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💜❤️ [2k3RaphDon] “ you don’t have to be so strong all the time. it’s okay. cry. i’ll be strong for both of us. “

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It was extremely where for Don not to be in his lab, which was of course, the very first place Raphael had turned to look for his brother. Having called out to them with no answer he spent a moment or two simply looking around for his brother for a moment but no didn't seem like they were there. Their duffel was still around along with their bo staff so Don couldn't be out of the lair. Sure the lair was spaceish could never claim it to be cramped they each had their own room and plenty of space for them to all be out together but in their own areas as well with out feeling like they were on top of one another. But even with that all said it shouldn't take about an hour to find someone! But in Raphael's defense he guessed the saying about in the last place you looked held true as he finally made his way into Donatello's room.

"Jeez here I though ya didn' know yous had a room." Raphael jokes once finally finding his brother, Don seemed to be relaxing for once in his life and Raphael seemed to take that as an invite to join them. "Fine if I jus' hang here?" he asks Don seemed to not mind if not looking a little curious by the request. Moving to climb up to their bad not fully aware what his twin was doing likely just reading as he at least scooted to the right so Raph could flop down beside them.

Near about belly flopping on to their bed now that his search finally paid off. Two hours worth just warding around the lair, going through their lab, the garage they kept the tank and such in. Even venturing out into the tunnels for a short spell. When Leo or Mikey asked him what he was up to he simply snapped at them, mostly Leo of course. Finally giving in and asking Splinter if he seen Donatello. Who least gave him the hint he saw them head to their room. Not that he was going to fess and tell Don any of how long he been looking for them just so he could rest like he was now. He dose hear them ask if hes okay he just nods his head and gives a faint grunt of acknowledgment to Don's question. Of course Don of all would know that was a lie. Their whole twin thing wasn't just because they were the middle kids of the family and same age because of it. Nah they had this special bond between them. That couldn't really be explained. It was why Raph knew Don was over tried at times and it seemed how Don knew when Raph wasn't in the right head space himself. Blame that need to know or have answers or Don's just general caring nature. But they were stubborn simply asking once more. In that soft tone of theirs that was hard for even Raph to ignore.

"mfft eawwie" he says against the pillow, of course that didn't fully come out in a way to be understood so he simply peeks his head out and offers a shrug of his shoulders. "not really" before Don could say anything more he reach over and cover thier beak with his hand. "Ya don' gotta 'ike do nothin' Don. Jus' let me hide for a bit an' I'll leave ya be afta kay?" Raph assures in case his brother suddenly felt like he had to turn and focus his attention on to Raph instead. Before letting his body fall back into the comfort of his brothers bed. Slightly ashamed of how much the scent of Donnie trapped in the sheets was enough to offer him some form of comfort.

Raph remained quiet after that, both in his voice and just mannerism. His energy felt so low, sure he was normally irritable, but he felt like everything was enough to get to him right now, a sound or not enough sound. Why he sought out Don. They were sort of his refugee least it why he would look for them. Always turned to finding Don so he could just linger around them and hide. Don was just claiming he supposes their air of quite just always welcomed. Though Raphael swears Donatello's stare on him was near like he was screaming.

" 'm fine Don, stop starin' gonna burn holes in my head."

“ you don’t have to be so strong all the time. it’s okay. cry. i’ll be strong for both of us. “

Raph huffs a bit and turns so his shell is towards Donatello instead. More of a show to say what he already had before. "I don' gotta cry jeez." Is the only part he remarks on.

Though maybe he did. He didn't have reason to not like anything outright was going on or happening to make him feel as he was in the moment. Just a sudden realization hitting him these days that he been trying to work through. Mayne going to Don wasn't the smartes4 because it only reminded him why it hit him like a stack of bricks. But at the same time? Where else would he go? Don was where he always went. Slowly moving once more to roll over against and look at Donatello. Reaching over to idly tap the spine of thier book.

"Don 'm betta now 'hat 'm here okay? I promise. No one bug me when I hide with you anyway." Raphael points out. Don often got an automatic excuse on being left alone here and there of course outside checks and annoyances. But since he was in his room for once? Raphael shifted and got comfortable where he was. He knkws his twin though a need to fix anything and everything. But he already was fixing things just by letting Raphael hide away with him like this. Even as he snuck a peak at his brother who didn't seem well convinced but willing to take what he was getting.

He just stared at them and thier olive green skin, their profile how focused they fell over thier book.

Pretty.

The little voice in his mind said as he just stared at Don a moment. The same voice that thought it when he took glaces if the women in maginze covers. Or men mostly. Neither had close to what Don was like to look at, though. Maybe it should be wrong the idea of being together with one of his brothers. But it didn't feel wrong when he relieazed Don was the one he was attracted to. It just clicked and made sense like they say it should. Like how hiding away with Don seemed to just bring his peace back. It just made sense explained why he always had a clear favorite between his brothers. Leo they drove each other crazy there was no way that could work. He might kill Leo. Mikey? He was his baby brother and annoying at that no way he see them like that. Donatello? No that was different always different. Don seems to notice he's being stared at more and that dose cause Raphael to feel hus fave redden slightly before tipping his head back to look up towards the ceiling.

"Promise 'm fine brainac jus' thinkin' " He hears Don jokes about that being a shock and it's enough to make Raphael chuckled before he slightly bumps them with his arm a weak attempt of a hit. "Shut it." He let's his eyes close a moment after. He loves this. How it feels being alone with Donnie, the soft sound of their breath beside him. Thier scent around him.

"Thanks Don...this helps a lot." But also dosen't. How was he meant to to turn off these feelings? Did he have too? To much to consider too much to stress and worry over. All that made sense was simply how it felt to be with Donnie right then and there.

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[ducknotinarow]

💜❤️ [2k3RaphDon] His machines weren’t working as wanted, leaving Donnie huffy and frustrated. Things just weren’t going his way, and with the general exhaustion hanging over his head, Don decided that it was time for a break. And by break, it meant heading straight over to Raph, and placing his chin on their shoulder, pouting over his lack of success.

Safe to say someone was in a huffy mood.

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There were many jokes tossed towards Raphael when it came to emotions. Mainly in that he was always mad, or that being mad was his one whole emotion. Because pretty much everything did make him mad. And sure he could deny that being true, but even he would soon admit that yeah okay a lot of stuff pissed him off. Not getting enough sleep made him moody for one. The news could make him bad because it never seemed like anything good was ever going on. People testing his patience made him mad. Dropping a spoon when taking it out from the draw also made hims mad. The rain pouring to hard for him to be able to get out to the surface for a break. And that was just the past two hours alone.

But that wasn't all true Raphael had another emotion and he felt it every time his eyes rested over the sleek and red painted frame, the shine that the wheel rim and fender held. The second he stepped over to take a look over his Shellcycle his day grew brighter. He loved that damn bike, a lot of his free time was spent working on it. Keeping up the maintenance on the vehicle like making sure the oil was changed, checking on his tires in case he would need to see about replacing them. Inspecting the chain and such even just cleaning it. As he was working on now.

Wiping it down to really made the bright red paint shine, sure it mostly was only ever out at night but hell his bike looked great and ran great. Of course it was fine when Don first presented it to him. But Don didn't understand that need and rush for speed. That Raphael had so he been working on anything that would give him that edge much as he hate to admit sometimes Casey swung by a few good ideas as well. Beyond making his bike just lighter. Moving to stand up as he draped the towel over his arm admiring the beauty that was his bike. So wrapped up in what he was doing he didn't even notice Donatello coming in to the garage.

Only noticing the weight on his shoulder Raphael didn't need to look to see who it was. It could only be Donatello after all. Raphael simply reached up and idly patted the side of his twins face before turning a little to try and look them best he could at the angle.

"Hmmm, got quite the pout goin' Don." There is a faint tease in his tone when he speaks up. The lack of complaint wasn't new, Don just looked tried and frustrated. from the bit of their face Raph could see. "Aw what a matta? 'hing's not workin' how ya want?" he knows Don won't fully appreciate the fact he is still get teased when he is clearly a bit upset but well.

How was Raph meant to resist? Donatello looked so cute when he pouted and got all huffy like so. Raph dose offer some comfort as he rubs his hand aginst the side of Don's head. Gently trying to press his fringers in against thoer temple he's positive Don's forming a headache now. Before he moves away.

Playfully humming he looks Don over before he lifts up his hand with the rag he been using to shine up his bike with a second ago. "Hmm thsts a lot of smug. Maybe I should give youes the all shine up treatment too? I mean my girlfriend seems ta 'ike it at least." He jokes clearly referring to the bike. Before he steps away.

Setting down the rag, he picks up two helmets instead. Setting one to hook on to thw handle bar well holding the second out to Donatello instead to hold. "Know what I think Donnie?" He waits to see if they got a guess in them. "A date."

Raphael answers with before taking hold of Don's wrist and dragging them over towards hid bike. As he moved to take a seat, starting to pat the back for Don to take the hint. Of sit down.

"Ya need a break an' fresh air. An' since 'm feelin' oh so nice imma be the one to give 'hat to ya. Mostly cause I know your gonna turn back around and go to your lab instead." Raph slightly calls them out for. "Come on we can go to the dock see his the stars reflect on the water? Maybe to the junkyard sreaxh for anything ua lookong for. Maybe get lucky and find somethin' from the little mermaid for you or?" He questions a moment getting an idea. As he gets off the bike and takes off leaving Don to stand there only simply yelling for him to not move an inch.

When Raphael had returned he had one of Don's duffle bags he steps over to show them what he gathered up. Blankets some pillows the projector even to his dismay a copy of same movie he mentioned before, along with a tarp. "Do ya on betta, make it a movie night jus' us so no one can bug us?" He offers once he put real thought into it all "either way ya ain't goin' back in that lab for the rest if the day."

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[ducknotinarow]

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Raphael was in for another long night. That was the usual first thought whenever he pushed through the doors that led into the employees' only area of the casino. There, he would get ready for his shift and check to see if he had gathered any bookings for the night. With how long he had been around, Raphael always had quite a few bookings. Do something long enough, and you become good at the job, and Raphael's bookings were always full. Being one of the better known cocktail severs due to how long he has been here after all, he didn't even have to advertise for his bookings anymore. He did seem to have some time free before his first table came in, though, so they wanted him to work the floor for a bit.

Stepping out to the floor he's greeted by all the same. The bright lights that surrounded the tables. The bar tender getting drinks all made up for the other waiters to start handing out. Some of the girls were already hitting up the tables. Raphael strolled into his usual section for the night when he once again took notice of them. A turtle mutant similar to himself. With olive skin and just a much more soft vibe to him. Raphael could never word it beyond that.

This turtle just didn't seem to really fit among the usual guests they had or even the rest that were less frequent. Most who came to gamble seemed more like the risk taking sort, this guy? Well Raphael could easily image them a pencil pusher. So the fact this turtle seemed to always come to the casino? on top of being a constant winner? Raphael kind of smelled something going on here. And maybe that was what drew him into leaving his usual section of the casino floor.

He looked towards the waitress who took charge of the area and gave here a slight nod of his head, singling he was only going towards the table the other turtle mutant was at. So she would stay away. The conversation wasn't anything to write home about but he had to admit he found it impressive how well they kept, oh he meant how well Donatello kept focus on the game at hand even well speaking with Raphael. Even won, like always though. He was never marked as someone to watch since he did only come in once a week as Donatello himself had even gone and pointed that out. Raphael couldn't help but wonder if that was part of his scheme or just a matter of what ever work they did.

"uh? oh name" Raphael states clearly showing he hadn't been listening near the end there. Though he had to agree it was nice to see someone else like him. A turtle that is. Mutants weren't that rare after all or he wouldn't be working at the casino but they did seem to offer some form of novelty which was also why Raphael work in the position he held after all. Not just for the mutants who came in but some humans found themselfs well curious was the way he opted to word it right now to himself as he mulled over giving his name. This guy? eh they just seemed different the air around them how they carried themself. Even with some suspicious on his own part here he dose offer his name in turn

"Raphael." He states before pulling out a chair and sitting himself down at the table to join them.

"Donatello uh? not the usual kind of name ya hear. not even at this joint." As if he had much room to speak when it came to names. Deciding he had the time to spare he went and took one of the seats at the table along with them. "I dunno about not havin' a problem though" Raphael starts with smirking at them as he does, they were far more worth his spare time. Call him curious or maybe something else was the drawing force here. "Ya still stop in enough to be noticed by those who work here ya know." He happily points out, "Mostly cause ya don' really seem like the type to be popping in the first place." Maybe he was fishing still working on his own suspicious here, as he leaned in a bit closer. "Course that would lessen the attention you get when you do come in uh?" As if he were on to the other turtle here. And maybe he was in truth Raph was just going off his own hunch here. And looking to see the reaction he would get from the other mutant. "Comin' in once a week, not always the same day claiming it as a way to blow off stress from you day gig. Something fun with the luck of chances in it." He continues on to speak leaning in a bit more letting his knee press against Donatello's leg as he did more so he can lower his voice.

Despite his suspicious he could care less what Donatello's reasons for coming to the casino were, it was more just him wanting to mess with the pencil pusher here a bit. Maybe get a rise out of them. Pure entertainment on his own end. They had his interest he guessed and he couldn't help but play around a bit with them. "or maybe it's on purpose when you show up? less suspicion despite your winning streak hmm?" Like the games here Raphael was showing his own card taking his own gamble so to speak but working in this place so long? Raphael knew a few things. That luck always won, though sometimes one could make their own luck. "Such are the cards though right?"

He smirked a bit more as he leaned in just a bit closer making sure the dealer wouldn't pay any attention to them. Flirting with the guest wasn't abnormal after all but the dealers never really cared to feel part of it. "Or maybe, you are bluffing?" Raphael in his own game her was showing his cards now. Looking for a tell on them before he finally pulled back, letting his shell rest back against his chair, slightly pushing the ball of his hell into the carpet so his chair would push back just enough to give them space once again.

"Or maybe you just don't get enough spare time and like to spend it here when you do? Sounds like a problem to me." He adds in clearly playing his own game here, but at the same time not here to out them out if his suspicion for being a card counter were true. It didn't effect Raph after all. But sometimes it's fun to be in on it.

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[ducknotinarow]

[2k3 RaphDon] "I need to rest."

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It was rare when the lair was quite, not often something to ever happen really. Master Splinter and Leo went off for some training and Mikey tagged along. More like was dragged along. Punishment for skipping out on training the other night so he could sneak and watch some movie from the fire escapes of one building that let him see right in to another. Wasn't the first time why Mikey knew he could get away with it. Well the part of watching that movie not so much skipping training. So just left Raph and Don alone. More like left Raph alone in the lair.

Donatello was busy working away like always, and Raph? eh he didn't even see the reason to interrupt them. As he stood in the threshold of their lab not quite in the mood to be ignored, he just walked by Donatello leaving him to whatever he was busy with now. Some revamp of something or another. Sometimes a lot of what they said just went in and out of his ear. Raphael paused to look over the tool not in Don's touch at the time and snagged them. Safe bet they didn't need them if not over on the work bench before he made his way to where he kept his cycle. Just a ways past Donnie's own work space. Slightly whistling to himself.

Donnie wasn't the only one that got motor oil and grease on their hands after all. Donnie was just the only other one Raph trusted to touch his bike. They did built it after all. And there was just something special about that. Sure Raph got annoyed that Donnie kept so occupied all the damn time. But the bike? The bike was enough of a gesture to say 'I thought about you.' Raph recalled talking Donnie's ear off about a motorcycle the first time he saw one in person. Sure on TV too but it was the first time in person that really caught his attention. So when Don said they had made something just for him and it was this bike? Well it was kind of the little sign Raphael needed to see his partner did listen to him. And it was why he took such good care of it, in turn. Donnie showed love in their own actions after all.

Well and tinkered to make it faster. Hey sometimes him and Casey got into races up top and it would clearly be an insult to Donnie if Raphael lost! Nah can't have that at all. Clearly, and not because Raph was a sore loser. Maybe a little bit of that. Sat on the brick floor as he been busy messing around with the frame of his bike. Making it thinner would help make it go faster but he just could beat taking it off. Donnie even bothered to make sure it could be his favorite color? Maybe he could mess with the fuel pump instead? Though before he could even get a real start he heard the sound of feet against the floor. Sighed to himself go figure Donnie suddenly needed one of the tools Raph had gone and snagged just then uh?

Moving to sit more comfortably, as he fell to rest on his hunches waiting for Donnie to come and ask for whatever he was in search for. "Finally got ya nose outta the blue prints and gears?" Raph greeted them by. "Gonna wind up gettin' high off the fumes you always around. Startin' to think that is what your up too actually." he teased a bit, as he expected Donatello to toss in some snide comment himself. But nothing come up. Raphael titled his head to the side a moment as he looked them over.

"Hey, you alright?" Answer given when Don seemed uncaring about the fact he had to lower himself down to the floor moving lie down as they set thier head on top of Raphael’s thighs. Raph leaned back a bit so he could look down at Donnie.

"I need to rest."

Humming slight, he reached out to pull their mask down so to see how bad the eye bags looked. "How many days have you gone without sleep?" The lack of an answer only has the red banded turtle flick his tongue against his teeth to make a simple 'tak' sound. That held all his disappointment in the single sound. Moving hus head to gently stroke over the cruve of Don's head, though. Hoping to lure them into sleep.

"Idiot, ya not a manchie if ya just went to bed you would have this issue Donnie." He knows he is basically speaking to wall at the moment. "Couldn't have done this when I was least on the couch?" He complained but as he moved to least lean against his bike for some support it was clear he had no intentions on moving anytime soon. Donnie was lucky he loved him is all he knew.

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[ducknotinarow]

[TCEST 2k3 RaphDon]

He could hear their voice echo through out the sewer tunnels, despite being cooped up in his lab. Donatello held his phone tight to his chest, refusing to look at the screen, feeling tears in his eyes as he struggles to breathe. It hurt so much to do, but he knew it was for the best...he had to do it...for everyone's sake.

Eventually though, Donatello had to face the music. He dared to venture out of the lab, into the tunnels, attempting to find a new tunnel to call his home. He was shrouded in shadows, when confronted by his ex. He hates the way they demand answers; something Don used to love giving. Tears bubbled and fell over his cheeks, moving to tug down his mask, simply because the fabric was over saturated and making it hard to see.

Swallowing thickly, he tried to end this. Did what he thought was right. When Don turned though, red eyes glazed with tears as he exclaimed,

"I still want to be together!" He was a mess, beyond at that, "I still love you and want to stay with you Raph..."

Heart thumped and chest shuddered with difficult breaths, palm to face as he attempted to dry his tears. But he was sobbing, uncontrollably at that, as he struggled to calm donw,

"I'm sorry! I hurt you and everyone and I thought this would be for the better! I never meant to hurt anyone!"

Taking the blame, the guilt, for everything, as Donatello always did, and always would,

"I'm sorry Raph."

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Raph meant it he would take some stupid cliched break up over text. Raphael felt if he was going to be dumped he at least deserved better than that. Did he fully buy that Donnie meant it? That he did want to break up? Maybe. If it was because what Don did to him that would make sense Don always, always took on every thing that went wrong personally. So if he was the one to cause out right harm to any of them? Even in a state like that then of course Don would blame himself. But the worst? If if he blamed Raph. Why wouldn't he after all? Raphael always protected Don when they were out on missions. He didn't this time Don still got hurt. So if Raph had to deal with that pain? Then he should at least be given some respect to be told to his face this was truly over.

If Don was serious. Raphael wouldn't beg or ask for whys. He didn't need answers for the heart break. But he needed to know they were serious. Don wasn't going to hide behind his phone screen. If Don was going to do this it was going to be under Raph's conditions. He could figure out what to do from there. He waits for what felt like years in the tunnels. The only real noise was the water traveling through them. Leaving Raphael to his own thoughts, he eyes trailing to see where his own t-shell landed. The screen was still lit up so least he didn't break it. He wonders why that's the thought to take over his mind in the moment. The distraction likely just needed if anything.

Finally seeing Don come out from hiding though brings everything to the surface. As he stares at them. emotions mixing between dread and hope as he narrows his gaze towards them. No longer can he even hear the sound of water running through the channels down here. All he sees is Donatello. Literally holding all the power in their moment. One could calming he had Raph's heart in the palm of his head the one with the power to crush it. But Raphael maybe because he knew Don that well or was just this stupid to think other wise felt that wouldn't be the case.

"Well?" He finally breaks the silence between them. He watches Don move to face him, seeing those bright blaze red eyes that now replaced the brown he had always known Donnie's eyes to be. Filled with tears, unable to well them back any longer.

"I still want to be together!"

Out of the four of them, Don may be the best when it came emotions. Leo tended to have a habit of trying to push his own aside. Everyone knew Raphael locked a lot of his away, only allowing anger to slip. Mikey? He was far more sensitiveness and open. Don? He bottles things up and seemed to know best when it was the time and place least on the outside that was how it could look. But now? watching the usually calmer Donatello break like this nothing but a pure mess of tears and pain. A mixture of different ones is just all pouring out. Call it old habits, but hearing any distress in his brothers voice always gets the better of Raphael. Even more than Don's confession.

"I still love you and want to stay with you Raph...

"Don.." Raphael manages to let out.

Of course he knew this wasn't going to be something his mate would so easily be able to sweep under the rug and fully forget all about. No more than a nightmare. A living nightmare at that. As they tried so hard to stop the tears that just refuses to end. Funny it kind of made the bits of their eyes he could see shine brighter when glossed over by the tears covering them.

"I'm sorry! I hurt you and everyone and I thought this would be for the better! I never meant to hurt anyone!"

Now Raph made a move to step closer towards Don. Clearly to distraught to really do a thing in his current state. Hand settled on to their shoulders first. Letting the end of his finger tips dig into against their olive green skin. Trying to help Don see he's right here, but he's not sure where Don was in this very moment. So lost and tangled up in guilt and fear.

"I'm sorry Raph."

A hand lifted to take hold of the side of Don's face. getting them to look at him. Really look at him. Maybe it was the guilt that kept them from doing that. Or maybe he was fearful of them seeing the new color of their eyes now? It could be both. Raph let his thumb swipe under Don's eyes trying to help them dry their tears now himself.

" 'his is what ya get when youes hold 'hings in too much." Raphael speaks up finally, "Don ya didn' hurt me till now stupid." A word no one would ever use to describe Donatello for sure. No one but Raphael at least. "Can I see?" he asks meaning their eyes even with Donnie still clearly worried up he goes ahead and presses his forehead to their a soft little bump given. They really were red now uh?

"Don how is you leavin' the good for anyone?" he asks trying to see if they had any answer to give in that moment. "If you say cause ya hurt us 'han ya gonna need better." Raph's quick to cut in with sure Don would, he can see it painted so clearly over their face right now. "Don you really think any of 'hat matters? to any of us? no all 'hat ever matter's is youes!" But Don clearly didn't seem to understand it. "we weren't lookin' to stop a monster we were lookin' for you!" Raphael felt like he still was even with Donatello in front of him now. Moving to slowly curl his arms around Don, so not to spook him to much here. As he tugged them forward. Drawing their head to his shoulder.

"Come back to me Don."

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[ducknotinarow]

[TCEST 2k3 RaphDon - he's a little uuuh not okay :'D ]

He was a monster...well, he had been a monster. But much of the aggression that the second mutation brought out, was his own. It was a built up frustration that exploded and nearly got his brothers killed. How could they ever look at him the same way? How can they trust them? How could he trust himself. Images of what he did flashed in his head - how he hurt them.

Donatello was riddled with guilt, ashamed of himself. He should've known better, even in that mind set.

It's why he had to do what he needed to...and he did it like the coward he was. By barricading his door, in an attempt to keep his brothers out of his laboratory, and taking out his phone. Donatello knew he was being pathetic by doing this, as thumbs tapped away.

[TXT] I'm sorry Raphie, but I think it's best we break up... [TXT] I nearly killed you, and everyone else, when I double mutated, and you deserve someone that won't do that. That would never hurt you in such a way.

He sniffled, wiped at his face. Don shouldn't cry, this was for the best.

[TXT] I love you, and I don't want to hurt you again, or ever. But I did that when I mutated. It's unacceptable. I'm sorry...

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Mikey truly had a big mouth, despite all the years they have all trained to master ninja skills from Splinter, Mikey never seemed to learn the part about being quite. Sure they were all just so happy and relieved to have Don back after the double mutation. It was often Raphael felt fear but this? Yeah that filled him with a good amount of it. Raph wanted to just think for the best that they would get Don back. Splinter insisted that Don was still in there being the only one really able to reach him enough to get him to drop Mikey. Raph? Now he didn't agree that wasn't Donnie. When the monster had him it was like they had an intent to kill. That wasn't Don. Why Raphael didn't take anything personal when he was attacked by Donatello at that time.

Because it wasn't Don.

But there went Mikey filling Don in on what happened after they had dropped him off with Casey and April. Don seemed somewhat aware of what happened himself maybe Mikey's blabbering just made it more fresh. But Don just took off suddenly. And could any one of them really blame Don for the reaction? Raphael couldn't, he ran after nearly killing Mikey before himself. So it wasn't a surprise to him he could understand what startled Donnie. It was Raphael's biggest fear, one he never would admit but was forced to face in a nightmare. So who better to talk to Donnie and maybe comfort him over it than Raphael?

Instead? Raphael was left reading over this text message. He had gone looking for Donatello. He wasn't in his room, but eh that was a given. He wasn't in his lab that was troubling. Not the garage the elevator took them up towards either. That left a few other places some topside but was he really going to rather risk hiding up there? There were miles of tunnels to try and look as well. It's not like there wasn't others places to take shelter in below the city. Like when they found a home for Leatherhead. It was no different then the time Donnie ran off into the tunnels to prove a point and the text just added to this thought.

[TXT] I'm sorry Raphie, but I think it's best we break up... [TXT] I nearly killed you, and everyone else, when I double mutated, and you deserve someone that won't do that. That would never hurt you in such a way.

"What?" Is all he can say, stood frozen in place as all he can do is look over the wording trying to understand them. As if there was more to what Donnie tested just now. As if someway the name would change and revel this ti be someone else? Or he hear Don call out for help because someone clearly took his phone and sent this text in his place because what who fucking knows all of that made far more sense then the turth! It had his hand shaking as he read it over just waiting.

"Don' fuckin' think ya gettin' outta 'his the cowards way!" Raphael yells out he can just tell he's close to Don. "It ain't worth hidin! Ya know I'll find ya!" Raphael always found Donatello. Anytime the purple banded turtle took off fir whatever reason who was they to trail anf track him down? The only one stubborn enough to follow after Don and not stop till he found them.

Three little dots start to show, telling Raph that Don was texting again. Meaning he was right Don was close by and sending another message was the clear indicator of that fact.

[TXT] I love you, and I don't want to hurt you again, or ever. But I did that when I mutated. It's unacceptable. I'm sorry...

Gritting his teeth as he free hand curled into a tight fist. His knuckles started to turn white as jagged nails found a way to dig in against the plam of his hand. That wasn't Donnie. That never was Don. He wouldn't ever hurt someone like that. He wasn't like Raphael when it came to all of that. It was aginst his own will! It was Bishops damn fault that adon got infected.

No it wasn't.

It was Raphael's.

Donnie still got hurt when they were hunting down those monsters in the tunnels. And Raoh only bearly got him away from one. They still got Don though. Raphael tosses his phone to ground ot had more than enough cracks on the screen for a new one to go unnoticed by now. Turning sharply and quickly as he tried to search the surrounding area of the tunnels he was in. He knows Donatello was here.

"Ya gonna have to say this shot to my face Don! I ain't acceptin' that till ya do! So go ahead if ya serious come out and tell me! I aint accepting this!" He contuines to yell listening out to anything that gave a cule to where Don may be. "Ya run I'll keep going after ya, you go home ill just bug you till you fess up you only got one option here. An' I aint got nothin' but time." Raphael wouldn't give up he meant it so it cam down to Don here.

#muse| hamato raphael #madamkezzie #aflockoffeathers #[ I'll take your bad days with your good ♥︎ aflockoffeathers] #[03 verse] #muse interaction #ic reply #stay queued #(( >:I Donnie don't think Raphs giving up >:| you cant stay away from him he'll find you and make you his again ;3;)) #((also yes i threw mikey under the bus here)) #((HALF WAY TYPING CAUSE I DONT WANNA FORGET BUT SUDDENLY HIT WITH SAINW VIBE SO FUCK YOU KEZZIE AFFECTIONALLY!!!!)))

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Tag drop all my tcest

Aflockoffeathers- cause i know for sure were doing raph don uwu

I'll take your bad days with your good ♥︎ -raphdon

Cause raph and Don always just have each other Don is often the one turtle no matter the iteration that can handle Raphs temper. Either by not being one to cause it but handle it like no problem cause it aint a problem to donnie or by sometimes showing remourse when he dose cause it showing he dose feel bad at times ;3; Meanwhile Raph often is always quick to cheer Donnie up when he gets upset over his mistakes telling him he wasn't the cause or cheering up and helping to get don back on his feet.

Starsandsavages

Sorry I don't treat you like you're perfect ♥︎ -raphleo

OKAY SO I took this from an adventure time song but it always made me think of raph and leo and it feel it fits while on raphs end cause hes a butt to leo but clearly loves him despite that uwu he dont treat leo like the perfect leader cause raph rather stand beside leo holding hands be nice uwu [ song ]

you're here now and its all i need ♥︎ - mikeyleo

i'm very weak these days for mikey and leo esp when you play into the lil bro admires his big bro stuff uwu Mikey loves Leo and looks up to him clearly but his loves more than brotherly that he just wants to make sure Leo stays cause Leo's role as leader sometimes takes him away from him and he don't like that ;3; all Mikey really ever needs if Leo to be there

#tag drop #[ ill take your bad days with your good ♥︎ aflockoffeathers] #[ sorry i don't treat you like you're perfect ♥︎ starsandsavages] #[ you're here now and its all i need ♥︎ starsandsavages] #tcest #((okay I ended up doing it now instead of later sooo here XD))