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complaining is literally step 1 of unionizing your workplace. not many understand this

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are you guys OK. sometimes i get the vibe, that you are at your wits end

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this is going to be difficult -> i am capable of doing difficult things -> i have done everything prior to this moment -> this difficulty will soon be proof of capability

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there is always some fucking laundry and dust and some other shit

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just give me 20 to 40 minutes to think on it and i can come up with the most passably human sentences you've ever heard so help me god

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got read to filth last night

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trying to look ethereal at the grocery store

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when florence and the machine said "I find that happiness is an extremely uneventful subject" and when romeo x juliet said "a simple life with you would be paradise" and johnathan coulton said "it's okay, I like you in glasses" and everything everywhere all at once said "in another life I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you"

(edit: I made a longer thing with more examples here)

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generalized anxiety disorder is kind of a funny diagnosis...like this bitch is scared just in general

#🙋🏽‍♀️

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going to work and coming back wrong

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honestly i am literally 800 years old

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Any update about the job stress? I’m going through something similar in terms of deciding between jobs in my field of IM. It’s crazy how glamorized medicine is to be this profession where everyone drives sports cars and take lavish vacations and send their kids to private school. I feel like my friends in non medical jobs (tech, finance) make as much/more without nearly the same responsibility. Making decisions about tech or stocks will never equate to making decisions about a person’s health…not to mention the emotionally taxing aspect of human interaction that goes way under appreciated, especially when you have multiple complicated, chronically ill patients, some who take out their frustration on you, or those who are truly the nicest but also at their lowest who you try to raise up and make feel better. Just basic appreciation with steady salary that’s not comparable to those who, despite definitely going through their own challenges and educational requirements, put in a lot less years in training and have different responsibilities all together. I completely empathize and hope you can find a promising solution. Keep us posted!

Hello!

It’s been a trip, and I totally agree with your statements. I also have a ton of building resentment towards healthcare as a whole because you see this trend of doctors being vilified on social media for things that the general public just doesn’t understand. I get they have no context to, but still.

I see 25 patients a day, 100 a week, 400 a month. If I see less, admin comes down on me. Impossible with the complexity of rheum patients so there’s just this chronic background fear and nausea that I could miss something. We all do because we’re human, but it doesn’t feel great.

It’s getting easier or I’m getting better, maybe? At the very least I’m adjusting. If I could do it again, I may have gone the midlevel route because you still make six figures and you can’t get sued (right now, anyway). Or I would have kicked something that at least paid more for this amount of work (probably why anesthesia match was such a bloodbath this year).

It’s not terrible, I guess? It’s more like..:could be better, could be worse and so I guess I’ll just stick with it.

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― Elias Canetti, Kafka's Other Trial: The Letters to Felice  

[text ID: For a good part of his [Kafka's] work consists of tentative steps toward perpetually changing possibilities of future. He does not acknowledge a single future, there are many; this multiplicity of futures paralyzes him and burdens his step.]

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i think deciding to love someone continually is like reading the same book again, but each time finding a different line that hits deep and makes you think about something you didn't realize before. and you decide to read it again and again, knowing you'll never get enough of it, knowing you'll always find something new about them to love.

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a girl does start to feel optimistic in a patch of sun

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It’s rot in your bedroom Sunday