret service) commandant Amon Goeth, the Schindler's silent yet courageous factory manager, Itzhak Stern, and dozens of other Jews who underwent the horrors of the Nazi machinery. At the center of the story, though, are the actions and ambitions of Schindler, who comes to Kraków, Poland, seeking his fortune and ends up outwitting the SS to protect his Jewish employees. It is the story of Schindler's unlikely heroism and of one man's attempt to do good in the midst of outrageous evil. The book explores the complex nature of virtue, the importance of individual human life, the role of witnesses to the Holocaust, and the attention to rules and details that sustained the Nazi system of terror. Keneally's book was first published in Britain in 1982 under the title Schindler's Ark and released as Schindler's List in the United States the same year. In Schindler's List, Keneally illustrates a portrait of a human being who discovers the joy in giving all he has to save the lives of others.

Oskar Schindler, the protagonist of the film, is a businessman who sees an opportunity to take advantage of the current circumstances in Krakow. Schindler uses his charismatic personality to gain respect amongst the Nazi party and in return, he is allowed to start an enamelware factory. He enlists a large group of Jews to work for him and because of their involvement, they become immune from concentration camps. The success of the enamelware factory begins to decline as the antagonist Lieutenant Goth arrives in Krakow with the orders to construct a new concentration camp. Schindler is exposed to the horrific crimes done by Goth as he violently mistreats and kills the workers of the camp with no remorse. This changes the perspective of Schindler and his motives for capital gain shift to the focus of protecting his workers.

Soon the Germans become worrisome that defeat is starting to look imminent. Nazi officials order all remaining Jews in Krakow, including Schindler's workers, to be shipped to Auschwitz death camp. Schindler is forced to exhaust his remaining savings to offer a bribe for Goth in hopes of protecting his workers. Regardless of the bribe, Schindler's Jews are mistakenly routed to Auschwitz and Schindler is forced to offer an additional bribe that would allow him to create an ammunition plant for his workers. At the end of the war, Nazi soldiers are ordered to kill all remaining Jews in Schindler's factory. He makes a desperate attempt to persuade the soldiers to leave with dignity and is successful in liberating his workers. The Schindler Jews provide Oskar with a document attesting to his acts of protection as it allows him to avoid future arrest. The Krakow Jews show their gratitude to Schindler but he is conflicted with internal sorrow as he realizes his greedy endeavors could have been channeled to save more lives.

Schindler’s List explored the journey of Jews in Nazi Germany and the compassion of one German man saving over a thousand Jewish lives. The eerie black and white setting, with an unforgettable glimpse of red, and the morbid classical music throughout the film combine to communicate these themes.

Most people deem black and white movies as boring because of all the black and white films created in the early 20th century. However, limiting the colors of a movie on purpose delivers a statement more powerfully than stating it directly. Although a “black and white” film actually consists of an infinite amount of gray shades, the real purpose of the disuse of colors is to set the depressing mood before the sad events even begin. Shadows are magnified because they are one of the only colors used in the movie. Happiness is difficult to portray without color; the gray shades suggest a depressed individual’s perspective of the world. It also makes use of the audience’s prior knowledge that old movies did not have color to suggest that the events of the movie took place in the past. The terrible reality of these events combines with the extremely glum mood to evoke an overall distraught emotion from the audience. A viewer can grasp all of this from the black and white filter alone.

The Nazis prove the discouraging truth that even the best of peoples have a beast inside and must stand guard lest it escape. But Oskar Schindler proves the redeeming truth that even the weakest of us has a hero inside. Just because the worst happens doesn't mean that the best within us cannot rise to the surface and do its duty. ‘Schindler’s List’ is an important film in society because it emphasizes marginalization, genocide, and individualization.

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Growing Up In A Broken Home

Having a broken family hurts, but regardless, everybody must rely on one another for support and understanding. Sometimes it's difficult, but when you love someone, your compassion bestows you with generosity. There were six of us in my family. My mom, dad, 2 sisters, 1 brother and then me. We were living well, happily and without problems and that’s the only thing that everyone around us knows, hence, they don't know is that our family is going through something. Let me disclose what really happened in our family so you’ll  know the truth.

I was only five years old that day and the one who followed me was three years old and the youngest girl was only one year old when my mother started to change, she was always fighting with dad and she always told dad that she didn't want that he wanted to divorce but of course dad didn't want to agree because he wanted our family to be whole but my mother insisted on what she wanted so she made a way to divorce.

My mother used to be a manicurist, and I remember when she was cleaning the man’s nail. My siblings and I were together that day and while mom was doing her job, I felt like something was wrong, and that day was when our family relationship started to break up. Mom often leaves the house but we are always with her wherever she goes. She had been seeing the man whose nails she cleaned. We were coming home in the afternoon and dad was already at home waiting for us. He always asked us where we went and we always tend to say it was only to mom's friend even though the truth was sometimes more deeper, I was afraid to report that day because Mom would scold me if I had told the truth to Dad.

Weeks and months had passed, mom continued to cheat on dad until it reached the point where mom left dad, and mom left without saying goodbye, leaving my two sisters and I behind only at school. Then after that I never saw them again. A few hours later dad came to the school and asked me where my mom and my sisters were, but I only cried and at the same time hugged dad and I told him everything I knew because I couldn't bear to see them anymore dad is struggling. The only thing I didn’t understand was the reason why mom did that to dad even though dad has doing everything to make our life happy and healthy.

But I know you are wondering why there seems to be something wrong because nothing was mentioned about my brother because he is the son of another man. Unfortunately, he couldn’t live in this world. Actually, I also had a second and third sister. To be honest, they are mom's children with another man and I am the only child of mom and dad, but because dad loves mom so much, he adopted my two siblings and made dad use his last name even though they are not his children. And that's where the real story of our happy family ends, and why we are like this today .

I honestly don't know why those things happened to us, the things that I had seen in front of my eyes. Perhaps I had it so that I would know right away the things that I should not imitate and to I become aware of the reality of life. What happened to us proved to me that there is no perfect life in this world we live in. Even if we all do it if the person doesn't know how to be content, all your suffering and all your sacrifices for that person will be ignored, so we must learn not to give everything, we must also live for ourselves.

I learn from a young age that people are often insensitive, as most people don’t care about what’s going on at our home and often don’t acknowledge it if they don’t see it. Though I am not seeking any pity, a little consideration goes a long way. No one will ever know what happened to someone if they don’t have something on them.

             Living like this feels like I am isolated and different from the rest of the world. Being so distant to a parent or a sibling often pressures me into feeling like I need to deal with it by myself. Why? Because it’s embarrassing. Feels like I am the only one with a family who can’t seem to get along. It’s embarrassing because while everyone gets picked up by their parents, I don’t have any way hit to ride a public transport.  

           It hurts because sometimes its different to understand why am I going through all this. Why I have to suffer while everyone else is so seemingly happy with their families. I often with the same thing when other families get along so well. But I’m sure that everything is not my fault, even if its difficult. It’s difficult to accept that it’s not my fault. A spiraling mind with endless thoughts and loneliness with no escape often leads to self-blame and guilt; the feeling that my birth was a burden and the cause of this whole mess. But I learn to accept that it’s not my fault, gradually and that I shouldn’t take responsibility for other people’s actions.

         Most holidays pretty much suck. Especially everytime I see my friend online posting their picture online with their families. Christmas has never been good to me. I have heard my friends’ families travelling overseas just to be with their extended relatives. It’s great to see and at the same time, I’m jealous to have the kind of and I just long to be part of a family willing to go to such places just to be with each other on vacations.

       I dread parent-teacher-conference. It gives me anxiety because I don’t want my teachers to call my family; I don’t want my teachers to know of my situation. I hate every other event that requires a parent present, and it makes me crazy jealous when I see other parents who care enough to make such an effort with their children.

       That being said, while it does suck to come from a broken family, I have learned many things. I learned to how endure hardships and persist in the face of adversity. I learned to face and deal with embarrassment. I was also able to gain a unique sense of compassion and empathy. I know how to  mistreat someone because I am aware that we all have different struggles to get through. With the experiences, I was able to establish strong bonds between my friends. Moreover, when I finally get the opportunity to build my own family, I know I’ll do whatever it takes to uphold a happy and supporting household