#[ because i think about how all havria wanted was a peaceful haven for her people. all she wanted was for them to /live/. ]

[yuelun]

I have Winter's most recent playlist for Zhongli playing in the background. And it just got to 11:45 and there is the most beautiful rendition of 'Fairytale' I've ever heard in my life, and while it comes from a vastly different piece of media, it somehow simply fits perfectly. It just reiterates how I think I'm incapable of loving anything as much as I love Liyue. I can't stop trying to grasp at words that describe how my chest warms whenever I hear these lines of his, even if most of them break my heart at the exact same time.

#[ honestly; especially when havria is mentioned-- perhaps it's because we know almost all of the details (zl-- i just?) ] #[ ... surrounding her death. but it just puts the archon war in such a specific perspective that hits harder than anything. ] #[ it tells me just how gruesome it was. he says it himself; /he does/. he says that it was cruel. it was ever so cruel. ] #[ and i think about how he says that and i get lost in it for 4+ hours. ] #[ because i think about how all havria wanted was a peaceful haven for her people. all she wanted was for them to /live/. ] #[ and be safe. and that reminds me of /my/ muse. and how that's what she wanted as well. for her people to be safe. ] #[ it was one of the reasons she ruled with morax; because she knew he could offer that. and then all these other reasons came along too. ] #[ and then i look at liyue and i hear ping in my head 'it seems she was right after all'. she was right to put her faith in morax. ] #[ because he did everything that she knew he could do. protect /them/ and offer them a place to live. ] #[ and he gave them that. along with the adepti. he lived up to everything. ] #[ ooc. ] wherever her spirit may be among the countless grains of sand and specks of dust between the harbor and the mountains…