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Episode 15# “Did You Try the Slutty Brownies?” ~ Debbie Woityra

THANK GOD THAT WAS THE CHALLENGE I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE. I HAVE A DOCUMENT WITH ALL TWENTY FACTS THAT HAVE BEEN POSTED DFSKDHFSJK I STUDIED SO HARD. bein a nerd pays off, huh! I think that night went right in line for what I wanted to do, I'm just worried that Ali voted for Kevin now because I NEED kevin ali and I to ride this out to three. I think being the one to vote for Ashvika made me get into Cameron's good graces for the end but IDK FDSKAJHFKJSDFHKJDSHAFKJHSDAFKJ i literally just....wow frick. So winning immunity was good for me and then going into that decision on call, I knew I needed to get the vote onto Ashvika and NOT Ali. I wasn't sure if he had the idol or not, but the first thing to come to my mind was that he had just played the other one....so I went with it, hoping they'd all risk voting Ashvika anyways AND THEY DID and then ALI HAD THE IDOL. Even if Ashvika had it and Dana left, that would've been completely fine with me too. This was SUCH A GOOD NIGHT for me im cryin. I know I need to get immunity now though probably because Dana is really making me out to be a big threat to Kevin. But hopefully I can convince Kevin that Dana and Zach need to be split up before it gets to final four. I hope Kevin doesnt vote me out at five... :( but im gonna do everything in my power to win this challenge. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH wow i have come so far and my rat ass just needs to see this the whole way thru

Wig found dead in a ditch. Five players found bald and barely alive in All-Stars, begging for mercy from the hosts only to be kicked and beaten. Three deaths. Two casualties. More at 11. I'mmm shook. I hope Ashvika isn't too mad because after the Emily vote she was like "let's work together" and I'm like "cool" and then I'm like "lol maybe not :)" I just...didn't want to take any risks since Ali and Ashvika's votes were pretty much shots in the dark, so any other plan would have been very risky (and potentially only 2 votes could've sent me home). But at least the Cameron vote worked out! Wig SLIGHTLY readjusted but still not really there. So...final 5! I think I'm the only one left who's already improved their previous placement because I'm a #failure. It's not difficult to surpass expectations when you're a disappointment. I kinda like to think of this as the Wentworth effect where I'm the returnee that didn't do anything but because of that I get far. I don't know how much that affects my shot at 1st place though. Also tea time? I was hoping to vote out Owen final 6 but um he won immunity and also it was fucking instant. I have no idea what my chances of winning are at this point. Zach thinks he has a better shot of winning over Dana which...I don't know, I wouldn't necessarily agree but I won't bring him down. I think Owen can definitely beat me, like, no doubt. Now that it's final 5, and idols are gone, I can be more transparent in moves because I don't have to fear anything going wrong, but at the same time that might make me get exposed more quickly. I have no idea who I want to vote, or who I want to go to the final 3 with. At this very instant I would vote out Owen and...Dana? But I feel like one of Zach or Dana has a lot of the jurors' votes locked down because I...didn't really talk to them? Like, especially with Ruthie and Will. I don't know whose vote if anyone's I have locked down. The farther I get into this game the more my confidence decreases. I mean, I have 12 votes to my name, which can be impressive? But at the same time this game's been a total rollercoaster. Like I was a total mess at the beginning of the merge, voting in the minority twice, and then I was in a majority alliance, and then I wasn't, and then I was, and now shit has hit the fan and I don't know where it's gonna fly. I totally didn't talk game with a bunch of jurors so like...I wouldn't be surprised at 0 FTC votes at this point??? 

from last round pre-tribal I’m writing this on a plane, with a headache that feels like my brain is going to explode so what could go wrong! I have done a terrible job of confessing for the last like four rounds, so I’m using this flight to write a mammoth essay to summarise my experiences and reasoning for the last couple of rounds. I’m going to start as far back as the Duncan vote, which while I still stand by it on a game level, was rough personally. Duncan was someone I wanted to work with all the way, we had a great call the night after Jack was voted off that I felt really good about. I told him *everything* about my game, that Cameron had an idol, that I had an idol, E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. What troubled me on a game level was how Duncan reacted after the vote and how concerning that was for me. Duncan said he felt “betrayed” by me to everyone after the vote… and like mc’what. I messaged him before the vote, just saying “hi” and he didn’t respond – otherwise I would’ve messaged him! And, when I shared information with him, the idea was he wouldn’t spill stuff (I know its ironic me saying this knowing I spill things a sieve, him telling everyone and their mothers about Cameron’s idol, which I told him in such confidence, was real damaging to my game. With that said, I really love Duncan. He is supportive and kind ; he loves his friends and is always there for everyone, including me. So while voting out Duncan was definitely the right move for my game, it frustrates me that he kinda….. set himself up for a fall. Anywho…. Duncan has become my scapegoat for everything now asmdfkasf. For starters, as soon as someone (Emily?) told me that Duncan told her I told him about Cameron’s idol (true), I went straight to Cameron and said Duncan must be framing me. Furthermore, while I’ve known for ages that Emily told Owen about my idol (Owen didn’t need to tell me), I have been telling Emily I assume it was Duncan (mainly because I knew she told Owen, but wanted her to tell me the truth. I literally wouldn’t have been even that mad, she told him right after the Lily vote out when emotions were running high…. But she lied to me and paid the price (NOT REALLY THAT WASN’T WHY IM AN EMILY STAN FOREVER AND ALWAYS) So… that was the Duncan vote. Now…. *gulps* Will. Will was winning this game, no ifs, no buts. He was connected to everyone, minus the personal dramas Trevor brought with him, he was the Trevor of All Stars. And when I came to All Stars, I was determined to not repeat past mistakes, so I made an aggressively big move and voted out Will. I still stand by it, while it made me cry that he said to never talk to him again, on a game level, it was 100% the right move. The fact that I was able to then regain trust with Cameron/Dana/Zach showed it was fine in the long term…… but whew. So yeah, I think I did that 30minute video confessional after the Will vote which probably ran through all my thoughts on that vote, but then…. Then I started exploring alternative relationships. Dana especially, first I love Dana, she is so funny and is so negative about herself when I think she is genuinely great, was really keen to make connections with me and Owen, something I helped ensure happened. Cameron…. Cameron is really good at playing from the bottom, he is such a firey player, that you (and not in an emotional blackmail-y way) really want to share information with him. With that said, he did frustrate me around the Ruthie vote, because I was telling him that he didn’t need to play his idol to show trust, but that was as far as I could go. Ruthie was a queen, but I wanted to ensure I had numbers everywhere, and I felt since she had been very quiet, she would just stick with Dana and Zach, making that grouping even stronger than it already was. So yikes. After the Will vote, soupcess was an alliance that happened, which was me, Owen, Emily, Ashvika and Kevin. I love those 4, but they were scary….. so I knew I couldn’t stick with them long term. Additionally, there was an alliance of the sneak (owen), the leak (ali) and the weep (Emily) that was ICONIC, but I…. I knew I couldn’t go all that far with Owen and Emily. Side note, I loved the alliance name in that even thought it was a nickname for each of us, I could be all three. But yeah so after the Ruthie vote came a tribal I feel I was in such a power position for (as well as Owen). Emily announced in both the chats I was in with her that she had a vote negator, and intended to negate Cameron’s vote to allow us to split the votes at the next tribal. I was conflicted at this point, how could I ensure Cameron’s idol got burnt, but that it wasn’t Zach or Dana that went home (because I want to go to F3 with them, more on that later). Owen and I (for now at least RIP, I know I need to vote him out) were on the same page. So then…. we had a plan (that I diverted from somewhat)… If we agreed to vote Ashvika, then the vote would seem like it was gonna be 3-3-2. That way.. both Cameron would need to play his idol and Emily would go home. There was more reasoning to this (including that we wanted Emily’s vote negator to ensure Cameron idoled), but it worked…. I diverted from it slightly for two reasons, one) I love Emily on a personal level and knew she didn’t have an idol (because I have it mwahahhahahhahahahhahah), and didn’t want to put her through a tie-vote knowing she would go home two) so I can say I was in the majority every time still 😊. But yeah, I am now the only player left in the game with anything seemingly, and I have…. Three things. Two idols and a “spyglass” that allows me to reveal whomst voted whomst. Call me three chains, my rap alter ego. Actually I lied ,Owen has an extra vote that he has to play this round. So yeah, this round I think Cameron needs to go. Cameron has *GLOWN* up as player. He is an icon, but he is also winning so needs to go. Anyway, the seatbelt noise just went so time to go, see y’all at tribal woo! ________________________________________________________________ Ahhhhhh F5. So Cameron went out with a hiccup, which I love Cameron and I'm so sorry he had to go, but it was the right move for my game. And now is the upsetting part, I couldn't go on call for tribal for the challenge, and I had to submit a list of my votes AND GOSH DARN WHY DIDN'T I PUT ASHVIKA FIRST. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Anyways, so Ashvika went 4-1-1 (my first vote not for who went home :( ) and now we are at F5 and the FINALEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I'm selling hard that I'm a goat, even though...... I potentially don't think I am? I know I can't sit at the end with Owen, but any of the other two I could see myself working around, but I think ideally I'd like to be at the end with Dana & Zach? Just because Owen.... is well Owen the iconic icon himself and Kevin has such a pheonemenal underdog story..... But RIP, I made the finale, I misplayed two idols, but kept an idol a secret so I achieved one goal! I have two goals left, one is make FTC and stay on the "Never Voted Out" section and two is..... maybe to win. Honestly winning would be the icing on the cake,  it'd be sweet (like the icing) 

DANA KEEPS SAYING THINGS ABOUT HOW IM PLAYING SUCH A GOOD GAME AND IT'S SO OBVIOUS SHE'S TRYING TO GET KEVIN TO VOTE ME OUT NEXT KFAJDSH LITERALLY IF I'M GONE SHE WINS THE GAME I'M GONNA SCREAM STOP DOING THAT DANA I SEE WHAT UR DOING.

I'm sad. I wish I had the courage to idol Ashvika last time, as that would've put me in a much better spot :( I think right now, I need to be at F3 with Kevin/Dana/Zach, but... I don't know how I'm going to be able to vote out Owen. Like I keep doing these rough votes that really hurt my heart..... but voting out Owen right at the end *again* might..... it might take the cake..... Owen deserved to win Emathia and... I got in the way of that. To do that again would be really.... really rough :( I know its a smart vote, but it'll break my heart

Here I am, in the finale episode (once again - well, in Cordillera I was one away but final 5 should be finale NOT final 4 sorry)! But like i'm shocked. Okay so just to reestablish what's happened over the last two days. Cameron left - not a shocker. Rather hypocritical that he wants to be like "wow I feel betrayed I was nothing but nice to you" when you're going around throwing out my name to people. Calm down. I love him as a person but for real? I ain't tolerating that fakeness!!! I get it's a game though so no hard feelings but he's going to be bitter so. Instant - not shocking. Holding our hands up and not being able to PM? Now that's where i'm SHOOK! But ideally yeah I thought about the same things as Owen which was Ali's whole scheme with idols and I mean... I didn't want Ashvika to go but it's better her than me yeah. Now we're at 5 with Owen/Dana/Ali/Kevin/Myself. Here's how I want to work things out. Owen's clearly the top front runner, so he has to go. I think Dana is upset, and honestly I am too. Like I adore him and love him and just... I hope him and I can be friends after the season because he's so funny and great and... I feel so shitty. I feel literally the worse, but I must do so. Then at F4, here's how it's kind of situated... Dana said she'll take me to F3 no matter what. I don't fully trust her and i'll be honest, she wants to win and she thinks the two BIGGER goats right now are Ali and Kevin. I don't disagree. I think Kevin's a goat at this point. Ali isn't a GOAT necessarily, but I don't think he'd get my vote if i was on jury. Then again, i'd have to wait to see his finale response. I would personally, and I feel crappy once again, cut Dana at f4 if given the opportunity. I think my best shot for sure is against Ali and Kevin, where Ali could win but I hope I would. Ugh. If I get 2nd again i'll be MISERABLE since i've gotten 2nd/5th and I don't want to repeat any placements. Like, i'd rather get 3rd than 2nd tbh. But 1st is the best 100% But also, thinking about the finale. I think the only people i've pissed off are Emily, Cameron and maybe Ashvika so far. I don't think they see my game fully, and probably think i'm Dana's b*tch - which is actually false. Like, sure she's controlled my first and second merge vote, but I played half the game without her, and then the remainder with her but also making some decisions and giving my input. It's just that she's more outspoken than me which would win her over. If I go to jury however, the order of most to least likely to receive my vote is: Owen > Dana > Kevin = Ali; it'd depend on speeches of the last two but the first two is practically solidified. Lastly, the endurance/pressure cooker is in literally 3 1/2 hours i'm going to freak. I think I can win it?? Hopefully?? Ali or myself at this point. I don't see Dana, or even Kevin/Owen winning this challenge but in the end it's anyones game so wooh.

I'm feeling very uncertain about the end game right now bc it's like??? Is there a way I can win? At this point...we just don't know. I'm assuming it's an F3 FTC. If Zach and Dana go home... Idk if I can beat Owen like at all jsjddj. I know Will is bitter towards Ali and Owen so like...there's one vote for me. There's some good in not talking to the people you vote out! But then like...what then skdj. Idk I've voted in the minority a lot while I think the Duncan vote was the only time Owen voted incorrectly? And he's very like...transparently strategically smart, like that was showcased to the entire jury when he deduced that Ali had two idols at the live instant tribal. But if I go with one of Dana or Zach to the end then they probably have both Will's and Ruthie's vote, maybe even Cameron depending on how bitter he remains. And this isn't taking into account their actual gameplay too and they only need three more votes. And I've just played such a messy game akdjd like I've voted incorrectly at like...5 or 4 votes now? To echo Karen, I am most certainly not W I N N I N. 

Pressure Cooker starts in an hour and 30 mins EEEK. Side note, can I just say how much I love this F5 (not that the people who went before weren't also iconic): Zach: Such a king, so sweet and nice. Always makes me laugh Dana: So fun. Just such a bubbly, great person to be around and talk to. too negative about herself, and is too nice about me ankdsjfla Owen: A KING. I love me some Owen, honestly he is such a genuinely nice person, not a bad bone in his body Kevin: So sweet! I still remember when after Emathia he said he voted me for PoTS because he.... recognised greatness. Few things have made me happier than seeing that So in other words, I better get voted out next, so the final four can have maximised iconicness! ________________________________________________________________ I think I left a contradictory confessional earlier but I think... I think I want to go to F3 with Zach and Kevin atm.... but I could go with Dana. I have two options. Either I vote (maybe?) with Kevin and Owen for Dana this time. Then next round pray Owen doesn't win FIC and vote him out next round? OR I vote out Owen with Zach and Dana, and pray Kevin doesn't win FIC, in which case I am pretty sure I go home ajksdflksf YIKES. I don't know, I need to have a hard think. I think the problem is Owen is the only person I KNOW I can't go to FTC with, and I wouldn't be that uncomfortable with any pairing of the other 3, but to vote Owen out at F5 relies on me winning FIC, because even if Kevin doesn't win it and say Dana does, they could easily vote me out 3-1..... so eek I don't know!

I need to win this competition but I don't think I can :'( I'm so scared and zach is gonna go all out and i dont rlly have a cup and im freaking out what if I have to pee

I won't win this challenge... but all im saying is Owen better nawt. 

OKAY I kinda wish Owen had won immunity or Dana had bc that? Would've made things easier? Seaux I guess Ali and I are the swing votes, which is a pro of being irrelevant rn bc no one wants us out! Dana and Owen are probably going @ each other's throats. I talked to Owen a little bit on call last night and we basically talked about how they have certain jury votes locked up and stuff. I think the best move is to get out Dana right now and pray that Owen doesn't win immunity next round? Either way we go part of it depends on challenge performance. If we take Owen, we have to beat him at immunity. If we take Dana, one of us has to beat her at the tiebreaker challenge. I prefer the odds of the first scenario but the day's just begin so we'll see how things develop

I'm the swing vote and I want to be swung into a pit of lava ________________________________________________________________ Ughhhh, I think I'm voting Owen out tonight and it truly hurts my heart :( He deserves to win this game, but that might be why he has to go. Its a BIG risk going into final four, but its.... a risk that could be game-winning. If I let Owen go to F4, he could so easily win the FIC. So so SO easily

I'm too fucking stupid to be a swing vote what the hell

Ok TLDR i'm actually likely to leave tonight. It's me or my husband Owen, who unironically stan and love with my whole heart. That's sappy and upsetting, but like wig I am who I am. So I thought 4 a long time last night, and I was like "what is Owen going to say to try and mist them into voting me out?" This, of course, required me to pretend I was smart and rational for a little while. I came to three conclusions: 1) Dana has won in this series before, she can do it again 2) Zach and Dana are an inseparable duo 3) I will take you to F3/ F2, and Dana wont (this one is mostly applicable to Kev) So I jumped right in to mitigate all these threats with both Kevin/ Ali at the start. For the sake of not explaining it, I sent receipts from my conversation with Kevin. 1) First, and most importantly, he 100% wins this game if he makes final tribal council. Emily, Duncan, and Cameron have all said they will vote for him. I will also vote for him as a juror no questions asked, which means he wins this game. He might tell you this isn’t true, but it is kind of undeniable. 2) You probably won’t have the option to vote him out at F4. If you keep me this vote, i’m not really any more of a competition threat than any of the rest of us, whereas Owen is. Owen will also KNOW that he has to win F4 immunity to get to FTC, meaning his efforts are really going to be dedicated to that. So, keeping Owen, who is clearly the biggest threat this round, is effectively saying you are comfortable sitting next to him at FTC. 3) I’m just as likely to win as you, Zach, and Ali. I have people on the jury who have told me they won’t vote for me (Cameron) and people in this game I did not talk to basically at all who have no reason to vote or me (Emily/ Charlotte) and people who will vote for you over me (Duncan/ Ashvika). 4) The viable arguments against keeping me, from my perspective, are 1) that i have won before 2) that Zach and I are a magical inseparable duo that you can’t let get to F4. 3)Keeping me is a risk because we haven’t played this game together.  Re: Point 1. Owen has won several games as well, perhaps not in the Athena series, but that was my only win ever and was by a very slim margin at that. I have literally been a meme this game, and don’t have a resume that is even comparable to Owen’s. Re: Point 2. This is a game, Zach and I have played many of them together before, and betrayed each other in late game. He voted me out at F6 in Bahamas, he voted me out at F5 in another game, we are friends but i didn’t play this game for a month to let friendship get in the way of playing a game. I’m a painfully logical player, so emotions aside, I’m not blind to the fact that Zach and I might not be what’s best for each other at F4. We’ve already addressed that we might vote each other in late game, and if that happens it happens. I’ve been burned at F3 by my friends, and i’m not letting that happen again. Re: Point 3. At this point in the game, that’s not really something that should be super critical. I’ve said it to you time and again, I think you will be at FTC, which means taking a risk on someone you aren’t as close to is a small risk to take (not to mention your odds of being able to vote me out next time are higher than your odds of being able to vote Owen). Also at this point in the game, again from my perspective, doing what gives you your best chance of winning is more important than relationships (this is how i feel about my own game as well). I think you can beat me, but I don’t think you can beat Owen. Ok so Ali and Kevin are both telling me they're thinking of keeping me, which honestly, trying to be objective, I think is both of their best moves. Now here is the problem: OWEN IS SMART AND MANIPULATIVE AND HE IS TRICKING ME. Like @ me: WHY ARE YOU LETTING A MAN TRICK YOU. Owen is the most anti-feminist thing that has ever happened to me. Ok,  so after him campaigning to Ali to get me out, he pops into my pms and is like "how about u me and zaq vote together." Now Owen, who knows it is in everyone's best interest to take him out this round, so he is trying to reason with me, which WOULDNT NORMALLY WORK, except he's a slippery snake and also he has misted me so hard idk like i'm his #1 fan. So basically, he's like "lets not give Ali and Kevin the power, Dana" and i'm like omg ur so right!!! Love u Owen!!! Except i know he: 1) Knows people are leaning towards voting him out over me, and basically has to try some trickery. 2) IS going to exploit this. Like dont u give me a prisoners dilema, ask me to take the biggest risk in the entire game, and think i'm not going to see through it boi. I learned all about this EXACT SCENARIO in my college bird ecology class. I cannot be tricked. 3) Thinks he can trick me because I love him so much that i'll listen. So, despite the fact that I am going to cry(tm) tonight when Owen hopfully leaves, I don't listen to men, and i'm voting him out. I'll take my 50% chance of staying and i'll work her for all she's worth. Also me tonight if i don't get voted out: 

I won final five immunity and i'm so stoked. I didn't need it at all I don't think (#GoatStatus) but I needed to secure that Owen would go, especially since it became a showdown between him and I. But if Owen ever reads this. I want u to know that ur an amazing person and player and i love u and think you're funny and i truly feel devastated voting you out. you deserve so much better and u've played phenomenally and if i wasn't like... wanting to win, i would totally throw my game for you and i'm sure Dana would too. but now going forward i just need to win F4 immunity and I think eliminate Dana, and then I should win but maybe Ali will. Either way, it's fine. I think I have a better shot against Ali/Kevin than I do with dana/kevin. ugh this sucks like i've genuinely been so distraught and upset about the idea of even voting out owen like... he's so nice and a great player and literally... the question about "other than piracy, what would u get arrested for?" - well, you see... the only crime i've committed is robbery if all goes accordingly tonight.

This could potentially be my last confessional in the game if everyone flips and votes me over Owen tonight, but I just wanted to say it’s been a great game no matter what. This is by far the toughest vote for me, but I either vote Owen out tonight, or I vote him  to win this game. As always, I do what gives me my best chance to win, as much as it sucks. So, hopefully, goodbye snake king ily

fksdjhfj god I don't even know what to say.... I think this Athena journey has been a lot similar to my first one. I made the moves I wanted. I stumbled a little along the way but I made every blunder into an opportunity to further myself. I maneuvered myself through groups of people to get an advantage for myself. and I fsjkhkj idk I've really played my heart out both times but the difference is this time that I'm not going down without a fight. I think Ali and Kevin rn are leaning towards voting me out bc I'm some huge, scary threat and I just....I understand I guess. I understand because I think maybe I have a shot to win the game if I have the votes I think I would. But it's also frustrating because Dana is going to win too. And the plea I've really made to them is like... Dana and Zach are a duo. Dana has won this game before. Dana is playing you so hard to get to the end, and it's true. I think Dana has played an even better game than I have because she's going to be here next round and I'm not And then I approached Dana and tried to get her to vote with me dfkjash which did not go so well for me either. Idk basically I told her I would rather ensure we both survive than to put control in Ali and Kevin's hands and that i don't want us to get fifth and fourth when we deserve it the most, etc etc but it's prob just best for her to vote me out bc she has zach next round soooo she wouldn't take me up on that. I think the place where I messed up was the challenge obviously. I went as long as I could and if I had just stuck it out a little longer...idk. The hard thing is like, Zach knew he didn't need to win it, but he still wanted it. And that was a scary thing to face off against because I gave it everything I had knowing I probably needed it, and he was able to press just as hard knwoing he was safe without it. It was fkdjshdf rough as hell. But I'm proud of myself for what I did and I'm proud of myself for how far I've come this season in general. Maybe I can pull off one more miracle. It's not looking good fksjhdjf but it's okay. Last time I accepted my fate and chose to leave over someone else. This time I'm going to try my hardest until tribal comes. Then I can finally just.....relax. This game has exhausted me probably more than any other before and idek why fdkjshfj but i feel like I have a breath sucked in and I'm holding it until I can finally let it all out fksdjh AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH yeah this is bad news I feel like Odysseus except fdsjkhfj im not gonna make it home ________________________________________________________________ can i just say tho lmao that like...Ali is sweet and I love him and all but I don't think he understands the uselessness of the lies he tells fksdjhdfjk like???? why tell me last round that you wanna go to the end with me? why tell me that this whole time? Nobody else told me they'd take me to the end because all of them were....not going to straight up lie lmao. Like I still worked with all those people and they didn't promise me anything? idk it sucks but like fksjdh he doesn't have my vote because he hasn't done anything in this game to make me respect him. I think that's where he falls short and it's where he's going to fall short again. maybe he'll prove me wrong (idk about that) but for as much as Ali does do in this game, the amount of stuff he does and says that is literally pointless is excruciating to me oh my god ________________________________________________________________HNNNNNGH I POPPED OFF ON ALI A LITTLE I FEEL REALLY BAD BUT LIKE FSDKDJH I TOLD HIM THE TRUTH :'(

Ahhh I'm voting Owen I hate my life why can't we have nice things?? Uggh I told him directly that I was voting for him bc like...I don't need to be fake at this point?? But God it feels awful sdfjsdlkf. Can someone just like...knock me out? I'm ready for the afterlife. Let's go girls. 

Honestly though? At least my mom is proud of me. And now she won't have to give me an intervention fksjdhfkjds.

Owen becomes the 16th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 4-1 vote, and the 8th member of our jury. You can see Owen’s preseason interview here. 

I thought I played better this time, but I'm so excited to lose at FTC again :( or not even make it this time

Hi I feel awful for that absolute highway robbery i committed last night. So sorry Owen I love u buddy. ALSO WHY DID OWEN HAVE TO TELL ALI I'LL MAKE AN EXCELLENT TWO TIME WINNER!!!! DON'T TELL HIM THAT I NEED TO GET TO F3!!! Ok so here's what i'm doing to make everyone forget i'm a threat to win and also that i'm bad at talking: 1) I told everyone Owen said he wasn't voting for me at the end. Everyone left in this game REALLY respects Owen and thinks he's a genius, so if people think he isn't on jury advocating for me, then maybe Ali will stick to the me him and Zach F3. 2) I REALLY have to talk up (reasonably) how bad I am at speaking. But i need to be believable. So instead of being like "I suck at public speaking" because lets be honest ur New Jersey debate Champion from 2011 and 2012 is not going to realistically be able to sell that i'm bad at speaking, I am instead talking about how bad of a memory I have, how i've never done a live ftc... etc. Honestly what it comes down to in these last few days is that i need to win immunity and also continue to mitigate the reputation i've built up for myself. 

Ahhh, I'm starting to feel cautiously optimistic about my game? Like I fixed my mistakes and am ready to beat these fakes! Not really, I love the rest of the F4. I'm very worried about being the final juror, but if I can escape that.... I think I have a good shot. If I do come fourth though, I join  the iconic fourth placers club with Amumda, JayBee and Owen. Like legends only! Or I guess legends plus me

Half of my ROP write up is "I wanted to work with you but you were all snakes so I didn't trust you" and the other half is "I wanted to work with you but then you got booted but hey I didn't vote for you!!!" We love a flop finalist

guess who just bumbled his way into FTCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC

It's the final four. The gloves are coming off, ladies. And unfortunately, Ali just won immunity. Honestly, I wasn't going to be that upset if he won final immunity. Like this entire round and for even the past few rounds I was planning out the final tribal to include Ali, Kevin and myself. My entire plan relied on me winning final immunity and then kind of directing the vote into whichever way I wanted, whether I decided to cut Kevin, Ali, or Dana. However, that is not the current plan. I'm so bothered. I think, for me to be in the finale, Kevin has to go. Sure, that's fine, he's extremely likeable and quirky and has yet to piss ANYONE off game wise, but like... seriously? I would be find and probably content with voting out Dana but there's this little demon that I am kind of annoyed with right now?? Ali! I want to like... state beforehand that this is purely because i'm devastated and emotional and by no means am I a) personally attacking you, nor b) genuinely meaning this. But, fuck you?! Maybe?! Before F5 pressure cooker, you're all up in my PMs being like "Zach I would DIE for us to be in final tribal together." - this was even at like... final 6/7. Then Owen is voted out, and just hours before final immunity you go to my messages again and recite: [2018-01-24, 5:37:23 PM] ali: I'm so scared of being the final juror we are so close to the finish line I wanna just cross that line so badly dndkdkdk Which, maybe indirectly, is perceived as guilt tripping; or where you want to emphasize that you're just that desperate to achieve your goal of making final tribal. That's fine, i'm not mad. But don't immediately turn on me the MINUTE you win immunity. Like, maybe you aren't. Maybe Kevin will leave 3-1 tomorrow. Only time will tell. But if that is the case, you're really just aggravating. That's truthfully annoying if you are not even going to take into consideration what I say, dismiss any plea I beg of you, and just eliminate me. Anyway, it's the game, i'm not mad at you on a personal level cause you know how much I adore you and love you, but by any means if i'm on jury, you probably will have heard me being passive aggressive in my speech to you; or just a complete bitch which i'm apologetic for. If I wasn't either of those? Whew, I calmed down easily. Speaking of that topic, i'll explain my pitch since I tend to ramble and not give any insightful information. I've already written my plea, but I tend on saying that i'm the least threatening of the two options to vote in any regard. If the jury's bitter, Kevin will likely consume some votes. If the jury votes on game, i'll play up that Dana is the mastermind, which shouldn't be HARD. The only logical - well, not logical, but reason - reason that he would vote me is because i've yet to receive any votes? Iconic whew. But like... yeah. Kevin hasn't pissed anyone off. I've pissed off multiple people (Emily, Cameron, Ashvika, Owen, and Duncan). Sure, not all of them are probably actually mad, but I need to kind of play that up for sure. Dana is outspoken and a great debater. Why would you want someone who literally debates as a f***ing hobby and can persuade multiple straight men into being her showmance to come to FTC over me, an individual who not only is more reserved and shy, but also lost Bahamas because... they used a Shakespeare metaphor (bye I still regret that) and didn't explain their game well whatsoever. It's literally... stupid. Do I think I played a good game? Yes. I very much think that I should win if I was voting. I'm bias though. Dana played a good game too. Ali has as well! He's been part of votes! Kevin is likeable and has survived multiple votes. We ALL have stories, but I do think mines the strongest, but I don't see how it's logical to take someone like Dana to FTC. She could like... punch and break someone's nose and then still convince them that they should vote for her at FTC as it was probably their fault. It's ridiculous how good she is. Props to her, though. I love all these people greatly. I'm going to also encourage that he stays true to the deal we made. If he wants to flip on Dana, so be it. Bye bye!! Just not me, please. Like, weirdly, i'll be fairly disappointed if he goes back on our deal, and by doing so, I think he's going to lose jury vote. Not out of bitterness, but rather... dumbness. Unless he can precisely identify why the vote was smarter to be on me opposed to Dana or Kevin, he'll surely lose my vote. That's how I play. If someone takes me out under effective manners, they get my vote. If someone does so but it's irrational and not explained well, they lose my vote. That's reasonable and moral, right? Hope so! So right now, i'll be analyzing jury votes. I'm probably going to be completely off and get 0 votes but i'm just going to go off what I would think. This is in the given scenario that the final three are Dana, Ali, and myself. ~ Without further ado, let's introduce the phenomenal jurors: ~ Charlotte - Likely to vote anyone. I think I have the least chance since I was only on OG Vireao but i'm hoping she just listens to speeches? Duncan - I think will vote Ali, or Dana. Not me. Dana and him talked so much, and Ali's a genuine soul and I think that's where Duncan will vote. Will - Dana 100%. If I cut Dana, I think i'd receive his vote but that's unlikely at this rate. Ruthie - I think will vote me? I would hope at least. I think she's rooting for Dana and myself, and based on interactions, i've connected with her more. Emily - Emily will vote for Ali or myself. If she's like... doing more on friendship, I think Ali. If it's game wise entirely, I would hope me? God. Cameron - Ali. 100%. Has told Dana, and I guess that implicates me at this rate since clearly Dana was more loyal than myself, that we would not get his vote. Hypocritical, oop, but it's fine. Love him. Ashvika - I think would vote me. Her and I connected a lot during her final few days. Owen - Owen would be a toss up between Dana and myself. I think he was closer with Dana, but I think he saw more of my strategical thought. I want him to vote ME of course but I think Dana? Kevin - I think Kevin will vote Ali. I would hope me, also, but I doubt so. Maybe Dana even. So with that being said, it seems: DANA - Owen, Will, Charlotte ALI - Kevin, Cameron, Duncan ZACH - Ashvika, Emily, Ruthie This is what i'm hoping at best at this rate LMAO. I'm not winning. Maybe Owen or Charlotte would vote me? But that's unlikely. The only vote I think I would receive 100% is hopefully Ashvika. I don't see anyone not getting ANY votes unless miserably flopping at FTC, which I probably will do so... wig. But like, if I lose at this rate whether that's 2nd/3rd or even 4th, i'm content. The fact that I was asked back for All Stars was shocking... I did NOT expect to be recruited. That being said, i'm very much grateful of course. Despite the fact that I don't play like my average, typical self which involves taking control and orchestrating more votes directly upfront, I played this game UTR and planting seeds, which was fun but I don't think my game is recognizable. Still, I have accomplished more than what I set out for. I reached 100 days played (to be more precise, it'll be 113/114 I think - i'm bad at math, who knows), I made jury and I beat my worst placement so far! Like, not being cocky, but the fact that i've played Athena three times and have gotten 2nd/5th/2nd-4th is incredible. I'm proud of myself, and to yalls, the hosts, I hope I wasn't too much of a hassle to host and I hope I made some entertainment. This will most likely be my last confessional regardless of the outcome. Maybe if I survive, i'll make a final one, but this may be it. Thank y'alls once again for a great season <3 I got to meet many great people and build such great bonds with people that I want to continue once outside the game :] ________________________________________________________________ Ali disregard those... mean parts. I love you i'm sorry i'm stressed I was going off 1 hour of SLEEP. i'm sorry sweetie ;c

I better make it to FTC... Owen didn't die for this!!! Ok so Zach and I are voting out Kevin, hopefully 100%- which means worst case scenario, I go to fire-making with Kevin. I don't like that I have to rely on Ali to make this decision- when straight up at this point in the game he is better off going to FTC with both Zach and I than voting one of us off at this point. From my perspective, I think Ali wins this game if he can divide the vote up enough at FTC to gain a majority- his best chance at doing that is to take Zach and I to FTC. This is my pitch to him On 1/25/18, at 11:27 AM, Dana Barry wrote: > Fair point, like I understand that i’m threatening- i can’t deny that, but i think you also have to put that in context and ask if I am threatening when you go up against me with this jury. I mean from my perspective, it’s hard to see that considering I’ve had 2 jurors outright tell me they won’t vote for me, I didn’t speak to Emily or Ashvika during the game- so they’ll vote you or Zach. More importantly, jurors that have said they won’t vote for any of us (Cameron) will vote for Kevin if given the option. So maybe Kevin isn’t as blatantly “threatening” as me, but he is the most likeable option and good friends/ allies with Ashvika/ Duncan. That is three jury votes he gets right there. More importantly, I think you have to look at the jury votes i “have on lock,” which tbh is only Will. You can vote me out tonight, but if the votes that are “going to me” don’t switch to vote you as the winner, then there isn’t really a point. That’s why I thought you and I were a fair F2, because it’s unlikely that the people who will vote for me at the end would vote for you even if i’m cut before FTC. I guess my final thing is that having both Zach and I on jury means 1) that you likely take a vote away from the other one of us. 2) we divide people who would want to vote for us on a friend level like Ruthie and Charlotte.

So apparently Ali's debating between me and Dana for who to vote. And honestly I'm surprised?? I asked Ali why I'm a threat and he said that I'm likeable (can't disagree) and that I have a "huge" underdog story in this game... Perhaps! It's an idea. I just...I guess someone from the outside perspective would have a better idea but I just? Don't see it? And even if I am a threat, I think Dana's a mega threat compared to me. Like, I'm here on the earth and she's a meteor ready to destroy me at any moment. She's EXTREMELY persuasive, she admitted it herself on the Pressure Cooker challenge and she flaunted her talent a bit when she talked to me about why to vote Owen. And I can't say a comprehensible string of three words on live call without interjecting ten "ums" "likes" in between. I'm not giving answers at final tribal, you're just gonna get disgusting sobbing. More importantly I won't be changing anyone's mind! 

Dana becomes the 17th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 3-1 vote, and the fnal member of our jury. You can see Dana’s preseason interview here.

I lived bitch I'm gonna ask my dog tomorrow if I'll win this game. If she says no I'm pulling a Tonya Harding on this final 3. 

So.... its the day after the winner reveal and I don't really know how to feel. I wanna start with the negative stuff, I can't shake the feeling of being disappointed in myself for this season. I know I played really well, and the best I've ever played (and probably ever will). Like I was apart of so many blindsides, took out soo many big threats. The problem I'm having though is I can't shake the feeling that my personality is why I lost? Like just listening to the jurors, it seemed a lot of them recognised the game I played, but it was my.... flaws as a person that cost me. So that makes me sad. I feel like I had a lot of personal growth this season. I tried to put myself first, and tried to not worry about upsetting people (I did a great job of that hjsdfka). So it upsets me that despite all my personal growth, what cost me... was myself. And that kinda sucks. Like just as much as I grew, I'm still stuck with these flaws in me as a person. With that said, I want to try and think positively about this season, like I was so happy with my game going into FTC and I don't want to lose that feeling. I am also so happy for Zach, he is fun and a great person so I'm really happy to see him finally win Athena! we love a king Its a miracle I even got 2nd, after FTC, I was sure the entire jury hated me and the fact I got 2 votes is wild, even though I feel the other 6 voters would've voted for the other person they didn't vote for over me. With that said, Im so honoured to get Emily and Cameron's jury votes. Emily is one of the best players I know, and such a good friend. I also know she really values FTC, so its such an honour to get her vote. Cameron.... I mean we aggressively stan. I know this game kind of put a bit of strain on our friendship, so for him to be able to put that aside and vote for me is such an honour. I am so proud of Cameron and the game he played this season, so for him to cap it off with voting for me is.... whew it made me so happy. I don't know what I want to do with ORGs going forwards. I know I so desperately want to win (I've come 2nd literally three times in only four games, and it gets worse everytime I get so close). That's the other thing, I've literally come 2nd three times and everytime I feel like I play better, so to kind of stagnate is... whew. But I promised I was gonna start with negativity and end on positivity so that's, that on that. I am really thankful I got to play with so many of my friends this season. I did this a couple of times this season, and I did it in RoP but the fact I could list the entire cast and have so many compliments for all of them is really exciting. Being able to play with Owen again, who is such a pleasure is always fun. Even though I will likely never play again, I want to one day kind of earn his respect, both as a player and as a person. He is probably the best player I've played with, and he is also the only emathia person to make jury either time to never vote for me, so I hope one day I can earn his respect in that sense. I want to kind of cap this off with a thanks to the mums. They are the reason why I can call Emily, Cameron, Owen, JD, Duncan and so many, many others my friend. I want to thank Amanda for being Amumda, someone looking out for everyone and just being a great person. I want to thank Cami, for having so much fire and love for her friends, and always wanting the best for them. I want to think Abbey for just.... being so amazing. Abbey has so much love and support for her friends, and I feel like I can always count on Abbey. The one, the only JayBee gets her own paragraph. I am so blessed to know Jay, and she has the most impact in me being in this community, since she literally scouted me for emathia. I am so thankful to know Jay, and to be able to call her literally my best friend. I have so much love for Jay, and I know she will support me forever, and for that I'm soooo grateful. I have not had..... some good experiences in my past, but the fact I can always confide in Jay and know I'll receive total support is really really.... just great. I kind of owe my whole wild ride in the community to Jay and I'm just so thankful. With that, I kind of end my ORG experience, definitely at least as a player. I'm hopefully going to host again in the future, after some time OFF to relax, but till then, thank you all, players, viewers, hosts, anyone involved in this season for watching me make a mess for 39 days. Thank You to Athena and everyone involved!

After a grueling Final Tribal Council, Zach is crowned the winner of Athena All Stars, with Ali and Kevin tying for second place in a 4-2-2 vote. 

You can see Zach’s preseason interview here. You can see Ali’s preseason interview here. You can see Kevin’s preseason interview here.

The hosts would like to thank everyone who kept up with the season and continues to be invested in Athena. Our series would not be where it is today with you. Thank you.

#notallfunandgames

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Episode #14: “It’s Time To Be Scared” ~ Cameron

okay so i asked ali what happened with the vote and then he started talking about why he sucks at the game and i had 2 give him advice and i didn't want to be rude and be like "hey not to intervene on your sadness but let's elaborate on why y'all flipped :)))" i asked owen, king of betrayals, and he basically said emily was a threat (shocking) and thought she had an idol (mayhaps but who knows) and that she was too good at challenges (true) and that he didn't know how close i was to her. and now he's like haha im sorry but at least the idols gone! and i'm like that's cool!!! chill as hell yknow anyways ashvika was like basically saying we need to be a duo bc zach and dana are a duo and ali and owen are one and cameron's there too chilling. i like ashvika but she will never fill the jay-shaped hole in my heart after motunui. but i'm open for allies and ashvika and i have a lot of common interests, such as voting incorrectly and being blindsided. lots of things for us to talk about. anyways here's to me starting an immunity streak this round that's something i could really use xx

OH MY GOD. EMILY IS GONE. I'M CRYING. WE LITERALLY DID THAT. JAY IF YOU THROW IN A JURY BUYBACK... I WILL WALK.

Ok literally idk what to do at this point in the game so like im going to probably run some scenarios below if I don't stop breathing before i get there.  RE: Tonight.. Yiko! things worked out?  GET SHOOK! Not exactly how I wanted because Ali bailed on voting Ashvika... but also I'm Ali literally voting in the majority again like we are SICK of it. He's always maximizing his options and its like no bb ur only option is me im iconic. Like do something else predictable please. This is why he need to go tbh. Also like voting in the majority in itself isnt a reason you're going to win the game imo if there were better ways to accomplish your goals? Idk im being a bitch i love and appreciate that bean with my whole heart, you're doing amazing sweetie. I feel like i'm getting more powerful at every vote. You take my number 1 but I take ur crown ladies!!! After tonight's tribal i'm getting increasingly worried that I haven't played a game that deserves a win. I think i'm just like insecure about it because I don't usually play like this, but idk no need to be emo because im a bad bitch. Ok yeah im tired this game is literally hijacking my brain and eating her as a snack. So I think about what I want tomorrow. idk might vote zach out wig bye bye 

just realized if i hadn't won the challenge emily would still be here...why must everything i do taint this world

I know I'm submitting this way late but I wanted to do this when I was voted out so here goes nothing! Here are a bunch of vines that remind me of all of you. I’m sorry. Some of these were harder than others and some of you I don't know very well AT ALL but I tried my hardest. Some of you have more than one for a number of reasons including I couldn’t choose between them, I didn’t think your first one did you enough justice, or like other reasons I don’t know. I stayed up until four AM working on this so I hope it’s cute.

ALI: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E66DCwncqyQ, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHpf9ZzQHfs ASHVIKA: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GaNGKD4MTV0 AUTUMN: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xP2e3pPFyQo CAMERON: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgbGiExvqi8, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsasZkQfskw CHARLOTTE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5J7znTWijg, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0YBP1ve5rw DANA: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l1L2ml0yf9E, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFhqORL1cJs DUNCAN: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIBjw8d9c8Q EMILY: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gTLSQOZTnaY, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xHrxgFNnN8 JACK: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UwVVZPzo8iM, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lE-_B85xKN8 JD: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MnVz9D4Z-70, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4F2Qv5Ddcw JULIA: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkNMZlkrzaU KAREN: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bmc83cynhqk KEVIN: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPkRE-nBf8Y, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtSPQIK15uc LILY: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUUwomMczeE MADISON: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GS6NKwbabZw OWEN: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMm4SABOmHg, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sO0B_Urec4 RUTHIE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KoKPT_cnyXs SAM: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bECRkGP6E4w WILL: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcYgS0ziHyg, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eywp61pXUm4 ZACHARY: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7CNB_5DexQ, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7eSSE-dd2yY

My goal for this round is confusing. I think Cameron is the ideal target, which yes, i'm fine with, but then again I need Owen out soon and i think Cameron will vote out Owen. Is this round Owen's time? I'm not sure because... hypothetically, we'd need 5 votes since Owen has the vote thing. Or even 4-4, so in the revote he goes 3-2. Owen is my biggest threat. Dana and Cameron are up there. At F4 i'd either cut Ashvika based on likability and cuteness or Ali for being in the majority, despite that not being a positive factor. It's just complex cause it's like... how do I get the votes to do anything. I think i've been fairly social with everyone and it's hard to do anything. I think everyone kind of feels similar about Owen and even Cameron's threat status. Cameron also bugs me SLIGHTLY! I love him to death, I think he's great. But I hate how he's so cocky and like, 'i'm going to win if I make F3'. It's like, maybe you are, but why rub that in people's faces or just... go on about it. It not only makes me like ugh wow but it's arrogant and that takes away from me wanting to vote for you. I don't want to vote Owen out I love him too much but he's going to win like he's the main "All Star" brand person left in the game and clearly has played the best game and it's like... ugh do we HAVE to rob him? I guess?? I played this game differently. I didn't try to take physical control. I played rather from BTS and would just plant seeds. Like I don't want to take all credit for things, but I think that I was the first person to get Duncan's name going, and I got the target to be Emily over Ashvika. I helped push for JD to go and Autumn even, who were bad for my game. The only thing is those moves are going to be so blurred that others will think they orchestrated it and the last thing I wanna do is step on someone's toes and say I stole their "move" wig.

i guess i'm good with owen? i hope im good? at least i pretended i wasn't mad when i wasn't talking. to him but idk how much of my passive aggressiveness seeped through in that conversation. BUT i've come back from the minority twice in this game so hopefully i can pull it off a third time. but hopefully it does NOT take two rounds bc it might be too late by then. well immunity results are like soon so!!! we shall see

fkhasjdf I wanted to win this one so bad bc I feel like it's my time. Zach, Dana, Cameron, Kevin gonna kick my ass out of here and take control....god. I was initially thinking this round that I need Cameron to go. The three of them need to be split up before final six and all that :) BUT....the more I think about it, looking long term, I need Cameron in this game as a shield to me at final five. As long as Cameron doesnt win the final five immunity, that would be the PERFECT time for him to go. Otherwise....i think no matter what if I'm not immune, I leave at five (unless I get voted out sooner). I don't know that Ali would vote me out, but any combination of Zach/Dana/Kevin/Ashvika/Cameron? probably would get rid of me at that spot, especially now that I lied to both kevin and ashvika...ugh. This is why I wanted ali to vote dana last round and make it seem like he was still with kev and ashvika. idk why I let it happen where he didnt but oh well that is what I get for makin ali my number one hehe. I love him so much though wowowowowow okay. So I wanted Cameron first, then realized I'd rather Cameron go fifth, so now I wanted to focus on breaking Dana and Zach up... Which like, damn it. Dana and Zach are my favs in this game rn and we worked together on that last vote, but if any of dana/zach/cameron are at the end with me and ali, I think I definitely lose? idk. because they'd get guaranteed three votes - cameron, ruthie, and the other of dana/zach. However, I think if I'm there with ashvika instead..then ashvika might get those same votes, tbh. so now I'm not sure, maybe it would be better to get to the end with zach or something????? I don't know if there's any way I'll get Will's vote, so like fkdajshf ugh idk this is hard. I'm starting to doubt there's a way I'll win. Basically, Dana leaving would've been best for me this round, but I didn't want to have to get over my personal feelings and do it, and now she's IMMUNE anyways so that isn't an option....at all. So now idk what to do? I think I need to revert back to survival mode because at this point I might have equal chance against Kevin, Ashvika, and Zach? Cameron and Dana need to go at some point but I'm worried about voting Cameron out now. But if it's what is going to get me to final six, I'll do it.  I also wouldn't mind Kevin leaving except for then like...next round I would have to let the vote be Cameron and I don't think zach and dana would do that at six? and if they DID do it at six, then they could pull in ashvika at five and fuck me up. so this is going to basically be....awful. Maybe I need Cameron out now and then somehow hopefully MAYBE I could get Dana out at six. But then Kevin, Ashvika, and Zach come together at five UGH FKSJDHJ WHY IS THIS SO HARD. What I legit need to do is get....um.... ugh. Kevin out now, Dana out at six, Cameron out at five, and final four would be me zach ali ashvika. That's the smartest move for me. But I don't see how to get Dana out next round unless I use Cameron to do it? and I'd have to be putting complete faith in Ashvika again. And she prob wont do the same to me. Ughhhhhh idk what to do but I need to save myself somehow ________________________________________________________________ this is literally so hard rn im gonna scream ________________________________________________________________ I need to get to the end with kevin and ali now fml ________________________________________________________________ So first I thought Ashvika would be best with me and Ali, but the more I think about it, the more I think she'd get Will, Duncan, and Charlotte guaranteed. So now I'm working on trying to see how to get it to be Kevin? If Kevin is with me then I would hopefully earn Duncan and maybe Ashvika's vote. I think Dana and Zach would vote for me. And that way even if I don't have Will, Ruthie, Charlotte, and Kevin, if their votes are even a little split I could maybe win 4-3-2??? or idk fsdkhf ugh I think I could maybe get Cameron too and have 5??? fskdh fuck. I don't think I can sit with Cameron. Dana, definitely not.... And Ashvika worries me. So between Zach and Kevin, I think Kevin might be my best shot rn. But how do I get there???? If I can get Ashvika out at seven, then I can convince Kevin his only shot is with me and Ali because if he goes with zach/dana/cameron that whole "side" (ruthie will etc) will vote each other. But I don't know how to get Zach to want to do Ashvika this round either....and also that would hurt bc I love her and ALSO im in hos with her fdaskjhkfjhadsjkfhjsdkhfk frick okay so! if I can pull that off though, and then somehow get dana out at six, then cameron at five, then zach at four???????? maybe????? i think me kevin zach ali is the best f4 for me, I just need to find a way there. If I CAN'T get ashvika this round and it IS cameron this round, then it gets way trickier because I wouldnt want like....zach/kevin/ashvika/dana, whichver three are left t f5, to get me out 3-2. but like I'd have to hope at that point that ppl wouldnt wanna turn on me at all. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH this is hard. if cameron goes now, I think I'd need it to be dana at six still, convince zach not to flip on my ass at five and get out kevin or ashvika (or zach tbh) and then ashvika or zach whichever is left) at four. fkashf JESUS.. i hate this game but i'm so close and I have always wanted this 

At this point, I'm not feeling very confident. Yes, I did better than Emily, which is fabulous. I beat 2/4 of the winners. Cool beans. However, everyone knows I'm a threat. I don't have my idol anymore, there's a target on my back. The merge idol is out there, just waiting to be played. That idol WILL be used to vote me out. There's no way around that. If I can survive until final 5, that'd be great, because I can use my social game and charisma to persuade people to keep me. But I have to survive until that point. I have to survive Ali's idol and Ashvika/Owen/Kevin's idol. We really are letting Owen run this game. We're letting him win. But at this point, until idols are gone, I have to let him win, otherwise I won't. He's a bigger threat than me but has allies in strong places. With idols. I no longer have that. I just have me, myself, and I, trying desperately to survive the next few votes. I think this means Ashvika should go this round, unless we want to try to blindside Owen. I know he has his extra vote, but I don't see myself surviving without his help and my complete and 100% trust in him. Which is horrifying, because Owen is not a trustworthy gentleman. Do I leak? Yeah, but to my allies. Does Owen leak? Yeah, to fucking everyone. I'm scared. It's time to be scared and to be quiet and to let loose. It's time for me to win. Or else Owen is. And we just can't have that, now, can we.

My time has come. I think tonight I will be leaving. I say this every round though, but I kind of believe it this round. I think Cameron wants me out, he's been acting obviously suspicious around me. I think Dana/Owen won't vote me out this round YET at least, meaning I have to work on Ashvika and Owen's extra vote. My goal is for Cameron to leave tonight but with an objective of flushing one idol. It won't happen but... yis

okayy so we're voting cameron whew? that's the plan? hopefully owen and ali don't snake out on me?? i think it's the best option, bc otherwise those three will compose half of the f6 and i don't think there's any way me ali ashvika or owen can make it to the end in that situation, or at least fare well. plus those three have pretty much got will and ruthie's jury votes locked down. ash and owen are down, idk where ali is, most likely catching up on the days of sleep he's missed because of this game. buttt it seems like things are gonna work out? hopefully? owen seems genuinely invested in this plan, but he also seemed invested in the split vote and well. that didn't turn out as expected.

The duck walked up to the lemonade stand and he said to the man, running the stand "hey" bom bom bom "got any grapes?"

Why do we like deciding on who is going home so last minute, it’s not cute 

i called zach bowser and i dont regret it Anyways I had a little change of plans idk. I didn't know whether to want Cameron or Ashvika out, but I think (I hope) if Cameron goes first, then I have enough trust with Kevin or Ashvika to make it either Dana at six, OR if zach and dana want ashvika out at six then it'll be me ali kevin vs zach and dana at five, which is risky as hell because zach and dana can win comps...but like, there wont be any idols at five so we can just vote whichever doesnt win. final four is all im worried about but if ali really does trust me then he'd at least force a tie with me wig!!!!! so for tonight, I think it's better to split votes between cameron and ashvika. if cameron goes then that's ok bc I think dana still wants ashvika out at six. and I honestly feel a little better about having zach and dana TOGETHER at five rather than like zach logan cameron me ali..... because kevin would be dumb to let zach and dana get to four together. so unless some weird idols plit vote ugly shit happens, it should be 5 cameron, 3 ashvika tonight ________________________________________________________________ i also think im prob just getting seventh and that ali cameron zach dana are all just voting me ugh. kevin and ashvika prob are too. im gonna actually die tonight but oh well, 6-1 here I come 

Hi Julie!!!! Tonight my vote is for Cameron or Ashvika. Thanks. I'm an Owen warrior and i'm an upsetting Kevin fangirl. I'm so tired I can't explain the vote sarry. Read my pms with Kevin instead, they are my magnum opus [1/19/18, 6:25:20 PM] Dana Barry: hi bb i miss u [1/19/18, 6:25:23 PM] Dana Barry: i vote u tonight [1/19/18, 6:25:25 PM] Dana Barry: sarry [1/19/18, 6:25:35 PM] Kevin 🌹: i stan and accept this concept [1/19/18, 6:25:47 PM] Dana Barry: im kiddin idk what im doin yet heheh [1/19/18, 6:25:56 PM] Kevin 🌹: darn it [1/19/18, 6:26:36 PM] Dana Barry: how u votin king [1/19/18, 6:26:47 PM] Dana Barry: tell me ur secrets [1/19/18, 6:28:05 PM] Kevin 🌹: i ain't getting response from ppl and there's 30 minutes [1/19/18, 6:30:57 PM] Dana Barry: if we all vote u tonight will u play ur merge idol [1/19/18, 6:31:19 PM] Kevin 🌹: if someone gives me the merge idol then yes! [1/19/18, 6:32:26 PM] Dana Barry: kevin wouldnt it be a meme if i gave u the merge idol [1/19/18, 6:32:33 PM] Dana Barry: and i was just like go wild lil buddy [1/19/18, 6:32:35 PM] Kevin 🌹: it would [1/19/18, 6:32:41 PM] Kevin 🌹: it would be a #bigmove [1/19/18, 6:33:55 PM] Dana Barry: im giving her to you then!!! [1/19/18, 6:34:15 PM] Kevin 🌹: ill be waitin [1/19/18, 6:36:43 PM] Dana Barry: congrats kevin look for a message in your host chat  ;) [1/19/18, 6:36:52 PM] Dana Barry: im kidding i dont have her [1/19/18, 6:37:01 PM] Kevin 🌹: when she plays with your heart [1/19/18, 6:39:08 PM] Dana Barry: Kevin literally i want you to ruin my life [1/19/18, 6:40:44 PM] Kevin 🌹: SKDJFJFJFJ [1/19/18, 6:40:47 PM] Kevin 🌹: and yet no idol :( [1/19/18, 6:43:01 PM] Dana Barry: Kevin u can idol me out if u want [1/19/18, 6:43:16 PM] Kevin 🌹: the one time i've had an idol i got voted out with it [1/19/18, 6:43:19 PM] Kevin 🌹: i can't handle the power [1/19/18, 6:45:59 PM] Dana Barry: its the only way u get my jury vote if u idol me out tis vote [1/19/18, 6:46:39 PM] Kevin 🌹: : ((

at this point I will no longer walk if there is a jury buyback

Cameron becomes the 14th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 5-3 vote, and the 6th member of our jury. You can see Cameron’s preseason interview here.

In a surprise instant tribal, Ashvika became the 15th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 4-1-1 vote, and the 7th member of our jury. You can see Ashvika’s preseason interview here.

#notallfunandgames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode #13: “IDK Man, I Hate Everything” ~ Emily

I was right,,,,, I knew we should've voted for Cameron. I fucking KNEW!!!!! And no. We had to play it safe. We ended up with the worst option. But hm. I still have that vote negator and hope is not lost. I guess.

Ponderosa Confessional

What I love about being out of the game is that all of us can agree that Ali's a heartless snake (in a game sense, we all still love him as a person even if we're bitter) with no jury management, Emily thinks she's doing a lot better than she really is and she's gonna be the HvV Parvati of the season (aka, she doesn't win), and that Owen's just...nobody wants to vote for him lol. And even in a F3 of them, I'd still probably vote for Ali just in spite. If Ashvika can make it to the end, she's getting my vote - know that. I hate that Ruthie was next though - queen didn't deserve it!

"i knew you weren’t going home Not that it matters because we dont talk and neither of us want to pretend to like each other in this game or want to work with each other in this game but you have the best jury management for that so gjnekfm" -Cameron Hello 911 I just found myself and my wig dead in a ditch. alright im confused he's telling me i have a good social game??? wig both missing and burnt now. okay apparently he's just pissed at everyone but he's pissed at me the least. also he said dana's being genuine with her praises of me which like, i 100% agree with, and i stan dana as well so we're like, mutual stans, but i feel like i'm being set up to be murdered soon. i feel like they might try to vote me out or something on this basis but like??? honey i'm a FLOP. maybe people are just being nice. but also like??? nice people??? in survivor? i'm gonna need to see your works cited sweetie anyways i love being a legend who always gets votes!!! i think i'm at 11 now?? and the most votes i got in my previous games was 4 for each of them so like...character development! eliza orlins is shitting at this gameplay. im upset because i told these guys to pm me if they're gonna vote me and what do they do? not that. rude. :( i hope to get to at least 13 so i can get on the most votes page!!! and so i can beat cracked queen madison for most votes of the season. i need to leave an impact on this season and this series!

Jay said on call "who is ready for another post-tribal ali meltdown" and guess what's happening woo. Honestly, I'm just sad. I feel like I lose to everyone left, and I have been confessing so infrequently because I keep sleeping that its not even like I can read back on what I was thinking and validate that. Honestly, I can't believe I'm literal losing how tragique

HOSTS ASSESSMENT 

Owen: are we good now? Like we trust each other? Me, out loud: Yeah, that was the deal! Me, right now: *sharpens knife*

I'm sitting uncomfortably right now so this confessional will be shorter but I lived so wig yeah! uhm i'm not miserably shocked considering... well, Emily leaked to me the plan ahead of time and when everyone was saying "Cameron!!" i'm like goodbye Ruthie. But what I realized after talking with Dana post-vote is that everyone has someone that wants protection. like... emily (generally) wants me safe. owen wants dana safe. ali wants cameron safe. so how this works? either one gives up, which is likely between cameron/me, or they crack SLIGHTLY enough to let us like slither in and utilize those cracks to at least vote one of them out. its gonna get hard going forward since i like everyone!! idk what my chances of winning the game are though. like i'd say i'm likeable and fun, but i don't think i'm openly strategic. I think Ruthie/Will/ maybe Charlotte are on my side, but as well as Dana's meaning Dana is one person I CAN'T go to f3 with. An ideal boot list would be like... 8. Owen 7. Cameron 6. Emily 5. Dana 4. Ashvika 3. Kevin 2. Ali 1. Zach Just kiddin idk woo. I don't know how or why i'm still here like i'm more smart than people think but not as smart as others think. weird... im just having so much fun wooh. oh one thing i should clarify is that call last night when i refused to vote emily? well that was planned. I knew Ruthie was likely the vote. Cameron was goin to idol himself or no one, so I didn't want to vote Emily since that'd be so misplayed and therefore, my trust with Emily would be broken. It was slightly a gamble but like... imagine if I voted her after she told me and we both stayed. She'd HATE me and not be able to trust me. WOOH! g a m e p l a y

Ali's talking about how he's paranoid about being a flop and a goat and that he's not going to win and like me too but??? please don't flip i've enjoyed my brief stay in the majority i don't want it to change skdjd im doing my best to softly but firmly steer him away from that idea??? ________________________________________________________________ i'm on call just with dana and cameron and zach i feel like a murderer hanging out with the family of his most recent victim 

I'm a Kevin warrior. It's simple as that. Congrats to him for winning immunity, but who shall I vote now?

kevin is a king, king of comps, king of immunity, king of not getting voted out, love him 

Um I love coming in second again! I love Themyscira repeating itself! I think the thing that sucks the most is that I've come in second in tie breakers for the past three rounds and like Holy fuck idk man I hate everything

high, highkey wanted to vote out kevin this round but im glad the king won immunity I guess....

I LIVED BITCH!!! I WON MY FIRST IMMUNITY CHALLENGE EVER??? OZZY LUSTH WHO COLBY DONALD WHO TOM EASTMAN WHO? I don't know if I needed that immunity this round but I'm sure gonna hold on to it!!! I feel really bad for Emily because like winning is what she deserves.jpg bc like feminism and she's iconic too but also???? I'm safe and sound today for the first time in forever sjslfjsl. Kinda upset over not getting votes. I like attention and since I'm a #flop in Survivor being targeted is my most reliable way of validation. I don't know what the plans are for tribal. With Emily's vote negator we could potentially split the votes but with a 3-2-2 vote one person could um fuck it up? And Ali seemed shaky about where he wanted to go, like what his End Game (tm) was. I...think I managed to convince him to stay with the five? From he was saying it seemed like he wanted to flip with me if there was any flipping. But genuinely I do think staying with this five is the best of plans?? Like yes it's ~boring but it's smart imo. Or at least it's what I think is good for me. I don't think for certain this soup five is gonna be the final five. But I don't think now's the time to break things up. Of course, people who think they're on the bottom might beg to differ, but I don't think there's a pecking order in this alliance. I've...wanted Dana out for awhile, but I don't know how smoothly that will go over?? For one, I don't know how willing Ashvika will be with that plan. I don't know how close Dana is. If anyone's unsatisfied with our plan to vote, they could easily walk to the other side, spill the whole beans, and then an idol or two are played and things are flipped on us. If Dana, Zach, and Cameron have both idols then splitting the vote's imperative, cause if I were in their position I'd play it. But splitting's...catastrophically risky. With the vote negator, we COULD vote out Dana hypothetically with 4 votes, regardless of how Ashvika votes...but of course, the aftermath could be messy. I...guess tomorrow night's gonna be a messy night! 

I was gonna leave a really good confession but I just showered and now my brain is mush. Here's what's going on: Last round, Owen tried to get me to flush my idol. He was being purposefully shady and told me I had "more control over the vote" than I thought, and that playing my idol "could be a wise decision." I was about ready to do it - I told Ruthie, Dana, and Zach on call that I was playing it no matter what. Then, Ali wakes up. And he promises on his life I'm not getting votes. So I don't play my idol. It was a good choice. I didn't get a single vote. Naturally, we put our votes on Kevin, and it was 5-4, with Ruthie leaving. I'm sad she's gone, but I'm extremely grateful it wasn't Dana or Zach. I'll fill you in on this round tomorrow - We're flipping this game. I'm not being on the bottom anymore.

Ahh, 4:15am EST... the perfect time to play hardball with Ali Bee about tonight's vote!! 

Henlo I am confessing! Everything should go well tonight. Tonight is the night my vote negator gets to shine! I’m going to play it on Cameron this round. And even if Cameron plays an idol, either Dana/Zach will go home because Soup intends to split the votes 3-2. 3 on Cameron, 2 on Dana/Zach. I would very much prefer Dana. But. I don’t know what the others want. But Owen and Ali are going to be the 2s. And hopefully Cameron’s bluff of “not having an idol” will actually be true and he goes home anyway. I can also explain to Zach, if I want, that I didn’t know they were splitting the votes and stuff. I mean that’d be a big ass lie but yeah. Anyways, this is a great move to have on my resume and I think I have the right to take credit for it because of my vote negator lol. It’s the best!!! WOOOO!! Thank you LILY!!!!!! I love Lily I’m so glad she gave me this thing I’m so happy. I miss her but I think she’d be proud of the moves I’m making! Wooooo!!!

literally... goodbye emily. you're not staying tonight. hasta la bye bye

I think I just helped orchestrate a 4-3-1 or 3-3-2 vote to blindside Emily, and potentially Ashvika. Like I think the 3 took the majority this vote but i'm probably going home. And as I said to Dana and Cameron on call- Dana and I are like two bacteria infecting this game with our weirdness and upsetting capabilities. 

EVERYTHING THAT CAN GO WRONG, WILL GO WRONG SOMEONE'S GETTING BLINDSIDED I JUST DON'T KNOW WHO

ugh ok so scrap the 3-2-1-1 idea because thats ay too risky for me rn, all it would take is dana and zach voting for me and I'm gone. so instead I want it to be 3-2-2, three for cameron, two for emily two for ashvika. cameron thinks its 3-3-2 rn but when the vote negator gets played then all hell will break loose lmaooooo but oh well :) hopefully emily or cameron go tonight and then I can do damage control with ashvika. this is going to work in my favor....pls god let it work in my favor

Okay, so I've done a terrible job of confessing this round... basically: Emily is going home tonight, which is a mess. As it stands, Cameron Voters: Kevin, Ashvika and Emily Emily Voters: Dana and Zach, since Cameron's vote is getting negated Ashvika Voters: Owen and I I'm devastated to see Emily go, even though I'm apart of the plan. She is a queen and I love her, soooo much. I just think Owen, Cameron and her need to go so its what needs to happen :( Cameron is playing his idol tonight which is good news, but I also am worried. The problem is the way we are executing this is going to cause issues, in that its gonna end up going 2-2 and I'm just gonna scream, I hate. I just don't know what to do in any capacity and I'm right in the middle so I'm ready for death wooooooooo! i love burning another jury vote in my march to lose at F3! :)

I'm going home even though I'm playing an idol rip

3-3-2 except cameron idols 3, emily cancels one of the 3 meaning it ties 2-2 between emily/ashvika and in the revote emily goes :( Owen leaked that Emily has a vote negator. I really flipped on Emily she gonna be shocked. She wants Dana gone. But like in the end she's going to win and she thinks she has me wrapped around her finger :( But Cameron/Owen need to go soon. I want to go to F3 with Ali and Kevin I think.

I'm taking a risk tonight and I think Emily will be going home but if I'm the one who gets the boot tonight at least I went out swinging. this is what all stars is supposed to be about and I'm proud of how I played so far. I hope the risks pay off

THERE'S ANOTHER IDOL I'M GOING HOME I CAN'T GET MEDEVACED OUT I'M SORRY IM SPAMMING AHHHHH IM GOING HOME just kidding i'm probably fine but

y'all thought 5-4 was a close vote but this time we're splitting 3-2-2 we love a cracked season. ideally cameron's going home, if not then it's dana. i might cry if dana goes home bc she said if i didn't vote her she'd make me 11 pieces of art (one piece for every vote i've gotten) and honesty that's more important to winning to me. so i'm praying that the demons don't come out tonight and an idol doesn't force us to vote out the queen herself. everyone seems cool, i'm always worried about things going wrong but when aren't i, i think ali's on board, i think everyone's on board, but we'll find out the truth after this commercial break also since i won immunity i'm gonna beat my last best placement which was 8th whew!!!

Sigh. I hope things go all right tonight. I just have a feeling that like... someone is lying to me. Cameron messaged me and was asking me if we could work together and I didn't handle it well. I just want his idol gone tbh. Then I'll work with him. Ugh. I'm just so worried. I haven't been able to... talk to a lot of people today? It makes me feel like something bad is going to happen? I don't know! Is Owen going to screw me over? Maybe Ali? Will my vote negator be wasted? I don't KNOW Y'ALL!!!

I might vote Emily and chicken out of the revote! I'm not sure eeeeeeeek

Hi ladies it's like 20ish mins until my final tribal council. I'm STRESSED AF. Ok so here is the plan that of ofc won't happen because i played myself: Ali and Owen are supposed to vote for Ashvika, while the other side thinks they are both voting for me. They probably are idk. Me Zach and Cameron are voting for Emily. Emily Kevin and Ashvika are voting for Cameron to force his idol play. My only question is: how many advantages are going to send me home tonight? I hope it's at least two or I'll be sad. All i'm saying is don't send me or my meme sister home tonight because we get upsetting without each other. He cry when he get lonely. Also I love Owen a lot and idk when he promises me i'm not going home i just believe him because he's smart. Does Kevin like being a meme? I just dunno. OK TRIBAL STARTING WOOOO GN YALL I HAD AN AMAZING TIME 

i love not knowing how I'm voting at tribal itself wooooo

nice things just can't last forever huh

My last words confessional!! Woohoo!! Okay so I definitely wasn't like... expecting to be voted out tonight, but I had some suspicions. Ali and Owen stopped talking to me a lot and... Zach didn't message me at all. Dana too? But Dana never messages me. Anyways, I had so much fun! This season was really great and I'm so honored to be considered an All Star and honestly I'm so happy to FINALLY get an even number placement (inlove) I think the only thing that makes me sad is that I was SO close to individual immunity ): but I don't feel resentment to anyone in the game at the moment, in fact, even though I know Ali and Owen turned on me, I still intend to vote for one of them in the end. Or Zach or Cameron. I think all of them have played great games! I'm excited. I think I'm going to write a little something about each player so here we go:

Ali: The light of my life! Such a great friend and ally. I'm proud of him for making it so far in the game. He's not the most confident person, especially in a game sense, but he knows what he's doing. I'm proud of him. I hope he uses that idol at the right time. But I also don't think Ali has a chance at like... winning? He'd have to have a damn good FTC and I think he's not the best impromptu speaker.

Ashvika: She's so pretty and TBH I've been wanting to work with her just because I think she's really pretty. I think she has an idol? I don't know. She's a queen tho. If I can't be Emily Diaz Twine then maybe she can be Ashvika Diaz Twine.

Cameron: We butt heads so much in games but I love him to death. I think he's played a great game too. I don't know how he's going to get to the end tbh but go him if he does. I don't really have much to say because tbh karma got its kiss for me. I screw over Cameron, Cameron screws me over back.

Dana: Photoshopping queen! I love her and I would love to work with her in a future game but I just think we didn't click this game. I really like her and she's so sweet and funny! I had a great time with her this game woo

Kevin: Okay king of memory... I guess. He's such a sweet kid!! I'm glad we got to like meet each other. I just wish he um... didn't beat me at memory. If he gets to FTC I'm making his final tribal council question a memory challenge like THAT'S THAT ON THAT

Owen: That's my winner America! I want Owen to win so bad. He really deserves it. Even tho he like flip flopped a lot like... he did what he had to do and I think every decision he's made has made sense! He's adaptable and he's smart and I'm proud of him. He's also someone I consider a friend so yay. I really hope he makes it far. He really is an All Star.

Zach: Zach is the person in this game that I am most happy to have met. I love him so much and I think we formed such a genuine friendship. I'm so so so happy to have met him!!! He's like the sweetest ever. I could go on and on about Zach because he's just such a sweet person and I hope we can work together long term in a game in the future (sun)

Okay so to sum this up: All Stars was a wild ride but I'm so thankful for the opportunity and the new friends. I wasn't the most proud of my gameplay this season but I definitely am proud of some elements. Every game I play, I learn from my mistakes, and I learn how to improve next time. This game wasn't a win, but I'm definitely going to go up from here!! I'm so thankful to have been with this cast. I love the Athena series!! Woohoo!!

Emily becomes the 13th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 3-3-1 vote (in which an idol and vote negator were played) and the 5th member of our jury. You can see Emily’s preseason interview here. 

#notallfunandgames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode # 12: “I Can’t Shut Up to Save My Life” ~ Dana

i am actually trembling. will is so mad at me but it's okay. this feels okay. I'm literally the biggest rat in this series LMAO fkasdjh fuck I feel so bad for Ali rn but I also am....fkadshf really kinda happy idk. I just know a lot of heat is coming my way and Cameron's idols are going to make me pay for this

Everyone is mad. Everyone is crying. Everyone feels fucked over. But um. Everyone is me merge vote and I am everyone merge vote. So. I guess we’re even.

im so sorry

Hi im drunk and im here to say that I almost cried in the club tonight because of how much i miss Will.   I just feel really alone and I think everyone hates me, especially owen, and im just trying to be friends n have fun and make it to the end of the game and also win is that too much to ask. IDk I played myself.  Also I actually just started crying now writing this yikes. I dont know what to do, I'm never in the minority because usually I just get voted out over all my allies because i'm upsetting. I don't know what to say to people, I don' trust anybody, why is kevin in the game. Does Ashvika actually like me? WHo knows. I'm just happy I wasn't totally blindsided. I knew Will might leave, I knew he was getting votes and I let it happen so I wouldnt get any which makes me a snake ass bitch. I just couldnt believe his vote out stayed so air-tight with the exception of Ashvika letting me know what happened. Idk if this means she wants to work with me, probably not, who would, she didn't respond to my pms after the vote, but i'm trying not to stress. Hopefully I can just continue to be a meme and appear non threatening but I just want some tea im getting thirsty nd also i love to strategize i crave it. Remember... I'm the village idiot? Like I will photoshop as many lizard hidden immunity idols on these people as i need to if these snakos dont vote me out thank u so much. This is the first time in my life where everyone hates me more than I hate myself and i just cannot handle IT. 

I...can't believe that worked??? I can't believe I voted in the majority??? ???????????? I'm really happy about this and I hope the Soup alliance (??? where did soup come from) can stick together even if just for one round. The biggest problem is if Cameron or someone else has an idol. Owen told me an idol had gone missing in one of the areas which means someone has already gotten it so we have to tread very carefully if we don't wanna get fucked.  

I love filming a 30 minute confessional about the game, where I get upset again over Will hating me and crying over how much I love Owen and Emily. I'm a mess sakdjhfa

You know? No matter what I do in this game, I’m going to be deemed a threat. Even if I don’t do shit. Even if I just sit and take orders. Hm. Well. Here’s to proving people right! If anyone’s upset with me, just know that they woke me up! Threat Emily is here and she’s ready to fucking win.

I love Ali. I love that he's such a good friend and that we're so able to move past things like this - I really do want to go far in this game with him. It's what we deserve. Wouldn't it be cute if Owen got 4th again too <3

this would be a better challenge if we could discuss xo but I think like....there isnt any way we shouldnt win unless someone is intentionally messy. two groups of people, four A's and five B's. no matter how it gets cut, whoeveer starts, one A and one B should end up in the final two with three As and four Bs voting, so someone from B SHOULD win, I think. It just alternates who starts each time, A, B, A, B or B, A, B, A, until yeah one from each is left. and it'll be easy to see who a snake is bc we directly see the lists. I'm more worried about Ashvika and Kevin at this point....but oh well. I also need to be on high alert of getting idoled out this round. Cameron is denying that he has two idols which like....yeah I'd way rather have Ashvika or Emily have one and be lying than Cameron have one, but at the same time I'm just gonna like assume  ksadjhf that Cameron has two :) worst case scenario :) so I like?? would think he uses both of them this round maybe unless he is worried more about himself, and also ugh idk like ashvika or kevin could flip or even emily/ali although I think the three of us can trust each other rn. idk yet.

I came in second... again. Woohoo! I love immunity challenges yes I do! :—————) ________________________________________________________________

(This was filmed like 7 hours before the immunity challenge)

The soup alliance is hopefully sticking together!!!! Unfortunately we can't get Cameron out so we're playing some 4d chess mind games tonight. The plan's to vote Ruthie, and then we tell the others...Zach or Cameron, I'm not sure I already forget. Not like they'll approach me about this but you know. My ass will scream if things flip on us because people are rats, double the screaming if it's me who gets flipped on butttt things are looking good so far, but then again I've found that it's when I'm most confident in our plans that I get blindsided. 

Welcome to my roundly long confessionals where I, Zachary rae, gives information on the past few days. Before we begin, I should put a disclaimer - this may be the last one! --- Hello fans! So where do I begin. Last vote Dana and Will called me in paranoia and, frankly, they were right! However, on that call I suggested that if the idea of them having majority (or half; 5) was accurate, we may as well just not split and pray for no idols. Dana didn't like that idea, and in hesitation, asked to split the vote 3-2 and... yeah. Bye Will. I was like crying afterwards though cause I genuinely love him and he's a great person and ugh it sucks cause I really wanted to continue working with him and i'm just so disappointed. Moving forward, I made an alliance of four [Ruthie/Zach/Dana/Cameron], entitled "Will's Puppets".  In this immunity, it's common sense by any mathematical logistics that one person from each "side" will make final two, and one of them five will win immunity. However, Cameron adjusted our views and just saved Ali and maybe it was because they didn't comprehend what a proper strategy was, or perhaps to build bonds with Ali. In the end, I voted (once again, wow) in the minority and for Emily to win immunity, but Ali came out victorious. Good job for him! Going into tribal it's kind of like... there are 5 people on one side, vs us four. Dana and I talked and it's kind of like... we needed a plan. Ideally, everyone knows that Cameron (and Ali) have an idol. They want Cameron out, I believe THAT part of their expression, but they know he isn't easily struck as he's likely playing his idol tonight. Dana and I realized a good way to escape, since it's probably better to take out one of us, is to get in the good graces of Emily and Owen. I like them both as people, I genuinely do, but in this game they are two of the biggest threats to win. What we are suggesting to Owen is that in the event we take out Ruthie this vote, and then Cameron next, it's final 7 and that's when you need to start realizing who you want to be with in the finale. Dana called with Owen for so long suggesting that if me and her are safe (we're trying to separate ourselves slightly but like saying we both think alike), then we can help him take out Emily at 7. He needs the numbers since Emily is a powerful player. I don't know if he sees value in me but hopefully he likes me cause he thinks i'm funny and I love him. I go to Emily and I say that I will make sure Cameron plays his idol as my piece of leverage to keep me safe. They vote out Ruthie, Cameron flushes his idol and goes next, and then it's FFA at final seven, and I think at that time Dana and I are safe for one vote. Do I want to go to the end with Dana though? HELL NO!! Originally I was thinking I would love to sit with Kevin and Ruthie. If Ruthie goes, then I think i'd want to go with Kevin and Ali. Maybe Ashvika but... i'm not sure. She's just so adorable and likeable but she's not playing strategically amazing like other people. Neither am I though so I can't talk. Do I think Emily's being honest with me though when she leaked that "Ruthie's the vote and she wants to clue me in"? Not at all. I would not be surprised if I leave tonight, and she better be able to justify herself when she lies. She's manipulative and a liar (IN A GOOD WAY I STAN!!) but like I don't vote bitterly, I vote who I think I connected with more and played better, and if you can't justify why i'm the good vote this round (which I truthfully disagree i'm a good vote this round), then you ain't getting my vote. I also think if I survive I can easily go final 4/5. Dana's a bigger threat than me, which is my strategy to align with physically bigger threats so i'm able to slide by like a little snake, and say Ruthie/Cameron leave next, then Dana, one of Emily/Owen and Ashvika even are the big threats. I don't see how I will go unless it's final 4/5 but who knows. I'm not being cocky but that's how I see things, and if they let Dana make it further than me, which is possible, i'll be shocked. I really will be. Also can I just say how much I adore Owen. Dana said he talked about how funny I was and he pmed me saying that i'm funny and hilarious and despite the occurrences in this game, he'd love to be friends and I agree. Though this is a message reassuring i'm probably leaving tonight, I adore him and he has my vote 100% if he makes FTC and I leave. I don't want to leave, but that's the fact. Weirdly - well not weirdly but just... I don't know. I'm troll. I'm just trying to play fun but I really don't want to leave tonight like i'll cry. I've had so much fun and i'm not ready to leave and... ugh. I really want to be here and prove myself because I don't think I have and I don't want to see myself as a flop. Not saying 10th+ is a flop, but saying that I haven't done anything or utilized my All Star spot yet, and it's just... ugh. I'm defeated. I hope I can stay to keep going further in this game but... I don't know. I hope this isn't my last confessional. I really hope I get to stay and... elaborate on my amazing gameplay. Joke, of course, but I do hope I get to stay. please!!! :(

This could be my last confessional. When I go home tonight and become the long suffering 4th juror I have waited 8 games and lots of failed strategy to become, I just want to say it’s been a fun game and I genuinely love everyone. Tribal is in 3 hrs and I just don’t know how i’m Voting. The biggest meme of all is that I implicitly trust Owen, who I feel is far and away the best player in this game. I told him I don’t think he can get to the end with goats, because they’ll all flip on him, and I think that’s true. He needs other key players as buffers towards the end. Inevitably when the Emily v. Owen power struggle for power, glory, and stardom breaks out, I’d LOVE to be a spectator still in the game. I will vote how Owen tells me tonight, and even though he has promised me i’m not going home, i’m Not sure he’s in the position to promise that. I just dunno. I had such a good talk with him last night and tbh if nothing else that was amazing jury management. He knows I can’t shut up to save my life, and he just let me talk for hours. So thank u for validating my goblin personality. Also he told me he thought I was smart which honestly... my kink thank u. I also talked to Ali for a while this morning, and he says he’s doing his best to keep me and Cameron safe, I believe it idk. Like why lie to me i’m On the bottom and everyone knows i’m an idol-less sad snake, so like no point tbh. The hardest part about playing with him is that I feel like I want him to succeede more than he wants himself to succeede. Like I can’t want it for you, and had so much to work with, I just wish he would own it. He’s like a defenseless almond and I just want him to be a bad bitch ya know? Finally, I’m trying to play with Ashvika here and use the fact that she game me info last round that I “kept quiet” as a bargaining chip to show I can be trusted. Will Ashvika end up as my target or my closest ally u be the judge. Overall I’m so prepared to get voted out i’ve all but made total peace with it. Hopefully I can push through tonight wih my sparkling personality and some wheeling and dealing. ________________________________________________________________ Owen stopped talking to me about the game which means i’m going home. I love watching my own death occur in real time. 

thanks for reminding me about the way zach pronounces mario. I know what I'm writing on the parchment tonight.

I..... have no idea what's going on tonight.

THAT WASNT MY LAST CONFESSIONAL BECAUSE.. OWEN AND EMILY ARE SNAKES! (mario)

iiiii feel really uneasy about ashvika for some reason??? idk she keeps asking if we're voting for ruthie, so she could be planning to #flip on us which would be a dumb move, or maybe she's just confused and if that's the case then me too. Owen and I kinda talked about this the night before because we know she's somewhat attached to Dana but like we ain't voting Dana so I hope that's not a problem. And I mean we both voted for Ruthie at the Duncan blindside so like??? I hope she wants to do it again?? I just think any of us flipping now especially would be bad for us and for them. I have secure trust in everyone else in this alliance so like...let's make it through please??? If anyone goes home I hope it isn't Emily because I think her vote negator can play an important role in f8, no matter who goes home tonight. Iiiii just don't want things to get fucked up tonight!!! and i haven't talked to anyone from the other side (i mean they could approach me but yknow two way street and all that) and idk if i should??? bc being too pushy and saying oh yeah we're voting cameron could be a big miss steak??? 

I can’t be the only one who sees that Owen is aligned with Cameron right?? I thought I would have been one of his closest allies after the duncan voted but he didn’t save me and later chose to save Cameron over ali even though he’s supposedly in the minority, and now he’s vying not to vote Cameron out? I understand he makes some good points but  it’s sketchy 

im going home bye ________________________________________________________________ I LITERALLY FEEL WHAT IS HAPPENING DSAKSJHF I AM GETTING FLIPPED ON BY EMILY PROBABLY EITHER THAT OR LIKE???? IM GETTING IDOLED TF OUT OF HERE AND I JUST WANNA DIE WHERE IS ALI I NEED TO TALK TO ALI I WAS SUPPOSED TO TALK TO HIM FSDHAFHJ GOD

Day by day, I get closer to voting Kevin as the sole survivor of Athena All-Stars. Congratulations, I played myself, but Kevin played me better. 

ali is rlly acting sketchy why :'( i think I'm going home ugh ________________________________________________________________ I dont think ali will idol me and I want 2 scream dfskajhkdjfhkjsdhfjkhsdkjfhkjsdhfkjds

so I won immunity and literally am confessing at tribal and am a mess

Ruthie becomes the 12th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 5-4 vote, and the 4th member of our jury. You can see Ruthie’s preseason interview here. 

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode #11: “I Love a Good Heist” ~ Will

It fucking worked and I want to redact everything bad I just said.

i'm none of them saying anything to me yet and I'm also me not seeing this coming when Will was all of a sudden not in favor of the telling duncan to idol plan lmaoooo gg

is no one going to message me!! i am so freaking upset right now and i kinda just want to explode but really no one is going to try to justify themselves to me, i'm a little disappointed tbh and i got to learn how to win a fucking immunity for once 

AMANDA AND HER MOTHER ARE ICONS I JUST GOT MY SECOND IDOL, I DO NOT DESERVE THIS

I'm so mad right now I want to SCREAM, why the HECK did I get that many votes, something isn't adding up and I'm just so frustrated. Also who made me the glee parchment, if you're reading this TELL ME it was the only thing good about tonight I am really just SO DONE WITH ALL THESE SNAKES. I'm being so extra right now but these people make me want to throw my laptop into the road. 

Cameron told Emily to vote Duncan :) We love a snake within our alliance :) I love a good heist :)

emily is a queen again btw, I love her

i don't know why i'm so salty

HOLY CRAP WE DID THAT! Duncan didn't play his idol and I'm literally crying. We killed one of the biggest threats in the game. And I was behind it. What. the. fuck.

fskhjf god the lady at the dining hall asked me how i was and on the outside i was like "good" but on the inside im like "playing virtual editions ofr trash reality shows on the internet with strangers I have never met has left me feeling like i want to cry bc ppl lied to me have u ever been lied to how did u get over it and also can i please have some chicken nuggets" jesus and then someone talked to me and i didnt know how to respond bc i was having an EPISODE in the dining hall it's fine this is fine ________________________________________________________________ let the ass kissing begin

I'm gonna confess tomorrow, but I have become aware.... of some shady stuff, and am now in a really good spot... or at least I think I am

OH MY GAWD NO IDOL PLAY. ARE YOU MCFUCKIN KIDDING ME!? I dont want to say that I am large in part why Duncan is @ Ponderosa right now BUT WIG WOW IS THIS THE BIGGEST MOVE IVE EVER MADE IN A GAME OR WHAT. ALSO i'm here for weasel discourse: [1/11/18, 10:48:07 PM] Dana Barry: because clearly we both bein sneaky weasels [1/11/18, 10:48:54 PM] Owen (Crossroads Host): kfashj who the bigger weasel [1/11/18, 10:49:01 PM] Dana Barry: OWEN PLEASE [1/11/18, 10:49:12 PM] Dana Barry: LETS NOT COMPARE WEASEL SIZES [1/11/18, 10:49:15 PM] Owen (Crossroads Host): OMFG [1/11/18, 11:12:14 PM] Owen (Crossroads Host): I’m gonna go eat now I’ll be back later [1/11/18, 11:31:53 PM] Dana Barry: pls eat my weasel friend ________________________________________________________________ https://vine.co/v/hWVwWE6UFqa/embed/simple Me when the people of this game give my dumb ass power and I crave more because I'm a goblin. 

This was recorded before the vote im SORRY im a flop 

It's time to strike at Owen. He's onto us. We're making big moves left and right, and he knows that we're going to get targeted as threats soon if we're not careful. He said we have to get rid of Ruthie and Kevin, otherwise people are going to start thinking about taking them to the end. Of course, that's my plan. I think I want to sit with Ruthie and Ali/Dana at the end. Will, Emily, or Owen would surely beat me. I'm here, masterminding moves, deciding whether or not someone easy goes home, and someone is going to target me soon. My idol can only save me for one round, and I need to make sure it's a good one. Lily was a good move. Duncan was a better move. Owen could potentially be the best move. Then I know my core four is completely loyal to me and only me. This is my ideal boot list now: Owen (10th) Ashvika (9th) Kevin (8th) Zach (7th) Emily (6th) Will (5th) Dana (4th) And then a final three of Ruthie (3rd), Ali (2nd), and myself (1st!) That's all. Love you. It's time for me to go focus on winning again.

Boy I'm mad. Duncan was the one person who I could put some trust in--and even then there wasn't much--and now he's dead. Now I feel like my game's already gone through the gutter and there's no hope left. Shoutout to Ali and Cameron specifically for both telling me "Oh yeah I'm sorry for not keeping you in the loop at the first vote, I promise I'll do it this time?" Then, what did they do? Not that. I'm...mediocrely okay with Ali because like Ali's nice and a sweetheart (actually I'm kinda mad at Ali because I pm'd him asking what happened like immediately after tribal and he never responded even though he's talked multiple times in the tribe chat...wig). But Cameron??? This is the third time. We've voted together once, at the Madison tribal, even though you've told me multiple times you want to work with me. I was okay with being 'left in the dark' with the Lily vote because I wasn't actually in the dark. I feel like this was a chance for him to prove his word to me, that you do want to work with me. This was the chance to make or break my trust. And both times I've come to him before the vote and he's basically said 'oh yeah it's still this way like we said haha.' And then??? It isn't lmao. Like if you don't want to work with me, cool! I understand that the game rolls out that way! But don't come to me with fake promises then, saying you want to work with me, only to actually vote with me 3/4 times. At some point no amount of apologies will make up for your actions. I don't know if I've reached that breaking point, but it's getting close. I get that I started the merge on the wrong foot, and that I should've voted Lily instead and sticking with Ruthie was a mistake. I know I got myself into this mess but I'm just annoyed and frustrated. I've been perfectly honest with everyone about who I'm voting for each round, and I get silence and vague responses in return. If I feel mad enough tomorrow I might try going for Cameron since he has an idol. Or at least like throwing his name around and spilling that fact. But who knows who knows he has an idol though. If it works, it works. If it doesn't, I might get home which I honestly wouldn't be super upset at this point and I would get to be a bitter juror too! 

I love Dana

I am an Owen stan again too, I love him. I need to confess more, because it might be big move season this round, but I also don't knowwwwwww. AHH, I hate this yikes. I just get scared by Dana/Will/Cameron as a grouping, with Zach and Ruthie is already 5, which is scary

i have realized i'm quite irrelevant in this game and basically out of the loop without duncan because all these supposed idols that everyone has keep popping up left and right. i feel like my time is coming soon 

"Who do you trust the least" "Who is most likely to flip on their alliance" "Who is ruining their own game" "Who is at the bottom but doesn't know it" "Who is going to go home for being the biggest threat" "Who is going to be blindsided by their alliance" literally they wish they were as relevant as me huh ________________________________________________________________ Actually though, I am going to make sure every one of these comes true. Let's see here.... "Who do you trust the least" "Who is most likely to flip on their alliance" "Who is ruining their own game" "Who is at the bottom but doesn't know it" "Who is going to go home for being the biggest threat" "Who is going to be blindsided by their alliance" Flipping on my alliance? Easy. If they insist, that's what I'll do. I will reallllly make it clear that they were right in trusting me the least :) And! They'd better hope! They take me out! For being a "threat" because if they do NOT, I am going to make sure each and everyone one of them is GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They better not feel comfortable for even one second bc if there's one good thing to come out of this, it's that I no longer feel comfortable at all and hopefully me playing on edge will end up better for me. I just had an hour long call with Ali and we basically like....discussed everything. I don't know if I can trust him, but I sure as hell can't trust my alliance to take me to the end, so what have I got to lose? I told him I know about his idol, which I think was a move to hopefully get him to open up to me. And he told me that the merge idol has been taken from the shore. I'm assuming Emily, Ashvika, Cameron, or Ruthie have it bc they searched there before Ali. Ashvika I straight up asked and she said no.... I have a bad feeling Cameron is sitting on two idols rn and I don't know if I can handle it. But I was like.... idk I said a lot of things to Ali and I meant them. He said he felt like he didnt have a number one, and I told him we could be there for each other. He has a spot in my final three now whether he believes it or not and I would gladly sit at the end with him at this point. But we need numbers and we need a play. It feels so soon to try to flip on will dana Cameron but like..... If we wait until next vote to idol someone out, and Ruthie/Zach are glued to them, then at final 8 it would be four on each side (assuming I can get emily and ashvika to be with ali and I, and Kevin leaves at 10 which idek if it is happening). So that makes me think like....okay so maybe a move needs to happen at 10 that puts Kevin, Emily, Ali, Ashvika and I in a majority? But it's so fricking risky bc idk if they're going to come after me or come after Kevin or Emily or....idk. It's going to be rough as hell. But I'm ready. I don't know if I'm going to win this season, but I sure am going to try my hardest to change it. ________________________________________________________________ (On the other hand I love Dana, Wil, Cameron, and Zach as people so idk I'm stressin mad rn.)

Here's my long confessional like always explaining the events of last round and then the progress for this current round. So last round was just a mess. I brought up to Dana the night of immunity results (congrats Will you freak) that Duncan is a threat. He has an immunity idol and a hideout advantage, if we don't do it at 11, he'll be free till technically final 8 without being targeted. In addition, it limits our options down the line. Dana agreed and said it wasn't bad, and ended up running to people with this idea without crediting me. Grrr. It's fine. Dana, Will, Cameron all excluded Owen in this plan and I believe think they orchestrated it themselves when in reality it was kind of my idea but they pushed it forward so it's whatever. I called Emily in panic because I didn't want to exclude her and little do I know that Cameron already informed her of the decision before I finalized mine. In the end, Duncan leaves 8-3. Post-vote, I am trying to reestablish any trust I have with Ashvika. I can sense she doesn't trust me which is completely reasonable and fine, but I am wanting to work with her. Kevin is irrelevant but I want to talk to him and form a good connection with him. Now, this vote. Cameron was my target. Will talked about how he wanted Cameron out to Dana who obviously relayed that information to me, and I think Owen was fine with doing it too. I am also trying to formulate connections with Owen despite the fact that he knows I blatantly lied about the Duncan vote and all. However, Cameron won immunity, so good job to him. This means that my target probably shifts to one of two people. First is Kevin. He's kind of an easy vote, a person who wasn't really around and is definitely the most inactive. If we need an easy tribal, it's him. Ruthie's another easy vote but right now is not her time and I genuinely love her, but I do enjoy everyone so I can't use that. I'm not sure how likely this option is. I think I could get it rolling if need be. My second is Ali. This is just because recently i've felt really distant with him. I think I can trust him, yeah, but from what I know Owen is fine with him leaving and it's like... yeah. I think Ali should go relatively soon. If the votes are on him i'm most definitely going to vote him out unless i'm frightened of an idol play. I am honestly kind of scared of the alliance consisting of Cameron/Will/Owen/Dana + Ali. It's like... they're turning on each other briefly. Cameron is rubbing people the wrong way, which I love him and all truthfully, but he is kind of aggressive with dominating votes and spearheading decisions, which I think is ending up biting him in the ass. I truly think he'll be one of the next couple of votes. Ali is like the alliance's +1 so if they can vote him out, i'm down with that too. Ashvika, Emily, Ruthie, and Kevin are kind of on the outs of that alliance (with me of course) but more distant than myself. I need to utilize those bonds to kind of renege the major alliance cause I don't feel like being cut near the end. No ma'am. So having Ali leave this vote, then Cameron next vote, followed by Kevin leaves a final 7 of Ashvika/Ruthie/Owen/Zach/Dana/Will/Emily. In this scenario it's like... it gets hard. I want to work with Emily, but there are so many people here that are such strong contenders. Owen, Dana, Will and Emily are all phenomenal players, and i'd love to consider myself amongst those people too (PARTICULARLY IN THIS GAME! NOTICE THAT I LOVE THEM ALL AND THINK THEY'RE ALL GREAT BUT IN THIS SPECIFIC GAME THAT'S MY VIEW ON STANDINGS). I don't want to be goated, which I potentially could be since i'm acting weird and dull this game, so maybe I could swap Kevin in the final seven and drop another big threat, like Ashvika or Owen. The people who I trust the most right now are Dana and Emily. I trust Owen to an extent, and I really like talking to him. Ashvika and Kevin and Ruthie are just meh, I don't trust them. Cameron is to a degree but he's sketchy. Will is just... ugh MSDGLKDSG I love him I think he's so funny but he probably hates me. Ali is trustworthy but I feel like that's relative amongst all. I really don't know who i'd like to sit against in the final three (or two but likely three). I've reached my goal of jury and 100 days so i'm content, but I want to win. I think my best chances would be against Ruthie and Kevin, but I don't know. Dana needs to go soon too. Like, maybe final 4-7 is when i'd love to see her leave because I bet everyone views me as her bitch and sure, I kind of am at the moment, but that's partially strategy. Everyone thinks i'm her +1 so to those that like her, i'm safe. They know they can use me. Then to others, i'm the weaker of the two and therefore they have no valid reason to target me unless they want to weaken her, in which case bye bye. This game is so complicated and votes are NEVER decided until last minute which is bothersome but kind of fun. I think I have a high chance of leaving at this upcoming tribal truly, or at least receiving votes, so i'm excited to see what's to come. Hopefully i'm still here but if now, it's been a great season and i'm glad I got the chance to return and hopefully make y'alls slightly proud wooh!

Okay lots to confess I wish I confessed earlier in the round so I wouldn't have so much to recount. So anyways, the Duncan vote happens, and it still makes me sad. I will never understand why he felt so betrayed by me and kinda continued to throw my name out there because I wanted to go far with him. Also I called with Emily after the vote and I already knew at this point she leaked me idol (which Emily *why*). I dont understand why everyone felt so betrayed by me, when I was trying to loop everyone in? It doesn't make any sense. Anyway, I called with her and we seem good again, and I do want to work with her moving forwards. ________________________________________________________________ I spoke with Ashvika and explained why I voted Duncan, and I think she is the person I wanna work with most now, like Id love to go far with her, because I am an Ashvika stan. Touchy Subjects was very interesting, Will guessed me for a lot of the negative game ones which suggests he doesn't have much faith in my game and I got who does everything think has an idol, blind to manipulation, who is gonna need to be apologised to, who is getting blindsided. Lots of very scary ones. So... I'm nervous. I'm also nervous becuase I called with Owen yesterday, and as normal, I said waaay too much to Owen, and while I wanna work with him going forwards, I also think he could easily say what I said to LWD and get me out. ALSO IN OTHER MC'FREAKIN NEWS: I HAVE ANOTHER IDOL. AND NOBODY IS EVER FINDING OUT. I am using the fact that everyone says I leak stuff (because I do) and "leaking" that shore 23 is empty, so that nobody thinks I have it. I wanna use the other idol soon, so nobody thinks I have one teehee

Okay the gag is Duncan and I apparently got found out or were suspected or something so congrats to them for sleuthing successfully but also according to Ali people thought Ashvika and I were close??? Which??? Isn't true??? I hardly even know her??? sjlks Anyways I love these Touchy Subjects answers they make me feel really good about myself. I basically threw the challenge because I didn't feel like I had a good chance of winning anyway, and I'm not really in the position to offend anyone lmao which is evident by the answers. Apparently people trust me the least even tho...I've told pretty much everyone who I'm voting for in the last round. On an exciting note people want to vote for me tonight! At this point just take me out of the game and catapult me into the sun. I'm ready for it. The one person I wanted out of this game won immunity so. I don't know what my plans are but accepting death seems like a good idea right now.

This jury is literally gonna be pissed at everyone so I need to start doing whatever I can to make them think we're close, that we're friends. I'll talk to Kevin about Netflix, I'll tell Ashvika she's a queen, I'll give Owen a backrub idgaf but I need to make sure Cameron looks worse than I do. None of them think Ali's done anything, and Dana...they think she's cracked too. The only person I'm okay with beating me is Dana and that's that.

Something good happening at tribal council? For once there's even a possibility. After chatting with Owen we're trying to start something. Him Ashvika and I all voted for Ruthie last round, so if we stick together that's 3, and we're hoping for at least 5. Our best bets are Emily and Ali. I have no idea if this has a shot of working tbh but I feel like tonight's all or nothing. Unfortunately we can't get Cameron. I tossed around Dana or Zach's names to Owen but like, whoever Ali and Emily (or whoever we can get) want to vote, we'll vote. I don't know how solid the majority alliance is, or who's in cahoots with who, so this is a very...fragile, could-break-at-any-moment plan. If there's any way of convincing these two, the Touchy Subjects answers show that they're not safe if they stick with that side. Time to actually talk to them though and see what's up tho ahhhh ________________________________________________________________ I told Ali Duncan said Dana said Cameron had an idol. Ali revealed that he voted for Duncan because he was telling people Ali told him about the idol. Ali then said to me "I knew he was covering for someone it must be Dana." The gag is I honestly don't know if it was actually Dana skdkdkf I remember her name in the conversation we had but like??? But if it convinces Ali then it works for now

Why did I put Owen to be blindsided by his alliancE? bc I’m his alliance And I’m gonna blindside him

So Owen voted for me not Emily hmmm Maybe he was the one that made the pretty glee voting thing What’s that paper called again? Omg yes parchment 

I’m really scared for this tribal. Owen, Ali, and I have made an alliance and are talking about voting with Kevin and possibly Ashvika. I want to pull in Zach and maybe Dana, but the problem is,,,,, Owen and Ali and Kevin want to vote Dana. I want Dana to stay. I don’t know why. I think I’m just bein gay. I want Will out tbh. And I would’ve wanted Cameron if he wasn’t fucking immune but NO of course I have to be HORRIBLE at tie breakers!!! I’m really shocked by some of the things I got in touchy subjects like wtf man. You’ll enjoy voting me out? You wish you had gotten me out pre-merge? You have to apologize to me after this game? Interesting. This is one of those Touchy Subjects results that I realy wanna take notes about. Usually I don’t take them too seriously but I’m #offended. Ugh I really want to work with Zach but I’m scared of Dana and him being a duo sort of like how Lily and I were a duo I guess? Ugh. I don’t know how to like,,,,, get around that. There’s a lot to figure out about this vote. But I think we can get something going. All I know is that I’m not really feeling like voting for Kevin tonight. ;-) we’ll see what happens

I am LITERALLY a rat and I feel guilty but if this works out then it's fine. I'm fine. Everything will be fine. I need to keep people in this game around me and I'm gonna take heat for it and Cameron might idol me out but like....oh well. ________________________________________________________________ Basically the pieces came together, Emily Ali and I made a chat and we all like fkshd worked on getting Kevin and Ashvika on board. Emily thought she could play a vote negator to make it 5-4 but she cant use it yet SO instead I was like ok I'll try to get them to split the votes somehow and both Will and Dana suggested it anyways kfadsjh lmao so hopefully it's like..... 5-3-2 tonight. I wanted it to be Dana at first bc if it does somehow tie 5-5 I felt like Ruthie would flip and vote Dana but not Will, but maybe now Zach would flip and vote for Will idk probably not. Also I still love Will :'( this game will feel weird without him but he's a huge threat. So is Cameron and Dana tbh like everyone is lowkey trying to press their own agenda and I think they're getting weary of one another but....idk. I feel like I need to do this now bc it'll be me actually taking things into my own hands rather than Kevin leaving and me relying on dana or will wanting Cameron out whenever they decide. I wish Will didn't have to go and if this all blows up on me then fine but like...yeah. god. ppl are gonna be upset with me, wigs all around ! ________________________________________________________________ THE ANGEL ON MY SHOULDER IS CRYING BUT THE DEVIL ON MY SHOULDER IS LAUGHING im so ugly i cant wait for this to go wrong and then ppl laugh at me for being an idiot when they read my confessionals after ________________________________________________________________ Lowkey it seemed too easy to get will and dana to want to split the vote and now Ali has disappeared too? I feel like Ali spilled and now theyre all just gonna vote for me but if thats the case then oh well I was never gonna win without trying to get trust in people

STOP STRESSING ME THE FUCK OUT good bye dana barry .

Finally a vote where I know what’s happening and the people that control everything... don’t. I’m excited! My first blindside where I’m on the like... right end? Wow. I love taking matters into my own hands. Will made an Azores alliance and I feel HORRIBLE because I’m voting him out this round lmao. And Cameron made an alliance with Will and Cameron and I just GOD at his is going to be hard because I could be ruining some potential allies... but also... who cares? I’m making a move, y’all! If it doesn’t work out, then so be it. But I’m putting my trust into Owen, Ali, Ashvika, Kevin... people that I really didn’t expect to work with all together but I’m thankful nonetheless. I’m also thinking this group of five is good because Kevin, Ashvika, and Ali will be easier to beat in the end? I think? Idk. I’m trying to think ahead as much as I can, and weakening Cameron & Co. is the first step to that. I feel guilty but this is what I have to do to win. It’s All Stars, Emily! ALL STARS! GET UR HEAD IN THE GAME!

I made an alliance with Will and Emily. I want Will to think he's my #1. He's not. I told them we're winning. We're not. Well... they're not. me: this alliance is winning Me: knows that neither of these two can make it to the end

Kevin is voting me yikes.com. I'm getting idoled out yall and it has been fun. Ashvika and Kevin have idols and I get majority = HELP ME PLEASE AMERICA. I'm on call with ASHVIKA and she says THEY ARE VOTING OUT WILL. WHAT DO I DO PLEASE. AND APPARENTLY IF THEY DONT VOTE FOR WILL THEY ARE VOTING FOR ME. If this is all a scare tactic.... it sure is working!!!! More to come later I have 20 minutes to entirely flip this vote ladies. Mama IS staying tonight know that!

OKAY SO! I voted for Ashvika. Why? Well, two or three reasons. 1. I've voted in the majority. Every time. I can't do that. I will become a target and I want to look like I'm being bobo the fool. 2. If someone (Ashvika) plays an idol on Kevin, it burns her. Also, it protects us (Me, Ali, Dana, Will, but the latter 3 because I'm safe) in the event that someone does idol Kevin. Also, I'm so glad I won immunity. It's a bad time for me personally and this made everything easier. Thank you, survivor gods. Thank you.

kevin and ashvika couldnt keep their mouths shut and now I'm getting idoled out. it's been real xoxoxo

I'm literally about to go home, but at least if I do I was able to crack the code and see it coming first. Kinda like Margaery in GoT, she saw it coming but she was just a little too late to stop it. ________________________________________________________________ Well I mean like I called it so y'all aren't as slick as you thought, there just really wasn't anything I could do. I got outplayed by snakes who were willing to throw away the last ounces of respect I had for them, but like I would've done the same and just been more respectful about it. And if you think writing "I hope it's a tie" in your voting confessional absolves you of anything you gotta like...use your brain sorry, if you don't want someone to go home you don't vote for them - it's not that hard! But it's been a fun game and this isn't the last of me (sorry if you wanted it to be). Cast me in your games more often I'm fun!!! xoxo

Will becomes the 11th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 5-3-2 vote, and the 3rd member of our jury. You can see Will’s preseason interview here.

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode #10: “Can You Hear My Eyes Rolling Cause They Are” ~ Owen

I LIVED!!!! Which is good, I'm so glad to be on the side with numbers, that was a good blindside, I'm trying not to feel too bad for Emily since she WROTE MY NAME DOWN. also i wonder who the other vote for me was, i bet it was Cameron so he can play both sides. *EYES* I'm so happy to still be here time to win this challenge! ________________________________________________________________ Also I don't get why Lily is so salty she tried to BLINDSIDE ME

i didn't switch to lily because im mostly a dumbass. also i didn't want her to be bitter but five minutes later that decision turned out to mean nothing. emily voted ruthie with me, i'm not sure who the third vote was??? could they please stand up im tired of living in the dark. i think lily voted for me (also i love getting votes in my last three tribals it's the only thing that makes me feel relevant). anyways what matters is that i'm here, but i don't know how much longer i'll last at this rate. to be fair i was honest with these ppl about who i was voting for so like...but it's also like if i had better connections i would've known but oh well!! new round new me am i right haha :,)

If you think I cried a lot in Themyscira, you should see me now. I'm a pro at this point

LILY'S GONE LILY'S NOT ON JURY CHARLOTTE IS ON JURY I M W I N N I N 

Ok I know I'm not supposed to be here and "the tribe has spoken" but hold up. Did Lildemort really just quit? Sis put all that Coco Montrese-level work in round after round to get me out JUST to quit when the going got tough? And now CHARLOTTE is getting whisked away to fill the jury spot?

I can't even. Yes the evil is defeated and good for Charlotte BUT BITCH. Are... are y'all saying... that this is protocol? So like if anything else goes haywire or someone else quits, IM GOING INTO JURY??? I suddenly don't remember unstanning Athena and my PTSD from these seasons is in check again. Athena jury is my true calling and if this is All-Stars and y'all want the most lit jury.... please please please let me fuck it up. I know I know nothing's official and yes this is Charlotte's moment but like

Ya know you could always do a twistos twist. We don't have to do the same thing twice, someone else quitting and a prejuror coming back. Athena trailblazes and I have been a stellar guinea pig my whole life. Ok so placement! We could be poetic: since I got blindsided 5-2 again, I could be Juror #3 again. OR we could wait a bit and I walk in like 5th or 6th, give my enemies a chance to get there ya know and then I wreak havoc. OR we can be super messy, put me in last, and then everyone will be on the floor deceased. I'm very open minded and down to negotiate. Aaaaalll I'm saying is: if y'all want the drama and the ratings, you know who to call

Whew it's taking a whole lot out of me to put effort into my social game. Like I'm really drained. Like so incredibly drained. Talking to these people really hurts honestly. It really does. And for some reason, I'm the least upset with Will and Cameron. Cameron specifically, I'm fine with quite honestly. He was the only one that had the courage to message me last night and... it just made me feel better. No one else messaged me. Ali did but I think it was because Cameron messaged him telling him to message me. I feel most betrayed by Ali honestly mkdsmfkacsd I'm really trying to decide my next course of action

Emily telling me she's the least mad at me and Cameron after the Lily vote is incredible, seeing as we were two of the people pushing the hardest for her to go. Remember that social game everyone said I didn't have in Azores? Here it is now, because I have Emily, Owen, Zach, and Ruthie all spilling tea and taking the fall for me while the rest of the alliance takes the heat. If anything, my ass is safe for at least one more round because Dana put a huge target on herself - not saying that I would EVER want Dana to go, because I feel like we can protect her if she's the target. There are whispers that Duncan's gonna be the next target for his flip-flopping behavior, and Emily might even want to target Owen next. If we let Emily think she has some power after last night, we could steer her right into getting idoled out which would be evil but also incredible. If Owen/Dana/Ali are her public enemies number 1, 2, and 3 right now then... that's perfect for me. A path is opening up towards the end for me, and I really, really love it. Some people don't learn from their mistakes, but it's 2018 and this year is about growth and personal development - I know why I lost Azores, and now I can see how I can win All Stars. ________________________________________________________________ I'm starting to get worried though because I'm realizing I don't think I can beat Cameron in a F3...and I don't like the thought of having to vote him out and I don't think I could beat him in a F4 tiebreaker either...So the next few tribals need to look like this: F11/F10 boot is Duncan/Owen, F9 boot is Emily, F8-F6 is some combination of Ashvika/Ruthie/Zach, then F5 boot is Cameron and F4 would be unanimously Kevin. Like I said, we can let Emily dictate the F11/F10 targets and I think she'd go for those two first, then we can let her think it's one of us going and play an idol to take her out at F9 (and Cameron/myself wouldn't get the heat). Then we have a clear majority at F8 of our 4 plus really...any of the others who wanna keep going. Then at F6, any idols will have to be played so I just need to make sure I don't become a robbed legend. And then F5 will either be 4-1 or 3-2 and Cameron has to go - and I hate hate HATE that but I'm so worried about me being safe at F4 hinging on winning final immunity. But we'll see I guess. If I'm gonna go to the F3 with my alliance, it needs to be with Ali and Dana - because people think they're erratic and floaters. This is how it's gonna have to be though and I can see a path to the end...but it's not an easy path and people are gonna be Mad with a big fat capital M.

OH HOHO, SO DUNCAN WANTS ME OUT HUH? Well honey, I've got some news for you. One, I have an idol. Two, I have friends in high places. And three? You are not so powerful. I am loved and I am winning this game, and taking the days played record right from your hands. I love you, but you are not taking me down today. 

Whew I've been a roller coaster of emotions for the past twenty four hours and I've finally calmed down and I feel a lot more woke now. Here are some comments on everyone still in the game. ALI: Ali is a hard one because both Duncan and I feel very betrayed by him. Ali didn't fill Duncan in on the Lily vote, it was someone else that told Duncan. And I thought Duncan and Ali were like spearheading the Duncan vote. And I also told Owen about Ali's idol, but I'll get to that part. I don't think I trust Ali anymore unless he can prove to me otherwise. I've been having a very difficult time talking to him because I do feel incredibly betrayed. What I don't understand is why he thought that I had an idol or Lily had an idol? I didn't. I think he knew that. I told him so many times I just wanted to be informed of what was happening, and I thought a good, trustworthy ally of mine would tell me the truth. But he didn't. Not until 10:00. Which I think is very cowardly. I'm playing with a flock of cowards. ASHVIKA: Honestly I'm really pissed she's in such an... untouchable position? In my eyes, she's been super inactive? Maybe that's wrong, but I've not talked to her much at all. I believe she's in an untouchable position because of her allies. She's got Will, Dana, Zach, Duncan... like people on all sides? And that makes me mad? She's going to make it far and it makes me upset. DANA: Queen of unknowingly telling me that Lily was going last night <3 LOL Dana didn't know that I didn't know Lily was leaving and was straight up with me so that's real cute. I know she's close with Zach and has talked about wanting to work with Zach and I but I don't even know where Zach and I stand... I'll comment on that later in Zach's portion of this confession. I also feel like Dana is in a good position and it's >:( PUT ME IN UR POSITIONS U FUCKS DUNCAN: Duncan I thought was a lot more in on the vote than he actually was, which makes me feel bad about exposing his idol to Owen, but I was just SO MAD!!! I think Duncan is feeling the same way about Ali as I am. He's really hurt that Ali would like... go behind the backs of his close allies like this? And, honestly? It's not smart either? We are the only ones (to my knowledge) that know about Ali's idol? Like? Why would Ali do something like this lmao it's just stupid quite honestly. I'm going to have to figure out what to do moving forward but... I trust Duncan and Ali a whole lot. KEVIN: Tbh king of voting in the minority. I really don't have many feelings on Kevin but I honestly feel bad and I'm really confused why he was left out of the vote last round??? Like omg??? Poor Kevin I feel bad. King of being my secret santa. Cameron: After all of this has happened, I trust Cameron the most. I feel like he is being the most genuine with me and the most sincere about wanting to work with me. I think he's going to be someone I want to work with long term. I'm trying to be as adaptable as possible. And I think Cameron will help me out? Maybe? I just don't want to die this round holy fuck. I trust Cameron a good amount and I'm willing to do whatever he wants me to do this round to keep myself alive. And if this is my last round, it's my last round. I still have lots of friends in the game that'd I'd be happy winning. I'm just really concerned idk OUP AND I'VE JUST BEEN INFORMED BY DUNCAN WHO WAS INFORMED BY ALI THAT Cameron TOLD ALI HE HAS AN IDOL!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK OWEN: Okay. Owen's,,,,, been found the heck out. HE HAS BEEN FOUND THE HECK OUT. Like, y'all. Owen is playing me so hard. And I HAVE BEEN AWARE OF IT TOO. I'VE SEEN IT HAPPENING. AND I'M LIKE. OH THAT'S SKETCHY. HAVE I DONE ANYTHING ABOUT IT? NO! Owen told me he was campaigning hard for Kevin to go and from what I was told by Cameron, Owen was actually campaigning for Lily to go, but saying he didn't want to actually vote for Lily because he wanted to stay in my good graces! And he did the same thing with the Madison vote but voting for Jack and not picking a fucking side! Oh god. I felt so alone last night and when Owen called me, I just let it out. I exposed some tea I probably shouldn't have. But I think I know how I can deal with it? I don't know. I think Duncan is a very likely target this round. If he doesn't use his hideout, he needs to use his idol. Like. He's very likely to go home. And we can idol out a big person if we use it. Whether it's Will, Dana, Ashvika, or Ali I don't care. I want one of them gone. And I think we can do it. I think we need to keep Owen out of that plan though? I don't know what's going to go on. I want Owen gone but I know Duncan doesn't so like... this is going to be a big mess lol RUTHIE: God who the fuck knows honestly. I don't. WILL: I like Will but he's got his own little... posse. And they scare me. Him, Cameron, Ashvika, Dana, Zach, and Ali. And probably Owen, honestly. They fucking......... I won't let them run this game no sir-ee! I don't know how to fix it but fksdfjasd. Also I thought he had an idol but no, Cameron has that. So. Anyways I don't have much to say about Will. I'm fine with him. Don't want him to vote me out. ZACH: I love Zach so so so much and he's a great person but like I have no clue where we stand in the game anymore. Actually i just messaged him a long thing and I think we're all okay. Also I'm gonna submit his and all of my Zach talk is just gonna be the same uWu I love zach so much stuff so like I'm just gonna send it y'all know I love zach already no need to say it again bye

I AM SO PROUD OF WILL!! Now to figure out what to do.  I really don't want Emily to go and it's simply because she's just too gosh darn likable.  I'm going to try to figure something out with Cameron and Will though and right now they are my saviors, I'll do whatever they want to do but I also really don't want Owen or Zach to leave either. 

Honestly I don't know what to think. I feel bad because I partially betrayed Emily by knowing Lily was leaving but lying, or failing to tell! Wooh love omission! But I think i've talked with her and i'm sure it's not super fixed but it's a little better. I now have an alliance with Duncan and Ashvika, then my pal Dana. How loyal am I? Well... not a lot. I don't want them to release this information and then by default, i'm the one being voted out because of "betrayal" or whatnot. But i'm not sure who i'd love to see. I guess my ideal people are Kevin, and a little Ruthie/Ali. I like everyone genuinely and i'm upset by Lily's reaction and just overall execution, but I feel like it was a fine move and despite it not being mine, I think Cameron came off as very aggressive and negative and that's going to bite him in the ass I think. But I made jury so HALLELUJAH!! 3/3 in Jury! And also - it's day 100 for me!! AHH!!!

In reference to last round? "That vote was messy so I’m going to follow suit. It’s open season on everyone’s asses and I’m pissed off and ready to shoot" Thats how i felt after i read what happened and everyone almost omitted me from the vote. According to Will i was left out because i mentioned to emily earlier on in the day that people were throwing lily's name out there. Also i told people i wanted to do lily next round, so people thought i was not going to budge on it and did not bother telling me the vote. What disappointed me though was Ali not coming through and telling me. He really let me down and because of that he's pushed me away. I told him we're fine and that im not mad any more. I mean its true, I'm not mad anymore, IM PISSED!!! So if he can't trust me i can't trust him. I made a finals deal with Ashvika tonight, and told her about ali's idol and Cameron's idol. If loose lips are gonna sink ships i don't want to be aboard the ship, i want to be behind the canon gunning it down. Who says there aren't any pirates on survivor? lol But anyways ashvika and i also made a foursome alliance with zach and dana since we feel like they're a tight duo who are dependable. I really so like the group as people and they're people i've never played with before which makes it even more exciting! Do i want to go to the end with them? Absolutely not! but its a cute group to get through the next couple rounds. I do intend on going to the end with ashvika though. the only person thats been 100 with me the whole game. I do believe she's with me but i need to make sure my other bonds are strong because im not giving anyone the power to obliterate my game. i've learned and I'm finished making mistakes 

I always align with men and I hate myself

________________________________________________________________ This FINALLY uploaded. It's from the morning after we merged.

Hi moms I don't know how i'm voting tonight, which tbh, shouldn't be a shocker to yall. I'm a mess, but I haven't heard my name. Tbh send me on vacation to visit my girl Charlotte. But ideally i'd like to be 4th-5th juror because then i'll be more informed about the game so like let me meme around a little bit longer. Also this is my mood for today On 1/11/18, at 12:16 PM, Dana Barry wrote: > the girl im talking to: what are you up to today? > me: not being stressed out by tribal council in an org

This is really just my mood (see below) for this round because it's so clear Emily's trying to scramble by not really scrambling and if one of my alliance gets idoled out tonight i'm setting fire to the rain. Sorry that the game isn't going your way queen! I'm the Sarah Lacina and Brad Culpepper to your Sandra, Aubry, and Cirie and this is Game Changers xoxo Emily, 2:21 PM im not used to not knowing whats going on in a game afjsfkjasdklfas

Okay so I made a video confession and I’ll upload soon but... I’m excited about my new position in the game. I’m bouncing back, I think? I’ve been able to reestablish my relationships with Cameron, Will, Zach, and Ali and I am working on building on with Dana. I’m trying to get on the good side of Cameron & Co.™️ And I think it’s going well? Ali is talking to me and is very uneasy about Duncan. Rightfully so because Duncan is mad at Ali. I also am playing off the exposing-Ali-and-Duncan’s-idols-to-Owen thing off like Duncan was the one that could possibly leak it to Owen, since they’re close. And I think Ali believes it. Unless he already knows I told Owen and like? Idk. But Ali has also told me that he feels weird about Duncan because I am the one that he screwed over, and yet Duncan is the one upset. I’m not upset anymore and I’m moving on. Duncan is not happy. I am just sitting back, spreading subtle information, and getting people to target each other while I cuddle with my cats from afar. I’ve told Will and Cameron both that I am just here to take orders at this point. I don’t want to get in the way of anything. And I have opinions, I just want let them out until someone says them for me first. I’m trying to be agreeable, valuable, and calm this round. OTT Emily is no more. CP Emily is back, okay? She’s here to stay!!! I’m calm. I’m cool. I’m collected. I can do this.

I told people what I'm thinking today, which means pasta la vista 2 me. Idk i'm not even trying to lie to people but honestly i'm one of those people who is like so manipulative that sometimes I lie to myself and then get confused about what the truth is so wiggy. Does that happen to other people? I'm getting more crackedt by the minute. Who knows how i'm voting. I just want to vote Emily because she's being a problem and messy quen who sent my pms to everyone in the game to exploit me 4 being dumb and gullible. A funky strategy, like exploit me all u want but u probably arent winnin. Also weirdly Duncan thinks votes tonight are going to be on Emily anyway, so like now I can maybe make that happen. I'm a sneaky weasel with the power of a 50% functional brain behind me, aka a WINNER. Earlier today tho I was voting out Duncan though so blegh and also nobody wants to talk to me, which is good leave me alone. I just dont feel like getting voted out yet, sort of, and the other part of me is like bye world i could use some time in solitary confinement. Is that a mood for everyone or just me? I just sent the tribe chat a picture of Owen as a goat idk i like to laugh. This is a rant and she doesn't make sense can someone get jesus to talk to me because she is ignoring my pms too. Also I just signed out of skype so I can calm down and give myself a break from being as upsetting. Ok i'm going to stop writing now gn. 

https://youtu.be/5PdXIHGvMpk me talking 2 ppl pretending it's cool they left me in the dark anyways i love getting votes 3 tribals in a row. and APPARENTLY according to Cameron i might be receiving votes tonight. exciting! if you're gonna vote for me do it right and take me out you cowards all you're doing is making my skin break out. the alternate options are all from atalaia: ruthie and emily!!! whew!!

https://tmblrsurvivorextra.tumblr.com/post/169591129951

“Okay I did eenie meenie minie moe and it landed on ruthie so that’s how I’ll be voting” 

I made myself laugh with that one. If they ain’t going to make a decision, you decide for them

I truly am channeling my inner Eliza Orlins by being targeted so often. Whew! So turns out Cameron's a snake because Duncan gave me the receipts (well not any receipts actually but I'm trusting his word). APPARENTLY Cameron only told me Emily as a fake target because he was intending to vote for me. Snakes are gonna snake snake snake snake snake. Duncan and others are telling me Ruthie. Im supposed to believe that the tide is turning towards Ruthie but people here have a habit of spewing lies. Duncan just told me to act clueless and stuff or whatever if people approach me about the vote. I don't need to try to act clueless, because I don't know shit!

You would think that, being immune, I would feel safe, comfortable, happy. No I feel none of the above and I want to scream. I love Cameron but for some reason he won't take a breath and do the easy vote like dude...It doesn't need to be another big blindside or another big move. I'm worried that he's getting a little too confident and feels like he's the one in charge of the alliance, which is not cute at all. I don't want to be mad at him but I'm definitely frustrated, annoyed. My patience? She's being tested. I feel like I need to take a backseat on this one and just let whatever happens happen, because I'm in a good enough place with people that I can pick up the pieces if something horrible happens tonight. Cameron's hardcore overplaying and it's not a good look for him or our alliance if things start to get messy though.

I’m putting a lot of blind trust into Cameron but he’s the only one lending me enough rope to hold on to. I’m so nervous but I’m trying to stay sane this vote. I was expecting my name to come up tonight, but I wasn’t expecting it to come from Duncan, which is who I’ve been told brought my name up. I’m not playing a winner’s game right now. I’m so nervous and I don’t know how to fix it.

I love Owen sending me this big paragraph at merge, then telling Duncan I should go from the start of merge and saying how easily playable I am. I love Duncan who I trusted and told _everything_ targetting me for truly no reason, when I actually did attempt to clue him in on the vote. He just wasn't online. He is channelling his bitterness at not being in the loop at me, which is totally unfair. I love Emily who I thought I could trust telling everything about my idol to Owen. I went to her so many times trying to stress how much I valued her. I was the first person to clue her into the vote, I'm just sad. Obviously its just on a game level and I'll find it in my hort to forgive them, but Im so betrayed. So betrayed

I mean like is it really that bad to want to make a vote go 3-3-3-2? Is that really that ugly?

HECK OFF DUNCAN LITERALLY. I JUST WANT HIM TO CHOKE. it looks like we might vote Kevin? maybe? or split the vote? idk? this is? awful? help? please?

Why are Duncan and Owen blowing spoke at me with the efficiency of a chimney? I know Owen wants me to spill info to him and Duncan wants me out so what's up sjsjdkdkd God its so refreshing knowing that everyone is trying to play me hard

Will won immunity, I knew I wasnt gonna have the time to win this one so that's okay it does make me a bit worried but I dont think that like...it was necessarily beneficial to win it again so soon.

The main thing I'm grapplin with is that information spreads like fire! Emily tells me Ali and Duncan have idols, and that Duncan has a power that can remove him from the game for a round too. Huge yikes. So instantly that's on my mind. I knew Cameron knows about Ali's. I feel like maybe I've typed this before... But either way today I got on call with Will and basically gave him all of this information. And I've been forming a plan to get Duncan to dump an idol, if I tell him that I've been hearing his name! But Will suggested we just leak that Duncan might go to Ashvika.... Which gets messy for me bc if Duncan hears from Ashvika and not me, he won't trust me anymore. but then like...if I tell him I'm hearing his name and then.....nobody votes for him? he'll know why. BUT THEN ALSO LOL Cameron MESSAGES WILL ABOUT DUNCAN'S IDOL AND SUGGESTS DOING SOMETHING TO GET RID OF IT WHILE I'M STILL ON CALL WITH WILL. God this stresses me OUT. If Duncan doesn't waste his idol though it isn't the end of the world, because I do have a possibility of working with him. I just don't want him to idol Kevin. Speaking of, as soon as this round started I knew I wanted Kevin out. That breaks a connection that Duncan and potentially Cameron have, and gives me another round to get closer with Ali, Ruthie, Emily maybe. The call of four seemed good with Kevin, so does Emily, and I told Ruthie about it. Duncan is once again targeting Ruthie instead of Kevin so that's another thing to deal with. GOD. So rn it'll prob be like 8-3 or 4-7 or something but idk..... I want to believe Dana/Will/Cameron won't turn on me, but I can't tell myself I won't turn on them eventually idk. I have been talking to Ali and I think maybe I can sit at the end with him and Ruthie that would be SO GOOD lol. Or with Duncan maybe at the end. But Will, Dana, and Cameron are big risks. I just don't want to fuck them over....ugh. They're prob gonna wanna take me out. This is me 24/7. But I still love all of them rn too. Wow this game is F U N. Idk what I'm gonna do in general or tonight or with Duncan but I'm sure it'll be fun at some point.

I'm so confused by Duncan. I called him at the swap and told him EVERYTHING. I poured my heart and soul out to him. I said I trusted him all the way and I meant it. Now when he doesn't get clued in on a vote (which is his fault for not messaging me back) he is throwing the baby out with the bath water and just wants me out? Like he said this big thing about how it "hurt him when his number one left him out" which I didn't do, but that's so hypocritical when he now wants me out. I'm trying to not be too like too bitter because I love Duncan but come on.

Why aren’t there manipulatable straight boys in this game. This is unfair. Who am I supposed to flirt with and get them to take me to the end???? What the fuck

can u hear my eyes rolling cause they are

aliI'm about to be idoled out may I rest in peace

[1/11/18, 9:35:17 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): if I tell u to change the vote last minute do you PROMISE not to tell ANYONE [1/11/18, 9:35:24 PM] Emily: yes [1/11/18, 9:35:33 PM] Emily: give me enough time to make my parchment [1/11/18, 9:35:43 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): How much time is that? 5? ten? [1/11/18, 9:35:46 PM] Emily: please don’t have me throw my vote tho [1/11/18, 9:35:49 PM] Emily: ten? [1/11/18, 9:35:53 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): Ok cool [1/11/18, 9:35:58 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): i won’t have you throw your vote I just [1/11/18, 9:36:05 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): I don’t want someone to find out [1/11/18, 9:36:06 PM] Emily: okay [1/11/18, 9:36:11 PM] Emily: I won’t my lips are sealed [1/11/18, 9:36:20 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): this is me sneakily trying to keep u in the loop [1/11/18, 9:38:25 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): Some ppl just don’t trust you and I want u to know I trust you but idk if its changing yet [1/11/18, 9:38:42 PM] Emily: will this show them im trustworthy? [1/11/18, 9:38:46 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): i think so [1/11/18, 9:38:50 PM] Emily: okay [1/11/18, 9:39:07 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): I love you just pls dont tell ANYONE [1/11/18, 9:39:15 PM] Emily: im not telling anyone [1/11/18, 9:47:21 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): You PROMISE you vote how I say [1/11/18, 9:47:27 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): and you don’t tell ANYONE [1/11/18, 9:47:31 PM] Emily: yes [1/11/18, 9:47:42 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): my allies don’t want me to tell u bc they think you’ll tell owen so its imperitive you don’t okay [1/11/18, 9:47:50 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): im putting my life on the line with you [1/11/18, 9:47:51 PM] Emily: okay [1/11/18, 9:47:56 PM] Emily: i won’t Cameron [1/11/18, 9:48:13 PM] Emily: am i voting owen? [1/11/18, 9:48:29 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): no [1/11/18, 9:48:30 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): You’re not [1/11/18, 9:48:45 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): You’re voting for duncan unless you want to keep it on Kevin in case duncan plays his idol [1/11/18, 9:48:47 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): its up to you [1/11/18, 9:49:23 PM] Emily: okay ill vote duncan [1/11/18, 9:49:42 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): okay just PLEASE don’t tell anyone I told you to vote duncan [1/11/18, 9:49:47 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): IM BEGGING [1/11/18, 9:49:51 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): IT WILL GET ME MRUDERED HBEFJNDMS [1/11/18, 9:50:25 PM] Emily: i voted [1/11/18, 9:50:38 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): pls dont fuck me over emiyl [1/11/18, 9:50:45 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): This is me proving that I trust you and I want to work with you [1/11/18, 9:50:56 PM] Emily: am i supposed to pretend i dont know after the vote is over? [1/11/18, 9:52:27 PM] Emily: thank you so much for clueing me in Cameron i really appreciate it [1/11/18, 9:52:49 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): I love you [1/11/18, 9:52:59 PM] Emily: i love you too [1/11/18, 9:53:40 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): And yes pls pretend This is my reasoning for voting for Duncan. I'm doing what it's taking to keep me in the game. I'm putting my trust in Cameron and I'm not sure if I'm making the smartest decision or not, but I'm doing it.

This was way too chaotic and shows that our four is way less stable than I thought we were. Like this could have been so easy but no everyone had to fREAK THE FUCK OUT like I'm so sorry and I'm so gonna regret saying this in a confessional but I legitimately don't care if Cameron Ali Dana whoever think they're the target of an idol. It does not matter who the target is. We needed to put a vote on Kevin if we were gonna bring Zach in but there was too much fucking chaos in our mess of a 4 person alliance to understand that. Nobody listens to me and it's clear now, especially Cameron. He thinks he's running this game but he's running himself into the ground. I'm sorry but it's just too much.

If Duncan stands with an idol i'm self-evicting into the sun. 

Duncan becomes the 10th person voted out of Athena All Stars, and the 2nd member of our jury. You can see Duncan’s preseason interview here.

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode #9: “I Don't Want to Play Duck Duck Goose Anymore; It's Time to Play All Stars” ~ Emily

WE MADE MERGE BABY

I just PM'd everyone from the other tribe I am SO happy for merge.  This came at the perfect time! Now I just have to make sure I win immunity and hopefully get pulled into an alliance or something.  I don't even know who I want to WORK WITH!! But I'm glad that there is a possibility to get numbers. Seriously I don't think I've ever PM'd so many people at a merge before, I usually wait for people to come to me but NOT TODAY BUCKAROOS.  it's time to show that i can be a social queen and get myself out of some sticky situations that could be coming my way with the old ata la la la la de dah tribe.

Merge! Woo! We are going into this merge split 6-6 even for tribal lines on both original tribes and swap tribes, which is kind of incredible. I don't know who I want to trust. I just know that if ruthie was willing to vote Lily before, she'll do it again. And that's the tea.

i'm bad at naming things um I DON'T KNOW BUT I NEED TO BE QUIET I'M SPILLING WAY TOO MUCH TO THESE PEOPLE AT THIS MERGE PARTY. I'm about to let it slip to Will that my old tribe has an alliance 0:) 

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO WE FUCKING MERGED!!!! LETS DO THIS YALL!!!! Okay, so here's the status of things. Obviously, I'm glad to be united with a few people again, but I'm already starting to form a potential boot order in my head. It clearly won't work this way for real, but there are a few people that I don't want to see getting much further. Ali is definitely one of them, for two main reasons. First of all, he's a challenge beast that is not at all to be doubted, and if he went on an immunity streak, it could throw not just a wrench, but an entire toolbox into the rest of my game. So he's got to go for that alone. But also, he's being so unreasonably bitter? Apparently, this doesn't apply to just him, but Emily and Owen both said that he was refusing to talk to them because of their challenge performance. Y'know, the challenge that was an entire day ago. You really would think they'd be a BIT less bitter at this point, but alas... apparently not. Dana and Will could be logical next boots after that, along with Ashvika. Not sure about that order, though. And... As much as I love Cameron, I don't know if I'd want to work with him. Every time I work with him, it never ends up going right, and he betrays me by relaying information to another alliance, never voting with me, or something of the sort. So he might be on that list earlier than my out-of-game self would want. Kevin could also be a boot opportunity early on, as his paranoia is so hard to deal with, and it makes him as unpredictable as going on Omegle's video mode. I don't know where I stand on Ruthie, though. It's hard to put an accurate gauge on where I want her in this game, as she could possibly be brought onto my side as an ally, but the Autumn vote may have ruined that. So I'll have to let that sit for a while. Ideal F3 (if it IS F3) is me, Emily (hehe), and Zach. Ideal F2 is me and Emily (duh <3). Ideal F1 is me.

I'm so sad about Jack going I'm like really sad. I miss him wtf I wouldn't have done him so dirty BRING BACK JACK 2K18

Merge time means tea time, which means everyone gets a little too comfortable and says things they shouldn't! I love how Ruthie is so willing to throw the other tribe under the bus and flip to our side, we LOVE a queen and we LOVE a Will warrior like her. Owen....idk what you were thinking siding with Emily and Lily when you had literally the perfect opportunity to take them out but ok work. Like I genuinely don't care if y'all felt bad for Lily feeling left out, that's the game we're playing. You need to check your feelings at the door or you will not win this game. As far as I'm concerned, Lily or Emily is next to go - whoever doesn't win immunity is gonna be gone. A good split vote will work there too just in case of an idol, but it's time to cut the threats loose and let the non-recruits take control. Sorry about it! ________________________________________________________________ And when I tell people it's gonna be a bloodbath, know that I'm not gonna be the one bleeding - I'll be the one left standing.

Okay merge time! Lots to confess on! Firstly, I am so ready for Sandra Diashvika Twine winning again, like wooOoOoOO! Otherwise, I am..... conflicted about who I wanna work with from atalaia. The majority on their tribe was Emily/Owen/Zach as a core group, with Lily and Kevin as 4th and 5th and Ruthie firmly in the minority. I definitely want to work with Ruthie, she clicks well into our group since she is a self proclaimed Will Warrior. The issue is however that I don't know if I can then work with Ruthie and then also Zach/Owen/Emily, because that leaves us with voting out Kevin which I don't think I necessarily want to do and Lily who I do want to go, but I don't know if Emily will. With that said, I think my goal boot order for the merge going forward would be: 12th = Lily 11th to 9th = Preferably maybe Zach > Emily > Owen as an order? That gives us a top 8 of the six from Loronha + Ruthie/Kevin. That might then (unfortunately) be the opportunity to turn on Cameron/Dana/Will as right now I feel like I'm probably number four in that alliance? I wanna really assess that because I do feel good about going really far with Dana,Cameron and Will provided I'm not just the clear cut 4th in that alliance. AHH, we will see eek. I think the four immediate targets should be Lily 1st, then Emily,Owen & Zach. The issue is however, is like a fool, Emily knows about my alliance, so if I do want to get her out, it needs to be a _major_ blindside, so if Lily wins immunity, maybe Emily needs to go? I love murdering my own children

merge!!!! thank god i was not going to survive another round in that tribe so i'm reunited with my favs Cameron and duncan. i just went on a call with dunc and received a PIPING cup of a tea from him: 1. first of all i spilled the beans to him on what happened at our tribe pretty much instantly. i also spilled the beans to will because keeping a secret to myself? not familiar with that concept #RatsOnly 2. apparently i played in lazio with duncan and he was bitter at me for 3 months??? skdkdkd 3. duncan and i want to be a #dynamicduo bc we think no one would expect it and since we haven't actually been on a tribe together we'll have different connections which will allow us to get more info and do stuff with that 4. duncan has a treehouse hideout thing which allows him to skip a tribal up until f10. also Cameron has an idol??? okay 5. some BITCHES on LORANHA apparently threw my name and lily's name out as easy merge boots. which is honestly realistic bc i haven't been in any alliance so i'm like the hali of this game but not as hot. but like...am i a threat??? neaux sir. i couldn't hear what duncan was saying but i think he said Cameron threw my name out???? not sure. whoever it is is a RAT. duncan suggested voting out ruthie instead which will like be chill i guess. anyways i need to try hard in immunity i guess 

Owen snatched immunity before I could even get started 

I'm a flop hi! I'm confessing I'm being a good castaway I promise! I did like twenty puzzles in total which took maybe a total of three hours... I fucking hate puzzles. But of course Owen won. He's here to PLAY. I'm just really concerned for Lily and I at this point. I KNOW that people are going to target us at some point because they've already started? I think people are just coming for my friends like Madison? Gone. Jack? Gone. Lily? Almost gone thank god we saved her in that tie revote. I dont understand??? Don't come for my boys tho. Protect Ali, Zach, and Duncan AT ALL COSTS!!! Also I have no clue why I have such a HARD ASS TIME trusting Owen? Like there's just.... I CAN'T TRUST HIM! He's proven to me time and time again that he's trustworthy but for some reason... HE'S NOT! I'm just happy to be back with Ali and Duncan though because like... I trust them a whole whole lot. A whole lot. And they have powers! Duncan has that hideaway he needs to use soon and he also has an idol. Ali has an idol. Also me thinking back to that idol that Ali and I didn't get after having to be quiet in the time chat for forever... I think Will has it. Sneaky sneaky snake that Will. I love him, but he's a SNAKE!!! OH speak of the devil he just messaged me fdjkfjaksdfa I LOVE WILL I PROMISE I just haven't gotten to be on a tribe with him yet and like I don't know where his head is at or his allegiances and stuff. Also Zach hasn't talked to me in a while and I DON'T WANT HIM TO ABANDON ME I love Zach!! And I literally wanna go to final three with him!!! Heck!! talk TO ME also I don't buy that not talking in the tribe chat is like ... only a disadvantage. I played this game before BUDDY!!! It got me nothing but I think it's gonna get him something so fajsdkfjasdkf UGH anyways I'm gonna go get Greek food this is the end of my confessional bye

Checking in as the worst player in all stars. I am mad at myself because I'm literally making all the same mistakes and am in this messy spiral that I can't get out of. Emily knows about my idol, which gets tricky for voting out her or Lily, Duncan knows *everything* including too much I said about Cameron, when I was still assessing whether to work with him and I've just boxed myself into a tricky spot. I'm literally making the same mistakes, like I'm just bad at this and it makes me so sad. I'm gonna get dragged to the end as a goat again and that makes me so sad, ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I wanted to rewrite my Athena experience, but instead of playing a terrible game without realising like last time, I am playing an even worse game but this time i can tell and it makes me sad. I cant wait to be dragged to the end as a goat again, this is gonna like crush my self-esteem even further into the swamp ajlfkajldfk. god I hate myself, and these games makes it so much worse

Ladies... we merged! I am honestly so happy I made merge, and that's my first of three goals, the other two being jury and 100 days. I really like everyone on our tribe. Like there's people who I worked with and will continue to work with, such as Emily and Owen, then there are people who I haven't worked with, that i'm excited and hopeful to work with, such as Dana, Cameron and Will. Overall everyone's great! There's only a few people who'd I enjoy seeing leave. Kevin - we don't have a superior connection. Sure, he's friendly and nice, but compared to my other conversations it's just... dull. Sweet kid though. Lily - I like Lily and would love to work with her, but she's close with Emily, has many advantages and similarly to Kevin, we just don't connect. Duncan is fine too. I like him and would love to work with him, and Dana said there's beef between him and Will so keeping them both in the game keeps us under the radar. Ashvika's a queen, and I love her. Ruthie's sweet but also like kind of AFK. Ali? A legend. If I had to, right now, predict a final three, it'd be: Ali, Will, and either Ruthie/Dana. We'll see how wrong I am sometime!! WOOH!! Also i can't talk in chats right now i'm so sad.

I'm.... literally the worst player left I'm screeching. Everyone is talking strategy and like I'm very out of it, like its interesting seeing Zach say (admittedly it wasn't exactly shocking) that he is close with Emily and Owen, as well as Dana & Cameron. Like... that's a lot of people, when me/Zach/Emily were a three person alliance, like.... yikes. Anyways, I am trying to see where I stand rn. I think I am still number four in the Dana/Will/Cameron/I alliance, so I'm thinking if I can get down to the nitty gritty with Ashvika/Duncan like that's actually a solid workable opportunity. I think I'd like to go to F5 with Ashvika/Duncan/Kevin/Ruthie? I just like the sound of that, and then I can figure it out from there... We will see I think I really want Lily out this vote, and then just one of the extended numbers for my L.A.W.D alliance, just so they can't flip away from me. I just feel really uncertain right now, so I wanna start eliminating numbers that are gonna cause issues for me, and Lily is the prime target for that. I really feel like I'm the worst player in the game and wanna try and resolve that somehow, but like... you can't fix a player as terrible as me hsjkdfajsdfa ________________________________________________________________ Who is ready for ali the goat the sequel! I sure am ________________________________________________________________ me: cries about telling too many people about my idol me: tells two more people making the number of people that know now equal 6 but its fun, and the aim of these games is to have fun and leaving sad confessionals isn't good, so lets just have fun with it.

Honestly, please self-vote out of this game if you're "close with Emily." If i have to hear that phrase one more time I WILL choke. Stop playing this game like you're close with Emily because unless you're me NEWS FLASH LADIES you're close with Emily!!! Her name is literally starting to sound weird to me because I'm hearing it so much. Like am I jealous of her? YOU BET. How do I make my mist as strong as Emily. I am sick of pacifying miss Emily. Ok on another note, my main bff Ali Bee told me he HAS THE IDOL that I told everyone Lily has and honestly im wigged. I'm so happy he has the idol. Also Cameron told me that someone good had an idol the other day, and I confirmed tonigt that this person he told me about was Ali so yee we love tea! The other good thing about that all going down as it did, is that later down the line (assuming I don't get murdered) I can be like "Will Ali and Cameron are vv close, Cameron got idol tea before us!!!" and use that as leverage. Right now apparently all the names out there are Ali, Lily, Ruthie, and Kevin. Owen, I just don't trust, and I really tried to sell my loyalty to him on call and if Owen were 5% less smart he probably would have bought it. I delivered an outstanding an emotionally confusing performance tonight and she deserves recognition.  Also I would like to thank everyone for nominating me for the role of village idiot of the season. It means a lot to me accepting this award. I'd like to thank Cameron for helping me really sell it to the people that i'm an illiterate meme just looking 4 a home amongst all these intimidating players I can't keep up with. Like UTR whommmm. Me? It's unlikely but apparently also working. Like i don't want people thinking it's worth their time to vote miss me out of this game when all the scary smart people are around. Keep me around for jokes and fake drama pls.

this was like before immunity results were even posted ________________________________________________________________

Alright team, here's the deal: merge boot, it can either be simple or it can be a mess. And this time it's gonna be a grade A mess. We have 6 people from each of the swapped tribes, and 6 people from each of the starting tribes, which means there's a whole messy web of connections between everyone going every which way. I have my core four of me, Ali, Cameron, and Dana (which has an even stronger core of just me and Dana) and we have connections with Duncan and Ashvika (the Loronha squad/Charlotte's Angels), with Owen (from the Elaenia days), with Zach (our cracked king) and with Emily (because who the fuck isn't connected with Emily). The thing is, EmiLily NEEDS to get broken up and everyone knows it, but we have people literally saying they won't vote Emily out until F5 but....guess what? If we let her get that far, she's LITERALLY GOING TO WIN like are you KIDDING ME. So since nobody wants to vote out Emily right now, and we need to break up that duo, the obvious target is Lily. But again, people are SO worried about burning Emily as a potential ally that they won't vote Lily. Like honestly props to Emily for literally smothering everyone with her mist to the point where they won't even try to play the fucking game anymore. We can't just vote out the outsiders forever, like we're at a point where the only "easy vote" left is Kevin (sorry king) and, according to some people, Ruthie (love u queen) - but the thing is, why would you take out an easy vote NOW when you have a chance to take a shot at a big threat? And honestly, I don't even know if Lily is really a threat to win this game since she doesn't speak to anyone when it isn't right before tribal so like....I'm talking about taking a shot at Emily by taking out Lily. If you wanna overthrow the queen, you have to take down her loyal aide first. Dana, Cameron, Ali, and Ruthie are the only people that seem to have completely detached themselves from the idea that "we need to play with our friends and we need to go for the easy votes" because let's see... what happens at F10 when you've taken out Ruthie/Kevin and all your "friends" are left? It's Survivor, you have to burn someone at some point. If you don't burn someone else, you're the one getting burned. I think I can convince Owen that it's better for his game to burn just Emily than to burn all three of me, Cameron, and Dana but... I really don't know. I love Zach but if he's saying he won't vote out Emily until F5.... then do you really deserve to be playing this game? If the jury really does start tonight, I also need to start playing a selfish game and figure out how I can get these people that we're gonna be voting out to vote for me. I have a lot of plans and big ideas, but I don't know for sure if or how they're gonna work. Right now we need to get at least one or two people onboard with voting out Lily...like that is going to happen tonight I am going to make sure she goes home.

Tag yourself I’m me exposing my whole friend group as friends but not including myself as a part of it #wig I love strategy!!!!!! No I don’t I’m just stupid

Everyone's so fucking dumb they act as if there aren't only 12 people on this tribe (10 technically since Lily never speaks to anyone apparently and nobody knows who Kevin is) like you can't be like "omg I only heard it was Ruthie" and not expect that I already heard your plan to divert from Lily going home by throwing Ruthie's name out there like what the fuck lmao

Okay so yesterday the options for voting were like Ruthie Lily and Kevin. I did not want to vote any of these people because I wanted to work/reconnect with the first two and the third person is me. BUT it appears the options are Ruthie and me so...my hand's been forced. I wanted to try reconnecting with Ruthie after that last tribal but I guess not hm. If I survive this tribal it'll be the third tribal in a row I've received votes so that'll be cute! I don't know who the source of my name is, I don't know if I want to know but I'd appreciate the information so I don't go rattling all my secrets to my own killer!! Wish me luck!!! :,)

DUNCAN WHAT THE HECK WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO VOTE ME OUT??? WHY ARE YOU THE ONE PUSHING ME, I DO NOT GET IT, WHY???

Everyone is being super shady rn I don’t understand who started with wanting ruthie out but I don’t trust lily and I’m working on flipping the vote that way. Also wHY is everyone so concerned about defying Emily?? People wouldn’t be down to vote Emily rn so it’s imperative we vote out lily bc they’re close 

If anything, the way people are acting about this vote is VERY telling about how they're playing this game and a lot of people? Aren't playing very good games. Shame, isn't it?

yeah so....this is a lot. a lot a lot. A LOT. First of all, when we merged let me just say I was so happy to be with that whole other tribe again. DUNCAN AND ASHVIKA and I? legends only. Ali? A king. BUT MY TRU BBYS DANA WILL AND Cameron??? A++++++++++++++++++++++ holy SHOOT. I love everyone in this game and it's so nice to be working with those people again. I had some explaining to do about the tied vote and the autumn vote....so that was fun. idk. the real fun started later. first of second of all, the fucking immunity challenge. ruthie and I were talking before it got posted and I was like hahaha I hope it's a puzzle!!!!! hahahaahahahahahahahaHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA man i rlly fucked up with that wish, huh? :') puzzles are my thing so when I saw it was puzzle comp I was like YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! it was my time to shine. well.... :) hehe :) be careful what you wish for in the athena series, folks, bc this genie is a savage :') i came into the comp just wanting to be cute. i wanted a fun time and all I got? cramps. and FATIGUE. and torture. i was so paranoid ali or emily would stay up all night doing them but seems like  was the only one truly crazy enough to ignore the fact that I had school starting the next day fakjsfjk but oh well. a win is a win, and the further I went the more I told myself that if I didnt win all the work would be for nothing. SO I DID IT! second of second of all, boy has this tribe gone to shit. lets get all the he said she said out of the way first. so I went on call with Duncan, he said he didnt wanna do Kevin and didnt wanna piss emily off so he landed on ruthie. he wants ruthie gone I was like ok. then i got on the call with will and he and I talked about maybe doing the easier thing like ruthie or kevin. then I get on call with will dana Cameron and,....fajskhjfk Cameron doesnt wanna do kevin or ruthie bc that's too easy. Cameron wants lily out as a move first, and I was ok with that, so were dana and will. basically like...we don't have sny reason to vote zach or ali yet, they dont wanna do emily yet, and duncan/ashvika didnt really come up as targets which left kevin ruthie and lily, the usual suspects. but then I talked to zach and he said he'd much rather do kevin. ok wig. then I talked to emily today and she wants to do kevin too. but then apparently lily found out from DUNCAN her name coulda gone around. I talk to lily aqnd first lily wants to do ali???? ok mood. but then fkasdhfkjds she was like everyone is doin ruthie. SO NOW, lily, duncan, and presumably ashvika were gonna do ruthie, emily doin ???? maybe kevin maybe ruthie, and will dana Cameron zach ruthie myself doin lily, and idk what ali's doin he told me he's thinking about going vegetarian and that's the biggest move he's told me about so far this round so fkshdfj ok ali. but like......uhg idk. ashvika doesnt want ruthie out, but ashvika apparently knows ppl are voting lily? god. GOD. third of all! some of my actual thoughts about all of this huge ass info dump..... I really really still love Dana, Will, and Cameron, but looking down the line, I am worried they will all be closer to each other than to me. They spent a lot of time together on that other tribe, and of the four of us they might pin me as a threat and kick me out. Cameron and I called privately as well and I told Cameron some additional things and he said that the other two might be a little sketched out by me rn but that if I vote with them it'll be fine. I also still....really love Will bye :'( what a king. I have talked to him a lot one on one about everything going on, and I just hope he trusts me too. It's just that of the four of us, I have a lot of the connections like outside ofour alliance (emily and lily, zach, duncan/ashvika, etc) which is GOOD FOR ME but also....playing both sides is not gonna be fun when sides come, and also I don't want them to freak out about my loyalty. I also still REALLY want to work with Zach and he might even be one of my closest allies rn as well. I don't want to be on a separate page from him. he's good. and he still really wants to work with emily too. NOW. I messaged Ali a lot about how like he might be seen as a threat down the line and that I might start to be one too and that we should have each other's backs and he agreed. He claims he doesn't think of himself as a threat and also like every time he speaks it's something about how he thinks his game is awful.... fskjdf i wish he would spend more time talking to me about his thoughts this time around and not his thoughts about how he played in emathia but! that's ok. Cameron also apparently has some tea on him....? That he didnt want to tell me.... Could Ali have an idol idk. Also it's really clear that Ali and Cameron are VERY close after that swap. But I like them both and want to move forward with both of them. I also called Emily one on one and told her the same thing - we're both gonna be threats soon, and we need each other. And I think that's true. So when I look ahead, it doesn't make sense for me to get Lily out at this vote. There's going to come a time when everyone who loves each other is gonna blow tf up and start targeting the threats. Which is why I'm trying to build mini-groups outside of my core alliance. My group with Duncan and Ashvika is good. But my group with Lily and Emily is another one. If Kevin left, then I would literally be good with so many people and they'd all be hopefully targeting each other. Emily and Lily are targets over me, Will wants Duncan out pretty bad and Duncan wants Will.... idk where Zach and Dana fit in but I love them and I don't think Zach would turn on me yet. But the closer it gets to voting, the more Will wants to do Lily, and I'm really at a crossroads here bc I don't want to make Emily mad or anything... Basically my main alliance wants Lily gone bad, which isn't necessarily bad for me but it's not best. And the people outside that alliance are split between Ruthie and Kevin and idk. If I really want to come out and say it, I could try to get dana Cameron and will to vote kevin. but they're just gonna think it's bc I wanna work with lily which is....not necessarily wrong. idk there's just a wheel that keeps spinning and I don't know when or where it's gonna stop. right now I'm thinking Lily. but how do I move forward from that? how am I going to get to the end of this game? I don't think I can unless I get to a point where I can win out. idk yall im still a mess rn but isn't that what we were all expecting dflfdk at least it wont be me. ________________________________________________________________ in other news will and I will be going as wario and waluigi for halloween so watch out

it's over luigi i'm going home tonight duncan was like "well most people have said ruthie" and that's like cool or whatever but then i'm like "well who said my name" bc i don't wanna like talk to the wrong ppl and then duncan has gone SILENT sjsjs if i survive it'll be a miracle sent from god our father

Wowowowow this is a mess. Here's how i presume the vote going down tonight. 

We (oh good l.a.w.d) are trying to save ruthie and kill lily. We have us 4 plus ashvika and ruthie, which is 6. I believe owen, zach, emily, and lily will likely vote kevin. Thats 4. I think kevin and duncan will probably vote ruthie. Thats 2. Lily goes, barring further complications. Bless up. 

I love starting the plan to get lily out and securing votes and then having someone else come tell me that we’re voting lily tonight! 

90% of the time I have no idea what the fuck this tribe is talking about. Okay, so, picture this. It's around 6:30, I've been talking with Cameron and a few others, and what I hear is that the vote is for Ruthie. I think this is alright, and I set my phone down, diverting my attention towards the delicious tacos I prepared for myself. At 6:55-ish, I get back on Skype, and now Cameron is telling me that everyone is voting for Kevin! I don't know about y'all, but it seems a BIT suspicious that the vote would change like that in less than a half an hour with no explanation to it at all! It just feels like this is some elaborate ploy, so that people can get me distracted with these two options and just blindside me. I thought this would be unanimous, but Perhaps The Fuck Not, My Good Sirs

this is how i'm looking at everyone in this tribe rn I trust NO ONE. Cameron told me "oh yeah the majority's voting ruthie" and so did duncan and then i talk to some people to whom i say "you know i'm voting ruthie probably" and then they're like "oh okay cool haha you do you!" which is the most blatantly transparently WISHY WASHY response you could give like they'll say "well who knows what could happen" like you might as well stab me because that'd be more enjoyable than this!!! and then i talk to lily later and lily's REAL with me and she says the majority WAS to Ruthie but now it seems like everyone's voting me?? and then i talk to emily and she's like "oh the majority's voting ruthie" and i'm like WHAT RHE FUCK IS FOING ON. Cameron says he has no idea what's going on. tonight's mood is paranoia, betrayal, and utter confusion to sum up my mental state in one word...fuck 

This is going to be a fun one 

This is a letter put in a time capsule for Dana, Will & Cameron. I just want to confess about how much I love you three. Dana, you always describe yourself as upsetting, but in reality I think you are one of the funniest and most genuine people in this community. Your pep talk you gave me on call was so nice, and its been a pleasure to actually work with you this time alkjdfa. Will, you are TOO HARD ON YOURSELF. You put so much energy in helping me build myself up, but remain too critical of yourself. You don't realise how popular you actually are and how much time people have for you. Cameron, m'fave. I love you so much, you and Captain are the most iconic duo (I'm done waiting) and I think you are the best. anywho, soppyness over. I felt they deserved that because on call yesterday they were so nice to me and I wanted to return the favour. ________________________________________________________________ OKAY SO THIS VOTE. I.... highkey have wanted Lily to be merge boot since we merged, so this is going a way I support. Also, I am forever an Ashvika warrior, we have decided to stan forever. Right now, Me/Ashvika/Dana/Will/Cameron/Ruthie are all voting Ruthie, which is 6/12. It looks like the other 6 aren't gonna be united or one of the 6 is gonna vote with us, so it looks like Lily is going. Unfortunately, that requires upsetting Emily, so I'm trying to very delicately clue her in that Lily is in jeopardy. Its not even that I wanna lie to her, Im more just concerned about upsetting her. Its a mess! whewie whewie whew. owenlol fkasdjhfkjsdhfkjs so now like I'm confident Lily is going, Ali, Ashvika, and now Ruthie are all voting her even though Zach isn't, but it now comes down to whether or not I tell Emily and idk. I just wish Kevin could gtfo because he's not a number for me. I'm hating my life rn fskjfhjds but ! oh well! maybe I'll just vote kevin and deal with it later.

whatever it isn't the end of the world I don't think....but damn if Lily has an idol now would be the time to play it huh

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people are voting for lily apparently or something i'm too young to think this much idk

There's nothing better than playing the absolute DUMBEST when shit hits the fan, thank you Queen Dana for telling Emily it was gonna be Lily, because now Emily thinks I'm just as confused as she is. We love a good ruse.

EMILY WHY. I tried to like subtly clue you in (as did Dana) and you just sent everyone's pms everywhere askjdfafaf I love you so much but Lily is a sinking ship and you are drowning with her

But for real, Dana leaking like that accidentally and creating the last minute chaos is really an Ashley's Idol 2.0 because I may be able to lie my way through this and hold onto Emily's trust at least for one round...or so...Who knows!

I recorded both of these before the vote and I just uploaded them

I recorded another one of me going crazy but honestly it's not cute and y'all would fear for my sanity so i'm not uploading it

Lily becomes the 9th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 8-3-1 votes. You can see Lily’s preseason interview here.

After being voted out and placed on the jury, Lily decided to walk from jury. Charlotte, being the more recently voted out player, became the first member of the jury.

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode #8: “I'll Fall on the Sword” ~ Charlotte

Let me be like my favourite simpson and Merge. GOD

UGH I THOUGHT WE WERE MCFUCKING MERGING JFLADKJFALSD ANYWAYS I GUESS NOT!!!!!! I'm happy with how tribal panned out but GOD this is an ugly turn of events! At least I don't have school tomorrow and the vote went how it should have. I was in auditions for over four hours tonight and I wasn't able to game talk like AT ALL but I love my allies and they covered it for me. I'm so happy! I think that maybe after THIS vote we'll merge or something... I don't know. Why didn't we merge at 13 if Duncan's power is like??? You know??? You can run and hide from final 13 to final 10 idk it's just weird. And ugh I just,,,,, I WANT TO WIN THIS CHALLENGE SO I DONT HAVE TO VOTE OUT RUTHIE OR KEVIN FDKAKFSD this sucks. I like them both. I'd rather Kevin than Ruthie but that might be difficult because of like,,, how this vote went down lmao. But it was cute how Autumn, Ruthie, and Kevin didn't even stick together after that 3-3-1 vote like WOW JFKDSJFLKAS iconic and I love it. Now I'm hungry and I'm gonna go eat something bye

I literally hate this task challenge with a passion I don't have the reaction time for it rip me and my life and my tribe

I'm forever an Emily & Owen stan but can they go to sleep. PLEATHE

Not to be full of myself but I did #that and more. I mean I'd like to think it was my move bc I suggested her name first so. Her vote said that I was like playing both sides but tbh I wasn't even playing her side at all??? (I accidentally forgot to message her skdkdkd) I just hope that doesn't like...marr my reputation, as small as it already is. Anyways I'm upset about no merge and just hoping we can win this challenge because we were already uncertain last time who knows what'll happen tomorrow night. 

Plz ask for a mutiny so I can go to the other tribe even though they are losing please and THANK YOU

CameronI think I speak for the entirety of Loronha when I say I HATE YOU OWEN AND EMILY ________________________________________________________________ *narrator voice* he does not have faith in his tribe

If I was a Pokémon I’d be Ekans. Hiss hiss

Losing this badly is so hard to deal with after winning so well the last few rounds. I so desperately want to make merge, you know? And if this is the thing that does me in... well that would suck.

this is the most DISHEARTENING challenge, we are always just a second behind the other team and i am so frustrated and sad and everyone on our tribe is trying their hardest but it's just not working for us 

I love losing. It's okay, I'll fall on the sword if we do lose bc I literally couldn't do any of these tasks because I am an adult and I have to work.

I’m really sad and disheartened and this is so so so devastating. This is the first time in any game where I’ve felt this close to a group of people and I’m so upset that one of us has to leave. We tried so damn hard and we were so close and I’m so upset and sad and I. Want to cry 

i cant believe i won!!! im shaking!!! ali is the devil but we won anyway because god always prevails over evil amen!!! britain tell me how my ass tastes!!!! can we please merge!!!

I hate being mad like this. I hate feeling like I want to scream at people and tell them how angry I am. But that's how I feel, so I'm gonna put it in a confessional. Emily and Owen, I'm so sorry in the future and know that likely 10 hours from now I'm not gonna feel this way but. FUCK YOU EMILY AND OWEN. DO YOU FOOLS NEVER SLEEP? DO YOU NOT HAVE LIVES? EMILY DONT YOU GO TO SCHOOL? DID YOU SKIP SCHOOL TO DO THIS CHALLENGE? WHAT THE HELL!

I'm glad my tribe won even though I wish there was a mutiny where they could have lost a TON of points and lost one of their own in the 'Alliance Against Ruthie TM' 

i cant fucking believe i got 5 points for steamed hams, and then emily said eggs was a fun fact and ruined my only contrifuckinbution! i still love her but kdjshgkjdshgkdjshhkj

You all know me as the heartless meanie who lost his shit multiple times during Azores, but right now I'm gonna fucking cry I don't wanna have to vote anyone off this tribe. Like I thought I felt bad before making the move against Madison or having to give up on trying to save Jack, but this is the absolute HARDEST thing that's happened yet. Even if it's Charlotte because apparently she wants us to vote her out, I'm still gonna be crying during this one. This sucks.

Someone from Loronha is winning this game. No ifs, no buts. We all fought SO HARD to win. So hard. And we all got so many points, despite the odds and just stuff being against us. With my strategy, any plans I had of voting against Dana/Will/Cameron? they are gone. I love them all SO MUCH, and have no intention of voting them out. At merge, the war on Atalaia begins. ________________________________________________________________ Like ugh I love me some Emily but come merge? Emily and Lily are outta here.

Thank GOD we won that challenge. I did SO MUCH and if we had lost I would’ve probably wanted Kevin to go home since he contributed the least to the competition at least from what I saw. And also, not to toot my own horn or anything, but I did SO MUCH for our tribe. Like whenever I was at auditions or sleep they were like,,,, we need Emily!! Like? That’s a good feeling. Don’t vote me out because I’m pulling my weight hehe! But also why the fuck did they need me so bad these things aren’t hard you just gotta be speedy!! Whatever. Also I cracked an egg on my head for no reason. I’m the queen of eggs though so it’s fine.

There's something especially depressing about the fact that Charlotte is so willing to go, whether it's because she really is truly over the game or she has stuff going on... It's just sad watching a pseudo-quit like this happen, especially coming off of last night's outright devastation. If y'all thought the Emily boot in Azores was sad (when literally everyone cried on live cam), then this is gonna be even worse - idk how but it's worse. But looking at the bright side, at least it's gonna get me through to the next round.

Charlotte has asked/offered to go tonight which I really respect and appreciate. I am so devastated to see her go though. Charlotte is an icon, a legend, an inspiration. She is truly the most justified all star in this cast. Come merge, the Loronha tribe is literally going to be F6. I'm speaking it into existence. ________________________________________________________________ God Charlotte going tonight is gonna be such a tragedy. But unfortunately a queen must fall for an empire to arise. Its time for the Loronha dynasty to begin.

Hi I feel awful about everything and this game is making me have a heart which should honestly be a crime. As long as I am not being tricked by everybody on my tribe (always a possibility, I am impossible to blindside), I think Charlotte is going home on her own accord tonight. I feel SO bad about it, but at the same time I think she would have gone home either way (idol plays aside), which I'm not sure she expected. Also i'm feeling kind of good about the game right now because I think the dynamics on both tribes are good for me going into a merge situation. 1) Will and Duncan aren't close, and I'm close with both of them. 2) Duncan is close with Zach, who I am close with, and will use for information and then vote out expediently so I can win (probably tbd). 3) I still have my alliances from both my tribes with most members in tact (rip Autumn a quen) 4) I didn't even have to lie to anybody yet.. Wig! I just withheld a lot of information, but weirdly, people have been spilling their game tea to me which honestly ya girl loves! 5) Everyone i'm working with wants Emily out and amazing because i sure do too. 6) Ashvika is close to Duncan and also mad that Autumn was voted out, me too girl. Ok wig I have more thoughts but umm this is all for now ladies. See u on the flip side hopefully xoxo

I have no idea whether I’ve done a confessional or not this round and ideally it’s not my last one. So Loronha finally lost again after WE DIDNT MERGE AT 13! *side eyes emoji*  and honestly the tribe’s moral was shot, right in the gut. Like they all felt so bad about losing it must’ve beeen a rush to be a part of that challenge. Lots of emotions are out and people are in their feels. Apparently Charlotte is very okay with going home and says she has no ulterior motives. I wanted Cameron out first but if Charlotte is willing to go and wants us to vote her out, who am I to stand in her way? I ain’t shit. And I know if I was in that position I’d prefer to go home too. I just don’t think she was as invested as she should’ve been and she realizes that. It’s just sad and I hope she’s not fronting and that we Merge soon.

I THINK I'M MAKING MERGE GIRLIES!!!!!!!! So, with that, I'm going to talk about all the people left in the game and my opinions on them for merge because I've been slacking on confessionals this round!

Okay starting with Ali: Ali has an idol and I'm hoping I'm the only one that knows that still. I'm a little worried not being on his tribe right now because 1. he could build closer relationships with people that are not me 2. he could tell other people about his idol 3. he could tell other people I know about his idol. 3 is bad because then people will know Ali and I are very close. Though I haven't been discreet about any of my relationships in the game thus far, I guess another very out there tie to a player will just? Happen? I guess? I don't know. I'm definitely going to spill all the tea from our 3-3-1 6-0 vote because he's going to get the tea eventually and I'd rather it be from me. I also wonder how close Ali and Duncan are right now because I remember them being a bit rocky before the joint tribal, so who can be sure? I can't.

Ashvika: Really sweet girl and I'm glad we got Autumn out. Ashvika was wanting to save Autumn during the joint tribal and that means they were close, especially because they just played together. I figure Ashvika and Duncan are close because of what I know from Duncan. I wonder if that relationship is still in tact or if Ashvika is now closer to Will and Dana. I remember them being close for some reason. This could be inaccurate but? Idk.

Charlotte: I honestly don't know where I stand with Charlotte! I have no idea where her allegiances are and like? I just really don't know. I remember her and Zach being close but now that they're on different tribes, I don't know where she stands. And I also know that Duncan low key wanted Charlotte out in the earlier days of this game so like... she could be going out next because of her lack of allies and Duncan kind of wanting her out. I don't know how much power Duncan has over there. But also, Charlotte got Jack's vote last time Elaenia went to tribal council so... it's likely? I guess? I don't know. We'll see.

Dana: I don't really know much about Dana other than her and Will are tight. And Zach. And probably Ashvika. That's going to have to be a group I either 1. work with or 2. look out for when we merge. I can just like... sense it. But I also think that Will and Ali are close and then Dana and Zach are close and they're my closest allies so like??? Ali and Zach can probably keep me safe or at least differ targets off my back if my name happens to come up. And I like that!

Duncan: I love Duncan. He has an idol. Idk who else knows other than Ali and I. I hope that's it. Oh wait this is me remembering mid-type that I told Lily about Duncan's idol lol. FUNNY EMILY anyways. Lily probably won't tell. I hope she doesn't. Whew. I think Duncan should be okay 1. because he has an idol 2. because he like??? has a good social game?? I'm hoping to see him in merge.

Kevin: Honestly don't know how I feel about him because we saved him last round but he voted for Lily the round before and like... wtf I don't like that? fjkldsfalsd I thought he and Lily were TIGHT and then he just goes around and votes Lily out like WOW idk man. I know he's my secret santa but he's SKETCHY!!! If we were to have gone to tribal this round, I would've wanted to vote him out. I know that's flip-floppy because we saved him last round and kept Ruthie out of the loop but that's the truth lol

Lily: My absolute fav person ever!!! In a game sense, I would say I'm like ... 4th closest to her. Zach, Ali, and Owen are above her. But everything else I love her! She has that vote negator and I'm happy she FINALLY got something good from the arch*p*l*go!! 

Cameron: Love him love him love him! I feel like we won't work together in this game though. Not sure why I just... don't see it happening? It might. We shall see. He reminds me to take my medicine every night. I <3 him. And for the short period of time we've been together in this game I've been decently honest with him. He was one of the few people I told before the Madison vote that I was gonna vote for Autumn rather than Madison just because she's my friend and it hurts :( so I'm hoping he's willing to vote with me even though he thinks I'm a major snake. God.

Owen: I was doubtful about him at first but I think I've made a genuine connection with him! I was like high key scared he was gonna flip on Lily/Zach/Myself for Autumn/Kevin/Ruthie but he DIDN'T and I'm so happy about that. I really like him and he's been very helpful in challenges so I'm thankful for that!! He's so sweet and we have a snapchat streak and anyone that puts up with my streaks is a blessing

Ruthie: I really love Ruthie and keeping her out of the loop last vote was really something dksjfkasld I'm sad that it happened but like we needed to just in case an idol was played or something. I hope she's willing to work with me later down the line but I think our relationship definitely needs some healing.

Will: Love Will and I really hope we can ACTUALLY work together this game! I know things were messy with the Madison vote but I'm hoping that that doesn't get in the way of our game relationship. Though me fucking things up with Ruthie might also hinder it... I'm not sure. I think Ali and him are close and I'm close to Ali so like? Yeah keep me safe Will xoxo. Will is also definitely close to Dana since she exposed some of his tea during the scavenger hunt. I would never expose tea from any of the people I'm not close with you know? yeah they're close. Her draft name in Azores was "Dana I want Will to win" and I remember that because I had to read it like ten times to finally understand what it said

Zach: I love Zach so much and he's my number one ally despite me not like telling him about either one of Ali or Duncan's idols lmao. Ugh I just love Zach so much and I trust him with ??? MY LIFE????? I'd go to rocks for him I love him. He's so honest with me (I think) and I just love him omgjdklfjaskldflasd god I love Zach he's great he's so sweet I can tell we're going to stay friends after this which is my favorite thing about him!! AHHHHH!! 

Well this confession was super long and I started it around 3:00 and I'm just now submitting it (7:27 PM lol)

Charlotte becomes the 8th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 7-0 vote. You can see Charlotte’s preseason interview here.

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode #7: “Crud Crud Crud Crud FUDGE” ~ Ruthie

I hope we win the next challenge for Autumn, Kevin, and Ruthie’s sake.

Did y'all enjoy the show cause if ya did

I mean the blindside didn't go according to plan BUT it needed to happen. This whole Autumn-has-to-do-what-we-say and we-can-come-for-her-whenever shit? Yeah that ended tonight and rightfully so. Lily knows I almost ended her but then I saved her life so she better not ever come for me again cause if I so much as hear a whisper of my name 

I wish y'all could've seen my pm's but since you can't, let me just let y'all know: if you ever want to learn what's REALLY going on in your tribe? Have a tie vote between 2 people who both deserve to go. That's some scary shit and everyone now knows I'm wild so every single person was messaging me after that tie vote: - Lily sincerely apologizing this time, coming clean about Archipelago, and begging for her life - Emily sending the entire text of her alliance with JD and Zach to expose JD coming for me - JD telling me she was being selfish (once I confronted her) and she just wanted Duncan's loyalty; apparently I was in the way so that's why she spoke ill of me - Ruthie telling me she won't flip but having PTSD about rocks so she flipped - Kevin telling me don't flip but feeling petty about JD's vote so he flipped - Zach and Owen acting like they'll flip but then not Basically it didn't matter what I did, but in the moment everyone was scared shitless and the sky was falling and it was beautiful. Honestly I hate I made that promise to Amanda in my video interview about not being petty hahaha but it's fine. JD gave me her blessing to win; Ruthie has promised her loyalty; Owen swore he would vote Lily when the time came; and everyone learned I am just that cracked

Is it just me or is my tribe throwing this challenge to maybe vote me out?  This is NOT cute I hope I'm just paranoid but I'm going to surprise them and win this whole thing by myself even if they DON'T help this is not a cute look. I hope I'm just paranoid. ________________________________________________________________ I'm so stressed these people really aren't going to try on this challenge, are they?  crud crud crud crud FUDGE

lmaooooooooooooooooooooooo

So I'm on the bus right now and trying to think worst case scenario (i.e. we lose the next challenge). I am starting to think voting against Cameron/Dana/Will premerge is the wrong move. Not only do I love them all with my whole hort as people, but our alliance seems genuine. Additionally, I'm hoping that while that 5 is a scary group come merge, their separation since the swap will cause divisions. I think right now, I sorta want a F6 of me, Ashvika, Duncan (potentially the F3 I want right now) with Will, Dana and Cameron? I dont entirely know but that's sort of what I feel like could be good? I'd also like to see Kevin and Autumn go far, like they are super sweet and I feel like its unfair for the disconnected people to be targetted so quickly. I dont even know. Priority 1? Still winning the challenge

When it comes to challenges, something I have to say to myself is this... "What Would Jordan Pines Do?" We love loopholes. Loopholes win challenges. Let's see how we do.

Okay, someone else is helping with the challenge now, I feel like a complete bitch for thinking they were trying to set me up. 

Good thing literally three people have been working on this challenge (to my knowledge) and I've been busting my ass to find as many ridiculous connections between these players as I can. I do NOT wanna go to tribal it's just not in my plans, in my schedule.

So i'll just rehash the last tribal vote. Essentially, about two hours before I thought it was going to be 6-1, knowing Lily couldn't vote due to a task provided by the now-closed Archipelago. WOOH thank god it's shut btw. However, Owen messages me around 8:30pm saying that Autumn made a rumour that the votes were going to go 3-3-1. I instantly go shocked because i'm like... wow Owen's acting REALLY shady... i'm leaving. I was expecting it to be my time. I call Emily and while on call, after leaking the rumour of the vote, I found out by Autumn that apparently her/Ruthie/Kevin were going to flip and vote out Lily. I didn't think this could happen because Kevin was close with Lily (since he leaked to Lily in the first place about the vote) and that Ruthie wouldn't lie to me. I was naive whew. I refused to tell Emily anything and I act a little like... edgy and then Owen leaks it so I just go with it. I trust Emily the most but I didn't want to cause any chaos. It goes to about 9:30 - 30 minutes prior - and everything seems fine still. I check up again with Ruthie and Kevin - they both say they're voting JD. Everything is according to plan. Autumn tells me her whole plan and in hopes, wants me to flip at the revote. Despite me thinking Lily's a bigger overall threat and it would weaken Emily's connections (meaning she could potentially be more loyal to me), I figured enough that she may feel hurt by me and I couldn't do it smoothly without causing some friction. Tribal occurs. On the call it goes 3-2-1 and there's one vote left and I truly was like "adios JD!" then... it ties. I literally am IN SHOCK! I tell Emily straight up after calling her again saying that i'm flipping if they remain intact cause i'm not going to rocks. I'll explain my thought process. Despite Lily being a bigger threat (mentioned above), she ranks at a 0 with me. We don't talk; we aren't close. That's a poor score. But by keeping her after half the tribe has flipped on her, it'll go up to a 1. Wooh upgrade! Now for JD. She was at a 3 at the start, but based on HER past actions, she was at a -1. Keeping her would make it go to -2. Simple maths --> 1 > -2 - so I decided that Lily is in my best interest to keep around. I work on Ruthie so much to get her to flip. Emily works on Kevin. Lily works on both. We promised Ruthie she wouldn't be the next vote if she flips back. Is that true? Sure. She'll stay around. But I want to form a solid majority (for this tribe) with Owen, Lily, Emily and myself - and pick off Kevin and Autumn next respectively. Maybe flipped. Don't matter to me. They really put themselves on the bottom by doing this. In before I leave WOOH! Autumn flips because Ruthie/Kevin did, and in an unanimous revote, JD leaves 6-0. I feel bad but it's kind of like brought upon herself. I'm excited to see how the other tribe perceives this since it was such a crazy vote whew. I'm just so exhausted by last nights events that i'm literally not talking to many of them right now. I'll work on damage control briefly later, but right now it's like... whatever. Owen is making Autumn sketched - or she thinks I ratted the plan out which I KIND OF did but it was mainly Owen and without being direct I want her to lose that trust with Owen but feel more loyal to me. We'll see how things work. I really like Owen so I kind of don't want to throw him under the bus, hence why i'm being like passive about this.

I've been SO cracked trying to decipher the vote last time. My current assumption is that Lily didn't vote (I still don't know entirely why) and the vote was: JD: Emily, Zach + Kevin...? Lily: Ruthie,Owen & Autumn? Kevin: JD I am confident that JD voted Kevin and Lily didn't vote, and then in the revote: 'i’ve been rocked out once in this series and it was enough, i’m sorry!’ - Ruthie "I mean, you voted for me." - Kevin "the alternative is just not happening for me. i’m confused how we even got here in the first place because this made no sense." - Emily and then if I had to guess the other 3 "EVERYTHING THAT IS CREATED WILL AT SOME POINT BE RECREATED AS SOMETHING ELSE!!!!!" - Owen "orange juice" - Zach "I promised Amanda and my admin parents I wouldn’t be petty so :( Thank you for everything/ I’m sorry it didn’t work out for you!" - Autumn ANYWHOMST I AM CRACKED TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT

I'll be honest... i keep putting in the tribe chat that i've been trying pretty hard at this challenge, and it's not that I haven't given it a shot, it's that i'm too dumb and all my energy is going to cultivating my instagam aesthetic.  

Major sigh

AHHH, my sanity she's gone, but the survivor wiki isn't getting deleted like I threatened since we won

i made this before the immunity results were posted

I don’t,,,, trust Owen like at all lol but I think we can make it out of this vote alive. Also I love Zach with my WHOLE HEART if he betrays me in this game I’ll cry he’s literally my favorite person. He’s just sending me weird facetuned pictures right now and we’re just laughing and like this is WHOLESOME CONTENT is this what it’s like to have actual FRIENDS I love ORGS

Save me from the dentist please I hate this place I keep thinking they’ll call me back and they don’t ack hfgfgfghfggfghg I want this over with I have nothing to say about the game right now btw Why don’t they call me back AGHHH

Holey Moley, I'm so glad we won. As much as I talked about voting against Dana/Will/Cameron, I truly don't think I could've done it. I love them so much as people, and betraying them so nastily (Dana for the second time) is just.... not something I could've faced doing. Like, I feel like if we went to tribal (or indeed go to tribal next round if we don't merge), I probably would've played it safe and voted Charlotte? I just- ack the more I think about it, the more I'm like- I truly couldn't have betrayed those 3 like that, I love them all so much. On another note, I went HAM on that challenge, like truly any more time spent looking at those wiki pages and I was gonna *scream* if we lost. Side note, I am also incredibly annoying, like while I'm sure the tribe is grateful for my challenge contribution, I think I just annoyed everyone. And I put an ALMIGHTY target on my back by doing so much for the challenge, like I'm a challenge flop so that's so funny to me. Side note: I found it so funny that on call, Cameron said something about having the  idol, and Will & Dana both did like a *pretendstobeshocked.gif*. It was SO FUNNY, because they didn't know I knew, it was wildt. ________________________________________________________________ I have a bad feeling Ruthie or Zach is going home, and I'm truly not a fan of either of those options.... Lily is the person I'm least connected to on that tribe, but I assume since she was kept safe in a tie vote by the tribe and 3 people didn't vote for her in the original vote, that they are gonna be a majority of four.

Tribal council very clearly fucked me up and it's all Autumn's fault rn fskajfhkjd like..... I told her about Lily's power because I trusted her, and she took that and completely blew it up into something to use against Lily with other people, so now Lily and Emily obviously know that Autumn found out and if Lily honestly only told Emily and I then...it's not hard to figure out. I told Emily that I told Zach about it. And Emily said that maybe Lily told Kevin who told Autumn but???? If Lily says she didnt tell Kevin, I doubt Emily would believe that she's lying for some reason. And then in her tribal answer Emily said that stuff about how she's probably being manipulated by someones kindness and I'm sitting here like that picture of the rat.... fsdkajfhkjdsfkd :( it's not my fault im such a snake. I just can't help myself. it's in my BLOOD. So Emily suggested Kevin and then also Autumn suggested Kevin? And part of me thinks that makes sense bc if Autumn and Lily were both takin heat last round then they might expect one another to be idoled and want to target someone else. Kevin seems a good middle ground for that. but at the same time....it seems suspicious they'd tell me the same name. Like they have talked and agreed that they're telling me kevin but really voting me fsdkajhfkjds fuck my whole life. I don't think Zach would betray me? And I don't think that Emily would do something without telling him... But if she and Lily don't trust me anymore and I did something to make Autumn made, they could get the votes to send me out :'( and I don't like that. I considered playing my extra vote but the most that can do is making something 4-4 if I'm going home anyways? Like say I'm getting four votes and kevin gets three, I use my extra vote and it ties 4-4 me and kevin but I dont vote on the revotes so they could still send me out 3-2. and if it's like...five votes me, two votes kevin, I use the extra vote and i'm still out 5-3? so it literally doesnt help me at all unless somehow the votes are being split for an idol. Which....maybe I could make happen but I dont like the idea of split votes either bc then even three votes could flip and send me home. god dang it. I'm going to call with Emily and zach and hopefully I feel better about it. If they play me and I go home I'm really going to fucking cry.

Me after that last tribal: 

God. Owen leaked something that night about JD being messy in her original tribe. I played with her in Motunui and honestly her plans were #cracked so I should've expected that??? I think I repressed that memory. Oh and also she um voted for me which wasn't very nice :( I have no idea what to do this tribal. I told Owen before I flipped that I didn't feel safe so he promised to vote Lily with me but I don't want to vote Lily anymore but I don't want to seem wishy-washy to Owen and get voted out and I don't really have any solid allies so???? More at 10 pm I guess

Zach pronounces Mario like mare-ee-oh... I know who's getting my vote tonight

idk who the fuck zach thinks he is????????????? it's literally not "mare e Oh" what a MOFO THOT. im voting his ass out, it's pronounced mario like how it looks like mar ee oh god DAMN. woof woof grrrr (poke) ashvikanow that we won immunity and don't have to worry about safety this week, i need to start thinking of a plan for merge and how to break up a power alliance that will likely form between some of the bigger players 

I'm over here, winnin another immunity, just praying for the megre at this point honeys! I WANT LILY TO GO. TONIGHT. PLEASE GOD MAKE IT HAPPEN. 

I love how obvious Zach makes it that he, owen, emily and lily have an alliance that I'M NOT INCLUDED IN. 

It seems like everyone's uncertain and confused so either this is some elaborate scheme to fuck me up or the tribal really just did #that to everyone. It makes me feel really uneasy nonetheless nnnnn but I don't wanna be pushy or anything bc I'm not really in the position to do it? 

Okay, so it looks like we are merging tonight which AHHHHHHHHHH! Anyway, I am so glad our tribe didn't go to tribal. I genuinely don't think I could've truly voted against Dana/Will/Cameron so it would've been a case of disappointing Duncan. For the time being anywhomst, the question becomes... who is gonna go at the Atalaia tribal tonight... Here is what I know: - Owen has an extra vote playable tonight or at F7 -  That Autumn/Owen and Lily/Emily are gonna be close So with that said, I am gonna try and add that information, to the assumptions I've made: - It looks like Lily didn't vote last time and here is why I think it must be her. Six people voted in the revote, which means Lily and JD didn't originally vote for one another. Additionally, the Kevin voting confessional of: "I feel like I do this everytime we are in a game together. Sorry babes" and the JD voting confessional of "I mean, you voted for me." seems like its JD voting for Kevin and then vice versa. THUS, Lily must not have voted, but whomst knows why is the real question.... That leads onto the next question, if JD voted Kevin and Lily didnt vote, who did the other three vote for? Well, I assume Autumn/Owen voted together and Emily voted for JD (especially since she threw her name out during the One World vote). From there, I'm trying to analyse the voting confessionals.... "‘I AM SORRY I’M SO CRACKEDT I CHANGED MY VOTE LAST MINUTE BECAUSE I HEARD TEA, I’M SORRY IF THE TEA WAS INCORRECT TEA!!" is I think Kevin Owen or Autumn? "You seem like a great person and all but this game we haven’t really connected and that’s why my vote is going towards you. I’m sorry!!" feels like Emily, Ruthie or Zach "Sorry, love ya." feels very Emily "Kim Kardashian it’s what she deserves gif" this one is tough because its quite shady? Like quoting gifs is a Duncan thing but he obviously wasn't at that tribal, so I'm gonna give up on voting confessional analysis because I'll learn what happened tonight anywho. But with that said, the revote confessionals are much clearer the one about rocked out is of course ruthie, the one about you voted for me is kevin, the one about the alternative not happening is emily(?) which leaves 3. The petty one directly addressing amanda makes me think its autumn since amanda helped host himalayas, orange juice is probably Zach, which leaves the last one as being Owen. WHEW

I really hope we merge tonight because I'm ready to start playing this game even harder, I'm ready to take out the big threats and the fan favorites and make it to FTC again - and win this time. I'm making sure my emotions are in check, which isn't something I can say about a lot of the other players. Playing with your emotions is always dangerous, especially on an All Stars season when we all know each other to a degree. You let someone like Lily or Emily make it too far into the merge (even just one or two rounds) and don't take them out when you have the chance, all because you like them too much? Looks like you won't be winning this game. All I know is that my ride or dies are Dana, Cameron, Ali, Owen, and Autumn and everyone else is expendable, I'm ready to cut them as soon as I get the chance. And anyone in that five immediately becomes expendable when it isn't good for my game anymore. Owen and Ali... I love them dearly but their love for Emily better not be blinding. I would love to sit with Dana and Cameron at the end, I just need to make sure I can actually get there first. If it isn't Lily or Emily tonight, it'll be interesting moving forward because that means someone's made a couple promises here and there to Lily... Hmm...

Alright I tried to break the silence by suggesting Autumn's name to Emily and Owen. Let's hope this doesn't backfire. Owen seemed chill with it, Emily hasn't responded yet. We could probably get Lily on board with t easily. I chose Autumn because she's shown her true colors last tribal: from what she told me her motivation to vote Lily was that she has voted against her, which was a bit individualistic of a motivation. We're all playing for ourselves, but compromise is a necessity. She's also shown she's not afraid to make big moves even when there's like 15 people in the game. So...I hope this works, or if it fails, I hope I'm not the one hurt by it. 

sooooooooooo I feel like they're gonna vote me still bc some sketch stuff is happening. Kevin suggested Autumn, Autumn suggested Kevin, ruthie I have no clue, and then Emily added us to an alliance with Lily (and Zach) so that's cool and Lily sfsdkahfj rolld a D20 and settled on Autumn. Voting one of my close friends off bc the dice that be told me to? inch resting. I do feel a little bit guilty voting her....because I love her and I want to get to know her better and she was part of my original group. I think she's someone who will tell me things. And also she's going to be more of a threat than Kevin is for sure. But....she really blew my shit up last round and I don't like that. At all. And she's always gonna wanna do her own plan... And honestly cutting her makes the group of five seem a little less scary and hopefully it proves to Zach/Emily that I'm with them over Dana/Cameron/Will. Am I? :~) prob not ! So I just have to get over my guilt and do the wrong thing I guess. I just have to be the person I have always been I guess fakdsj since Emathia. Before? Vote out my friends and show no mercy. Now? Still vote out my friends and show no mercy. The closer we get to tribal though the more I get worried. Although I did message Lily earlier and tell her how I've always wanted to work with her and apologized for being shady before and was like...i hope i proved I'm not ever gonna write ur name down fskhfdkdshfkjshfjkdsjkf oop!

I would like to thank not only but also Jesus for allowing me to make top 13 and what I expect to be the Merge. Ali and I know the whereabouts of 3 of the where (I presume to be) 4 idols are. With merge coming a fifth will be put into play and I’ll do anything to get it. I’m really glad that I’ve been having fun since the game has started. Like I’ve been having a blast! I came here to have fun and to win the game. I’ve had my fun and games already but when Merge hits? It’ll be another story. It’s the calm before the storm. Merge is going to be a blood bath and I’m ready to dive in face first. I’m kind of shook at myself because I haven’t promised anyone final 2 which may come back to bite me in the ass or it may free me. I wouldn’t mind sending home one of the great values home at the first vote but we’ll have to wait and see how everyone else feels I guess. As long as I come out on top I don’t really care how it happens. Now the odds of me succeeding are slim to none but hey! A bitch can dream right? 

CROSSROADS IS UGLY SORRY I'M LATE!!! I fought to keep both Ryan and Haley and it didn't work so yet another person I like/ trust is going home. You know it's bad when I join the majority out of safety. And that little group of Founding Fathers who think they run shit ever since they got rid of Chris? Yeah they can choke and I'm getting really tired of their mess ________________________________________________________________ Hi don't send that last one to the VL because it's meant for Crossroads lmao sorry I'm old and don't know how to read

please let the third time be the charm, let autumn go tonight khgkjshgjksd

Always out with a 5-2 blindside, Athena is so poetic. Know that I'm rooting for everyone on Lorohna plus Ruthie. Honestly this game has been very high school and varsity cheerleading-esque so I'm disappointed but not surprised. Lowkey this particular game was really bad for my mental health, constantly feeling targeted and marginalized so.... here I am feeling somewhat relieved and at peace

Highkey they're just bitter about the tie vote but seeing how Lily took three fucking shots at me in the course of the game, I was 1000% justified in that move. Also Owen and Zach are catering to the wrong HBIC and made 7 enemies on the other tribe by being ugly like this. Between that and being up Emily's ass/ worrying about her feelings, they've already lost know that. Kevin is really on thin ice as it is. Karma has all sorts of stuff for Emily and Lily- kisses, hugs, blowjobs, you name it. Also I'm living for how offended the 5 of them were by me saying I liked Lorohna better hahahahaha. Ummm y'all just murdered me remember? For not being your puppet?? And you still expected me of all people to kiss your asses and go gracefully???

Athena fun fact! The 5 people who voted Autumn out in Himalayas lost and the 1 person who didn’t vote Autumn went on to win the season! So congrats to the All Stars winner sitting among Lorohna and Ruthie; the admins and I look forward to seeing the rest of you in Season 14!!

Autumn becomes the 7th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 5-2 vote. You can see Autumn’s preseason interview here.

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode #6: “Oh Neptune” ~ Kevin

whew I called that jack vote lmaoooo kinda happy bc I voted for him last time!!!! and then told lily about it!!!! but also it's a bit sad that he's someone that would've maybe gone for emily later on. Although tbh, I don't think anyone is about to hand her a second win, even though we all love her so much. I'm thinking though that, if my theory about double tribal at f14 is true....then maybe it'd be better to lose the next challenge? if we win and they theoretically vote out charlotte, and then we have a double, then the six of my friends would have to vote out one of their own and I'm not sure I like that idea :( my og three I want safe, but duncan ashvika and ali all mean a lot to me too rn. Soooooo we'd have to see. Best case scenario would be Ali lmao bc I think duncan ashvika and I can ride somethin out for a little while at least. that'd be actually so iconic??? my main ally from hos1 and my main ally from omgbb1, both of which I won? ksjadhf FUCK. I know I'm not the kind of person to throw a challenge, though. I don't think I have it in me, and I'd never forgive myself if I lost and then got voted out. So I'm just gonna try my hardest and if we DO lose, maybe it'll be for the better.

New years resolutions:

1. Eat healthier!! Fit back into my old favorite jeans that do not have an elastic waist.  2. Buy a go pro! 3. Pay off my car 4. Once number 3 is accomplished look into purchasing a house.  5. Get a new laptop 6. Travel more!  7. Play just one game at a time.  8. Exercise everyday to get ready for my 5K in April! 

Hey! So, I think I'm past all my salt from the last round. Not sure why I was so pissed about it, and it was kinda my own fault anyway for hyping myself up. I did another archipelago challenge, and this one was actually super fun, which was a nice change of pace. I had to organize a little mini tribal council! Between my sister playing a fake idol, me using all sorts of silly tribal questions, and the fire-making challenge where my mom pulled out a lighter, it was overall super fun to plan and host. Sure, I got a disadvantage from it in the form of a lost vote, but whatever. Now I'm about to check the path for endurance (there were three paths I could've taken, Social Endurance or Creative (the one I took)), and hopefully it doesn't result in another disadvantage. I mean, if it does, then I know the last one is where the advantage is, and I can tell Emily to go there. Hopefully I get the advantage right here, though, 'cause I don't wanna be at a double disadvantage next round. Autumn Needs To Fall Already!

UGH!!!!!!! I am so sad that Jack is gone what the FUCK!!!!!!!!! I love that kid so much and I'm just so so upset. I wish he was on my tribe!!!!!! I wouldn't have done him so dirty,,,,, I say as I did him very dirty in the last game we played together ANYWAYS! I just went down the exact idol path Ali went down to get his idol and like,,, IM JUST STUPID! I THOUGHT THE SHIT WOULD RESET! OR SOMETHING! NEW IDOLS WOULD BE HIDDEN? SOMETHING? BECAUSE OF THE SWAP? No it's the same challenge baby. And now I gotta get the lowest tribal immunity score and like fdkfdklfaslsa I JUST HATE MYSELF SO MUCH IDK WHY I EVEN SEARCH NOTHING GOOD COMES FROM MY SEARCHES AND I JUST SCREW MYSELF OVER fdjklasdklfasdfalsdfadsklalsdfaklsd god I mcfucking hate the archipelago bye. At least we have NYE off baby I'm gonna get turn watching black mirror and eating leftover christmas candy alone,,, in bed crying

I'm on call with Duncan, I love him and hate that I didn't trust him before. ________________________________________________________________ That challenge was almost the iceberg to the titanic that is my gameplay. ________________________________________________________________

sorry that I submitted it so late, this was filmed the night of the jack vote off ________________________________________________________________ So, its time for another Ali update, since I've officially had a panic attack over this game! I love having mental health that's as stable as a see-saw! ANYWHOMST. After I called with Duncan, we sorta established that Cameron might need to be the next one to go, especially if we lost the next challenge. After all, he a) has an idol (WHICH I TOLD DUNCAN AND I KNOW YOU WILL HATE ME Cameron) b) is part of a potentially large merge alliance c) has GLOWN UP like nobody's business as a player... But then, soppy ali swooped in and couldn't do it. I know its a game, and its all stars and we are all here to win but... I love Cameron too much. I am such a 100% unapologetic forever Cameron stan, that cutting off his journey premerge would truly break my heart. Us winning the challenge is thus SO GREAT. If I had to go to tribal, I would have had to really crack some eggs in a  gamesense, either siding with Will/Cameron/Dana, who are all ICONS or siding with Charlotte/Ashvika/Duncan who are also all ICONS. Honestly, I want my tribe to vote me out, that'd be the truly least ugly result. Also, I've SUCKED with confessing recently, so its great to catch up!

Is it weird that when we lost, my life didn't flash before my eyes? I was just trying to win the challenge, but once I realized I found that third ship, I just knew it saved my life. I'm not saying I'm safe lol but slaying like that WITH NO CLUES 

Maybe the dog days really are over. Also Lily has struck up a convo with me, apologized, and wants us to work together...... I thought she was being about 65% sincere and was willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. But how about this- Owen spilled the tea and said Lily is only playing nice because ARCHIPELAGO MADE HER. Since she ranked me and Ruthie on her least trusted, she has to form an alliance with us called The Golden Trio but she can't create it.  Ruthie is super here for it and trusting and tbh I'll admit Lily had it secured, us discussing how JD should go so she doesn't flip at merge. But now that Owen spilled the tea again and I know my rival is using me... I can't help myself I gotta be messy. Lily has voted me out twice and I've flipped the vote twice to save myself. The third time could really do me in and I can't risk it/ I will never win or truly breathe if Lily and I both make merge. So JD is officially the cover story: I'm playing offense instead of defense and blindsiding Lily out of here

Dang dang we lost the darn competition, Dolly. I'm sad. I didn't really want to have to deal with tribal because I hate having to make decisions but I'm thinking this vote is going to be easy! Lily has unfortunately stumbled upon two disadvantages in the archipelago where she CANNOT VOTE in the next tribal!! jkdskjfkas AHHH!! And I think it's going to end up being fine. Lily also had a challenge where she had to make an alliance with her two least trusted allies (She put them in a list most to least trusting) and her least trusted are Ruthie and Autumn. So now there's an alliance with the three of them and this is GOOD because it's keeping Lily safe! I think! Zach has been telling me he wants to call with Owen and I so that's a nut. That's like two more people who wants to work with me/keep me safe. And like I genuinely love Zach so much he's so sweet. I just love him. We called for like an hour now we're just fucking around in a mini and we're just having a good ole time. I love him!! I love these games because I feel like I make genuine friends!!!!!! Wow I love this game

Anyways for this vote, Lily said that Autumn brought up JD's name!! Which is GREAT to me!! That's who I've been kind of wanting for a while and also Zach wants it!! And Autumn bringing it up is so great!! In case anything happens I can say I heard it from Autumn and like fakdfksdkfals whew!! Lily is safe, Zach is safe, I'm safe, nut? I love this! I think with Lily being in an alliance with Owen and I AND Autumn and Ruthie!! Like!! This is a really good turn of events because Lily had previously like been on the bottom SOMEHOW but jdfasdklalsd whew!! I'm happy we're both seemingly on top??? And like fjkjdfas AHHH!! My dream alliance is Lily, Owen, and Zach and it's... so heart eyes!!! So beautiful!!! I love those three and I would love to work with them going forward!!! Also I think we're merging at 13??? Maybe! Who knows I don't lol but I think that all of us will be safe this tribal even if Lily can't vote! Autumn proposing JD is the best thing ever!!! All we would need this vote is four people and I'm one, Autumn would be another, Zach is another, and Owen!! So like even if Ruthie wasn't with us,,,, like JD would go home it'd be fine fadmlksdklfasd whew I'm feeling OKAY but I'm also a bundle of nerves!!! There's always something about going to tribal that makes me very uneasy but I'm definitely more okay going to tribal this round. I think we'll be okay and if I keep telling myself that maybe it'll come true!!! I don't want to go home pre-merge NO SIR!!

Also I love Lily but like tbh Zach is my number one ally and Ali is probably my number two just because of game information and shit like I share stuff with Lily but I also keep a lot from her 1. out of respect for Ali and 2. because it could possibly get out to Owen and I don't want that for Ali! I'm the only one that knows about Ali's idol and I'm so thankful for that because it's so SECRET and like I feel special and I won't tell anyone!!! And like this will be so helpful in the future WOOHOO idk man I'm just a roller coaster of emotions rn idk how to write a confession anymore.

I also forgot Kevin is on our tribe lmao fjdsklfjaklsd I feel bad but also I think he's a vote to keep me in this game and like,,, that's good? I think he's a vote to keep me bc I think his closest ally on this tribe is Lily and Lily loves me so like dab on em that's kinda like u love my wife protect me too!! It's like he's my brother in law he's required to protect me bc he likes my wife IDK HOW THIS WORKS IT'S 3:15 AM AND I NEED TO GO TO BED HAPPY NEW YEAR

So um kinda freaked out by losing because I don't really know what to expect or who stands where in this tribe and this is certainly not lit. I have two Archipelago trips to use today though bc of the thing I found, so that COULD help me if I need it. But I feel like everyone else has already raided the archipelago of everything useful so like how much can it help me

Okay whew, this round has been a fucking experience. My first idol search, the one I did right before New Year's break, got me a disadvantage in that I couldn't submit for the next challenge. Luckily, it was a volunteer one, so I got out of that without an issue. I still can't vote, though, so that ain't fun, and my new challenge is a rather annoying one. I had to rank the players on my tribe from 1 to 7, with 7 being the least trusted, and 1 being the most trusted. And, after putting down Autumn and Ruthie for that, I now have to make an alliance with them (done so far), have one of them make the group (also done), and convince them to name the alliance The Golden Trio (THIS IS THE MOST FUCKING ANNOYING STEP OF THEM ALL). Woo.

At least I know what name I'd be writing down, if I knew how to use a pencil

I'm like 95% sure that JD is going home tonight. She just made an alliance chat with Zach and I and she's already being cracked. [1/2/18, 3:54:05 PM] JD: JD has made the chat history visible to everyone [1/2/18, 3:55:26 PM] JD: But okay before I add Ruthie I do wanna say that idk about her just cus non of us have really talked to her. But RL and busy and I'm fine with it so long as you guys think she's also still likely to work with us [1/2/18, 3:55:41 PM] Emily: chat history is viewable [1/2/18, 3:55:48 PM] Emily: to everyone lol jkdsjfklasd like GIRL,,,, CHAT HISTORY IS VISIBLE JADSJFDD IF U ADD RUTHIE SHE SEES THIS I'M CRYING!!

Anyways, Owen, Zach, and I actually made a chat we're the "Official Tigers" it's super cute. I haven't told Lily yet but I probably will. We called for like an hour and basically decided on JD and we all started talking to her just to make sure that she doesn't vote for us in the event an idol or something is played. I love Owen and Zach they're my fav boys!!

Okay but just random side note,,,, literally everyone I talk to loves Owen and wants to take Owen far and I can just FEEL that Owen is going to dominate in merge and I have to make sure he doesn't make it to final tribal council. I can't do anything about it now. It's too early. I don't have the numbers, nor people I trust with my entire life. I'm scared. I need him like... gone lol ALSO LOOK WHAT JD JUST SENT IN ZACH AND I'S GROUP CHAT [1/2/18, 4:09:46 PM] Emily: i get u. do we have word from autumn or kevin? i dont want them sketched out tonight if things go astray [1/2/18, 4:10:39 PM] JD: No, I haven't heard anything from them ether. [1/2/18, 4:12:40 PM] JD: And I need to stop doing this but I'm willing to have y'all say me to them. Idk if I'm right but I feel like I've been the most in active lol [1/2/18, 4:15:17 PM] Emily: fjdkfkasd [1/2/18, 4:15:26 PM] Emily: i get u [1/2/18, 4:15:29 PM] Emily: are you sure? [1/2/18, 4:16:14 PM] JD: Yeah, did it before an dot was all okay so... Go for #2 lol [1/2/18, 4:16:21 PM] Emily: flkdjlkfas LOL FUCK FJDSJFKLADSLAJSKD I'M SOBBING THIS GIRL IS FASDJASLFLDSLKDSK SHE REALLY DOESN'T KNOW HUH LIKEKDLAKDFASD okay I feel so bad but this is a MESS!! jdskjfklasda whew y'all. At least this tribal will be relatively easy and if her name gets back to her then we can just blame it on Kevin and Autumn and like fdjfjakdjkflKLFDKLKFALALS GOD IM SCREAMING

woooooo boy im out for blood and im getting my fix. LET IT POUR. I mentioned I wanted JD gone if we lose and....I think it's happening. First of all, Lily apparently can't vote this round asdkjh so that's good. Also, she found something in the arhcipelago where she has to make an alliance with her least two trusted people (ruthie and autumn). she has to name it the golden trio but she also can't make it or name it herself.... I immediately told Autumn about this bc I do NOT want Lily to have an idol....yikes. I think Autumn told Ruthie too but I know they made the group, hopefully it's not too late and they dont name it what they're supposed to hahaha. I know Autumn told Zach about it too, and he told me fkdjhsjf again. Soooo literally six of the eight ppl on our tribe know about Lily's mission, oops!! I'm literally a snake. And I'm prob gonna get caught. However, I do wanna keep my word to Emily and have Lily in on this vote, and the easiest way of doing all this is to target the person I wanted out anyways - JD. Zach Emily and I made an alliance and we called, and we decided JD was a good target too. Kevin seems on board, and we just need to get Ruthie/Autumn to agree, which shouldn't be a problem. Hopefully it's an easy vote. The biggest worry is JD being messy and playing an idol...but JD has some really fuckin wild thoughts of her own I guess???? like she....made an alliance with zach emily and ruthie but told them she didnt rlly trust ruthie too much yet and then she told them that they could tell kevin or auutmn her name im crying adkjfsd I feel so bad but hopefully JD thinks we're voting Kevin/Autumn and then gets blindsided! Oop! I really do think it'll be a double so theoretically if that's true....then Charlotte and Ruthie/Kevin/Lily could be next....potentially... If we say it's uhhhh Lily, then that would make a potential final twelve merge: Emily, Zach, Ruthie, Autumn, Will, Dana, Cameron, Duncan, Ashvika, Ali, Kevin, and myself. Which is kind of a....huge clusterfuck of majority alliance in Emily/Zach/Auutmn/Will/Dana/Cameron/Duncan/Ashvika/Ali/me??? Like that would start to get real messy real fast. I just need to keep playing up personal, one-on-one connections so that when it comes time for people to fuckin CRACk, I'm not the one they want out!!!

Yeah, I'm honestly so glad to FINALLY GET A NIGHT OFF. With that said, I am still freaking out about going to tribal premerge. Like... I wanna take the "simplest" option of voting off, and vote off Charlotte. But I don't know if that's just putting off the inevitable when I need to vote against Dana,Will & Cameron. Because... that is probably gonna have to happen immediately. That 5 are *scary* players, Cameron has glown up, Owen is forever terrifying, Dana is a social genius and a winner, having hosted Will I know how good of a social/strategic/challenge player that he is & Autumn is INCREDIBLY underrated as a player. She managed to form connections so strong round one that people actively fought to keep her, and the vote was going to be on her at F17. So like... she deserves MUCH more credit. So AHHHHHHHHHHH its scary.

I love my tribe and I hate tribal and I'm so happy we don't have to go to tribal but I'm also so happy knowing that I'm in the majority on my tribe it's cute, it's fun, and it feels right. Owen needs to stay, that's all I need for this to be a perfect round.

Soooo the original plan was simple: everyone seemed on board to vote for JD. And then came Autumn. Autumn, who told me this herself, was apparently the source of voting JD. Cool. Then, she says she's changed her mind.

Oh. She says JD hasn't done anything, while Lily has voted for her twice. I guess she's playing this game Abi-Maria style then. I, who voted for her once, am sweating tbh. Zac didn't wanna vote for Lily apparently. Owen doesn't want to because Elaenia's already in the minority but here's the tea: original tribal allegiances probably won't matter by the time we get to merge. Autumn's apparently got Ruthie on board and ready, and she can get JD. Which...might make me the swing, which I mean iconic, but also shit? I wasn't born to make moves, I was born to be a goat. I told Autumn I'm uncertain which is the goddamn truth because wtf. JD hasn't done anything in the game (though she did ASSASSINATE me in S*cond Ch*nces). Lily...I mean, she hasn't done anything to ME, but she might have an idol and she's close with Emily. Emily's kinda weird, because a lot of people are like "oh my god she's a threat everyone loves her we need to get rid of her" but then when it comes to tribal they're like "no we can't do it" and it's like??? Okay. I guess we're eliminating all her best friends before we dare touch her. ________________________________________________________________ I guess...I'm voting Lily. It looks like it'll be 4-3 so...whew (Autumn said she found something in the Reef that disabled her vote this round). I think this'll be a way for me to get closer to Ruthie and JD too so that's good. I'm gonna kinda be sad because all my Taveuni children will be dead if this vote is successful (Charlotte doesn't count she's an aunt who's out of my control). 

WIG WE CAME BACK FROM LOSING IMMUNITY 1-4 TO WINNING!!

I’m so PUMPED we won immunity after freaking 4 rounds of going to tribal 

So apparently the alliance lily made for me and Autumn is a fake??? I’m so bummed I wanted to work with lily 

So Emily, Owen and I made a pact to not vote one another. Truthfully, those two are the two people I trust the most on this tribe, despite their threat status. Should they be threats? I mean outside perspective, everyone's an all star, so not necessarily. But in this game, I think they're both play phenomenally. I also really like Autumn. She's fun, and I think she might be a threat down the line but i'm not worried for her right now. Lily/Kevin are two interesting people, so is JD. Owen and I called and we kind of discussed how threatening that trio is. Emily is close with Lily who has ties with Kevin. Though Emily is someone I fully trust, I do think that Kevin needs to go fairly soon. Owen and I talked and once Owen told him that Lily was a thrown-out name, he immediately told Lily and it got out and that just proves he has to go. If we go to tribal again, he'll likely be the vote. So this vote. Well, this vote is based on the fact that it's common knowledge Lily can't vote. She got a task for the archipelago and surely, it's weird. Apparently she had to make an alliance with Autumn/Ruthie. I heard that from Owen and Autumn, whom are obviously aligned. Despite Lily being a bigger threat, JD has proven consistently that she's a question mark and will do whatever, and I think it's her time to go. Adios! Owen also told me about his vote advantage, which is only eligible at final 7 & 14. I very much could have written about this last round but I can't reassure so i'll say it again. Because of two tribal eligibilities, it conveys one of two ideas: 1) There will be an upcoming double tribal / one world event again, next round actually. It's going to be 14 people, and for Owen to have a power that might not even be eligible to be played seems VERY suspicious and I don't think it'd make sense for it to be there if Owen wasn't guaranteed going. 2) A pending merge - after tonight's tribal. A merge at 14 is very unlikely and rather radical, but I think it's a potential because likewise to that of a legacy, it's only allowed to be played near the end and at merge vote - if it's tonight. I'm just a conspiracy theorist so I know what i'm talking about!!! I promise!! I'm not really worried about tonight though. I very much could be blindsided, but it'd be fun and all in games and that. There's so many upcoming dynamics down the road though, such as the majority on Elaenia (Will/Dana/Owen/Autumn/Cameron), and the people up Autumn's booty (Duncan/Ashvika - Himalaya connections), the people who are Emily's people (Lily, Kevin, Cameron kind of), and others. It makes it set up for a VERY interesting merge. Not every vote, surely, but I think it'll be exciting nevertheless. Nevertheless... is that a word? @ Jay

I beat Ali in.... The last challenge... So that was fun. That was a fun one cus I adore Ali and my ride or die but, when you gotta lose, ya gotta lose :D For this challenge, probs so Owen and autumn for almost winning. I think that's why no one really wanted to vote autumn but I need her to go soon cus I need to have Duncan's full focus on getting to the end. I think Owen is really interested in going an Emathia alliance too so that will be amazing. And I think I got a 5 ppl alliance for this tribe going too. Me, emily, zac, Ruthie and Owen. Lily on the side <3 This is all assuming I don't get voted out tonight... If that happens good job y'all!!

I love not losing.

I love playing dumb.   I swear I'm voting with the people I know the least from like past games and stuff and I'm LIVING FOR IT. I really like Autumn, I want her to be my ride or die. She's easy to talk to and I feel like I can tell her everything and anything about the vote and it not get out. Everyone thinks I'm voting JD but I'm going to vote Lily and I think it's a great move because apparently in the... idol hunt place that I stopped going to that I can never spell the name of she had to write down a list of people and Autumn and I were at the bottom so she had to form an alliance with us. I'm so sad, I was excited about an alliance with her. But not too sad, I love chaos

Shit I think I might die lol

Y'ALL AUTUMN IS CRACKED AS FUCK FDSFJALKDFAS WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENINGKLMFJKJDSFKA AUTUMN IS BEING SO CRACKED JDLSFJALKSD I'M SCREAMING LOOK AT OUR PMS [1/2/18, 8:37:04 PM] Emily: what’ve you been hearing about the vote? I just want to make sure I’m on the same page as everyone [1/2/18, 9:24:43 PM] Emily: daksfklasfads i’ve been hearing jd?? [1/2/18, 9:24:52 PM] Emily: i just wanna make sure im not throwing my vote [1/2/18, 9:36:01 PM] Autumn Hill: Rip sorry my phone is doing the most right now [1/2/18, 9:36:24 PM] Autumn Hill: It keeps shutting off and we've been on the phone w/ ATT lmao [1/2/18, 9:36:32 PM] Emily: omg no you’re fine!! [1/2/18, 9:36:40 PM] Autumn Hill: Ok I have no clue/ I've heard three different names [1/2/18, 9:36:45 PM] Emily: omg??? [1/2/18, 9:36:49 PM] Autumn Hill: Soooo that split thing will probably happen [1/2/18, 9:37:06 PM] Emily: i’ve literally only heard jd [1/2/18, 9:37:07 PM] Emily: dmkfjaksdf [1/2/18, 9:37:09 PM] Emily: whatfksdjfklas [1/2/18, 9:37:13 PM] Emily: im so nervous [1/2/18, 9:41:40 PM] Autumn Hill: ME [1/2/18, 9:41:53 PM] Emily: what names have you heard? im screamin [1/2/18, 9:42:23 PM] Autumn Hill: I've made like 4 dumpster fires in an attempt to put out one I hate myself (cwl) [1/2/18, 9:42:48 PM] Emily: klsdjflkads what’s happening [1/2/18, 9:42:56 PM] Autumn Hill: Me, Kevin, JD, and I think Lily too [1/2/18, 9:43:15 PM] Autumn Hill: But how the votes actually fall? who knows [1/2/18, 9:43:47 PM] Emily: last i heard from jd she was deciding between you and kevin and i was trying to push towards kevin but i was like,, it doesn’t matter bc she’s going anyway but [1/2/18, 9:43:56 PM] Emily: now im scared!! [1/2/18, 9:44:43 PM] Emily: and from what i’ve been told from like lily and zach and owen and ruthie i think they’re all voting jd [1/2/18, 9:45:09 PM] Autumn Hill: Woooooow [1/2/18, 9:45:16 PM] Autumn Hill: Omg it's gonna be nuts [1/2/18, 9:45:24 PM] Autumn Hill: Like 3-2-1-1 probably [1/2/18, 9:45:33 PM] Autumn Hill: From the sounds of it [1/2/18, 9:45:44 PM] Emily: klJFKDLSJLA [1/2/18, 9:45:56 PM] Emily: wHAT [1/2/18, 9:46:35 PM] Autumn Hill: All I know is everyone is playing both sides so like I'm v anxious about 10:00 [1/2/18, 9:46:51 PM] Autumn Hill: But the stress is bad for my health haha so I'm ready [1/2/18, 9:48:21 PM] Emily: fkldfalsdfas [1/2/18, 9:48:35 PM] Emily: who is the 3?? im literally like so confused [1/2/18, 9:48:51 PM] Autumn Hill: I think JD [1/2/18, 9:49:04 PM] Autumn Hill: But like [1/2/18, 9:49:16 PM] Autumn Hill: I'm scared [1/2/18, 9:49:38 PM] Emily: i am too [1/2/18, 9:57:42 PM] Autumn Hill: This is what I get for being social hahaha [1/2/18, 9:58:11 PM] Emily: okay my official vote is gonna be for jd. i’m voting jd that’s what i’ve been told to do all day and i’m SO CONFUSED what else happened but that’s what im doing jflkdsjklfas [1/2/18, 10:00:39 PM] Autumn Hill: Fair [1/2/18, 10:01:46 PM] Autumn Hill: I... did not do that but like yolo [1/2/18, 10:01:51 PM] Emily: dkfkldlfadsa [1/2/18, 10:01:53 PM] Emily: i mean true JKASDJFKASJDKFJASD WHAT THIS GIRL IS LITERALLY VOTING FOR LILY AND NO ONE IS FOLLOWING IT THIS MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE IF WE GO TO TRIBAL AGAIN I'M SENDING HER ASS HOME THIS IS CRACKED I'M SO CONFUSED MFAKDFMKASDFJKJASDKLFJAKLSJFKLASMDJFKASJDKLFJALKSDJFKLASDJKFASDKFASJKDLFJKALSFMKALSJFDKLSA my confessions are just long strings of keysmashes I'm so KSDJFKLASDF MESSY ________________________________________________________________ THIS VOTE BETTER BE 5-1-1 OTHERWISE OTHER PEOPLE HAVE SOME EXPLAINING TO DO!!! Lily can't vote so there's only seven votes but Owen, Zach, and I are voting JD and I'm like 90% sure Ruthie and Kevin are voting for JD too but Autumn is APPARENTLY voting for Lily and JD is voting for Kevin? This tribal is fucking cracked as hell and I hate this so much ________________________________________________________________ Also biggest mood of this vote, Ruthie, IN OUR TRIBE CHAT: [1/2/18, 9:53:50 PM] Rusthie: what the heck is this vote [1/2/18, 9:53:58 PM] Emily: KDKFLJASDKLFA [1/2/18, 9:54:00 PM] Emily: BIG MOOD [1/2/18, 9:54:02 PM] zachary rae: WHahthtHTHTHT [1/2/18, 9:54:08 PM] Lily Owen: BIG! MOOD! [1/2/18, 9:54:16 PM] Rusthie: LIKE WHAT IS HAPPENING [1/2/18, 9:54:22 PM] Emily: pm me what the fuck is actually happening [1/2/18, 9:54:28 PM] Emily: soMEONE [1/2/18, 9:55:00 PM] Lily Owen: me as well [1/2/18, 9:55:34 PM] Rusthie: ME TOO PLEASE ________________________________________________________________ I don't know if I'm leaving tonight I think JD is leaving I'm just so so stressed out this is the worst thing ever

I AM HAVING A PANIC ATTACK IDK WHAT TO DO

Whew. Currently writing this while hanging onto the last string of my life, messaging with Ruthie and Kevin to try and fix some of the mess that is this tribal. I don't know if Autumn can really be made to flip, so... I'm not gonna try that if it won't wield good results. Ruthie seems like she actually wants to flip and work with me, and while I definitely AM suspicious, I do want her to do so, because working with her and Autumn in an alliance of three would be one of the most unsuspecting things if we all hit merge together. Kevin seemed like he had some tea that worried him, and while I did my best to convince him otherwise, I don't know for sure if he's actually going to vote JD. Emily's handling the conversations with Autumn, saying some stuff that MIGHT sway her to vote for JD, but... the good thing is, we don't need everyone to flip. Just one flipped vote will do it. Let's just hope our tribe is ready to take a gymnastics class and get flipping.

"i will reassure you if you do flip, you will not leave next. Emily and i are mad yes, but like if you flip, you’re giving us your loyalty or like you trust us and that’s enough that i promise i wont vote u out. its kind of like redeeming that idea, if it makes sense" THIS REALLY MAKES ME WANT TO FLIP, gee, thanks zach. 

I’m literally sitting here sipping my milkshake watching the tribe descend into madness hdjdjd I think we flipped autumn Ruthie and Kevin tho so thank god!!! I just had to promise to vote lily next....will I keep my promise? Who knows :) 

I admire their balls really trying that what the FUCK HUH! Lily and I talked everything out with Ruthie and I think Owen handled Kevin. It seems like they voted JD and all is right with the world. I think we will be surviving and NO ROCKS! Call me optimistic. But what I'm CONCERNED about is how Autumn found out about Lily's fake alliance with her like... where did she get that info? I didn't share it with her. Owen might have? I don't know who Lily told! She might have told Kevin and Autumn found out about the alliance from him. I'm just,,,, this was absolutely ridiculous and it just put Kevin, Autumn, and Ruthie in HORRIBLE positions game-wise. Like? We have majority going into next tribal. 4-3. Lily can vote next time sillies. This is RIDICULOUS!!! Whew. I think we'll be okay I'm just really overwhelmed. Ruthie really saving my life though flipping. I think Owen stayed on JD. And so did Zach. Idk if Kevin actually voted JD or not but I know he didn't want to get rocked out and he went to bed. But I shared a lot of tea with Autumn and she better sip on it real good. Vote out JD. Do it. Just do it. Everyone else is. It's the newest fad. COME ON!!!

After a 3-3-1 vote resulting in a tie and revote, JD becomes the 6th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 6-1 vote. You can see JD’s preseason interview here.

#NotAllFunAndGames

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Episode 5: “ Might Survive? Might Tie? Might Rocks? We Just Don’t Know.” ~Jack

Madison is gone and my heart hurts for her but moving forward I think I'll be okay. At least I'm on the cute tribe with Lily and Owen!! I'm glad I voted for Autumn because I would've had some explaining to do if I didn't. This was the safer move. Wig. And people feel bad for me too! But Will told something after the vote that pEOPLE WANTED TO GO AFTER ME?????? HE SAID PEOPLE WANTED EITHER ME LILY OR MADISON AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FUCKFNKDSJFKASD LILY IS IMMUNE THAT MEASN ME OR MADISON SDFJASDK THAT'S NOT CUTE!!!!! Anyways at least I'm on a new tribe with Lily and Owen and Zach!! That's three people I feel will keep me safe!!! AHHHHHHHHH I'm nervous but I feel okay

God. This is the most fucking infuriating thing that has ever happened to me in a game before. So let me share this bullshit with all of you. I decided to get my ass out there and do some idol searching, as one does. I checked paths 2 and 3 on the island already, so I went down 4 this time, and there was a tree. So, as one does, I decided to CLIMB said tree. This requires a challenge, because of course it does. Challenge is no issue, but when I get to the top, I get ANOTHER challenge. This is where the bullshit starts. Let me give some exact quotes from Amanda when she gave me this second challenge. She said: "You climb the tree successfully and spot something that will definitely help you in the game. However, you'll need to do one more thing to get your hands on it." "Once you have done this, you will earn what you seek." So yeah, those messages together make me think that I found something. I get super excited, and rush to get everyone on call. It obviously doesn't work the first time, so I think "Hey, what about a Cards Against Humanity game to lure people in?" And that doesn't work. We get swapped, One World goes bye bye, and I'm afraid my chances of getting the idol are over. But then! Somehow! We get 4 people on call (other than me), and I'm practically BEGGING Autumn or Owen to join call. Eventually, Autumn does so, and I'm basically screaming as I send the screenshot to my host chat as proof. But no, hosts have to be baiting dickheads about this, and I get this response: "You find a hideout, but it looks like someone has already brought some pillows for camp, so there’s no space for you. In your disappointment, you head back to camp for the night." Like, I'm sorry, but WHAT THE FUCK! You LITERALLY said that I would earn what I seek after I did this challenge. I practically gave myself an anxiety attack trying to get everyone on call, and odds are, everyone got super suspicious of why I wanted to call so badly. And now, whoever has that idol or whatever is most likely watching me from afar and waiting to murder me with it. So like, thanks a lot, hosts. You baited me in with promises of an idol, and instead got me to ruin my social game and put a big-ass target on my head. Hell, I was already in the minority, and nobody seems to trust me in the first place! So yeah, a big Fuck You to Jay and Amanda especially, because I'm almost tempted to just quit. This game isn't even fun anyway, because nobody talks to me unless it's either Emily telling the truth or someone else lying out their ass.

I do not think we're tribe swapping after this. I just don't. I think this will be something... weird. We all vote together as a seventeen BUT after this... we're staying in our tribes. This One World is really trying to bait us into flipping? Idk though it's really working. I'm fine with flipping???? JD BROUGHT UP DANA'S NAME IN THE TRIBE CHATLKFJADKLFASDFLASD IM SCREAMING!!!!!!! I'm on call with ZACH RN!!!! AND HE *GASPED*!!!!! LMAO I'M CRYING!!!!!!!  I'm really trying to like..... figure out who I really wanna vote for my dude! This is crazy! I can't think of who I want gone and everyone has good arguments! I wanna go far with my boys, Zach and Ali, but I also want to go far with my girls, Lily and Madison, and my boy Owen. Like. There's definitely a dilemma.

Hey demons, its ya boi - I can't believe I made it through that (first of all) and second of all I literally cannot believe that somehow me and Dana's little idea of taking out Madison snowballed into literally everyone ganging up on her. Which is like a major yikes and I feel HORRIBLE from a personal standpoint but from a game standpoint...we just successfully voted out a potentially huge threat and dismantled the Emily-Lily-Madison core to a pretty certain point of no return. Which is huge. Like that was a HUGE threat if we let them get through pre-merge and it somehow worked. I feel like Leo DiCaprio in Inception, one small idea taking root and making something huge happen. I feel great for my game, awful as a person, and let's just talk about how fucking lucky I got with my new tribe!! Me, Cameron, and Dana are still together, Ali's basically with us, and I'm in pretty good with Jack and Duncan so I feel all set for right now. This is a great place to be, I'll never get comfortable but it's a great place for now.

Wellllll I got what i wanted so that's fun. Madison went home in a landslide. I'm...not really sure who voted in the minority. I think Lily was one of the Autumn votes? So anyway I'm on the pretty tribe. We have some neat people and all that. I'm glad I have Owen and Autumn with me. Emily's...nice but like also a huge threat. JD and Ruthie I'm hoping to talk to more. I'm not like super comfortable with this tribe. I lost both Duncan and Cameron to the other tribe...so uh yeah. I feel like I'm on better terms with Owen and Autumn now. But for every bridge I repair I burn down a new one, because Lily seemed bitter on call. 

The tribe dynamics here are definitely weird.... but I feel safe on a tribe with both Lily and Zach! I love both of them so much. I forget if I’ve done a full tribe assessment so I’ll do that TONIGHT!!! Woohoo. I’m now off to a friend’s house and hopefully when I arrive, Lily will have beaten Cameron in Brazilian Draughts

I got a question. Could yesterday have been more stressful? Because I just don't think so. Honestly, if you were anybody but me, you were thinking "oh there are 17 people, odds of me going home are low, no need to panic because i'm just ur average normal person who understands math and is self-aware!!!" BUT if you're me, you were like "17 people?! Looks like i'm guaranteed to go home" ... and you guessed it America- it's because i'm crazy and live in a paranoid void of my own self-hatred when i play games. Anyway somehow my busted self makes it through the vote, because lets be honest, who is listening to JD!? Like she aint wrong, I am super social and incredibly manipulative by nature, but like girl keep a secret please! So we swap tribes and miraculously, against all the bad luck i've experienced in my very upsetting 22 yrs of life,  I get the tribe I want! Yes that's right ladies, I'm on the tribe with the people who DON'T crave voting me out... which probably means i'm going home first!!!! I'm solid af with Cameron and Will from my OG tribe to my knowledge, like I have been so honest with them, I just don't see a scenario where they don't think i'm valuable to them. When we have the other pals- Ali, SHOULD NOT vote me out if he feels bad about Festive 4, and since he's been apologizing for a month know, I think we're solid. Also Duncan? Yes my president! Definitely think i cna work with him. Then we have my queen Charlotte, who I love, Ashvika, my other queen who should definitely vote me out to get the revenge she deserves, and Jack, who just... I jsut don't know what to think. Maybe he'll get desperate and work with me? So here's my assessment, sans idols, I should have at least 50% of the tribe that won't vote me out. BUT it's me so... i'm next boot and it's been real. 

Everyone on Atalaia: I'm so lucky to be here I've never been happier you guys are the best I hope we never go to tribal!!! Me: 

Do I forgive these people for last round? Maybe. Have I forgotten that 5 of them have either voted me out or came close to voting me out but flipped at the last minute? Absolutely not. They ain't slick. I have Owen and Zach sure, but where is the rest of Night Shift? Where are my day 1's Duncan and Ashvika?? Where's Ali who lowkey flipped Vireao to save me??? All I know it Atalaia better not go to tribal cause I'll turn up if there's a Part 3 of the lets-just-vote-Autumn campaign

WE WON YETH BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love winning. Well everyone else on my tribe won except me but. YAY WE WON OVERALL

[12/29/17, 9:44:16 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): I gotta [12/29/17, 9:44:19 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): its time will [12/29/17, 9:45:08 PM] Will: Wat [12/29/17, 9:45:16 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): Ok so [12/29/17, 9:45:27 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): Pls don’t take this personally bijfmkd [12/29/17, 9:45:35 PM] Will: I’m listening lol [12/29/17, 9:45:37 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): u know the idol u tried to get? [12/29/17, 9:45:37 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): i [12/29/17, 9:45:39 PM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Atomic Series Admin): Have that [12/29/17, 9:45:43 PM] Will: Cameron he's not mad I didn't tell him god bless. I trust him enough now

Thank fucking God

Me relaxing during All Stars? Never felt that emotion but having time to build (potentially) genuine relationships with some new people is nice. Maybe there's a reason Ruthie and JD didn't actually vote me?? And maybe it's all water under the bridge with Kevin?? But who knows- all the fakes will just have to wait yet another round because I'm 1000% safe. I can't believe they really did THAT and won immunity wowowow

To me right now, voting out people I've made promises to doesn't feel like it's gonna hurt me. Voting out Jack, while ugly, isn't gonna cost me this game because he wouldn't be on the jury (and I don't think he's gonna Raffy his way there either). But at the same time, keeping Jack as a number against Emily when the time comes could be vital. Emily's GOOD at challenges, so she needs to be taken out as soon as the opportunity arises. I wanna work with her so badly but I just don't see it being possible with the target she has on her back. Thinking through who we could vote... Dana, Cameron, and Ali are 110% not options unless something really fucked up happens. Ashvika and Duncan are also unlikely, since people in my alliance have ties to them, which leaves Charlotte and Jack. Thinking ahead, we'll probably be here for at least two or three more rounds of tribal which means that we're gonna run out of options really quickly and that terrifies me. I think the vote needs to be someone other than Jack for that reason...so he can be an easy vote next time we have to go to tribal. I literally hate this it's tearing me apart!!

THANK GOD the new tribes won immunity. It's kind of funny how Dana, Will, and Cameron, my closest allies from before, all ended up on the other tribe....oop. At least I have Autumn and Zach. Also, hopefully the fact that I didn't vote for Madison makes Lily and Emily still trust me. Although Emily messaged me and was like "Lily needs to be in on the vote this time, she's kind of disappointed that things haven't been going her way." jkshakjfhdj ok Emily I'll try!!!! :~) really I do like emily and lily a lot and now that two votes havent really gone lily's way I don't think I need to take out another. My main priority if we go to tribal is honestly JD?  She's too much of a wildcard for me this game. I'm also glad to be with Ruthie. Kevin is still eh for me. LUCKILY WE WON THOUGH WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'm glad I helped my team do well but will wyd with that time fkjashj I feel like Ashvika/Duncan/Ali will stick with Will/Dana/Cameron and send one of Jack or Charlotte home, both of which are boots that help me A TON right now. If one of the other six leave somehow I'm going to be heartbroken tbh. It'll prob be Jack unless he has an idol. I hope they put a couple votes on Charlotte just in case. Idk! Also I'm really trying to work with Zach. I love him and he's someone I think I can trust the most on this new tribe. I told him about my extra vote, and I also told him that I think we'll be having a double tribal at f14. That makes sense to me bc my legacy vote can be used at that tribal, but if I am not guaranteed to vote then then what would be the point?? Why not make it f13 or f12 when the merge is? So I think it'll be a double then with a merge at 12. At least that's what I'm hoping for! It's weird to think that after this, a quarter of the people will have been voted out. I'm proud of myself for how I'm doing so far. I hope I can keep it up bc I want this BAD whew

I’m on a tribe that keeps losing. I’m starting to think I might be responsible. Vireao plans on standing strong together so here’s hoping we actually do.

I'm kind of confused on the setup. Dana told me some tea before the swap, and I know JD/Duncan are snakey people. Not so much Duncan, but JD - and I don't trust her. For my tribe though like... i'm feeling confident. I like Owen, and Emily and I are close. By boundaries, I think Lily is connected with Emily therefore I should get close with Lily. I love Autumn as well and her and I have been talking and getting close. Kevin is fine, as well as JD. If we go to tribal, i'd push for Kevin or JD to leave. Depends on my mood and all. I'm also really excited I get to catch a break and go be free instead of going to tribal. It's what I deserve, i'm a good person... I never did nothing wrong no ma'am.

I....hate this vote because Jack definitely does really trust me so I'm gonna try to play it off like there's no way to change people's minds and that I can't help him get out of it. Which is shady and shitty but it isn't my name being written down so

I’m really upset that we lost immunity this round but I also feel like there isn’t such a big target on my back because there are others that are bigger threats/less active that take prevalence...I’m just letting people come to me instead of going on a rampage and making myself a target 

Slept until 5. Getting votes, so is Charlotte. This sucks. Might survive? Might tie? Might rocks? Might tie? We just don't know.

I’m watching stranger things with my mom so this will be short, I’m glad my tribe won I am proud of them wooo Also the ones that beat us in counting are robots the end 

I'm currently doing a joint confessional with Ali but in case that doesn't count, here's a TLDR for the round. -We swapped onto 2 tribes of 8. Both tribe are split 4/4 Elaenia/Viraeo. I'm on Lakalalalala tribe (I can't spell) but I have Ali, Charlotte, Duncan, Ashvika, Myself, Will, Dana, and Jack. -I'm in an alliance called oh good l.a.w.d. with myself, ali, will, and dana. -We lost immunity. I sucked at checkers. -We're gonna vote out Jack. Jack is probably gonna vote out Charlotte, so if there's  an idol play, Char will go. -I love Ali.

I need to stop being so emotional about these eliminations and start feeling less bad. I just want to win this game, and if I can't even cut a few players that I have minimal connection to then how am I gonna cut people like Owen and Emily and Ali as we get closer to the end. Ugh.

OMG I found a way around the system! I can just speak into my phone and it will text out the words for me. I am very nervous going into the tribal Council, it’s the fourth one in a row for me and a couple other people on the tribe. I’m kind of annoyed but whatever I’ll deal with it. OK so Jack thinks that the vote is going to be four versus four, his tribe versus our tribe and the gag is that it’s going to be a 7-1 vote. he should be voting for Charlotte and the rest of us are voting for him. I told Jack that we went to rocks that I would not go to rocks for Charlotte because she made an alliance without me and I’m not going to rocks for Charlotte and that’s a true statement. However Charlotte is not getting them votes, it’s gonna be all on Jack. you know I might be a snake but at least I’m a friendly snake! I feel bad for Jack and I do think he could help us in comps in the future but I know he’s too big of a Merge threat and you know it’s also gratifying to see him go so I can keep the most days played record in Athena (which is not why I’m voting him out but it’s a really nice bonus). Hopefully I survive the tribal and I’ll see how the game progresses from there. hopefully I will see you soon to report on the aftermath, bye!

Time for Ali the sequel, now with the stuff I couldn't say with Cameron on call! (I love been a sneaky fraud) AHHH, provided Jack goes tonight (which it looks like is happening), I'm gonna be aligned with the ENTIRE TRIBE EEEK. I think Charlotte will probably end up being the second boot, and I think the fact that there is now a Duncan/Ashvika/I chat, means if *god forbid* we do go back to tribal, I can try and angle to get her out. But ACK, it does truly put me in a funky spot, so we just.... cant go to TRIBAL. ahhhhhhhhhhh, I've made a mess. ________________________________________________________________

I'm at tribal, Amanda looks beautiful like normal and I want D.E.A.T.H Tribal makes me NERVYYYYY

Jack becomes the 5th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 7-1 vote. You can see Jack’s preseason interview here.

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode 4: “I’m Looking at You Periwinkle” ~Madison

Ali, Zach, and I made an alliance called EAZy Votes and it's really cute tbh because they're my fav boys in the game!

Also we lived but Sam died and I'm like really crying like I actually cried. Like Sam is such a nice person and we did so much in the immunity challenge and did not deserve to go to tribal but we did and then his social game and lack of contribution to the challenge like I guess led to his demise but UGH THIS IS UGLY AND IM SO SAD WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!

Survivor Doesn't Stop For Santa

Listen I love mastermind so much even if I don't win I'm gonna have a great time with this challenge, plus we have the majority on our tribe which means we should be fine - and I'm in with Jack still which (hopefully) means I can get info on the minority alliance (if they're really even an alliance) so...we love it! kevinamanda asked how my christmas was so. i saw star wars yesterday it was nice. my biggest takeaway from it is that i forgot how hot poe dameron is. back to game stuff -- so i actually really love this challenge a lot. if i want to get the secret item, i need to throw it and get the worst score out of 17 people. that should be easy, considering that the hosts are cruel mistresses and gave us fifty goddamn colors. there are two pitfalls tho: it could be like suuuuper obvious if i throw it depending on how bad my score is. and since i'll be vulnerable without immunity, i could be dead! whew! i also don't know WHAT the super secret item will be. could be an extra vote, could be an immunity idol, who knows what. it could help me escape a tight situation, or it won't do anything and i'll have thrown it for no reason. the second pitfall is that i LOVE this challenge and i just wanna do well jadjjd. but anyway yeah. since i don't know what the item is i don't know how good the payoff's gonna be. so like...the question is, should i throw it, and will it be worth it? tune in and find out next time on survivor: hell on earth 

Okay so this is BEYOND ugly! I’m so nervous! Elaenia has an obvious numbers advantage, 9-7. So, basically, another Vireao is going. And I think we’re going to have a tribe swap right after. Two tribes of eight. And like? That’s definitely preferable at this point. At least for this vote, our whole tribe can just vote together and we not create waves. But I’m so nervous! This is really not a good look for Vireao. And also, I love pretty much everyone on Vireao individually? Like Lily, Jack, Owen, Cameron, Madison, Will... I love them! I don’t know Dana, Kevin, and Autumn so I’d obviously prefer to vote for one of them but I’ve heard good things about all of them and like !!! Ugh I’m just stressed out. But also, even if I don’t win this cracked ass Mastermind, I think the relationships I’ve established with the Elaenia tribe members before the game are like solid enough that they wouldn’t vote for me? Does that make sense? I hope it does. I don’t want to die. Lily like? Wouldn’t vote for me? Right? She’s my wife? Madison wouldn’t vote for me? Will wouldn’t? UGH I’M SO SCARED! So many people from Themyscira and Azores are on that tribe and I don’t know if they’ll see that has an opportunity to vote me out or an opportunity to work with me. All throughout FTC for Themyscira people were like “Idk how we let you get so far!” And I’m hoping that they??? Don’t have this kind of mindset??? Because that’ll just send me home. But this is also All Stars and everyone on our tribe is a good ass player. Preferably, I want JD to go home. Girl is already being cracked—especially with that last vote. It also saves me the trouble of trying to find out if Charlotte and JD are actually close or if they’re not? Ugh. I hope Zach and Ali are safe in this Double Tribal because they’re my closest allies at this point. I also want Charlotte to be safe because I want to work with her moving forward. Ugh! My only real hope is that since their first tribal was divided, they’ll stay divided. Maybe the two sides won’t be able to agree on a single person to target and they’ll vote however. I’m honestly feeling like voting Autumn might be our best bet? Since the four voted Autumn in their first tribal council? But I don’t know! I want to talk to the tribe as a whole about this. Ugh! I’m just really scared and I WANT that immunity. ________________________________________________________________ All I can hope about this tribal is that everyone recognizes that EVERYONE in this game is a threat?? Everyone is a good player?? Everyone is an all star?? So they won’t target me just because like that reason?? But idk I just don’t trust Jack and Cameron to not campaign against me

Okay, so I have a video confessional uploading that sorta sums up my thoughts coming back from Christmas break, but now its time to discuss the ugliest twist in the history of ever, even though I don't even get whats happening. If its a game changers-esque tribal, I wanna cry. Our tribe seemingly has no hope, as if the other tribe is smart they'll patch up their differences and vote one of us off. Additionally, I literally don't know Lily or Autumn, and Jack I only know from that odd Themyscira BBQ reward challenge and from the Athena 2nd placers chat. BUT UGH. UGHITTY UGH. I just really don't think we are gonna get through the next tribal without a really ugly vote off. AND THE FOUR BUFFS STILL DONT ADD UP. Anyway, I'm just sad. I am ready to be voted off, not because I want to be, but i literally called that I'd come 17th in my pregame interview and now its truly happening. YIKES

I have enjoyed my disconnect from Skype WAY too much but I'm ready to put my game face back on!! I'm going out of town just for a night tomorrow and I don't plan on telling any of them that so they don't come up with the wise idea to try to get rid of me.  :* I love Mastermind, I either do REALLY well or I bomb it, so I hope I do really well on it. 

Mood after the last challenge and also going forwards:

I'm worried and not sure what to expect with this upcoming double tribal. Does that even mean two separate tribals or because it said one immunity, a gamechangers like tribal where both tribes go? Either or it sucks and someone from my tribe is about to jump the plank! I also just got off call with someone from another game/ORG and i'm so uncomfortable and extremely bothered HAHAHA But overall this game is exciting but i'm likely dying soon. Mastermind was a struggle. I know someone has an advantage under boulder six. There's been speculation (Emily told me) that she thinks the idol hunt is combined since usually there would only be ONE large archipelago. Smart queen! I don't want Ali or Emily to die either. I wouldn't mind if they struck someone off our side, perhaps JD or someone. If someone on the other tribe who I semi like such as Dana was like 'hey we're voting JD' like i'd literally hop over and do the same. WOO!

Well yes, I’m angry. I’m getting totally screwed over here. The deal was that if I won the hunger games, I get to live the rest of my life in peace. But NOW? You want to kill me again. *laughs* well you know what? F*CK THAT! AND F*CK EVERYBODY THAT HAD ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT!!!

I’m so nervous for this immunity. I don’t think I would be on the block if I don’t win, but with it being double tribal WHO FUCKING KNOWS. Lets bomb this challenge WHOO! I’m looking at you, periwinkle.

Whewie I nervous as heck for this tribal! I haven’t done my Mastermind yet but I will when I get home. After allergy testing today and realizing I’m allergic to everything I love my dad is forcing me to go after Christmas shopping so today has been PACKED!!! Anyways, I’m kind of hoping we get a one world twist this round so our tribe doesn’t have to just go in blind and like shoot our guns into the darkness. Even though Elaenia was divided at their first tribal, I’m assuming they’ll be smart and stick together because they’re all stars. But of course, there’s always one of two people willing to flip. I’m just hoping that even if we don’t have one world, my pregame relationships will carry me. I have good friends over on Elaenia and I need them to know I’ll work with them if they keep me! I’m a good ally to have SOMETIMES! I think our tribe’s best bet is to go for Autumn since she received four votes at the previous tribal. That might mean she might get more votes from her other Elaenia tribe members if they’re cracked and save a Vireao tribe member from dying. 

On another note, I’m almost 100% all the other Vireao tribe members are having these jump ship thoughts as well. Like, we’re all smart players. Not all of us are the holiest of heroes. It just doesn’t work like that. Ali and I have already been talking about it, and if anyone on Vireao is a deadset hero, it’s Ali. I’m expecting CHAOS this vote. Absolute chaos. I’m just hoping and praying the votes don’t fall on me.

It sucks that we've lost again because the alliance isn't going to work this round where everyone is going to tribal. I don't think it'll be as simple as voting Duncan out and calling it a day. 

So I decided to attempt to do well in this challenge. While getting the worst score should be easy, I don't know if the reward's gonna be worth it, and also who has the time or the patience? ItAin'tMe.mp3. I'mmmm kinda nervous about double tribal though. I did the challenge in 10 steps but I don't know if it's good enough to secure immunity when I'm competing against 17 people. It's been awhile since this tribe went to tribal so I'm not sure where I stand. I'm not sure if that tribal made a solid formidable line in the stand or...what. Soooo I'm gonna try to talk to people today and kiss ass. Gotta remind these folks of my wonderful personality! 

I just finished Touchy Subjects and I don't think I did too bad! I'm excited for results. Ahhh!!! I want to win just to guarantee safety at this tribal. That'll calm my nerves a little bit. But in Azores I was immune almost every tribal I went to and I was still nervous so like??? Idk I love (hate) my anxiety disorder. Anyways! I'm going to rehearsal now to think about how scared I am for this tribal and watch pre teens dance to songs that they don't know the meanings behind goodbye

So... not much is happening in the game rn. I did mastermind in 9 guesses, which I could have done in 7 had I just gone backward. It was a bit of luck, but I did it in a doc and had a lot of information so that I wouldn't actually repeat anything. I'm hoping I did well enough. So apparently only one person wins immunity which means a couple things. Either this double tribal means one tribe has anyone up for vote and the other has one person immune and we go to 15 and swap to 3 tribes, OR what I think will happen is we're about to go to a huge one-world type tribal and we swap into 4 tribes of 4. Everyone is still shook about the 4 pre-merge buffs, and I don't know what's gonna happen. We could swap into 3 tribes and have a one world tribe as well. I just do not know. 

Whew! Super nervous and excited about results here. I think I did it pretty fast, and 7 guesses is a pretty good amount (thanks again for making a mistake, Jay :P I couldn't have done it without you). I don't think I'll necessarily NEED to be immune, but I still would like it, just in case.

Also, on a similar note, I had a dream about this challenge, weirdly enough. I started it on my computer, but then I had to go almost immediately. Instead of telling hosts about it, I instead did the challenge on my phone as I was taken on errands through a bunch of dimly lit superstores (think Target with mood lighting) and one bank. I think we actually robbed the bank, I don't remember. And this whole time, I was making up lists and struggling to remember all the colors (also shoutouts to Macaroni, the best color there is). It was odd, and it actually made me think once I woke up that I had to finish the challenge. Thank god I actually didn't, and instead got to do my notepad-based masterminding of Mastermind. Love that challenge.

I hate one world I hope they vote me out

Fuck.

MY VIDEO CONFESSIONAL FROM LIKE THREE DAYS AGO IS STILL UPLOADING AND IM SCREAMING. WHY ONE WORLD. LIKE I KNOW I INFLICTED THIS ON Y'ALL BUT WHY

I'm having like AT LEAST seven identity crises right now because of this game God. One World??? In my house??? I can't believe this. For the first three rounds of this game I was like 'you know this is pretty fine' (barring the moment where Karen got murdered) and now I feel like I'm on my death bed. So...some good some bad. Good is that I can possibly team up with people. I want to work with Duncan really especially since we're the last Motu Maha people and I need to pay my respects  to Karen and Julia (rest in power queens). Everyone on the other tribe seems nice especially in comparison to the people on my tribe who blindsided Karen. That's the good part. The bad part is like...everything else. I mean, 17 people? That's...a big number. I don't know if I can count that high. I honestly have no gameplan so like...lit? Ideally I could take out one of the people from my tribe this round by teaming up with the other team. If we don't have a swap next round though...then the Consequences will catch up to me. And I, for one, prefer not to face the consequences of my actions. But if I can't do that, I'll...figure things out. I'll see what names people throw out. I don't think I'll be targeted cause like...idk i'm not a threat??? I'm just fragile.

im in a bad place rn so whats a better thing to do than confess? I thought I'd outline what I've learnt so far: I think(?) Will and Dana are working together? And I think Cameron might be close to them too. I am down to work with that grouping, so that isn't too bad! Also Cameron was in the majority! what.a.king!

One world really just always blows everything up and those are just the facts like everyone's talking to everyone, everyone's in a new alliance, we're all gonna start fighting soon, and it's not long before someone pulls an "ASHLEY HAS AN IDOL" move because let's be honest every season needs a moment like that. I feel confident with my 5, and confident with Queen Ruthie and King Ali, but as much as I love Emily I don't know if I can trust her and I'm almost wondering if she should be taken out now (Malcolm style) since she's a HUGE social threat. Lily/Emily/Madison is gonna be a force to be reckoned with down the line so taking at least one of them out pre-merge would be the best. It's time to start separating friendships and gameplay - that's what fucked me up in Azores and I'm not gonna let it fuck me up here. If we can somehow flip altogether and target an outsider like Kevin that would be our best move - like a supergroup of Lily/Emily/Madison/Jack and my five plus Ali and whoever else from Vireao?? Or something. Regardless I just need to make sure it isn't me. It cannot be me and that's that, at the end of the day I will fight my hardest to protect my allies but if it's a losing battle then I will jump ship. And that's just how it's gotta be.

WHO THE FUCK IS CHRISSA

Okay time for an update! I'll do a full video update since there is LOTS to catch up on, but like.... I'm in a good spot. With Zach, I can hopefully slot into the Dana/Owen/Will/Cameron/Autumn majority on the other tribe, to stay safe for at least this vote. From there? whomst can ever be sure

So I was gonna end up keeping things to myself and being a good little boy but then I ended up spilling all my beans to Duncan. Oops. So yeah I told him about how Madison snaked me which was very mean and how I didn't like it. Hopefully she can go home! I'll have to see. If people from the other tribe want to flip, though, that throws a wrench in the plans especially if they tell Madison and co that I want to vote for her. But if I get Jack and Lily on board, then we're 11-6 and they need 3 people to flip back to them. Whew I hope this works

Coming to a consensus about vote is real hard because everyone has connections with people from the other tribe, and people that they want to work with, so no one is going to be willing to name any names...i’m Scared about how this vote is going to turn out 

I'M SO CONFUSED. WHY IS SATAN MAKING ME GO TO TRIBAL WITH 17 PEOPLE. 1) JD why do you want to vote me. I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU. I AM manipulative, but dont tell people that thank you queen. 2) MADISON ALSO DONT VOTE ME. ALSO DONT TELL OWEN TO VOTE ME HE BETTER NOT. I'm leaving for work right now and like... if it is 9:50pm and idk who im voting im Russian rouletting my vote and blowing kisses on my way out. 

Boy things are...messy. So: first off, I tried asking Lily and Jack what they thought about flipping, and they both want to stay with the original tribe. Yay. Jack seemed slightly lenient but he might just be wishy-washy. I don't wanna be too pushy but like. Yikes. In addition to Duncan, I told Ali about how I was in the minority and stuff and wanted to work with them. Party. I'm not sure if the rest of the Viraeo tribe knows about this or like...what even is going on with them. Duncan said SOMEONE from that tribe threw my name and to talk to everyone and I'm like whatever. I don't know who that is because Duncan's being very vague and not name-dropping which is probably smart but like it's not very exciting. And then...I've made amends with Cameron? So we started talking because I wanted to know who my tribe is targeting. But neither side has any idea on who to vote for which makes things even better. Duncan wanted Will out but apparently he got a hard no so ??? And our tribe can't get shit together like no one's even suggesting names. Cameron's complaining about Emily and how, and I quote, "half our tribe is parked up Emily's rear." He's...not wrong. I can sense someone wants Emily out, but that's not an option because that's just reason for everyone to flip. Actually that'd be a good idea if I wanted Lily to flip but like it wouldn't work in execution. ANYWAY back to the amends making: I told Cameron I wanted to work with him (and I do) but it was hard to trust him because of KarenGate. I said no one had explained it to me so my trust was wavering. So then Cameron explained the whole scandal which basically was Karen was a flop (true). So yeah. I do wanna work with Cameron but like...what about the rest of the tribe??? But I don't know if I can explain that to him without setting off a thousand alarms. At the same time if I just blindside someone on our tribe that'll ruin our trust. And it seems like he wants to go Elaenia strong but our tribe can't get its shit together!!! Maybe I can just use the classic "well this was the first name I heard so xoxo"  excuse and say that since Elaenia couldn't decide on someone I just went with what I heard.

So this is going to be a mess... I can feel that someone in our tribe is going to go home. If it's me or Charlotte I'll be so annoyed because we wouldn't have gotten our VS moment... anyway, assuming that were not being played and the other tribe is stupid enough to vote out of of their own the jack is going to vote with us and maybe get the other people that voted for autumn. Idk if that's going to be enough cus who fucking knows that the vote is going to look like, who knows if the people on my tribe will actually vote with us... Fuck they might tell autumn and someone might have an idol... Be a dumb one to play it on but you never know..... Rocks really would be fun though 

My tribe won't talk to me. Bunch of fake-ass bitches. JD's trying to use me. It's obvious. Don't seem to have another choice. Being used is better than being voted out.

Tonight's mood is fear. I went on call with Cameron and we came to a consensus of voting Madison. Duncan said the plan is to vote Madison while the decoy boot is Autumn, who is the queen of getting votes but always surviving I guess. APPARENTLY Lily found that lose a challenge thing the first round and she got 1 point on the challenge that round. does she have an idol? It's more likely than you think. So we're telling her and her co to vote Autumn (again). Hopefully if nothing blows up Madison goes. And then somehow through this shitstorm I'll get my way. Also I was talking to Charlotte and I asked Duncan if I should tell her about the Madison plan and he said not to but the gag is already I did. She seems to have no opinion on who to vote for though so like...whew? CharlotteI feel like I already did a confession but oh well. I want to work with my old tribe and Kevin, Lily, and Jack. Unfortunately Lily might need to be out of the loop in order to vote out Madison because they are supposedly close. It's messy either way.

My mind is blowing up. Okay so I know there's an alliance of six, and one's leaving. Either Autumn or Madison - likely Madison at this point. I made a pact with Ashvika/Ali/Duncan to do so, but now the tribe seems to be going towards that direction. I spilled the tea on JD throwing Dana's name out and confirmed Duncan threw out Will's name (which someone told Cameron already) and now i'm more like snakey and I don't like it. I also know Duncan tried to make some cross-tribal alliance with Owen and Dana. Interesting... Taking out anyone would be good at this point. I don't want to leave. I want the following people out: - JD - Duncan - Lily - Kevin - Madison Just because I either don't talk to them, or they're being snakes and I don't ACCEPT THAT! Hmm...

I feel like I’m absolutely leaving this tribal and I’m so scared. I don’t know what I did to deserve my name being thrown around I’ve literally tried so hard but it’s okay. I’ve heard the majority is voting for Autumn or Jack but idk if that’s just talk or what. I voted for Autumn, which I feel so guilty about, but a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. Catch Autumn holding a grudge against me for the rest of my days. 💛

Omg I might be getting an idol tonight!! If it's not an idol it's at least going to be something good, and I'm super excited for it. I did a search on the island (path 4 after bringing a torch) and decided to climb that nice ass tree, and after a challenge similar to the stairway to hell challenge, I now have to get 5 people + myself on a skype call. I'm putting together a CAH game right now, so hopefully enough people will be up for that, and I can get my idol. If all of this is in vain though I AM going to start swinging so be warned amanda

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Okay time for me to figure shit out. People in the game: Ali, Ashvika, Charlotte, Dana, Duncan, me, Jack, JD, Kevin, Lily, Cameron, Madison, Owen, Ruthie, Will, Zach Who SHOULD BE voting for who at this point (7:37PM EST) Ali: Madison, probably Ashvika: Madison, probably Charlotte: Autumn or Madison, it depends on what our tribe wants Dana: Jack??? Duncan: Jack Emily: Autumn or Madison... preferably Autumn Jack: Madison, probably JD: Autumn or Madison, it depends on what our tribe wants Kevin: ??? Lily: Autumn, at this point Cameron: Autumn, at this point Madison: Autumn Owen: Jack??? Ruthie: Autumn or Madison, it depends on what our tribe wants Will: ??? Zach: Madison, probably So this means... likely... Autumn gets 7 possible votes. Madison gets 8 possible votes. Jack gets 3 possible votes. And then there’s 2 I don’t know. Kevin will probably vote for majority. Will will probably vote with his tribe. I’m just so worried right now. I don’t want to have to vote out Madison because she’s my friend but UGH!!! I think I’m going to have to. This is the worst tribal ever fuck

oohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh boy oh boy first of all let me just see FRICK U LILY I WANTED IMMUNITY SO BAD???? I FELT SO GOOD ABOUT MY SCORE OF SEVEN I WAS LIKE NOBODY IS GONNA BEAT THIS THIS IS INCREDIBLE A+ STRATEGY WITH SOME A+ LUCK and then....lily came in??? with a time of two fuckin minutes??? she's cancelled. I want her gone hehe :) but not as bad as I want jack gone.....oops. he messaged me last night and apparently I never answered his PM from dec. 18 (first tribal) saying that he heard autumn. I JUST NEVER SAID ANYTHING LOL AND HE DIDNT BRING IT UP UNTIL NOW AND HE YELLED AT ME AND I WAS LIKE "lily seemed to not want to budge" which just made it worse bc he was like "IM NOT LILY." which is true. But also does he realize yelling at people and making aggressive jokes is not the way to get them to want to work with you or like....not want to vote you out? i want em both G O N E. one world happened and I am sooooo frickin happy to finally be with so many cool people. I messaged Ali, Zach, Ashvika, Duncan, and Emily right away. Ruthie has been mostly gone but I sent her some stuff too. JD I talked to a bit I was nervous. ANd Charlotte I said hi to but she didnt reply much. ANYWAYS! Lily immediately made an alliance with madison emily and I. The thing I've learned about emily is that....everyone fuckin loves her in this game, not just the people I knew she was friends with before. Like Zach, Duncan, Ali....all three of them want to tell Emily everything and refuse to vote her?? Bitch me too tf but also...wow. This is so good bc she's definitely going to be the biggest threat later on. There was a lot of small talk last night and I started thinking that....obviously my tribe of nine isn't gonna vote together and their tribe of 8 probably was, but then Emily and some others mentioned that they thought the ventricle 8 wouldnt vote together. I was like hmmm inch resting....bc literally all my targets are on my own tribe. Today, however, things started taking shape. Emily said her tribe actually WAS trying to vote together now. My alliance (Cameron dana will and I, autumn was mia) got on call and figured that the best person to target at this point would be madison. Kevin isn't as with jack/lily as I thought apparently, lily is immune, anc the jack vs emily thing might take form eventually, plus madison/emily have the real life bond. I initially wanted jack or kevin but I do think it's better to just....let the people have what they want, and I guess what they want is madison's head on a stake. I like her but she's made...not too much effort to be messaging me so fkasjdhfjdskfhj sorry madison I feel really bad bc she got out early in isle of skye too :( maybe she won't actually go home tonight tho, let's see an idol!!!!! :') At first we were planning on pulling in Zach, Ali, Ruthie, and Duncan to vote for Madison with us. Emily seemed to catch wind of it.... Cameron and I tried t throw Jack's name out there too. A lot of stuff got messy. Eventually, Duncan called me and said he wanted to vote Jack, but not Madison, and also that his tribe had decided on Autumn but that he didnt wanna do that lmaooooo like...ur tribe rlly decided autumn when I know for a damn fact duncan, ali, zach, and others (half the tribe) would rather vote madison...........ok! so this decision was based on emily!!!! Duncan added me to a call with him and ashvika too (I LOVE HER SO MUCH HOS1 QUEEN) and eventually I made it clear that Madison needed to be the target if we wanted to get Kevin to vote with us. SO! Madison became the plan again fksjdahfkjd AND THEN FRICKIN ALI AND I CALLED AND ALI WANTED TO TELL EMILY AND I WAS LIKE DO WHAT U WANT BUD BUT ALSO MAYBE WAIT UNTIL AFTER THE VOTE DFKASHFKJ but now....apparently the whole tribe of 8 is voting madison and emily knows so oh well fksjdhf either i'm gettin played or madison is idoling or soemthing but honestly I don't know that it'd be me getting the votes so we're gucci this is a whole lot of messy thoughts but basically I think we're definitely swapping or something tonight and I think this round I've done a good job of reaching out to people and seeing where some connections are set. I have options going forward, especially if emily and kevin are in on the madison vote. Literally it's just going to be jack and lily mad at me if everyone is being truthful and I want their slithery selves out anyways. jk im the tru snake here hehehehehehe im really having fun this round even tho my head hurts and I think my alliance is still rlly makin things HAPPEN which is good. let's see tho it could still be me fskajhfksjd me every tribal

Guess who's back on the chopping block!! I'm really blown away by the amount of disrespect, people saying my name has the most traction and the exact same people telling me I don't have to worry. Fuck off- anyone who votes for me tonight can choke. Jack is dead to me; Emily's charm only works on the weak-minded; Ruthie, JD, and Charlotte can go; Lily is 12 so can't say I'm surprised that she'd keep her besties that she can't beat; and Madison is going out the door anyway. Oh fun fact: SHE was the one who told Kevin I was the vote for first round; Idk if she's the source that started the whole campaign but very inch resting that the campaign manager of the get-Autumn-out campaign in Himalayas isn't actually retired. So I don't recant and God really just resolved my moral dilemma of voting her out. She's fake and wouldn't know feminism if Gloria Steinem slapped her in the face (Susan B Anthony might be here for her kind of feminism though oop). The gag is I didn't want a Part 2 of Himalayas but she did and look where that got her. I cannot wait for her blindside and I'm genuinely ecstatic 

This is a 17 person group with 16 eligible options but yet again I MAKE THE MOST SENSE! I love my messy tribal question, asking what kind of work I'm doing to stay alive. Umm winning challenges and being my goddamn self. I am so sick and tired of this assumption that I'm not doing enough. I know I'm not in with varsity and that I can't compete with relationships that have existed for months and years. But I was never trying to do that. I just want a fair chance but look how that's going for me with NO ONE else getting repeatedly targeted in this game like me. Please stop and think about that. Not to take it there but is it really because I'm new or is that the lie white people are telling themselves? Everyone has their feet propped up chilling and casually trading tea bags while every fucking round I'm either at tribal trying to stay or using the time I'm not at tribal to secure relationships. Are these other 16 doing that and in what ways am I bad for so many people's games? Including those who've never met OR spoken to me? Ask yourself that and get back to me

I do not kiss anyone's ass- never have and never will. I neither have the time nor the insecurities to do some foolishness like that with a bunch of high schoolers. If you don't like me or don't want to get to know me fine but don't come into my lane or I'll fuck you up. I'll send them and all their lil friends home, which is the exact playing style that got me into All Stars in the first place. Maybe THAT'S why the admins brought me here- they knew these children would cut up and that while they're having a family reunion I would slit throats and actually play to fucking win. I will take down every single person who takes a shot at me and this Madison thing is just karma coming through from Himalayas. So shoutout to that ugly group who I know wrote my name down tonight- I needed more target options for when I stay!!

Why did I agree to play allstars? I hate that I threw that challenge so extremely but at least I now know that someone has it. With a 17 person tribal so much tea has been shared and poured and spilled and sopped up and wrung out and dripped into the mouths of others. In short Madison should be leaving tonight and I’m trying to play my own game. Originally it was going to be a blindside. Ali Ashvika Zach and myself were flipping to work with Owen, Cameron autumn Dana will and Kevin. So we had majority either way the dilemma was just whether we tell Emily or not before the vote. Luckily enough the tribe has switched to voting for Madison so it should be near unanimous. Madison is leaving because Emily cannot gain too much power. I wanted to vote jack but she was against it, so I’m okay with voting Madison. It’s really weird to watch who’s connected with who through trying to figure out this vote. I have a couple of alliances and new potential allies and seeing bonds form. I hope I’m not being bamboozled. Hehe bamboozleled is a funny word. Anyways I’m really interested to see how the game progresses because I feel good about my potential game moving forward and i am looking forward to the hell ahead 

I should vote for madison but I don't wanna lose trust with Emily or lily. I'm not gonna vote autumn but I could throw a vote on like...jack. but does that really help me with lily or no lol so hmmm and also if Emily knows madison is leaving idk ugh ARE U HAPPY AMANDA. fjsadhfkdjs fuck but if I vote jack I can be like to lily "omg i forgot to change my vote" but also....what if people are lying and my vote is needed? I feel pretty confident that Will, Cameron, Dana, Autumn, Zach, Ali, Duncan, and Ashvika are all gonna vote for Madison. The worst that can happen if I vote Jack is an 8-8-1 split and then on a revote I can vote Madison. If an idol or some other advantage is played tho that's yikes but it seems everyone is voting for madison now soooooo maybe I should just yolo it although if madison gets idoled....hm. HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Duncanhttps://youtu.be/J0cpaZBap0Q

So. I was gonna do a video confessional, but its too late and too much is happening and AGHHHH I need to recap everything that's happened since One World and oh.my.god, its a lot. So, we one world. First things first, I didn't expect to win immunity, but Lily also murdered this challenge, so it wasnt as if I could've even come close to winning. The first thing that really happened when we one world'ed was that I called with Will. Firstly, what a king, I love Will. I basically learnt that Will/Cameron/Owen/Dana/Autumn have been the majority and I LOVE that. The first four are all people I wanted to play with in some capacity going into this game, so its so great that they're all on the same page! Autumn I've just met but already love, she is fun and great. But yeah, I called with Will, and we were on the same loose page for the vote, but it was kinda too early to make any major decisions. I later called Dana. What a QUEEN. I am such a Dana stan too. I am so relieved she doesn't hate me, and I'd love to work with her going forwards too. I think our gameplay styles really compliment so that's great. Calling with her kinda reinforced to me that I should try and slot in with their alliance of 5. Today, I've called with Duncan,Owen and Cameron. They are all kings! The highlight is that Cameron also has an idol! I LOVE IT! Anyway, the vote was gonna be Autumn, but I am a seasonal warrior of time and space, so I tried to rally Ashvika and Duncan, and get people to flip to Madison. I think... I actually had a lot of control this vote and I'm kinda shook. Going forward, Lily and Jack are such unknowns for me that I really wanna see them go ajdfhaslkd. They would be my picks for the next two to go. I'm 100% sure I forgot stuff, but I'm rushing to submit this pre-tribal

I do not think we're tribe swapping after this. I just don't. I think this will be something... weird. We all vote together as a seventeen BUT after this... we're staying in our tribes. This One World is really trying to bait us into flipping? Idk though it's really working. I'm fine with flipping???? JD BROUGHT UP DANA'S NAME IN THE TRIBE CHATLKFJADKLFASDFLASD IM SCREAMING!!!!!!! I'm on call with ZACH RN!!!! AND HE GASPED!!!!! LMAO I'M CRYING!!!!!!!  I'm really trying to like..... figure out who I really wanna vote for my dude! This is crazy! I can't think of who I want gone and everyone has good arguments! I wanna go far with my boys, Zach and Ali, but I also want to go far with my girls, Lily and Madison, and my boy Owen. Like. There's definitely a dilemma.

Madison becomes the 4th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 13-3-1 vote. You can see Madison’s preseason interview here.

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Ep. 3: “Shrek Can Heck the Heck Off” ~ Duncan

So tribal occurred and I guess expectingly, everything went as planned. I was really nervous and I don't know why... probably since it's All Stars and everyone is here to not only impress, but to play. We're the recruits and it means that in the past we've shown definitive reasons as to why we had the chance to bypass the application process and immediately enter. It's wild. Overall, i'm fine with tribal. I would've enjoyed Julia a big longer and wouldn't have minded if she stayed, but when so many people are like "you've been so disconnected" etc, there's only so much I can personally do to reroute that. I really am hoping our tribe pulls through in this upcoming immunity. I just don't want to deal with the stress from last time, and i'm scared that I could be in danger. There is an alliance of 7 (now excluding only Duncan & Sam) but EVERYONE talks to Duncan - including myself, he's really nice - and Sam is just generically popular for whatever reason. They're both extremely active, maybe not as much in PMs as the tribe chat, but still are. This then creates the potential of a flip. I would be totally down to do so in the event that it's just... an easy thing to execute. When looking into long term, there's many people who despite how much I like them personally, are huge threats due to their connections on the other tribe. Of course I have Dana, who will work with me but obviously we'll cut one another if the time comes. But there's bigger cliques of people I guess. Emily is mutually friends with EVERYONE - and I adore her so much that it sucks. Ashvika is a legend, also really liked. Duncan has friends on the other side. It's just like... there's many groups of two-four people and it's an interesting dynamic to put as an obstacle. I guess we'll see how things go and how well people think around this and plan accordingly. Also the archipelago is RUDE! thank you. 

Ali Update! So, I survived tribal, but I've officially been hexed so I guess I may as well give up! But ultimately, while it was ugly to vote out Julia, I think going into a swap, we don't want to be the totally dominate tribe in numbers, so perhaps losing a member (or potentially two, even though I have no idea who that would be) could work to our benefit? Who can ever be sure! With that said, I am concerned going into another tribal, in that the options are either our alliance of 7, Duncan or Sam. And like.... all those options are ugly. I don't want any of those happening.... So, (and it looks like we will need to win two challenges to do this) we need to win the next two challenges basically! Which has like a 25% chance of happening, but I do think a music video challenge does actually favour our tribe, so hopefully we can win the next one too! With regards to the swap, it does look like we are gonna have an #ugly four tribes of four swap, but my theory is for each tribal at that stage, two of the four tribes will go to tribal? So it'll be tribals of like 7 or 8 people! we will see I guess, but right now, I am focusing on not having the awful task of voting out another member of this phenomenal tribe! Toodles ALSO I HAVE A VIDEO CONFESSIONAL THAT IS TAKING YEAAAAAAARS TO UPLOAD, ughhhh.

Well my plan went off without a hitch this round. I was able to get an alliance formed with Ali, Ashvika, Emily, JD, Ruthie, and Zachary to have the majority going into the last vote. We also made sure to keep Samuel and Duncan looped in so that it was a nice, easy, vote out for Julia. I love controlling votes, yes I do. So far I haven't found anything in the Archipelago. I can't spell that and I'm not going to look it up so I'm going to call it the Islands of Death.  Every time someone has searched we've gotten a notice saying that they were tired but mine never have. Where are they going? What are they doing? Suspicious. I do know that whatever advantage was with the artifacts is gone now. Someone completed the task faster than I did. I have a feeling it might have been something dumb like a double vote so I'm not that worried. Based on the rules, I think there's only going to be one hidden immunity idol and you're going to have to work your ass off to earn it. Athena, Charlotte, and idols don't go hand in hand. I'm only good at finding them in other games. Looks like we're just going to have to keep winning so I'm never at risk!

I’ve said this already but can lily be on my tribe thanks I want a tribe swap

I love my majority alliance yes I do! Honestly this game feels like one where I'm gonna make some solid friends, and even though I'm inevitably gonna have to make some rough decisions if I wanna make it to the end again, I'm gonna be close with these people for a while. And that feels really good!

the hosts hate me. they truly do. a music video challenge. my tribe is doing Shrek. and I am doing suffering.

I have been so frickin unlucky in the archipelago. It really sucks. And I feel like I've searched the whole thing already like wtf! Ugh. Anyway, I'm super excited about our challenge. I love music videos and as long as everyone can go all out, I'll be happy! So far I have Charlotte's videos but that's it. I don't mind though because um I haven't recorded my stuff either lmao! But we're winning and that's that on that.

Everyone: loves All Stars and is having a great time Me: 

Lily is (still) talking shit about me and whining in people's pms all because "i haven't talked to her." Fun fact: I DID!!!! That's right- I, the person who was targeted immediately and grew a social game to survive, struck up a conversation with a person who voted me out. And you know what the wildest part is? It went well!! I thought ok maybe we made progress and we'll be chill and cordial from here on out. But apparently that wasn't enough for her. We're strangers!!! What do you want good morning and goodnight texts?? Get over yourself- like what are you 16?? Oh wait she is, which would explain why she has all these great expectations and why me not moving heaven and earth to be her best friend bothers her. I got news for you sis: I'm doing my best goddammit while you rely on a bunch of relationships from prior seasons. Yeah I said it and I can back it up: I knew 1 person on our tribe when all stars began and yet turned the 9-1 vote against me in the FIRST FUCKING ROUND to 6-4 me staying; I built a solid alliance of 5 (we poached Cameron lol); I give every challenge my all; and I maintain decent relationships with 85% of the tribe. But because Lily happened to fall in that 15% and hasn't gotten a fruit basket, I have to put up with her shit until one of us leaves

Also I walk on eggshells in this tribe and I can barely breathe without someone having a fucking opinion. Talk to this person, make more of an effort with that person even though they're being immature, don't work with this person, trust that person, change your part in the music video even though there's nothing fucking wrong with playing Gingy from Shrek, don't mind us as we change OUR ROLES every hour because it's fine who cares if the clock is ticking. I love my tribe and they mean well but I'm 23 years old my gameplay isn't a democracy. Speaking of democracy, Elaenia is back to flopping because we can't make any executive decisions about our music video!! So here I am, mentally preparing myself to talk to everyone in the tribe tomorrow so Lily's campaign against me, which she'll whip out once we lose, will fall on deaf ears. You see what I'm talking about?? This is ONE of 2 orgs I'm in that I've been in for 6 DAYS while my job is trying to kill me. HOW HAS IT NOT EVEN BEEN A WEEK

Am I seriously about to get my second idol? I'm SCREAMING. For THIS idol, what I need to do is not talk in any public chats for 24 hours. So, I sent this lie to the whole tribe that I was silenced by someone on the other tribe and honestly I'm screaming. I've evolved and become a complete liar, this is disgustening. But now I am gonna feel less bad about telling Emily about my idol (even though I don't actually regret it that much!) I feel like telling someone about me having an idol is smart, that way if I am getting votes, they can clue me in! With this now too, I can have my own second layer of protection that they dont know about mwahahahaa. I honestly cant believe how much of a liar I have become!

I made a video confession but I was angrier than I should’ve been and so I’m typing this out because it’ll probably make more sense. So earlier today, Ali messaged me and tells me that he accidentally went to the bridge instead of clifface and I didn’t think much of it. So when I go archipelago searching, I row > path 1 > climb > complete the challenge > clifface > climb > do the simple task. NOW. The simple task is to not talk in the tribe chat for twenty four hours. HUH. At first I didn’t think anything of it, but then I remembered Ali got a very similar disadvantage only he said that someone ELSE gave him this disadvantage. So at first I’m like. Oh. This is a little weird. But I go ahead and message everyone and tell them about my disadvantage and how I won’t be talking in the tribe chat anymore. Then something occurs to me: Ali could be??? Lying to me??? So I sent him the quotes from my host chat and he immediately confessed to lying. And I tell him it’s totally fine. I’m not upset. I understand what he did and like? I can’t be mad because I was going to do the exact same thing. Now Ali is saying he’s going to give the idol. So this is amazing. I’m getting an idol no matter what so yeet. We’re talking about what to do with Duncan now. I think he’s gonna come clean. And like nskwbwjwjwjw this is such a mess! But I gotta help Ali and get him out of this predicament because this is what FRIENDS are FOR!!! Whew. Anyways I’m gonna drive home now goodbye.

i dont deserving anything, especially jaybee in other news, my game is a mess and im the mestress. emily also got silenced... I'd be shocked if my whole tribe even remotely trusts me, and I feel like a complete flop. emily is being so nice about it, but if I was her, i'd never trust me ever again ________________________________________________________________ Over the past 24 hours, I have completely ruined my game. Duncan quite rightly doesn't trust me anymore, and I'm so mad at myself for not trusting him sooner. This is the third game in a row where I've been mad at losing someone's trust and I'm so disappointed in myself. I don't want to be, but I deserve to be voted out next. 100%

I don't think I've made a  confessional in awhile and I want to do this before I get called out so. I'm hoping we'll win the music video thing just because I...don't want to go back to tribal. Not with this group of people at least. I myself feel safe and secure, but then again I felt safe and secure at the first tribal and then the tribe as a group assassinated me, like a meaner Murder on the Orient Express situation. I don't think I'll go home but??? I never know with these demons.   So anyway I found this...thing in the Archipelago. To get it I have to make sure we lose the next challenge. Not really sure how I'll do that but I guess we'll have to find out. It's kinda a win-lose situation because...like I said...I don't want to go to tribal. But maybe this can help me...maybe. I'm like completely in the dark so I don't really know anything but anything will help! 

hhhhh WOW I'm so worried! I took a look at our final video for the lip sync and while it generally looks good, theres also the issue that... i filmed in portrait mode. shit. i REALLY hope that doesnt cost us the win, because i know people despise that (and for good reason) and I dont wanna deal with tribal because I dont know shit about filming, since I'll probably be made a target for that (if not me, maybe jack bc he didn't do anything but also idk if i'd wanna do that because he did say he was uncomfortable with it)

FUCK WE LOST! AND FUCK SHREK TOO!

Literally just cried because of how wholesome the video Amanda Lynn made is, like that just made my night and I know this isn't related to the game but I really just love this cast and this game so much and I'm so happy to be a part of it :')

Me? Forgetting that confessions are a thing very briefly? Yes. I was like... how can I get out all my anger about the music video results? Um? I can CONFESS since I can't FUCKING TALK IN THE TRIBE CHAT! God damn I'm so upset about these results I'm not even kidding I could... rip my fucking hair out. I worked so hard on that video and I'm not saying Cameron didn't work hard on his but I am saying that our video was 10x better. Yes theirs had a theme but like,,,,,,, we were so enthusiastic and cute and positive and wholesome the whole vibe to our video was fun and LILY RECORDED IN PORTRAIT I LOVE HER SHE'S MY WIFE BUT COME ON LILY DON'T DO THAT and like the quality was bad too!! And I just... what the fuck we were really honestly truly robbed. Like I loved Owen as the Fairy Godmother that was hilarious and Will as Prince Charming really was so funny but also FUCK THEM IM SO FUCKING MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO AMOUNT OF EXCLAMATION POINTS CAN EXPRESS MY ANGER RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW I HAVE TO GO TO TRIBAL AND IT'S LOOKING LIKE SAM IS GONNA GO AND LIKE I UNDERSTAND BACK HE DIDN'T LIKE CONTRIBUTE A WHOLE LOT TO THE CHALLENGE AND ALSO HIS SOCIAL GAME IS KINDA SHITTY BUT DUNCAN IS REALLY PUSHING TO NOT GO FOR SAM AND GO FOR LIKE JD OR CHARLOTTE AND IM LIEK FDLKFKLSDDAS STOP IT??????????? I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH THIS VOTE BECAUSE I LOVE AND CARE ABOUT EVERYONE AND EVERYONE ON THIS TRIBE HAS PULLED THEIR WEIGHT IN SOME WAY AND PROVEN THAT THEY DESERVE TO BE HERE BUT FJKLSDJFKLSDJLFSDLKFSLKDFS I AM GONNA SHIT MYSELF okay sorry to be all in caps for a little bit but Vireao was just fucking robbed know THAT also we have 100% participation SUCK IT!!! Also I called it that Jack wasn't gonna contribute I knew that boy hated music videos and I was RELYING on him not contributing and like losing his tribe points. But we still lost. And the judges made mean comments except "Except for the axe welding earth destroyer. Real star of the video there. Did you make an earth just to destroy it?? I'm nervous!" that made me feel good. I'm an axe welding earth destroyer lol... but I'm also a fucking loser. Okay long ass confession done goodbye cruel world

Ok so I shouldn’t be up but like y’all know I get off work late and play catch up for like 2 hours + don’t sleep normal people hours so I’m really happy we won, mainly because that means I’m 100% safe. That’s how you’re supposed to feel but when you’re paranoid, facts help you sleep better at night. I went from comfortably being Gingy to taking one for the team and stepping up to be Shrek hours before the deadline; so even if we had lost my logic was that I contributed enough deep in the clutch to be seen more as a saving grace rather than a threat or dead weight. Highkey I feel like I’m playing harder than I really want to but these hoes backed me into a corner and every time I try to go under the radar people start running their mouth. Elaenia was branded the underdogs but I feel like the underdog of the underdogs. Yes I’m on varsity and yes I can sit with everyone at lunch but is it enough? Almost being first boot really did a number on me and I literally play day to day. I am not 18th place and I’m even happier that one of the Goliaths will fall- it truly puts a smile on my face My gut is telling me Karen wasn’t the source of getting me out; I think I just want to believe that so I can be at ease but it couldn’t be that simple. The next logical choice is Lily or Kevin buuuuut what if it’s not? What if one of these people who voted with me actually started the entire chain of events? Is Jack lying and does actually know who the source is? Is Lily not the messiest person on Elaenia? Am I justified in watching my back and being wary of everyone, allies included? Reasons why I can’t with this game. It’s a mind fuck and my brain is a whore lmao

I just took a nap now i'm regenerated. 2 hours? WOO! I think it's my time. Maybe i'm just hallucinating and paranoid - but I tend to have decent awareness of what's going on and how people interact with me, but at the same time I have a huge habit of over reading situations. Point is, everyone's being very short with me. Duncan, a person who is usually exciting and lovely, is responding with one word excerpts. Perhaps he's tired but... yeah. Emily is also similar. She hasn't changed her speech patterns in my opinion, but in the manner of what's been happening, it's just more noticeable. If I could just you know... have a say - why not Sam? I understand the 7 person alliance is not going to remain unitedly intact, but that's one easy vote. Not only did he send a 4 second clip (then a 9 second lipsync) to Emily in the last two hours, but he's been the most inactive. I do think he's a great guy, I really do - but it's stressing me out. I think Emily maybe wanted to flip though. I always mention Emily in every confessional I make but that's for a few reasons. First, she's really sweet and enjoyable and I like her. Second, she's really well connected and like a spider web of relations, so being good with her could maybe put me 1-up. Third, i'm literally being her so-called lapdog (by myself, that is). But it's all with good intent of course. Point is before I rambled was that she suspects that our group isn't tight and that we soon will require to flip since a 7 person group is a gigantic majority, and despite the fact that an upcoming swap is glooming in the distance, it is a threatening perspective. If she wanted to flip on someone, unless it was one of a few people (Ashvika... and Charlotte, I guess) I would easily be on board. I like the others, Ali and Ruthie and everyone, but i'll play cutthroat. I'm here to get myself one day further!!!! Not really. Kind of. Who knows. Nonetheless it's a great thought process, and i've been interested in it myself prior to her acknowledgement. I don't want to be blatant cause for some dumb reason I think i'm walking on thin ice, but it's there... it's a potential possibility. Duncan's very well connected so I sincerely doubt anyone would vote him out next, after Sam. Hmm... Also, I really love boulders so i've been trucking on through and now I just need 5 more days (after the 23rd) to search and i'll either find something or realized i've been wasting my time, with higher probability on the latter option. 

So I was really hoping that it wasn't going to come to this because I don't wanna vote out Sam and Duncan ciao know that they are numbers for me over Charlotte... Which for me is what this game is coming down to, me Vs Charlotte, I dont even care who wins the series so long as I can take her out lol. But I wonder if that was why she left them out of the alliance chat she throw me and Ali in. Cus she knew that with such a small number on the outside that it would be easy to get rid of the people I would most likely work with.... She claimed not to be strategic but I know better. 

I'm so frustrated. I understand tribal is not a fun subject kiddos but it's something that needs to be done and no one is talking to me. Perhaps they all unitedly agree to vote me out, but I really hope not and I don't think that'd be good for various reasons!! Who knows though.  Well, people know, just not me. I'm going to try to encourage a Sam vote or a potential flip but... that'll be whatever the others want.

Fuck I’m pissed that we lost! Grrrr. I literally never want to watch shrek ever again. Shrek can heck the heck off 

Upset we lost immunity, hope it’s an easy tribal 

AH FUCK NVM WE DID IT AAAAAAAAA IM SO PROUD I was especially flattered that Milissa enjoyed the growing nose thing for Pinocchio, I was really proud of that idea ;w; now if only I had filmed horizontally

I’m out of town. Didn’t help with the challenge. We still won. Interested to see who goes on the other tribe. My social game is weak. The end.

WE ARE SHREK ICONS

This vote is going to be beyond crazy. I’ll update you once I actually figure out what is going on

So I just filmed a video confessional, but I think I need to write out my thoughts since I'm so conflicted. God, just write murdered by Shrek on my tombstone. Anyway, first things first... How blessed are we all to know Emily? Oscar-worthy director, sane person, just inspiration. She helped handle the mess that was my silence idol challenge confusion. She is honestly the best ally I could ask for, and I am so blessed to know her, as a friend and ally. Soppy time over. Time for GAME AKJLFDAkljafd. So, I have decided I need to reassess my core allies. In this game, I need to realise that everyone is of course gonna have an agenda, so its important to coalesce with all the people with motivations similar to mine. Because we share our info, Emily definitely falls into that category, which is why she is my main ally right now. Beyond that, I feel really good about Zach atm. He is so nice and great to talk to, and I think in an alliance sense we really click? So that's why I am really here for the "EAZy Votes" alliance (Me,Zach & Emily) because I really feel those are two solid allies I'd love to work with going forwards. From that point, I also get great vibes from Charlotte & Ashvika as people I'd like to work with going forward in the game. Charlotte is a smart cookie, she knows her stuff, is super sociable and a great person to work with. So like... I'm down to clown with Charlotte. Ashvika is the only person left on the tribe who I didn't have some sort of relationship with preseason, but she is honestly just so nice. She is someone I'd truly love to work with going forwards. Ruthie, my cracked disney queen, is someone who I think would be a great and loyal ally, and like... who doesn't want some Ruthie in their life? That leaves my Emathia chums Duncan,JD & Sam. Sam is a great guy, and someone I always have a place in my soft hort for, but I just think he has for some reason struggle to ingratiate himself within the tribe, which has just made him such a target and means keeping him is like... a big move. Duncan and JD are so conflicting for me. JD has become much more cracked since Emathia, and I am down to crack some eggs, but not the whole batch... So she is scary to work with long term. Duncan I find really hard. As a friend, I love him SOOOOO much, and I always will do. I just get super freaked out, because his agenda is very different to mine (as is JDs). They don't know Zach or Ruthie while I do, which makes it hard to find plans that we agree on? Like with Julia, it was easy, but now it gets harder..... ACK, I dont know. Basically, this whole game is too much for my poor soft hort. 

This is going to be the most dark sided season of survivor. This round sam is going home (according to what I know) and I actually don’t want him out. Apparently San has just not been putting in the work in order to make friends with everybody. And I’m like sam! This is all stars! You should be performing your ass off in all aspects. Now granted I have Emily to look out for my ass but I’m also looking out for myself. It’s just Ugly because the one time I want to work closely with Sam and make amends I won’t have the chance to. JD made an emathia alliance chat so I think she wants to save sam but she isn’t pushing for it and people were being indecisive. So after thinking about it for about 12 hours I decided fuck it. It’s premerge, I cannot make any big moves rn, I’m not going to play my idol on sam. And sam is not my closest ally right now so I can’t stick out my neck to save him. JD told me she didn’t care to work with zac Ashvika and ruthie and t shook me. I’m the only one left not in that seven but that’s the only crack I need to survive another round if we were to lose again. Sidenote? I’m not happy with Ali like at all. He and Emily both found the path to the idol but couldn’t speak in the tribe chat or any alliance chats for 24 hours. Emily told us the truth but Ali told us before Emily found the path, that he was being punished. Like this makes me feel better about being closer to Emily in the game. I’m really hoping to survive the night obviously, and it’s going to suck to see sam go but this is all stars so I guess All is Fair in Love and War. And I want to win this war.

AHHH MAYBE I HAVE FOUND SOMETHING!!! I'm mid little mini challenge and I love mastermind, SURELY I can crack this quickly!  I really need to win something, our tribe is dwindling down and i don't feel safe at all!

wiiiiiiii I am going to submit a Better Confessional when I get home from Christmas just making sure I get something in this time :) I’m happy we won the music video!!!!! And I’m so excited to see who goes home from the other tribe oops!

hello sweet confessional. I don't have much 4 u, but let me say that Owen as the fairy godmother and Autumn cutting her onion made our video iconique as fuck. Made me love my alliance that much more. I keep forgetting to pretend to socialize with the other people on my tribe so they don't want to vote me out, like i'm doing a TERRIBLE job. With the exception of Autumn, the rest of my alliance is also close with people on the outside of our group, which lowkey sucks but..wig! Catch me getting idoled out honestly. Also i'm probably getting voted out because i'm friends with Zach and like umm no. Idk yall i'm paranoid and I took an exam today so like thinking? it's a no from me.

i love emily so much she could wear stilettos or cleats and do the cha cha slide (two stomps this time!!) on my face and i would thank her

hey so i'm about to save the world by doing a challenge!!!!! aaahhhh!! i don't know what'll happen if i win, but I need to repeat verbatim a phrase from everyone in the tribe chat. kind of thinking that i'll just do it all at once. we'll see you on the other side! oh yeah and it has to be done within the next hour.

HOWDY YALL SOOOOOO I was kind of worried that the other tribe would go fuckin ALL OUT in the music video but our shrek strategy really paid off??? Now that Julia is gone it's going to be super interesting seeing how the dynamics of that tribe split up. I don't think it's going to be another unanimous vote. If Ali and JD stick together, probably with Sam.... And Ruthie/Ali were close af in festive. Emily seems good with everyone. Idk???? I can't see Charlotte Duncan or Zach going either? Ashvika could be in danger tbh but that's so fuckin ugly. I don't want any of them gone but if I had my pick I think JD going would be good for me. She's an obstacle in my relationship with Ali. But who knows! My tribe is really lucky we pulled out a win. I think tension is still rising surrounding Lily being a threat but there's been talk of Jack or Lily having something from the archipelago. SPEAKING OF WHICH I FINALLY FOUND SOMETHING OMFG DSKADJFHKJ so at the beginning I was exclusively looking under these boulders and I started going in phone number order..248-7....then I stopped. I caved and grabbed a torch bc there were only two left. But then I realized a bunch of people prob grabbed the torch and got everything from there so I stressed out and returned my torch in order to go BACK to the boulders...and did the next digit of my phone umber....AND HAD TO DO A CHALLNGE! I basically got an extra vote that can only be used at f14 or f7 which is kinda useless to me for a while but it's better than nothing. And it is also a legacy thing I believe so I'll pass it down. nice. I feel like I've been getting even closer to Will this round. I like him a lot and I think he hopefully trusts me as well. I thought I'd be closer with Dana and Cameron but Will is someone that I really wanna go far with and he's the first person I told about my vote thing. I told Cameron too, he's my first ally and rn prob my best ally. Autumn and Dana I've continued to talk to too. I haven't messaged Jack that much oops but he a freak !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fjskahdfj not rlly but I dont want to work with him. I would if I had to but for now I want him gone! Sorry! Although I like how presst he seems to be that Emily cut him. I'm trying to make a snapchat group with my alliances bc teams that snap together stay together. But I'm scared of a swap coming soon :( i love our tribe and the other people I do rlly wanna play with but I want them to kill each other a bit more first. also I've been tyring to figure out why the other two premerge buffs are completely different fonts and designs but i cant do anythin about it rn so might as well not worry about it! if the game changes up I'll change with it

like okay i'm gonna succeed in the challenge but uh it's blatantly obvious that i'm going for something. but this is ALL STARS Y'ALL GOTTA RISK IT TO GET THE BISCUIT RIGHT??? (pls let me win this game)

Ack, I'm really scared Duncan is gonna idol Sam! Also, I feel bad for Sam, he is doing my parroting challenge :( [04:31] Duncan: in every season [02:33] Samuel Rutan: in every season

This vote has been an absolute roller coaster because Duncan has been pushing hard to save Sam and like... people aren't budging. Except JD is actually so cracked? She made an Emathia alliance now she's voting out Sam? And Charlotte messaged me saying she thinks that JD would flip on us??? And honestly this whole vote has been so nerve wracking and like I pretty much feel safe because I worked so hard on that music video but also? I contributed a whole lot to the scavenger hunt in Crossroads and they VOTED ME THE FUCK OUT so I mean WHO FUCKING KNOWS they could be plotting to get me out I don't KNOW!!! But I've been talking to Zach a whole lot more and he's such a nice person and I love him and I want to work with him going forward. FUck tribal is starting I'm so fucking scared

YOU GUYS I AM SO ASHAMED THAT I THOUGHT SAM'S NAME WAS FREAKING SAMUEL like what the heck, what's wrong with me? WHY AM I SUCH A DING A LING???? UGHSDFLJDSFLSJFLSDFJ

I don't really have much to confess right now but I love building my edgic!! It's interesting that our tribe is very divided right now in terms of majority/minority alliance and that the other tribe has had two unanimous votes...very interesting...But as the days go on I feel more and more connected to my alliance of five and can see that the other 4 have made basically no effort to talk to me since the Karen vote (like we've talked about things aside from the game) but like...Kevin doesn't talk to me at all, Madison's lowkey sketchy even though she's a queen, and Jack and Lily haven't talked to me since I apologized for keeping them out of the Karen vote. Also a note - anyone can say "I would've voted with you" and that's an easy lie to tell. So it doesn't really sway me when they tell me that about voting Karen out.

Sam becomes the 3rd person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 8-1 vote. You can see Sam’s preseason interview here.

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Season Awards

Serious Awards

Hero of the Season - THE HOSTS because y’all shady Villain of the Season - Cameron Biggest Pre-Merge Icon - Autumn Most Robbed (premerge) - Sam Most Robbed (postmerge) - Owen Most Cracked - Dana Most Improved - Ali Most Heartbreaking Boot - Charlotte Best Jury Speech/Question - Ruthie Iconic Duo - Cameron and Will Season Highlight - The memory tiebreaker between Kevin and Emily Comp Beast - Emily and Owen Best Alliance - Oh Good L.A.W.D. (Cameron, Ali, Will, Dana) Funniest Confessionals - Kevin and Autumn Best Confessions - Ali and Emily Biggest Mistake - Ashvika not being present at the F6 tribal (live instant) Best Planned Blindside That Never Happened - When Ali and Owen were going to split the votes in an insane way

Sass Awards

Best Idol Play - Duncan Least Upsetting - Dana Best Memory - Emily Least Shady - Cameron Best 4-Buff Theory - That there was a secret shadow game, made up by Emily Biggest Fan of One World - Madison Least Likely to be at Disney - Ruthie Best Screamer - Dana’s lizard Best at Searching the Archipelago - Owen Worst Eyebrows - Kevin Finally Put on a Shirt - Sam Best Baker - Debbie Woityra Most Normal Sleep Schedule - Ali Most Present - Ashvika Most Well-Known - Chrissa Most Cutthroat - Charlotte Least Likely to Ruin Everything - Jason Least Likely to Hex Someone - Julia Most Likely to W I N - Karen Most Likely to be Sucked Into a Game (not this one) - JD Least Bitter - Lily Coolest Laptop - Will Most Obvious Winner - Zach

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Fan Favorite and Player of the Season

The Fan Favorite Award is awarded to the player that the public feels played a valiant game. The Top 3 contenders for the Fan Favorite Award were Ali, Emily, and Kevin. After receiving 23% of the popular vote, the Fan Favorite award goes to…

Congrats, Ali, on winning Fan Favorite for your second Athena season in a row!

The Player of the Season Award goes to the player that the hosting team feels played the best overall game. We put a lot of thought into who should receive this award, and decided we needed some honorable mentions.Cameron, Ali, and Emily all brought the cutthroat strategic style of gameplay, combined with the nuanced and effective social game, that we would expect from an All Stars player of the season. However, we chose to give the Player of the Season award to...

Ultimately, Owen brought in the third element of the game - challenges - in addition to a social and strategic game. Emily and Ali both had their fair share of challenge contributions and wins, but Owen’s overall performance in challenges only served to heighten his social and strategic games. His well-rounded gameplay is what earned him this title. Congratulations Owen!

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode 2: “ I Flip Votes Like Pancakes” ~ Autumn

Well...that sucked. Guess it's the iconic Taveuni three on the bottom of this tribe... I guess I shouldn't be surprised by Karen going home, or me being out of the loop because I think our relationship was transparent and I was going to everyone about Autumn. I'm a little bit confused on why Madison did it because she seemed like she didn't trust Autumn?? Maybe they're both fakes. At the end of the day I should just be glad that it's not me, and I am, but also this umm sucks. I don't like being at the bottom. It's nervewracking and also I'm not good at this game I just talk shit and get hit. Soo really hoping Jack pulls out a W right now cause lordy do I need it. I'm going to confront SOMEONE about this because hashtag Kirby's fucking pissed. I tried asking Cameron but...he is gone, so I'm gonna wait. Not sure how I'll get out of this or if I will at all so...stay tuned, folks. 

THEY KILLED MY MINION FUCKING BINCH! WHAT THE FUCK!? EVERY VOTE OFF IS GOING TO SUCK IN THIS GAME HUH?

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO KINDA SAD KAREN QUEEN IS GONE SHE DIDN'T DESERVE THAT BUT ........... YES THANK GOD I WASN'T FIRST BOOT AND THE PLAN WENT OKAYF ASKJHFDKJ IM CRYING :) SOMETHING GOING RIGHT FOR ME? SHOOK. Lily messaged me right away and I was straight up with her and told her I voted Karen and apologized for not telling her and told her I still wanted to work with her and asked her not to hate me lmao so hopefully we're okay again idk. She said she would've voted for Karen. Idk bout that but oh well!!!!! The group of Cameron, Dana, Will and I and the other group of Autumn Will Dana and myself makes five people altogether. I wanna make a group with the five of us and that's majority... And then I'll still feel close with Madison and Lily hopefully? Jack and Kevin leaving next? Mood. I hope we can pull off a win in immunity though bc that tribe needs to set some dynamics before we swap or merge please. I'm so happy I had a call with madison today though and made it seem like her and I were the swing votes, even though I never would've voted Autumn. Hopefully she trusts me! frick ya! 

Did I really just grow a social game in between seasons (aka a week) and take out the person coming after me so I can be respected as an all star? Yes m'am

Did Kevin, Jack, and Lily miss Season 12/ Himalayas? They sure did and if they didn't, they weren't paying attention because I can I flip votes like pancakes. They may want Autumn to "fall" but the gag is it's they need to leaf well enough alone cause it's comeback season

Now we can move on to things that matter like winning immunity. A concept: forcing Virego to battle it out because that's one less giant for we the underdogs to slay. Also I spent my off-day from work flipping votes and I'm exhausted so Imma need errybody to actually pull their weight this round so we can win thanks

I’m currently 4AM and I’m dizzy but if I don’t make a confession now I’m gonnna forget. I just got off call with Duncan and we talked for like three hours all about the game and allies and past games etc. I’m really excited to finally play with him because he seems like a really great, knowledgeable strategist. And he has two advantages: a hideaway and an IDOL!!! We’ve covered so much of the archipelago and our trio (Ali, Dunc, and I) have found so much stuff I’m confused? Like are other people looking? Anyways, I’m not complaining! My allies having powers definitely benefits me in the long run. Especially allies like Duncan and Ali who are smart and I can trust a lot. Duncan was also talking about bringing in Sam and Ashvik to work with, and that sounds great to me. Ashvika is pretty alone because she’s new and Sam is pretty alone because he’s old? LOL. But I like them both and get along with them well. And they seem like good game players. I’m excited.

A person I’m nervous about playing with is Madison? Like her making merge or a tribe swap scares me because it could be like another Toph situation? I hate to babysit my allies and I almost feel like, from what I’ve heard about her gameplay, that’s what I’d have to do? Duncan told me she was too easily trusting of what everyone told her. “She didn’t really do #that, #that was done to her,” said Duncan while on call. And so it just makes me a little uneasy about playing with her, but I hope she has learned from Himalayas and is ready to play with the big kids LOL All Stars is going to be a mega shit show, I can tell you that. I don’t really have much more to say and also I’m exhausted and need to go to bed and this probably doesn’t make a lot of sense because it’s 4:20AM lol goodnight love everyone especially Duncan and Ali!

I love that the hosts think me flopping in a challenge is a challenge... The hosts are talking to King Flop with FAR too much disrespect. With that said, I am SO EXCITED. Duncan has told us he has an idol which is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. Duncan telling us is a great sign for the longevity of our alliance and it makes me more comfortable telling information. With that said, my game needs to evolve... and for that to happen, I need to somehow plug the great river of information that I always seem to pour everywhere. But... Emily and Duncan are just far too iconic. So like... I'm probably gonna tell them. I love that we worked together with challenges, it shows that we are in it to win it. With that said, I wanna develop my game connections outside of that trio. Like while I feel in a good spot on the tribe, its largely due to pregame connections and thats not how to play. I sorta wanna layer my alliances, a group with Charlotte and JD? (The Queens + The Pawn), a group with Ruthie and Zach maybe and I really wanna work with Sam desperately. That kinda leaves Julia as one of the only real alternatives for the vote which is ugly but maybe that's what needs to happen? Who knows ________________________________________________________________ I am SO SCARED for tonight though. Flopping challenges would be much easier for me than actually get points in the challenge. Someone on the other tribe could easily win the first point and cut me out of the chance to get a prize... AAAAH, this is SO nerve wracking! ________________________________________________________________ Just dropping hints that I love Jay Bee,Amanda and Abbey. ALSO I'M SO MAD I DIDN'T OFFICIALIZE MY TRIBAL PREDICTIONS, I WAS CONFIDENT IT'D BE KAREN OR AUTUMN. GOSH DARN MYSTIC MEG NEEDS HER SLEEP.

Ali: Can I have the confession link? Me: .......why does he need the confession link right now? WHAT'S GOING ON, ALI BEE???

yo yo yo... maybe some success with the idol/advantage search? all i have to do is get 5+ tribe members on call to get whatever is in the tree. i’m planning to just say that “i want to cheer” for the people that are doing the first heat and then i’ll see if others are down to stay on call. i’ve got this—it’s time to start playing. 

I'm nervous about live night, I'm definitely not good on my toes or like the fastest minded person here but we'll see! I hope that I do good! I'm going to spend the time leading up to my time slot wrapping gifts I suppose!

I get that Lily and Jack would be mad at me, it's totally reasonable. So I'm gonna try to play up the angle like "Oh I didn't know what was going on I just went with what I was told" which definitely isn't a great look in terms of jury votes but... this isn't the jury. And I'm in the majority. But they don't need to know that :) Idk if I can really earn their trust back but we'll see, if not it's not a huge loss and I feel incredibly solid with the five I'm in. If anything Madison will take the fall for flipping and she can be next to go, we just have to hope I don't get fucked on a swap with only Lily/Jack/Kevin like...I need my alliance with me if that happens.

I'm not practicing with Ali for this comp!! He needs to be able to eliminate at least one person so :0 he's gotta be good because I'm not backing down

I let myself and the whole tribe down. Can you believe I DONT even know Lily and she is already cancelled for that. Like ONE SECOND ruined my chances of a snazzy power, I wanna cry :( ________________________________________________________________ I love flopping at a flop challenge. how is that even POSSIBLE. ________________________________________________________________ Time for game face. I have two options, either I stay up for round 4 (which seems pointless since Jack or Lily will just murder me anyway) or tomorrow, I rush to the Moors to reattempt the challenge

I can't believe I'm staying up till ELEVEN PM for this game. MULTIPLE NIGHTS IN A ROW. What a travesty. I hope these people know how much I care about this game. Also love how the minority from the last vote is the squad for round 4. Not us actually having to do work to save ourselves!!! So speaking of saving myself it's going...it's not going well, but it's going. I'm just trying to talk to people and be social and friendly and hopefully that's enough for them to keep me around. Come swap? Uh fuck them. For now? Skate fast, kiss ass. I don't know how much Jack or Lily are talking to them but hopefully less than me lol. I tried prying stuff out of some people. I went to Cameron after the vote like "what happened lmao" and he's like "votes changed" which was really a ground-breaking revelation. Then I tried going to Madison to find out why she snaked me and uhhh the conversation died before I could even get there alksjsl. I'm still confused on why she threw out Autumn's name... I mean I think Karen was the source of that whole shenanigan but Madison seemed quick to jump on it...so who knows? I've also been talking to Autumn and she's super super nice and I feel bad about voting for her. I mean honestly I think I would have voted for Karen but I guess I'm #outoftheloop. I'm not sure if I can rebuild my relationship with Autumn though. I mean I wanna work with these people but like! I got smacked in the face before I could hardly say hello. So here's to us winning! Please.

okay listen i'm TRYING TO GET EVERYONE TO CALL PLEASE DO IT

Why haven't I searched yet????  the archawhatsit has 'many' things inside I hope I find something GOOD!!  like really good! i can't believe I forgot about searching and you can do it once a day omg

okay they won the challenge.... which is ugly since an iconic player is now going home. BUT I SOMEHOW MANAGED TO GET A POINT. SO I GET A THING. I literally choked idk how that happened, that was the wildest event of my entire life. Amanda summarised it so well "Ali, who is up at 4am for this challenge, vs the world " But like... IM SCREAMING that I got a point. Like, this night is wild, I actually flopped like I needed to. I also think me getting that clutch point should hopefully keep me safe, as I can seem like an asset to the tribe... but honestly like can you believe owen's tribal answer cursed us. He like placed a spell over our tribe, and we have a literal witch on our tribe. Is that offensive to say? I think she calls herself that. ________________________________________________________________ IM SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMING at 4aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam (my new single) ________________________________________________________________ Also teeeheee, I'm gonna idol correctly this season and not tell Owen I have an idol! na na na na na na! :) No but seriously this idol is SO exciting! I need to come up with a convincing lie potentially to Emily/Duncan if I even want to lie. After all, Duncan did tell us about his idol so it does seem only fair! YIKES. I don't know, we will see what happens! I am SO pumped though I tried finding my confessional from Emathia when Sam gave me the idol but I cant. I found this one, but its not the bit I'm thinking of.... "In the meantime, an update! I HAVE AN IDOL NOW WOOOT! Sam bequeathed it to me, I’m his heir and I’m gonna pull all my competition’s hair! But seriously, I HAVE AN IDOL NOW!" I'm ready to not make the same mistakes and instead just make them to a slightly lesser extent! WHO.ELSE.IS.PUMPED! ________________________________________________________________ last confessional since LORD KNOWS I need to finish my work but I think who goes at tribal will be between Julia and JD. They've been the two quietest presences in the tribe.... Like JD is an icon, so I'm not really down to vote her out, but voting out Julia is probably too reliant on people I knew preseason. lets be real though, I have been WAY too blessed in the Archipelago, its time for some karma. i love predicting my own demise

y'all i ain't slick anymore i'm getting desperate and i want to go to sleep can i please just get like five people on call

OK I LOVE THIS SEASON BUT WHY. WHY ME. i cant believe we lost an immunity ughhh. And I honestly thought we would be a comp beast tribe. Apparently I was wrong. But now I gotta think more forward. I haven't had much to say shockingly, since socially (not just me) this tribe has flopped to the highest offense. But that is what makes this tribal scary. Its literally gonna fall back on groups of peoplr who know eachother from stuff, and who are friends and it will be very messy. Like this tribe is all friendly and stuff, but when stuff like this is thrown out there, its a recipie for disaster. Its terrible I can't stress it enough. But because of this, my social game has imoroved. Now, tomorrow I have to have a plan to move forward. Will give details when the time comes.

ELAENIA WON IMMUNITY!!!! Wow I- I'm so shocked I didn't prepare anything but I was right about us winning so

I'd like to thank God and the Academy and Madison for actually having my back and voting Karen out so I could live to see this moment. That means a lot and if she could just forget never read that first confessional that'd be great. I'd also like to thank Lily for coming in clutch and I'm SO glad we decided to come for Karen instead of her because that would've been a miss steak that'd cost us dearly. Also we should probably start talking lmao I'd also like to thank Owen for his idea to put the heavyweights in different heats. It not only worked, but kept our alliance from going home since Dana, Will, Cameron, and I all sucked in this challenge. I told myself I wouldn't cry but- I just... a recruit is getting 19th place and I couldn't be more grateful. Unless it's Ashvika getting sent out so in that case everything is cancelled and Virego can choke. Thank you admins for giving the underdogs a chance to have nice things and I'll see y'all in Round 3

Wow, okay, who's ready for the first real confessional? We're going to tribal and I'm 99% sure they're going to vote me out. I didn't compete in the challenge and everyone seems to get along for the most part. I already feel like I'm playing this game too hard but everyone else is afraid to start saying names and making moves! This is All-Stars!! It's time to put on your big boy pants and play! So I'm trying to flesh out an alliance with myself, Zachary, Ali, JD, Ruthie, and Emily. Ali is acting a little shady with me which makes me think he might not be in but he SAYS he is so I guess we'll see?? Everyone knows you don't want to be on the wrong side of the numbers the first vote. It sets the tone for your game. Ideally we'd need to take out either Duncan, Ashvika, Samuel, or Julia. I think Julia is probably our most MIA but IDK. I like her so -- it's hard. Catch me just trying to stay alive.

We got....nothing from our archipelago challenges but at least Jack trusts me enough to tell me he didn't get anything either. Which makes me feel solid about my place on the tribe. Basically as long as the minority vote trusts other people less than they don't trust me I'm fine, they won't come for me.

Glad to have immunity! I’m worried about being a weak link though.

Our tribe lost immunity and honestly, i'm extremely anxious. I would like to assume i've been really social and genuine, whilst also doing good in challenges, but tbh I don't know if that's going to pay off. There's this gut feeling I have that i'm leaving. Maybe people are like lying to me and planning on voting me out despite how much i've helped the tribe - or maybe people just also don't know what to do for the vote. Charlotte came to me with like an idea that her/me should form a voting block for this round particularly.The names mentioned to be included were Emily, Ruthie, JD and Ali - and then the narrowed vote was likely Julia. I would personally pick JD, but knowing her and Char are IRL friends, i'm fine with keeping her around this round and voting out Julia. Whatever pushes me one step closer to winning i'm down for yeah. The people who I feel like i've connected with most overall though are Ashvika, Duncan and Emily - Charlotte secondary and Ruthie/Ali third level. JD is 0. Julia is somewhere between JD and Ruthie/Ali, roughly where Sam would be too. The problem is, and I know it's using outside game knowledge/meta information, Emily is a BIG threat. She has so many connections set in this game. I wouldn't want her out now because she's so sweet and I do enjoy her company, but like... yeah... Also we're speculating a potential tribe swap at  F18 into three tribes of 6. I feel like this might be where my game CRASHES if I survive tonight, but we'll see honestly. I'll try to be great socially but it's honestly where numbers align. I have another gut instinct that this will be a very tribal-based game for the early votes.

I’m really nervous for this tribal because I don’t know where to vote and I don’t know whether alliances have already been made :/ 

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________________________________________________________________ I'm making my own lunch (defrosting and grilling chicken) so i feel like a real adult (tm). So I just got back from the Joan of Arc, and I got to a point where I had to swim (thanks for the mini scavenger hunt, jay) and found that obtaining an advantage would require me to send a few messages in the tribe chat that are unorthodox. The first thing that I noticed about these, though, was that Duncan had already sent messages like this in the tribe chat a couple of nights ago (why? why can't I get anywhere first?) so he's already done it and probably has the advantage, whatever it may be. He asked Emily to help him do it, so she's definitely in on it, too. Soooooooo maybe we (myself, duncan, emily, ali?) can all form an "alliance"???? I knew that I had to branch out to some of the newer-school players to get my footing with the tribe; this could be my ticket.

so feeling more people out julia messaged me once and then hasn't since after I told her that I haven't heard any names yet (which i haven't so like what else am I supposed to give you boo?) so i'm not sure where her head is at right now, or ever, for that matter. charlotte just told me that she has respect for my hair dying spiel and that she won't write my name down tonight, so i won't do that to her either, even if she's the one that ends up having to go tonight. i know that it's pre-merge, so post mortem relationships don't mean that much, at all, but even if i can be more likable, i'm going to cash in on that. i want to try to make an emathia pact but jd makes me so nervous!!!!! she was so all over the place when we last played together and gave me a lot of SCRESS (screaming and stress) and ruthie and i haven't spoken yet so i don't think that i'll try to talk to her today because that'll come across as shallow and impersonal. i reached out to emily, so i hope that we can get on the same page with duncan. ashvika is still on my radar, too. just have to see how she's feeling. in case you couldn't tell i'm super shook up

Oooop, so I just got added to a mc'freakin huge alliance and if I didn't love all its members so much, I'd find it a little bit scary. With that said, I also think we are swapping next round so having lots of allies going into a swap hardly feels like a bad thing! I have a video confessional uploading that will take eons to do so, but it basically summarised my thoughts on our tribe. It seems my initial prediction was correct and Julia is going, which is ultimately probably my best case scenario. I have also noticed that it seems like when you played Athena is a big factor in alliances? Just look at the one I'm in right now: Ruthie - Season 9 & 11 Emily - Season 9 & 11 Zach - Season 7 & 10 Charlotte - Season 6 & 10 Ashvika - Season 12 JD - Seasons 5 & 8 Like there are a lot of similar themes, its this sort of collection of players from athena 10-12, with links to the sort of midseasons like Emathia and Taveuni to link it up. Its interesting how thats affected things and how 'old-school' athena players are thus the targets (Julia,Duncan,Sam etc.) _______________________________________________________________ Okay idol update. I have told Emily. Like, I'm probably gonna regret it, but she is someone I wanna work with longterm and I think having someone else know could work to my advantage? I feel like since we have the archipelago doc and the fact doc, we are already pretty linked so telling her about the idol feels like a calculated risk. I have decided not to tell Duncan, just because the idol message he sent was weirdly written for the Athena mums and different to mine. Here are the receipts: Duncan's Message: CONGRATULATIONS! You have found and earned the Hidden Immunity Idol, which can be used until any tribal council up to and including the final six. Please read the rules section on the blog that addresses Hidden Immunity Idols if you have any questions! My Message: Congratulations! You have found a Hidden Immunnity Idol, which can be player up to and including the final 6 tribal council. Please consult the section of the rules on Hidden Immunity Idols for further instructions on when/how to use it. Firstly, tag yourself, I'm immunnity, but also.... I feel like its unlikely the mums would send different messages like that? idk so I'm slightly sketched out. I also really wanna actually improve my athena game, which requires lying. So I'm giving it a go. I'm snake, I'm fake, my gameplay is opaque, a whole lot is at stake and my athena experience I'm gonna remake.

So right now, we have a 7-person alliance type thing. I don't know if it's an alliance, but rather probably a "voting block" cluster. It consists of everyone on Vireao minus Sam, Duncan and Julia. Generally I like EVERYONE on this tribe, but this vote should be easy. Will I get blindsided? Likely. Is that me being paranoid? Potentially. The vote should be Julia tonight. If an idol play is to occur, for some reason I really doubt i'd be gone. I think Julia likes me, so unless she feels massively betrayed, I think she'd idol out someone like JD or something. I'm hoping for a tribe swap though where i'm in a good position. I might be in a bad position yeah but... I don't want to be forced to vote anyone else out on our tribe hehe like i'm attempting to play really social and that's making voting harder - in addition to the fact that everyone is already semi friends so I can't be the first to name a name. It's similar to game changers intro. Also i want to find something down in the beautiful Archipelago but... she's not having any of me. In fact she BAMBOOZLED me and held me captive so my tribe mates had to help me. RIDICULOUS! Bye bye.

I was lied to. Karen went home instead of Autumn. Shit happens. I'm still in. We won the challenge. That was pretty cool. I'm not gonna be second boot. This concludes my legally obligated confessional.

This is not the group I want. I wanna work with Sam and Duncan... But as long as we swap soon and I don't have to worry about voteing ether of them out than its gonna be okay but... I guess I'll worry about that later. I know my name should pop up once... My own doing and I might even kill me. But I offered to let Julia think it's me going cus... Well ive been floppy. The worries is that others see it as a good idea. Me and Charlotte have agreed to split each other throats at some point. But not till merge so I think she'd say something if she heard my name. But we'll see. 

I want a tribe swap but instead of losing my tribe we just switch like JD for Lily. That’s it. I want Lily on my tribe what the fuck. I just miss her. LILY!!!!!!!!!

These birches are so just ugh. I hate to be working with them in this game like damn. So first of all, this entire tribe ain't that social. And I honestly don't know if I trust these bitches. Like if I left, I wouldn't be shocked at all. I consider some of them my friends from the past, but I don't know if I can trust that. Like damn. So it took until 5:00 EST to be told by Emily, than Charlotte that they are voting out JD. I am seriously hoping this is what is gonna be going down because if it isn't I wont be down for it. 

Okay! So! First of all i wanted to say shout out to mitch, steven, francie, mo, and everyone else in the woo platoon. Now not much happened until the challenge results were posted. We lost and now are forced to send someone whos an icon out the door. For my personal game, the 4 candidates who i wouldn't care if they left were: jd/charlotte/ruthie/julia. However we can't take out jd/charlotte rn it would cause the tribe to fall into mayhem. Sidenote, Emily is a real one for telling me that Charlotte made a 7 person alliance sans sam julia and i. So thank you charlotte, thank you for giving me a figure head to take down. I was told that they discussed who to vote briefly. I was shot down as a candidate to leave because my social game has everyone liking me more than the other two. Now i don't think anyone could get the votes for me to go anyways on this tribe. I think my connections would prevent that from happening. Essentially whats happening is that julia is going because she's really not that active and comes off harsh when talking. I feel bad but im going to feel bad in any and every vote. Another note is that emily, ashvika and i made the paramedics alliance chat today. because we give first aid. However instead of normal paramedics, we will be taking people off of life support. Hopefully everything goes according to plan and i can live to see another day. 

Hello America! I haven't been voted out yet? Wig! I'm shook that Karen actually went home. I don't know why I almost lost my life panicking over that vote, but umm whew! I did! The most relevant thing to explain would be my alliance snituation, so i'll explain her. People keep putting me in new chats and i'm like.. keep it simple for me, i'm dumb. If i counted right, I think i'm in three alliance chats. 1) Will, Cameron, Owen, me 2) Will, Owen, Autumn, me 3) Will, Cameron, Owen, Autumn, me Determining who I feel the closest to is really hard, even though I am most straightforward when I talk to Will about the game. It just feels a little fucked because, at least right now, he is talking about us being F2 loyal... and i'm not saying I don't want that, but I'm saying i'm not locking myself into a plan that's going to inevitably be bad for me. In a game with this many amazing players, am i going to be 100% undoubtably loyal to anyone? even to myself? I'm sure not! In terms of my relationship with the rest of my alliance, I have two main thots: 1) Comparing how Owen acted last time we were in an "alliance" (yes, that's right, you're remembering correctly, when he coup de tat'd me out of a game) compared to this time, I definitely feel he is being MUCH more genuine and actually wants to work with me. Wig! I love Owen! I just don't want the fact that Zach is on the other tribe to spook him at all because this is allstars and i'm here to slay, i'll punt Zachary Rae into the sun if I have to, ya know? 2) Love logo so much. I think he has a sneaky little advantage he isn't telling me about tho. Cameron came to me and said he couldnt talk in tribe chat for 24hrs, and I was like omg nooo!!!, but thought nothing of it. Then Will came to me 24hrs later and said he got the same challenge, yet when he went to claim his reward for completing her, he got nothin. So hmm... I need to do a little detective werk. If this is the case and Cameron did receive something, then Lily O COULD have an advantage too if she completed the busted mission I was given week 1 to throw the challenge.   I definitely had something else to say, but i'm a mess, so who knows, it could have been anything. Ok well... wig! That's all I got yall! 

Still feelin real #blest that David overcame Goliath this round. But I'm so worried to see which Goliath gets axed omg. And there's a possibility of some kind of swap tonight too....idk but my fingers are crossed that somethin goes well :') also Cameron told me that jack said he didnt get the call advantage either and I started thinking....the archipelago is prob the same for both tribes??? so it's really possible someone from the opposing tribe has that call advantage. I hope so!

LilyOmg whew I realize I'm confessing pretty late in the round but oh well WHAT A ROUND! I totally kicked butt in the immunity challenge, not-quite-but-somewhat carrying my tribe of icons to a day of relaxation. Granted I'm not thrilled that I was in the minority and nobody told me, buuuut it's all good tbh, as long as the same thing doesn't happen next round :P I'm glad we're not just gonna get steamrolled though, and that I had my chance to shine in a challenge. Now the rest of Elaenia won't consider killing me over a lack of contribution! (Oh also we played CAH last night and I rlly hope that becomes a tradition because it was Big Fun™)

(Host Note: There are too many videos embedded in this post and I could not embed this one. Sorry Ali! Yall can just follow the link)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kt0o1TbNlzQ

Julia becomes the second person voted out of Athena All Stars.You can view Julia’s preseason interview here.

#NotAllFunAndGames

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode 1: “She’s a Sneaky Sneaky or Something” ~ Kevin

hosts what did karen threaten y'all with to accept her into the game

AHHHH, I'm gonna do a full cast assessment later but what a cast! I.AM.SHAKING So many icons on my tribe, and so many icons in the game in general! I'm overwhelmed askjdfsakldfjsa

Also, since I sent the confessional link like 10 billion times during Azores, I'm ready for Amanda to drag me and send it 24/7. Whenever I ask a question in my host chat, I wont get a response, just the confessional link sent

so i'm doing some #sleuthing and performing some research since i haven't been paying much attention to the seasons. turns out there's been four seasons since motunui???? um??? like what even is a "Cordelia Bianca"???? what season ?? this tribe's an interesting mixup. i have my taveuni children jack and lily who i'm hoping to work with (hopefully jack forgets that motunui happened). i have karen who is...a person. i have some people that i was contacts with prior to this game apparently but i don't think i've actually talked to them. then there are the others who...seem nice. hopefully nice enough to keep me around! my goal in this game is to survive long enough to play with charlotte. if i so i will adapt my gameplay from motunui, where i played to help jay b win, and this time i will help charlotte gain her second win. #feminism ________________________________________________________________everyone in this tribe has placed higher than me and i think i have the lowest average placement... i think a casting mistake was made 

I'm still, *so* overwhelmed by how great this cast is.... Like... so many icons I love the amount of Emathia representation! We have 2nd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th.... I'm probably forgetting someone and if so I apologise ________________________________________________________________ Also... 4 buffs is suspicious.... Like I'm not a mathmiscientist, but like.... 4 buffs and two tribes does not compute. ________________________________________________________________ I'm really scared I'm gonna flop in this scavenger hunt, all these challenges are too harddddd. Also I'm on call with lots of the tribe right now, and they all seem so nice and sweet! I dont wanna go to tribaaaaaal

so we're all on call but we're all silent, so it just feels like one of those old western standoffs. welcome to night 1 of the game!

Who is ready for my cast assessment because I have so many FEELINGS! Okay let's do this, starting with Vireao (The better tribe) ALI: My king, he LIED TO ME about being cast in this season even though I KNEW HE WAS GONNA BE HERE!!! He's honestly my king and I can't wait to play with him. But he has also hosted me so like :0 oh boy! But anyways - I'm so glad to have him here because he's such a good friend of mine. Hopefully we end up working together because he seems pretty loyal but fklajsdkfjask oMG ASHVIKA: She's so freakin pretty and I'm honestly a little shook but I'm glad to not be the only winner here LOL! I'm excited to get to know her and play with her because I think a lot of people stan her and like? Wig! CHARLOTTE: I'm really SHOOK!!! Literally I look up to Charlotte so much. She's like? A goddess? And I'M PLAYING WITH HER??? I'm prepared to get shook and honestly I don't know if she'll work with me and stuff but I HOPE SHE DOES BECAUSE I LOVE HER AND I'M ALSO A LITTLE (A LOT) SCARED OF HER DUNCAN: Okay my motherfuckin king. Like I cannot express how shook I am that he's here to DEFEND THAT DAYS PLAYED RECORD FROM JACK!!! But omg I'm literally like softasdjfaksdkas I LOVE DUNCAN!!! Y'all put me on a tribe full of people I love we better not lose immunity otherwise I'm gonna cry a lot. Also woohoo another winner EMILY: Oh JD: I'm SCARED OF HER! IF I'M BEING HONEST! She seems really frickin iconic but she's also HOSTED ME along with um FOUR OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS GAME fdkfjaklds and so that's definitely a BIG DEAL but like she's so sweet and she's a queen and like wow JULIA: Queen of being from North Carolina quite honestly. We're playing together in Crossroads right now so #wig! She seems really sweet and I <3 that but I don't have much to say about her RUTHIE: Okay living work of art I love Ruthie with all of my being? She's? My mom. I love her. And her INTRO SO FRICKIN CUTE!!!!!! QUEEN OF BEING AT DISNEY!!!!!!! QUEEN OF GOING TO ROCKS FOR ME ONCE AND QUEEN OF USING AN IDOL ON ME ONCE LIEK FCADFJASLDLAS I LOVE HER SAM: The only person on my tribe I had to add as a contact LMAO but he seems so fun! I like him so far but I LIKE EVERYONE SO DFJASDJFLKAS ZACHARY: Okay I've honestly been wanting to play with him for a WHILE! I've seen him around and he's so nice to me and I think he's friends with Bryce and anyone Bryce stans, I stan. ANYWAYS TO SUM THIS UP: VIREAO IS ICONIC! I LOVE THEM ALL!!! Now onto Elaenia! AUTUMN: Okay we're ALSO playing in Crossroads together #wig and I really like her!!! She is definitely someone I'd want to work with going forward and so WOOHOO! DANA: Okay I've? Heard a lot about her? But I don't know her? And honestly I don't think we'd get along very well but anyways fjsdkjfaslkdj queen! I love how many girls are on this season. Also another winner GOOD! I was scared we were gonna get targeted bc winners but there's a lot of us so yay? JACK: Okay my mother fucking KING! I love Jack with all of my heart and I'm REALLY EXCITED TO PLAY WITH HIM!!!!!!!!! AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully he doesn't hate me from making him final juror in Themyscira dfkjfalskd lol KAREN: Okay we played together very very very briefly in Island of Shade All Stars and like she seems fun!! I also see her in VLs a lot so wig KEVIN: Okay!!!!!!!! I know him I think!!!!!!! Amanda drags him all the time!!!!! But he seems so NICE!!!!!! AND AMANDA DRAGS ME ALL THE TIME SO LIKE!!!!!!!! We should get along really well. I'm excited! LILY: My literal wife. We're married. I love her. I literally CANNOT WAIT until she's on my tribe or we merge LIKE I JUST LOVE LILY SO FRICKIN MUCH!!!!!!!!! MORE THAN ANYONE IN THIS GAME!!!!!!!!! WOW! I just love her and I have nothing negative to say about her we're GOING TO THE FINAL TWO AGAIN BABIES EMILILY IS CANON Cameron: Okay another king. I love Cameron. Maybe this time we'll like WORK TOGETHER!!!!!!!! I love him and he's such a great friend and like I want to be reunited <3 ugh MADISON: Literally my QUEEN! I was actually so shook to see her on the cast reveal but like she's really out here doing that! I am so excited to play with her!!! Literally though I'm a little nervous because people know we're close and like IRL FRIENDS and ajfkdjkafsld whew I mean I'm obviously not gonna align with her blinding but lbr we're working together. I hope Madison gets close with Lily. ALSO FUCK I TOLD MADISON THAT I ......... TOLD MADISON A SECRET ABOUT ONE OF THE PEOPLE ON HER TRIBE AND IM SO JFLKDASJFKLASJDLKAS SCREAMING. Okay but I love her OWEN: Literally king of hosting me. He's done it THREE TIMES! THIS BOY KNOWS MY GAME BETTER THAN I DO! Guess I gotta change shit up fkdsajkads whew!!! I love him though and I hope he's wanting to work with me because I don't want to go against him I DONT WANT TO GO AGAINST ANY OF THESE PEOPPLE FJDJASJFASDJ UGH WILL: I KNEW HE WAS GONNA GET CAST I FUCKING CALLED IT (Not to anyone like with proof but I CALLED IT TO MYSELF) and I'm so happy. He's such a great friend of mine and I love him and I'm excited to PLAY WITH HIM WOOOOOHOOOOOO okay I love him OKAY so to sum this cast assessment up I love everyone and I am literally so EXCITED about this game!!! I hope I make merge what the fuck everyone is scary and #wig fkjsdklsdlkl

I join this group call and for some reason Samuel is half-naked?? I mean, he's a good looking man, this is okay with me. ________________________________________________________________ OK but seriously we're all sitting on call and no one is fucking talking ... this is weird. I'm ready to go now!! Med-evac me outta here!! ________________________________________________________________ STILL NO SHIRT. WHY?? Also WTF are these scavenger hunt things... could they be more complicated? I think no. 

I'm on call with Emily.... just like what a queen ________________________________________________________________ I'm gonna film a proper video confessional tomorrow.... but like.. my tribe y'all Emily: A Queen Ruthie:A Cracked Disney Queen JD: An Icon Charlotte: An Inspiration Ashvika: Just met her, but a queen Sam: A King Julia: Again just met her, but a cool witchy legend Zach: A Star Duncan: A Fave Like... I couldn't have asked for a better tribe, its amazing! The Hosts decided to put all the darksided 'uns in the problematic problem attic, and let all the best beans out of the can ________________________________________________________________ AHHH, I'm confessing a lot already, but I'm also already in an 'alliance chat' kinda... Its me and Emily, plus all the hosts (since we are gonna end up pm'ing a lot), called Accident & Emergency. I think my plan with Emily is that I think she is actually one of the biggest threats coming into this game, so it makes sense to team up with her as an iconic personality and a potential shield. I think my target coming into this game is actually fairly low? just because I have only played one survivor game before this one. With that said, I am actually surprisingly well connected, I knew 7/9 other members of my tribe before the game and 6/10 on the other tribe! so its lit. I just don't wanna go to tribal, everyone I'd wanna keep is on my tribe kldfkjadsaf also get ready for too many keysmashes, I wanna like make a keysmash for my tribe, with our names. it'd be jadrjszeac . new tribe name?

IT'S ALL-STAR SEASON! I'm honestly ecstatic. I'll focus on the other tribe when those members become more relevant to my game, but right now i'll just assess the other castaways on my tribe and talk about general topics. Ali - I know of him, and i'm actually friends with him. I don't fully trust him or anything, but I think i'm eligible to work with him. He kind of feels like he has to owe me due to his betrayal in an alternative game, and i'm not going to guilt him but i'll encourage our friendship. Ashvika - I have never played with her... but ICON! I absolutely adore her and I truly think her and I are going to work really compatibly together. I'm just slightly worried cause her and others are very popular on my tribe, and that alone is going to be worrying to me. Charlotte - I adore Char, and she's probably my #1 on our tribe. I know she's really close with JD though, so i'll try to work with JD more or like soften her, but Charlotte is one of my favourite people and i'm ecstatic to her on my season. Duncan - I don't know Duncan much. Obviously i've heard of him, and I think he's great and I really want to work with him. From past games i'm sure he's perceived as a loyal individual, which i'm entirely down to work with. Emily - She's a special one! I like her and I think she's sweet and genuine, but i'm slightly worried since she's similar to Ashvika. The only difference is... i'm not sure if her and I will work together. She's one of the Themyscira (sp?) people, in addition to the fact she has MANY friends on the other tribe AND she thinks i'm really cocky! But I hope her and I can work together :) JD - Reference Charlotte's paragraph. I just know JD is loyal but she also plays up with pregame status and i'm worried she won't ever fully have my back. But nonetheless, i'll try to work with her, and hopefully her and I become friends!! Julia - I am really good friends with her, but not to the extent that's like "oh pregame!". I've rid of her in 1 of our 2 past games, but I don't think that's going to be detrimental as we're not really like... we weren't allies back then. I'm really excited and I think she's one of the people i'll focus on allying with down the road. Ruthie - I. Love. Ruthie. An absolute sweetheart. She ranks amongst some of the people on the tribe that I would want to extremely work with. If Charlotte isn't #1, it'd be Ruthie. I'm slightly concerned with the relationship between her/Ali, but I think I could work as a trio with them. Sam - I've talked to him the most of the people I don't know prior to this game. He's really nice and all and I think he'd be a potential easy boot cause i'm not aware of any of his connections. However, he's someone I actually wanna work with and i'm going to strengthen those bonds in hopes of us working together. I really do like my tribe and I hope that we don't go to tribal whatsoever. I think today I slightly slacked but tomorrow and the day after i'm going to effortlessly work up my social game and that's going to be my vocal point in this game. It'll be replication of my Bahamas game, which obviously proved to be more efficient than Cordillera and my respective gameplay. It bothers me though no one replies to me. At least i'm ATTEMPTING to be a social god, but... watch me be first boot! wig! Also... what's up with the four pre-merge buffs? I get a tribe expansion, but to four people? It's interesting it was released pre-season considering that leaves open ends to what that could mean. Will it go to four tribes of 4 at 16? Will it go to three tribes of 6 at final 18? Only time will tell!

AHHH I feel myself being way too unsocial, we HAVE to win this selfie hunt thing! I’m glad I can probably get a lot of these things today!

I'm a mess but I'm here. All-stars? Wig. This cast? Wig. My tribe? Wig. Basically the wig is gone and I'm not even bald I'm scalped. I know a lot of the people here in terms of knowing how they play their games, but I don't think a lot of them know much about me beyond what they may have heard during Azores. The only other Azores people in this game are Ruthie and Emily (and Ali technically) but they're on the other tribe so that...can wait until later. Right now it's time to make some friends, take some selfies, and win a challenge because god forbid someone has to get Zoe'd again. I just know I won't be taking any strategic lead, but I'll suggest some ideas and play from behind the scenes. [insert obvious Sarah Lacina winner quote here] and yeah that's why I'm here! I love a good challenge and I love proving myself and we'll see how it goes xoxo

ashvika is SOO NICE. And a dog fan. Our tribe can not go to tribal, I repeat our tribe can *not* go to tribal, I refuse to vote anybody on this tribe out. CURSES ATHENA MUMS FOR MAKING A TRIBE OF ICONS + ME ________________________________________________________________

Life Lesson for the Day. If you are trying to remove egg from your hair, don't shower with hot water, it.cooks.the.egg.into.your.hair

We love a good idol challenge that involves getting the lowest score! Idk if it'll even get me to the idol or get me something else, but I'm alive right now I feel ready to go. Time to get that strategic game in motion in case I have to make my tribe lose lmao

I love Ali

HI EVERYONE! IT'S ME, I'M AN ALL STAR! I'm SO unbelievably happy to be here, lemme tell ya. My tribe is FABULOUS, too, so this is going to be amazing. It's time to give them a run down! Overall, I hate how I know and love so many people on this cast because... I can't work with everybody. I need to win, which means I am going to need to hurt people's games. Autumn - I've heard she's a QUEEN, but she has yet to accept my contact request which is highly, HIGHLY off putting. This is all stars, baby, you're gonna need to socialize. She's beautiful and funny, but we'll see how her sociability picks up. Dana - OH A QUEEN. AN UPSETTING QUEEN. She's so extra, but having Dana on my tribe means I'm gonna have Zach on my side later. That's real good for me. Any numbers I can get. Joseph - Alright, so me and Jack just played Themyscira together. I know that I can work with him, but I don't want to. He's a really sweet guy. Ideally, he will go early so we don't have to worry about his charisma down the line - he is a VERY sweet guy. Karen - MINION QUEEN! So like, she's usually pretty inactive, pretty out of the loop, and pretty unable to make merge in crunch time. Perfect. We've played together before, the only game I've ever won, so hopefully that spells well for me. I'd love to work with her, just bc I know she'll need someone. I also guessed she'd be in this season bc she was suddenly active in the chats again lol. Kevin - One of the only people in this game that I don't actually know much about. He seems really nice though, super friendly and super kind, and I know he's #in with the moms, so he's good in my book. I really want to try to work with him, just because I know the less people I know that I work with, the better. Lily - Lily and me have quite a history. She is a very, very, very sweet kid. She can also be nasty. However, I promised her I would not hold it against her, and I will stay true to that. I know Lily can be the nicest person alive. And I want to keep experiencing that, because she's amazing! I just know she'll be with Jack. Madison - Alright so this girl is a QUEEN! I watched her play Himalayas and she's obviously very similar to Emily - friendly, likable, and a freaking PLAYER. If she's the same as Emily, she will win all stars. Good thing I won't be letting that happen. Owen - So I predicted he would be here! He's a very sweet kid, and there's NO HECKIN TREVOR this game. Which means I actually have a shot at being Owen's #1. Not because we've played together though, I wouldn't expect that, but because we play well together. He is a very sweet boy, and he's a friend of mine, but I'm happy to see him here. I know we'll be okay at least pre merge. Hopefully post merge too. Will - Another person I know next to nothing about! He is very social though, which I enjoy, I love talking to people on a regular basis (@Autumn) so I hope he and I can sort of go forth together. Right now, I'm just personally getting to know anyone and I don't want to talk about my friends in this game... At all. Like at all. I can't wait to play! Love you guys!

okay so i'm gonna do first impressions of my tribe karen - the devil resides in her heart. maybe/hopefully we can work together tho? jack - son!!! i think i was a snake to him in motunui. can't really remember. but i like him he's chill!! please forgive my sins if there are any im not sure lily - another child of mine!!! also want to work with her. but i think she was a runner-up in a season??? and from what she told she's um...someone to be aware of. she has connections with the other tribe so that can be good Cameron - nice but i get some weird vibes? idk i feel like he doesn't like me skdjdjf maybe i'm just being paranoid owen - takes 90 years to respond to my messages. either a snake or a fake. dana - loves her!! she's really nice i want to work with her!! autumn - she seems like a neat lady. haven't talked to her but will - umm cool

________________________________________________________________ Yikes, I need to get better with spilling the beans, I'm already telling Emily waaay too much dsjlfafsjdaf, I cant help sharing information with such a QUEEN.

do you ever absolutely play yourself bc. jesus christ. i feel like a newborn who was abandoned by his own mother. in the ocean. tangled in seaweed. exposed to the entire world. by a snake. the serpent of my eden. it's barely even been 24 hours and i'm exposed to my tribe. well!! it's always good to have new first experiences, so i guess being a first boot can be fun if you look at it in a certain way :,) it seems like my tribe took it well but like if we lose i'm sure people will look for reasons to get rid of someone and what's an easier reason than someone getting caught looking for an idol??? i mean everyone's probably looking but like...i guess i'll die! idk i'm probably being paranoid skdkd but im too young and pretty to die so like

all my confessionals in episode 1 are just  me being drunk i'm done with me

Egg

HELP I AM LOST I DO NOT BELONG. everyone knows everyone and I am alone and scared and I REALLY wish Emily was on my tribe but it’s okay I might pull through. fingers crossed for this scavenger hunt challenge. I have no time.  

I'm gonna make a video confession soon but!!! I just spent about an hour on call with Dana. I told her I got a disadvantage in the forest that made me unable to talk in the tribe chat. I mean... its a disadvantage but hopefully there's gonna be a very beautiful advantage at the end of it... my own hidden immunity idol, for the second time in an athena game. 

I feel nervous bc I feel like everyone is very connected in this tribe from before or past seasons and I feel kinda out of the loop and paranoid bc I don’t connect really deeply with anyone except zach rn but it’s still just the second day so idk :/  

I'm just wondering if like....everyone got the same task as me to flop this challenge on purpose like are we good? Anyone there? No? That's too bad

So last night I had my first 'game call' with Duncan in two seasons! Honestly I love Duncan so much, I think I was being super annoying on call and he was super okay with it. I think I'm being very annoying in the tribe chat, so I need to tone it down, I just cant help the excitement. Also, just like Ali T, I too have a spyglass (that Ali connection shdjdkdkdkdkd). Ali T, a spyglass? Its a lit. Anyway, I told Emily because I felt the spyglass isnt like an insanely significant power that I should keep it hush hush and it'll make it clear I do want to work with emily. I'm so interested to see what would happen at a first tribal, its gonna be wild. But like... the other tribe is going to tribal first, our tribe is too iconic to deserve that. But yeah, I am really excited to actually play strategically this season, and have loads of iconic players to play with! With my spyglass, I sly with my little eye, something beginning with iconic season.

Ali and I: are sharing our idol searches so we don’t double search and cover more ground.

Ali and I: both search path 3 that yields NOTHING Ali and I: ...oh heck

I love not understanding how phones work. I love being Dumb Dumb McDumbson.

Since we're really gonna lose this challenge, I guess it's time to start thinking strategically and by that I mean I'm literally going with whatever these people want besides taking out Dana. This is just....a mess and I hope it isn't like this every challenge wow. But I really like them all which SUCKS because it's gonna make things hard no matter what.

Whew! Time to get typing, because I actually wanna be communicative in this game to some extent about what I'm doing and where my mind is at. So let's go. First off, I guess it won't hurt to do a little tribe/cast analysis.

AUTUMN: Haven't talked with them yet, but they seem neat. Unfortunately, they may be one of the earlier targets due to a lack of conversation, but that could change. DANA: She's an icon truly! Never played a game with her before, and I'm really looking forward to it. Not sure how she plays, though, so she could end up being a bit of an obstacle going forwards, depending who I wanna go for and who she wants to go for and all that shit. JACK: The other Jr. Jordan from Themyscira! I'm... honestly a bit conflicted on working with him this game. First off, our game relationship has gotten a bit rocky after some Themyscira stuff, and while that won't be much of a detriment, I feel like everyone still expects that we'd be working together. And, obviously, I don't want anyone seeing me as the one who has allies literally everywhere, 'cause then nobody will be talking to me about the vote. So while I will work with him if needed, I won't make him my #1 ally priority. KAREN: Honestly the fact that she played an Athena season before is welcome news to me, I'd love to work with her in this game because she's such an icon whomst I never get to see anymore in games. KEVIN: Taveuni dad! Icon! Don't know if I've played with him before (maybe once, but I don't think so), but I'm excited to do so nonetheless! Cameron: At first, I was... not entirely thrilled to see Cameron on my tribe, after what had happened at F7 last time we played together. However, he and I addressed that issue early on, and we're gonna let bygones be bygones. Regardless, he isn't exactly the most fun person to work with in games, so I'll be keeping an eye on him. WILL: An icon! I don't remember the last time I talked to him (it's been a while tbh), but I'm always glad to see some familiar faces on my tribe, especially when they're as iconic as him. OWEN AND MADISON: I'm putting these two together because the same thing happened with the two of them. Immediately, we began to talk, and our shared love of Emily gave us the motivation to all work together to advance far enough in this game to work with her. Hopefully that's at merge, but if we all end up together at a swap, that's even better! EMILY: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I KNOW SHE'S NOT ON MY TRIBE BUT I STILL INCLUDED HER HERE BC I LOVE HER AND CANT WAIT TO WORK WITH HER AGAIN So! In other news, I might be first boot. Whoops. Between TLJ on Saturday and a Christmas get-together hell that gave me an anxiety attack today (Sunday), I was able to get a whopping 0 things ready to submit. And on top of that, I have a project to finish and practice, as well as a choir concert tomorrow, so I just feel entirely ready to die right now. I mean, I don't WANT to die, but I'm ready.

Hi, I'm Ali and I've just committed a solid 48 hours of my life to torture! I was so tired yesterday idk if I confessed yet about having called with Duncan, but I did! He seemed so serious, which is unlike the fun Duncan I know, so he is clearly in it to win it, which I'm here for! He seems to wanna work with Sam, which I'm super here for, since I do too! With Emily, we need to communicate better with the archipelago doc, which is funny because we've been in sync all day. We looked in the same place for the archipelago hunt *and* we both are doing the Queen album cover. What Emily does not have on her side... is that I had the stunning, phenomenal, talented, brilliant, incredible Francie to help with my album cover. But yeah, I've got LOTS of points for our tribe, so I'll be devastated to commit all that time to the challenge and then lose, but I think if we do go to tribal, the amount I've contributed for this challenge, it'd be kinda wild for the tribe to vote me out.... With the tribe voting me out, IDK WHO I WOULD WANT TO VOTE OUT. The two people I know least are Ashvika and Julia, but that's kinda boring to fall back on previous game relationships. I think Ashvika is super nice, so I'd love to work with her going forwards. Julia is quite intimidating, but sounds like an iconic personality too! Like.. I think I'd maybe want to vote out Julia but I don't really know.... Who is even on my tribe other than those two, its: Sam, Duncan, JD, Charlotte, Ruthie, Emily & Zach. Well, I am already working pretty closely with Emily and Duncan, and with Sam having literally dyed and then shaved his hair for the challenge (as well as being an iconic personality himself), I wouldn't want to vote them out. That leaves Charlotte,JD,Ruthie & Zach. Those are all ugly options, so maybe Julia would be the ideal person to go if we went to tribal....? I don't know, it doesnt matter because my tribe isn't going to tribal.... No ifs, no buts. We are the (mostly) American idols and they are the American Idoled Out.

why bond with my tribe when i can bond with the hosts instead. i love my moms.

AHHH, if we lose this is so ugly. Me and Emily were major contributors so we should hopefully be safe but ughhhh. us going to tribal would be UGLY.

After this competition, I guess you could call me a messy player, huh?

[2017-12-18, 12:26:37 AM] Duncan (Himalayas Host): On 2017-12-18, at 12:18 AM, charlotte wrote: > snoke like im such not a film buff i thought this was the villain guy in harry potter for 5 mins [2017-12-18, 12:26:49 AM] Duncan (Himalayas Host): but i saw the one from last yeat and it was enjoyable [2017-12-18, 12:27:01 AM] Duncan (Himalayas Host): im kind of a basic person, its not that hard to entertain me lol if you don't know the difference between voldemort and snoke we just can't work together sorry no duncan has to go!!

oh my god ok so hello I am back for another season of athena and this time I'm trying to be simultaneously less AND more aggressive than before hehe. My initial thoughts from the two cast reveal posts were....fuck. LITERALLY everyone on the other tribe is someone I want to work with so badly. DUNCAN. Sam!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALI AND JD??? R U T H I E. EMILY MY FUCKING MOM DSKAJHFKJSDHFKJDSHFKJHSDKJFHKJSDHFKJDSHJ GOD. And Zach too we had unfinished stuff to work on from our last game. Charlotte seems like a queen.AND ASHVIKA OMG DFSAKJHFKJSDHFKJSDHKJFDS SHE WAS MY FINAL 2 IN LITERALLY SEASON ONE OF HOUSE OF SHADE AND WE HAVENT' PLAYED TOGETHER SINCE THEN JESUS. There's another person I'm forgetting lmao ummmm oh wait it's Julia??? I didn't realize Julia was in this game fuck. Literally ten fucking icons. I'm so upset I'm not on that tribe btw!!!! I should have been a recruit I invented Emathia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jk :( but rlly I'm heartbroken not to be on that tribe. Maybe it's for the best though because that might've been the easy route and I prob need to struggle a bit to prove I'm supposed to be here. That tribe is fulll of active icon legends tho and then there's us fkadsjhfkjsd the underdogs. And we've already been killed in this first challenge. Now for my tribe....ummmm.... Was shook to see six ppl from Emathia in this game tbh. Cameron is on my tribe which is an interesting dynamic. Actually my dynamic with all the Emathia ppl is interesting bc I did them all dirty at some point except for maybe Duncan. But Cameron is the one on my tribe which is good because I like him and I think we can work well together again. Karen is a queen in these games but we've never truly been a part of any alliances or deals or rlly anything so....idk. It's nice to feel like there's someone else more "old school" on this tribe since it's a lot of new people. But at the same time I don't trust her too much and I think she might be an odd one out? Idk. I'd save her if I could but if she's the first boot maybe that's how it's supposed to be. Dana is the only other person that I knew coming into this and....I'm conflicted bc I love her and wanted to work with her in a game that I just got out of but then afsdkjh we ended up on opposite sides and I used a coup and got her out oops!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So this time I was like "we can work together bc now rhone amanda and zach aren't here to get in the way" and she said "zach is in the game tho"kashfkj I CRIED. I'M ALREADY FLOPPING. But we actually have been having some good convo I think and I want to trust and work with her. Apparently Will and I played BBSinnoh together so we had a bit of history and I really like him too so far. Of course this is the weekend I had planned to watch all the star wars whew so he talked to me about them it was fine ok nice.... Now for the other ppl lmao um Lily I thought was gonna be rlly cool. I've hosted Emily three times now and I think Lily was in her DR for two of them lololol so we have a bit of history plus we are both Owens. So I instantly was like "omg we need a get to emily alliance" and she told me Madison would be down for that too. I guess Madison and Emily know each other irl which I didn't realize but oh well. The more people I'm in good with, the better. Then JACK was tellling be all about how Emily screwed him over in his season and for a second I was like omfg should I leak this to Lily and try to target him but then I was informed and I remembered that Lily and Jack are literally like.....minions together lmao. Also Jack said something weird to me I don't remember what it was but oh well. I think he makes jokes some of the time that are sarcastic but then they feel real and I get STRESSED. So the whole Jack/Madison/Lily thing exists and I like the three of them but they also stress me out a bit. Autumn is another factor that I like. She's in the game I'm hosting rn too and I like her a lot, I want to work with her but she hasn't been the most active. I know Will/Dana like her too. I thought maybe her and Madison would be working together but that might not be the case??? So idk. I grouped them together in my mind at first but prob shouldn't have. Then there's Kevin who I talked to a little but rlly don't know that well. I was getting good vibes from Cameron, Dana, and Will and I started putting pieces together and realized that they all like and talk to each other too so I jumped on that wagon real fast and built an alliance :) I trust them and I think I have the numbers this round to get thru first boot pls god I cannot be first boot if they're doing me dirty as fuck rn then I'm going to cry. Kinda comes down to who I wanna target though.... On one hand there's Karen who might not click with these people or be terribly active. Kevin I kinda feel like fits that too. Either of them going wouldn't change much for me and I think it'd be easy enough to get a close to unanimous vote... On the other hand, the Jack/Madison/Lily thing is a little scary and taking one of them out might be a big play early on that will help things later. But if I do that I run the risk of Emily not trusting me/wanting to work with me later. Which is fine bc she gotta go at some point but also fkasjhd I love her :'( And I want to stick with Owen to Owen. mostly I'd just want Jack gone tbh. It looks like Karen is what Cameron is leaning towards rn. We'll see if Karen comes to me with anything tomorrow. Maybe I can make an alliance with Madison/Lily and then tell me tru alliance about it but that sounds messy. I know I'm kinda a messy person though akjhsdfj frick. one last thign I found all these boulders but literally got nothing for it. Cameron has an idol. that's good news I believe bc if he told me about it then he trusts me and I think that is good. Will also had an opportunity for an advantage and didn't take it but maybe Lily has it so we'll see fdskasjhfkjdh maybe I can approach her idk guys I just wanna make a swap I NEED to make it to ali and ashvika and ruthie and emily and all my other favs jesus CHRIST DUNCAN UES kfahsjd thinking about that tribe makes me scream so much like if they're final ten I wouldnt even mind.....fuck. although I do want to prove that the "applicants" deserve to be here just as much as the "recruits" maybe we're little but we can still kick ass or maybe we will just die rip pls let me live im SCARED ________________________________________________________________ the other day b4 the game started I had to ask ali if he was gay or not bc he's so european that i couldnt tell askdjhfk im going to throw every challenge so all my friends stay safe not rlly IM OUT OF CONTROL

Duncan, Ali, and I made a little group so that’s exciting!! Also: WE WON IMMUNITY!! I’m so happy that all the hard work we put into the scavenger hunt paid off. We DOUBLED their score - whew! I’m so proud. Now I hope and pray that Lily, Madison, and Jack are all safe. I kind of forgot who was on that tribe. OH WAIT WILL TOO AND Cameron ANANNANAJA I HOPE THEY’RE BOTH SAFE TOO!! I’m concerned. But at least I won’t be the first boot of All Stars!! Because Vireao ROCKS!! I love my tribe. Also I think I came to make a confession for a different reason but I forget what I was going to talk about. OH WAIT I REMEMBER THE FOUR PRE MERGE BUFFS Tbh I have no frickin clue what those buffs mean but I hope that I ... don’t end up on one of those tribes? They’re darker and scarier and more mysterious buffs I like the calming bright colors!! Keep me away from cursed buffs and um let’s hope I don’t DIE 

[12/18/17, 10:40:27 AM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Krakatoa Host/Atomic Series Admin): So hows your morning been friend?

[12/18/17, 10:43:21 AM] Madison Kimrey: really nice! I’m watching Christmas films and drinking hot chocolate with my dog [12/18/17, 10:43:32 AM] Madison Kimrey: so I’m festive as fucc [12/18/17, 10:43:36 AM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Krakatoa Host/Atomic Series Admin): aw thats adorable [12/18/17, 10:43:39 AM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Krakatoa Host/Atomic Series Admin): …can I see ur dog Guys I'm making real good connections. [12/18/17, 10:52:05 AM] Karen :~): Omg [12/18/17, 10:52:59 AM] Karen :~): Can't believe I'm gonna have to actually be a social player [12/18/17, 10:53:44 AM] Cameron Bee-Culpepper (Krakatoa Host/Atomic Series Admin): I know its horrifying WHAT THE HECK IT'S ALL STARS YOU CAN'T NOT BE SOCIAL? WHAT THE FUDGE SWIRL, KAREN? but anyway. karen's question is so shady bc shes like... literally inactive. and she thinks challenge performance should be taken note of like yeah, i deffo agree, but also? talk to people? come online once or twice a day? its the internet everyone has it act like it

So I'm now in an official alliance chat with Duncan and Emily. First off, I'm so here for it. They are both such icons and I love them both SOOO much. With the Archipelago, I have this ugly challenge where I have to deliberately do worst on my tribe to get a power.... It's a yikes from me.... but a flop being tasked to flop? Feels appropriate

Wow okay, so to start i'm actually so greatful to be back, like honestly. So Day one comes, and I actually love my tribe? I'm excited for the fact Cameron and Karen are playing, but they are on a differnet tribe. So I have Zach, Duncan, Emily, and such and I really enjoy them. And not to mention, the tribe BEASTED the immunity challenge, holy fuck. But i'm def worried. Socially i've been flopping, which is my strongsuit everytime. So I wont lie, I am worried. I plan to talk more with Emily and Duncan to feel them out a bit. I like Samuel (I think thats his name) but IDK if he is a rat. He seems like someone I want on my side, but I am not dumb. I know his type.

Hello hello Confessional! Unsurprisingly, i'm going to tribal council tonight, and like I better not get voted out, but also, I'm weirdly not scared and don't feel that much pressure to do well. I don't want to be first boot, so i'm just trying to stay ~casual~ which we all know is super hard for my crackedt overdramatic ass. Here's my cast assessment of my tribe: Will- My #1 undercover bitch. Didn't think we were friends? Guess again. Pretty solidly working together until further notice. Will I be too honest and get screwed? Tbd! Is that what I deserve? YES. Cameron- I'm trying to make Logo my bff because I know him better than I know other people on my tribe. We're friends coming into the game AND have never played together, always a plus. Owen- I'mafraidofhim.gif Owen is smart and, naturally, I'm terrified of anybody I can't mist. But nonetheless, I crave an alliance with Owen. I want to play dumb and let him carry me, even though last time I said this about Owen I got crackedt and rallied an army against him and got coup de tat'd out of a game. We love second impressions!!! Autumn- Love her! My literal mom! Am I wholesome and pure enough for this friendship? I'm sure not! But... wig! I love working with people who have no previous impressions of how I play, and she's so sweet and we have a lot in common. She's literally my all-stars version of queen Lily D from Bahamas. Jack- Is Lily's conjoined twin. Catch me pretending i'm oblivious to this, but wiggy... i'm not. Love them both and if they want to work with me i'm here for it, but if they don't then... you bet i'm telling everyone i'm threatened by your duo. Madison- Don't know ha.   Karen- The odds that Karen wants to work with me are too low to even exist. But also I literally stan her.. so pls? Kevin- He's nice. He threw out Autumn's name and umm? no.... Right now I'm in some type of alliance snitchuation with Will, Cameron, and Owen. We want to pull in Autumn on the vote. The only problem is that Kevin told me Madison& Co. want Autumn out. Why does this matter you may ask? Because Autumn thinks she can trust Madison and I don't want to be the controlling manipulative bitch that I am to my core and start exposing this tea. That means if I give Autumn a name, and she gives it to Madison, the odds of idol plays or a target shifting to my back are higher. So i'm being luke warm about everything right now but also when you're me... luke warm means ur hitting people over the head with your thoughts. So honestly? Wig at the concept of me being first boot.

I think Autumn's going home. Either Karen or Madison threw her name out bc she's a sneaky sneaky or something, who knows. I've only talked to her once. She's nice but uh I'm just looking for a name. Hopefully we have the majority. Karen Lily Madison and I are on board, Karen wants to work with Owen, and I've talked to Dana and Cameron as well and they seem adequately on board. 

My confession is that I have an exam to study for and I dont have time to do confessions <3 tomorrow I'll do a run down of how I think the tribe is and what not. 

I am ECSTATIC that we won immunity! Quite honestly, this tribe is so cute and I do think everyone on it is adorable in their own, respective ways and I like everyone. On a selfish level, I think i'm going to be an early boot CONSIDERING no one talks to me - and I know communication is a two-way street, but... I respond to them. Emily doesn't keep conversation going with me. She's nice, a sweetheart and everything sugar. But I feel like she's already set and doesn't need me as an ally whatsoever. JD hasn't responded to my first ever message. Julia talks to me a little, but not to like an extent that has actual substance to the conversation. Then you have other people like Charlotte, who talks to me because we knew each other. Ali/Ruthie fit in a similar boat, except I just put those two on a block in another Big Brother ORG... yikes. Duncan is GREAT, for sure he talks to me the most and I really do think he's cool. I hope he's not like... playing me or anything though. Like, I hope the genuineness is reciprocated both ways. So now that we have immunity, i'm really excited to a) see what the other tribe is going to do and how the dynamics are looking on their behalf, and b) socialize more. I'm probably going to talk to Sam more, despite my spitefulness towards men, and hopefully recruit him as an ally since he's also one person on the outs. That's it for now wig.

Remember when I said I deliver iconic long-ass confessionals? Well the time is now because ya girl found out about the campaign to make her first boot. Like when Owen told me on our call that Karen said it's happening and she has the numbers I just- mmm. How? In what tribe/ series/ universe does that make sense? Like how is sending out a strong competitor first round when we just LOST good for your game? Tbh we didn't lose, we got slaughtered soooo. And  keeping flops like Karen and Lily who earned a 0 and a 6 respectively will totally set you up to start winning right???

Are they racist? Like what is the actual reason for coming for me?? I'm so done and the game legit started 3 days ago. Here's what I know: Karen is going home tonight and the campaign to get me out better leave with her or I will fuck Elaenia up. And so help me God if Madison is being petty cause if she started all of this I'll ruin her. I straight up vouched for her and told my allies she's a triple threat that's better as an ally rather than an enemy like the bad bitch I am so that's 3 more people who aren't coming for her. MEANWHILE she's on the other side of camp happily nodding to a campaign to get me out AGAIN. Like did I miss something? Is this just Himalayas Part 2? Why do I hate you- more like why do you hate me?? How are we supposed to let bygones be bygones when I'm helping you and I get a knife to the back again as a thanks?? What gets me is I really could just snap my fingers and have the votes to send her out but I didn't because forgiveness and clean slates. And you know what that is? Growth. Adulthood. Two concepts she doesn't seem to understand. I need her in order to survive the same way she needs me so like get it together. If she votes with the fakes tonight issa wrap

The other half of Elaenia really got it twisted but don't worry. My alliance and I will help them see the light. Did somebody say alliance? Um yes- Owen, Will, Dana, and I are officially aligned and the tide is about to turn, especially if I stay. The fakes really forgot this is All-Stars and I don't care how hard they're working I'm working harder. You come for me I'll come for you so watch how you speak out my name ya know

Guess the vote's Autumn. And I'm legally obligated to write a confessional. Workin' with Will and Cameron. It's lit.

Did I make one of this yet umm I think I did Friday I am just SO GLAD our tribe is safe and that I don’t have to worry about leaving! I wonder who will go in the other tribe!

My tribe sucks! We lost! Idk half of them lol but they're all talking to me and stuff so like at least they're keeping me in the loop!????? Sndjjdjd honestly I think autumn is going so um we'll see what happens! A bitch is still nervous tho :/ ah. Also I think I'm gonna try 2 align with Kevin lily and Owen, they seem like tru hunts also Cameron and Dana will be good ppl to have going forward 

god ok so off we go to crush someone's dream...today has been a bit stressful. Last night I solidified my alliance with Dana Cameron and Will, it's real cute. We talked about pulling in Autumn and then we would only need one more. But then.... Autumn's name started going around. I heard it first from Karen, who said that like...madison kevin dana Cameron and lily were all voting Autumn. I knew Dana and Cameron weren't, but the other three plus Karen and Jack would make five which is not good bc five against five isn't cute. I called Autumn and spilled this tea to her and we talked for a little bit I had to be really careful to make sure she didn't expose my ass to Lily or Karen lmao but I suggested we try to get Autumn and Madison on the SAME PAGE again.... So I went to talk to Madison and we called for like a half hour and it seemed like she wanted to keep Autumn for now and vote Karen???? And I told her to go talk to Autumn and try to clear the air. It seemed like a good conversation and I really really like both Madison and Autumn so I am praying she's not screwing me over. I'm just weary because Lily will not budge on voting Autumn. Like at all. And it seems a bit misplaced for Madison to so easily want to trust me and vote with me over voting with Lily idk why that feels weird to me... Madison and I both know that she can't say anything to Lily if this is rlly the vote. And I'm scared that Lily has an idol or something since she got the lowest score in the challenge and that was apparently one of the things fdskahfj fuck. If I had it my way I'd be getting rid of frickin Lily or Jack over Karen. Idk what to do at all. omg it's been like an hour I forgot I started this confessional uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont want to go home I'm so scared pls just let it not be me

I can't speak in any alliance chats or the tribe chat for 24 hours I want this idol so you better believe I'm gonna fucking do it. BUT my plan instead is to tell people that it's a punishment rather than a challenge, so that people don't suspect me searching for anything. Maybe I'll tell the alliance, maybe not. I'm gonna let Owen think I came to him first with the news, hopefully it builds our trust even more. Regardless this tribal is gonna be nuts and at least one or two people will be mad at me afterwards lol

Karen becomes the first person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 6-4 vote. You can view Karen’s preseason interview HERE.

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