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Hiatus Update:

Hello all you lovely beans! I just wanted to say that I am making a fresh start and gonna be moving blogs. I don't know when cause i wanna find new graphics, a new url and such but I will def update on what blog i've moved to once it is done and complete! i just can't get myself to come back here as i'm overwhelmed and there just so much cleanup to do. so i figured i'm going to start fresh while keeping some things from this blog and moving the stuff over to my new blog once it's done.

i am dropping a lot, and i mean a lot, of my fandoms. I am keeping all of my Tokyo Revengers muses. But the rest I am either taking one or none from the fandom. Here is who I am keeping:

Gakushu Asano (assissanation classroom)

Machi Komacine (Hunter x Hunter)

Sakura Nanamine ( toilet bound hanako-kun)

Lisa Mishima (Zankyuu no Terror)

And maybe   shinya hiragi from owari no seraph.

Plus all my TR muses... well i may drop Takashi Mitsuya but everyone else will stay.

The rest of the muses and fandoms will be dropped due to lack of muse. I apologize for any inconvenience any of this may cause. But i look forward to being back into the groove of things soon! I am hoping my blog will be up and ready within at least a month. giving myself enough time to not stress about it.

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happy valentine's day to anyone who celebrates. i meant to be here for the day but i don't know, mood been kinda really down lately. i will be sending late valentine's day stuff though, so be on a look out for those within this week and maybe partly next week if i don't get on this week.

i went to therapy on the 12th, it was my first appointment so it lasted two hours and we talked about a lot of stuff, a lot of different things that i wanted to talk about within our sessions. it was a lot and a lot of my personal trauma got brought up and i've had brain fog since. if i'm using that term correctly... just feel kinda not here.

i haven't even wanted to brainrot or anything which i am usually down to do. but hoping as days goes by i'll start feeling better and will hopefully be here sooner rather than later. y'all can catch me on discord tho if you do have it and chat with me there. just beware i've been kinda slow with dms.

just sorry i've been absent here without a word and if i have seemed off in dms... just been a lot going on. new medication, new therapist, general depressive mood... i just don't wanna bring anyone down so i haven't talked much about this to anyone but just gonna leave it here if anyone wanted to read my ramblings.

i don't know, i can tell i am starting to self isolate again and tte feeling of loneliness is real but i feel like a huge bother, even just wanting to talk about general things, i feel like i'm being annoying.

but anyways, this is getting long and i gotta get started on making dinner. i am hoping to be around sometime this week but i honestly make no promises. i am just keeping everything up in the air. sorry about this being a downer post.

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happy new year everyone. i plan on writing a bigger post for this later but just wanted to hop on real quick and wish you all a happy new year and hopefully a better year for everyone!

#♠ crime scene ahead ♠ ⸻ ooc #kinda of a down weird mood right now but when i spring back up i'll be around #ended up going to bed early last night due to back pain and back pain is still present but thinking it's getting better #and brain just woke up in a blah weird mood drop place #but!! gonna try and muster up some good vibes cause it's the start of the new year! <333

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so i am making a blog change and taking off my genshin impact muses, but i am moving them to their own blog. granted i am taking freminet and kaveh off of my muse list over there. but adding Ei and Zhongli (tho he is gonna be a test muse). when i get it all set up i will link the blog in case anyone is interested. i do plan on moving unanswered asks for my muses over there as well and any threads i did have. if you have any questions please feel free ask!

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just a little bit more of the hiatus update:

Hi all you amazing beans! I miss you guys a lot! But I am gonna be on hiatus on this blog a little bit longer. i did end up dropping out of my college classes due to medications reasons I won't get into here... but i am on another blog, a hazbin hotel / helluva boss blog that i am currently focusing on and brain solely is hyperfixated on. if you wish to know the blog just dm me and i'll give it to ya. But yea idk i've been feeling lack of muse and focus here. when I come back I might do some clean up and whatnot.

but i do hope you all are doing amazing! i don't have a date that i'll be back as i am just playing it by ear right now. but you can always catch me on discord! let me know if you also want that!

#♠ crime scene ahead ♠ ⸻ ooc #sorry everyone if this disappoints D: #i don't have my adhd medication and so focus is hard when brain isn't hyperfixated #i hope you all understand < 3

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hey everyone, i am just letting you all know i am going on a small little hiatus. classes have started for me for the second half of the semester (ended up taking block classes instead of full term classes) and i am just trying to get the hang of block classes since there is more work to be done in shorter amount of time. once i get a schedule though and feel like i am at a good spot, i will def be back full swing! just sorry for the inactivity here. i will be on discord to chat with people while on hiatus i just didn't wanna stress about writing here too while i try to get my stuff together for school. (already had a stress overload melt down earlier today cause of my classes -- but i am feeling better now).

#♠ crime scene ahead ♠ ⸻ ooc #i hope you all have been doing super good and i miss you all!

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like this post if you want valentine day memes in your inbox. specify muse if you want otherwise i will choose :3

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Don't know if I'll be on for Kisaki's birthday but feel free to send birthday asks and I shall get to them when I'm on!

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finally getting off from lurking to write. meant to be here hours ago but wasn't feeling well but feeling better. today is last day before classes start so am hoping to be productive !

also it's sinday i am debating in actually partaking in it again. but not too sure... *insert the thinking emoji here* guess we will see!

#♠ crime scene ahead ♠ ⸻ ooc #now time to catch up on dash then get to writing and debate if i wanna reblog this meme sgdfgd

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thinking today is gonna be a self care day. i think i've been feeling so drained and not really taking the feeling of being drained into account. so today might be a break from tumblr things unless i get the inspiration to write. i will still be around on discord tho and still available to chat, just not gonna worry about tumblr today unless the writing bug comes back.

i also might be getting sick... so fdgf blah. i may post memes cause i got no self control but will mostly be off tumblr. under the cut is just more rambling and tw for a bit negative down below.

it's the start of the new year and brain just been so depressing. intrusive thoughts of like i ain't good enough and whatever i do is blah, have been very much present. but it could be worse cause i might be experiencing burnout on everything. i haven't really done a self care day in a while where i just chill and try not to worry about anything so i think it's time to take today as a self care day.

i also think my meds need to be upped again cause these depressive episodes been lasting longer than what i want. but i don't see my psychiatrist until the 11th.

i'm just so tired of brain telling me that no one likes me and i know logically that isn't true, it's just the thoughts i can't help, they just creep into my brain and it's exhausting fighting with my own head. Some days are better than others but sad that the new year brain just went "no celebrate, we depressed." type of vibes and i'm trying hard to muster up good vibes.

so anyways i am just rambling away cause getting this off of my chest helps even just a little.

think i might play some games, think of what i wanna write for pirate aus cause those have been fun to brainrot about and maybe watch movies or animes. i'm hoping if i take this day to myself then maybe i will feel refreshed tomorrow to write and be more upbeat.

if you're still reading this, i'm sorry for being so down. i try not to burden people with it, and trying to pick myself back up. don't know what it is about these last couple of days. x...x

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happy new year everyone! it's 2024 and hopefully it is a better year for everyone around! 2023 was really chaotic for me so i am not sad to see it go. i am striving that this year be a better one!

i am so grateful for all you amazing beans in my life! thank you for being so patient with me. i am hoping to get a blog schedule up once college starts up on the 8th. i know i've been so slow with things, threads, asks, starters and even dms but please know that i deeply appreciate all of your patience with my slow turtle bean pace.

i honestly wanted to write up something amazing but the words won't come to me. i really do hope 2024 is a lot of people's year. i know 2023 wasn't the kindest to us. you all are dong amazing and i hope you know that i am cheering every single one of you beans on from the sidelines on whatever you are tackling, dealing with, going through and also just cheering you on when nothing is happening. ❤️ you all are wonderful, and don't let anyone tell ya differently! you're enough ❤️

here's to the new year!! we all got this!!!

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Where do I even begin? GHOST! You are not only a fantastic writer, but an INCREDIBLE friend!! You are beyond one of my favorites to see on my dash every day! You're a wonderful person that deserves the world and more! I hope you know how much you're appreciated. ❤️

Reblog this post if you want nice and positive anons in your inbox! 💌

!!!!! noooo i uno reverse you!!!

but ahh thank you for this! i try my best and this warms my heart knowing you think all of this! i am truly thankful for all my friends and writing partners! thank you for sending in such kind words, this has brighten up my week - i kept this in my inbox just coming back to look at it cause these words mean the world to me, i hope you know. i am grinning from ear to ear and just... thank you ❤️❤️ i hope you know you're appreciated too!

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if youtube asks me if i'm still watching one more time, i'm gonna riot. it's messing with my groove of writing.

#♠ crime scene ahead ♠ ⸻ ooc #tbd later #adhd is vibing with 8-bit music like STOP ASKING ME I PROMISE I STILL HERE OMG

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when your muse wants to just grab someone by the throat... and you won't allow them to grab other people by the throat... that is how tonight ended up, don't know how but welp.

#idk if anyone else has to prevent their muses from doing certain things but ddsgsd #i think it might be time for bed - didn't get a whole lot done cause depression kicked in hours ago but hopefully will be around tomorrow #to do things! #♠ crime scene ahead ♠ ⸻ ooc

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okies i have attempted to do things here but brain is not working with me and i am hating everything i type up. probably doesn't help i'm so drained and tired. had an hour long dr appt, and had to go to other places today. so i think i will attempt writing tomorrow. think i'm gonna reblog some memes - i promise i'm gonna get caught up with everything soon - and relax for the rest of the night.

#♠ crime scene ahead ♠ ⸻ ooc #i am just so beyond tired so memes it is and then i will be on discord ^^ #hopefully tomorrow i sleep better and i shall hopefully be able to write more!

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new graphics is done! new carrd is up!

#thank you zayne for all your help !!! #♠ crime scene ahead ♠ ⸻ ooc #new ooc tag ! #now to work on some icons so i can write :D