20 || he/him || 🏳️⚧️ Genderqueer || I love critical role and C3 but have absolutely no one to talk to about it with so I will be vibrating with excitement and reblogging everything about the little gay people in my phone
go to this random coordinates generator and say in the tags how you would fare if you were dropped where it generates without warning. i’ll go first i’d be dropped in the middle of the fucking south atlantic ocean and perish
listen, I’m not the biggest fan of kids but if a child looks at me then you bet I’m gonna smile back at them. kids deserve to experience the world as a kind and safe place to explore okay.
Today I am thinking about that doll conversation again and the way that Ashton and Laudna’s traumatic experiences mirror each other and create those opposing opinions of children.
Because for Laudna, the only time she was ever happy and had agency was in childhood. She loves kids because they represent the safe happy time in her life. She also reverts to being childlike herself to try and get back a little bit of that peace and surrender that comes from just liking simple things and obeying authority.
Ashton, on the other hand, had an awful traumatic childhood, and has only kind of been able to escape it through the self-sufficienct autonomy of adult life. So he hates kids and anything that makes him seem vulnerable.
And so then what you see with the Doll is this beautiful moment of forgiveness without words, where Ashton gets to have a doll and find a vulnerable moment where he admits to hating himself by implication. And Laudna gets to be the mature forgiving one, handing out comfort and reassuring him, again without actually saying it, that she doesn’t hate him. They flip each other’s scripts, giving eachother exactly the type of moment they both need to heal, and it’s so beautiful and satisfying to watch.