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You can’t let intrusive thoughts “win” because there isn’t a fight to win. There is no fight. There is no danger to contain. The “fight” is punching yourself in the face and telling yourself that if you don’t do this, you’re going to accidentally act on something that terrifies you to your core. That’s the biggest reason why I hate that phrase so much. Not just because it creates misunderstandings and stigma in the minds of the unaffected, but also because it literally encourages the “O” in “OCD” for the affected. “Haha you gotta fight them! Fight it so much it ruins your life! You wouldn’t want them to win, do you?” Even when people are trying to dunk on how stupid that idea is, they still make jokes like “haha if I let my intrusive thoughts win I would be in jail” and it’s like…no you won’t. If you let your intrusive thoughts “win” nothing would happen because it’s just an unpleasant thought with no power. You let the intrusive thought wash over you, you let it “win” by letting it slither over your open palm, you say “that was weird”, and you continue with life. You don’t put it under a microscope. You don’t clench onto it trying to kill it, you just let it go. And then it’s fine.

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The need to grip someone by the shoulders and say “eat good food. In the name of everything that has been considered holy Eat Good Food. You were put on this earth to experience wonder so please eat good food and be happy.”

#‘Eat good food’ is on the same emotional equivalent of (ideal) marriage

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Constantly repeating to myself “you are not broken you are young and learning how to live” during everything I do everywhere I go all the time

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and another thing: no child should ever be made fun of for things they love especially by their parents

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me when I "mysteriously" feel better after I "have something to eat"

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good morning fellow hopeless faggots

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the leftovers will taste great tomorrow! 

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Having mental illness does not make you less worthy of love or good things in any way whatsoever.

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i love that the phrase is “in love” like love is a place. like somewhere you could live.

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mothers are insane they'll come into your bedroom exhibit mental illness then just leave

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you deserve softness.

you deserve kindness.

you deserve stillness.

you deserve patience.

you deserve love.

you deserve respect.

you deserve care.

you deserve laughter.

you deserve intimacy.

you deserve hugs.

you deserve kisses.

you deserve flowers.

you deserve it all.

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Beds are so warm and soft when the rest of the world is not

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friendly reminder that you didn’t waste your year. any moments of happiness or comfort, any small accomplishments, they all matter. this has been a really hard year, and simply surviving is something to be proud of. 

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I literally cannot overstate how important creative hobbies are when dealing with mental illness. If you can’t draw, there are coloring books. If you can’t write a novel, you can write in short journaling bursts. If you can’t sing in the shower, you can listen to music. Sometimes with mental illness it feels like we have this dark presence inside of us that is bumping around in our brain and organs, causing problems. It helps immensely to let it out.

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Mary Sauer, Yellow kitchen, 2021