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Finally it all comes to an end the patience the love the frustration and the hurtful words it all comes to an end. It feels liberating finally to have an authority over what you feel there is going to be no one to determine how you feel but lastly there is going to be no one! There won't be any more waiting there won't be a person you can go back to after a tiring, happy or a sad day. It feels and absolutely heartbreaking to think that only a part of him will exist in my heart I never wanted him to be just a chapter in my life I wanted him to be my entire reality a warm reality but I am glad I never tore off that chapter I am glad I could reach to the end of it I wish someday I don't know but now I feel like I wish that chapter to start anew with the same start and a different ending that I'd want to read it over over again I wish to make it a reality but life doesn't always go as you wish. I hope someday we cross paths and we catch a glimpse of each other. But I am afraid because just as you gave up now there is no guarantee that you wouldn't do it again

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近藍蓋小菇 Mycena Subcyanocephala fungi translates to the "blue-head" and measures at only a single millimeter.

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No I didn't do anything please spare me I beg you

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It feels so cold I want to put an to my misery I can't go on like this anymore it's tough there is no one who can help me

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I can't harm myself I want to get rid of this pain this never ending pain I am going to lose everyone and at the end myself before it happening how do I lose my breath

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I wish I could cut myself a little

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I am sleepy

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Things I Fancy

The world is a very cruel place my neck is tied up with it's lace

The bow clips make me sail through the sea but am I really something that this world would fancy?

I may have taken things for granted but is it true that I am someone who's not wanted

Who am I? What am I? Where am I? Will I ever find my peace when I die?

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I will cry myself to sleep again today I will never again express anything I wish I never did I am at fault for everything I am fault for existing I am at fault for loving I am at fault for being born why was I ever born why please tell me

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It's so painful

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I don't know why do I keep remembering her face from then after what she has done to me I don't know why do I keep thinking of it. Do I want attention? Am I victim playing? If not then what am I doing and why am I doing it is so tiring and frustrating will things ever be fine and even if they do end up becoming fine will it again end up being a cycle of sorrow and happiness. I don't want this feeling I don't like this feeling please help me I am getting tired everyday it's very scary I am scared I am tired

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One of the reasons why I don't want to kill myself is what happens when you die I don't think I'd like the feeling of turning to nothingness nor would I like to be in hell tortured I wouldn't like the politics of heaven so what do I exactly want cause do you?

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Tired please help me

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What does it feel like to live and want to live. It's been quite a while since I've felt that way I scream for help but people who love me seem no more than a passerby to me. I feel like that stain on everyone's lives that doesn't want to come off I wish I could wash myself off from everyone's lives.

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"Those two clips look pretty I look cute"

But when I take those clips off that's when I start to see my trueself the rotten me the tired me the disgusting me