#…just. no wonder I feel so…internally clingy. constantly on the prowl for neurotransmitters. just. cannot focus for shit

[void-tiger]

Maybe I just want a little kiss planted on my forehead and nuzzle into a hug and stay there until my brain stops being so mean to me what about that?!

#tiger’s roar #mentall health bullshit #…I have…had one therapist before immediately transferring me to my current therapist because logistics #describe me as very touch starved and. she wasn’t wrong #I am. literally burrying my face into cats and having my bird groom my hair and hugging a jumbo squishmellow as hard as I can #…but I need People. when my parents are just not…huggy people. not with me. not since I was 18. #I hate it that I’m constantly craving hugs from my crush’s mom (and him. if he ever learns to relax. be my damn friend already) #because nobody else hugs me #once a month. that’s often all I get. #sometimes once every two weeks. often once every two months #…just. no wonder I feel so…internally clingy. constantly on the prowl for neurotransmitters. just. cannot focus for shit #when I need to Think Deeply or Think For Unpleasant Task #I’m literally starving