#「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」

[sgnhyunjae]

can you see my heart?

he’s used to pushing himself out of his comfort zone, has been trained to take on anything and everything no matter how difficult it seems. there’s a routine he has to follow, and if he fails—well, he can’t fail. he knows his own limits, knows that he can’t confine himself within those limits, no matter the sweat and tears. that’s how his life has been like, it’s what he has been taught ever since he opened his eyes to the world.

but sometimes... he’s just tired.

there’s a series of messages he knows he should look at, but it’s all the same. that he should be better, that it’s not enough, that he could do more. everything should be perfect, hyunjae should be perfect. he’s already sweating, he’s out of breath, his clothes are drenched and the practice room is becoming more suffocating as the clock continues to tick. his water bottle is already empty, but it’s still not enough.

another message comes through, and hyunjae knows better than to ignore his mother for this long. he finally picks up his phone, the barrage of notifications makes his breath hitch—but there’s a few messages that caught his attention, and it wasn’t from his mother.

(  ✉  )     incoming   →   koala  !

received: omg hyung!!! received: hyung i saw the cutest puppy when i was walking 🥺 received: it was white and fluffy and so small!!! and i tried to pet it!!! received: and when i did i looked up and saw someone sitting on a tree 😨

there’s a smile ghosting his lips, warmth settling under his skin. there’s a skip of his heartbeat, but it isn’t unpleasant. all so suddenly, he’s overcome with the desire to see ( @sgnseungjun ), even if he’s a sweaty mess, his hair flopping over his eyes. hyunjae already started typing before he could stop himself, deciding not to deny himself seungjun’s presence. not today.

(  ✉  )     outgoing   →   koala  !

sent: pictures or it didn’t happen sent: also unsent: i really need to see you sent: can we meet up? i’m in the practice room

he’s not sure whether seungjun would accept his sudden invitation. hyunjae doesn’t have anything planned, doesn’t know what they should do together, just that he needs to be by seungjun’s side.

#( can you see my heart * seungjun ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgnseungjun #( well... i am sorry for this ) #( you dont have to match!!!!! ) #( ily )

[sgnhyunjae]

find you

surrounded by ornaments, beautiful adornments that seem to come straight out of the sky, a grand illusion wherever you walked, it’d be easy for anyone to lose themselves to the atmosphere of the event—to dance with strangers, to mingle with the masked crowd that keeps growing. but not hyunjae, he came here with a clear purpose. among the herd of elegant suits, bewitching gowns and glamorous masks, his eyes search for bright blond hair and a dimpled smile. even if the latter is wholly covered, he’ll know it when he sees it.

no matter where, no matter when, i’ll find you.

it’s a silly little bet, seeing who can find the other first, but it gave hyunjae something to prove. even if somehow, some way, his eyesight fails him one day—like a miracle, he’ll gravitate towards ( @sgnseungjun ). and it doesn’t take very long, the sweet crinkle of the younger’s familiar laugh reaches his ears soon enough. a melody to his ears that he instantly recognises, driving his feet to move towards the source. but, he stops.

and it wasn’t because he was wrong.

the couple before him shined brighter than any of the decorations on the wall, fitted together perfectly, as if they were meant to be. for a moment, hyunjae felt blinded. by what, he doesn’t know, but he turns his head all the same. he can’t bring himself to intercept—he doesn’t belong there, he’s not fitted to be by seungjun’s side. suddenly, he can’t approach the other, it feels wrong. seungjun glimmers like a star, and hyunjae? he’s the darkness whose very existence threatens to devour anything that twinkles. seungjun is meant to shine like this, next to someone who glows just the same.

so, hyunjae remains rooted where he stood, lets the other guests crowd around him, shielding seungjun from his view.

i found you—but was i meant to?

#( find you * seungjun ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgnseungjun #sgn:masquerade #( well..... ) #( dont feel obligated to match!!! ) #( i am. sorry )

[sgnhyunjae]

god’s menu;

       with @sgnwooseok

upon joining the cooking club, hyunjae had little to no intention of properly participating in the club activities. he popped in for them, once or twice, if it involved cooking something new that he’d never tried before and he needed assistance with, otherwise he’d rather be on his own. ultimately, he signed up for the cooking club so he could use the kitchen without questions, other than when he spent too long in them and night comes sooner than he thought.

wooseok seemed to share the same sentiment. he doesn’t see the other attend club activities either, only popping in to use the kitchen like he did. eventually, wooseok became his official taste tester, and hyunjae was more than happy to try out whatever combination of experiments wooseok shoved into a tray of muffins. it has been a while since he had seen his taste tester in the kitchen though, and hyunjae knew why, but that doesn’t mean he couldn’t be bitter about it!

another session of cooking was complete without anyone there for him to feed. this time around, he followed a youtube video and made chicken alfredo pasta. he took a picture of his newest creation and sent it to wooseok.

(  ✉  )     outgoing   →   wooseok  !

sent: [image] sent: see what you’re missing? sent: ditch your bf’s kitchen sent: ditch your bf

#( god's menu * wooseok ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgnwooseok #( lmk if you want anything changed! )

[sgnhyunjae]

better;

       with @sgnxmiyoung

come to find out, the dorms can be quite active during the night, students busking around due to a missed project with an approaching deadline, or those who simply couldn’t rest their eyes. hyunjae belonged to the latter category, too used to walking around in an attempt to exhaust himself or something along those lines. it never works, but he gets to meet interesting individuals at this time, so he supposes he couldn’t complain too much.

it almost became routine whenever he would run into miyoung, with the other heading back towards her room holding a bag of food. they’d make small talk sometimes, not too much that he’d hinder her late night consumptions, but enough for hyunjae to think that conversations like those weren’t bad to have once in a while.

tonight seemed to be a little different. for one, hyunjae nearly got himself locked in the kitchen when he stayed too long cooking—he wasn’t even entirely sure why he decided to do so at that time, seeing as there was no one who would taste his food this late into the night. regardless, he managed to get himself out with a filled lunchbox in hand, and no one to taste test, until he spotted miyoung in the corner of his eye.

the other looked bothered tonight, tired eyes hinting at many thoughts. hyunjae, not the best at expressing concern as per usual, merely said, “convenience store food isn’t always healthy.” gaining her attention, he continued, “i have lasagna, if you want to try.” he showed her the lunchbox.

#( better * miyoung ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgnxmiyoung #( lmk if you want anything changed! )

[sgnhyunjae]

good lil boy;

       with @sgnchan

there were a lot of things hyunjae could have done except stay outside of campus grounds, just staring at the scene before him with someone he barely even knew—or, to be honest, the older was a complete stranger to him until today. hyunjae doesn’t like backing down and leaving when he knew he was right, though, so there he remained, under the heat watching a puppy intently.

recalling what happened before the pair started hiding in the bush, hyunjae could only snort. he noticed a puppy with a collar around its neck, seemingly lost. two individuals were approaching the puppy, either of them could possibly be the owners, but hyunjae was leaning towards the girl with a paw-printed sweater. his current companion—chan, he remembered the name—said it was the boy with a shirt that came straight out of hot topic, a large bone smack in the middle of it.

of course hyunjae had to point out the older’s mistake, and of course he had to make a bet with chan, because there was no way he was wrong! nevermind that pets aren’t allowed in campus, that wasn’t what was important here!

noticing the puppy turning its head towards the girl, hyunjae smirked. “aha! it’s definitely her, see?” he was growing even more confident, seeing the puppy slowly walk over towards the girl’s general direction. “hope you’re ready to pay up.”

#( good lil boy * chan ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgnchan #( lmk if you want anything changed! ) #( this is. pretty random LOL )

[sgnhyunjae]

breathe;

       with @sgntaeho

hyunjae takes comfort in the fact that he has his days planned on his makeshift virtual journal—an eloquent way to say his notes app—but sometimes he needed to make... a few edits, depending on what his mother’s comments were towards him once the day comes to an end. most times, he didn’t mind it, used to it even. other days, when there’s already a lot on his mind that he knew he was on the verge of falling over.

that didn’t stop him, of course, it never did. even if today had pushed him over the limit, the night was still young. it’s not like he could sleep properly later, he never does, so naturally it was fine to go on a run, right? to keep his mother’s expectations in check, as well as clear the thoughts in his head.

instead of the nightly atmosphere helping him feel better, his head only felt lighter. he couldn’t quite pinpoint the last time he ate, either. hyunjae knew what was about to happen, slowing down to a walk as he gravitated towards a nearby bench. he practically collapsed onto it, feeling the weight of the day squeezing away his consciousness. it might have been dangerous, letting himself drift away under the cover of darkness, but it happened before he could call anyone for help.

not that he would have.

#( breathe * taeho ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgntaeho #( lmk if you want anything changed! )

[sgnhyunjae]

precious;

       with @sgnsubin​

one of the things hyunjae finds himself doing as the night settles and his eyes remain wide awake, is walk around until his body succumbs to slumber. it wasn’t the best solution, often keeping him more awake one way or another, but he hasn’t found a better method yet so he supposes this is his best bet for now. besides, he finds himself running into interesting characters during this time of night.

subin had been one of them. he encountered the force that is han subin when it was 5am, out to get snacks after finishing a round of... gaming, which hyunjae should have guessed, but he thought the other was studying. shame on him. it didn’t take long for the younger to start showing pictures of his cat, so hyunjae was quick to drop whatever negative perception he had of subin when it came to gamers.

that, and subin was just a baby. it wouldn’t have been that hard to change his views.

sure, hyunjae noticed that subin basically smuggled a cat into his dorm, but he wasn’t going to report it to security. not if he wanted to see the cat for himself. 

(  ✉  )     outgoing   →   subin  !

sent: which one is your dorm again? sent: also what does your cat like to snack on? sent: if you postpone this i might tell on you btw sent: but i think you knew that already

#( precious * subin ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgnsubin #( lmk if you want anything changed! )

[sgnhyunjae]

boy who cried wolf;

       with @sgnjiyul

meeting jiyul had been a rollercoaster of emotions. hyunjae was made aware of jiyul’s existence when the other fell asleep on his shoulder while they were on the bus. he didn’t mind at first, he understood how days could stretch into nights, how sometimes it’s impossible to catch up on sleep in your own room—how the only opportunity to rest your eyes is while waiting for your next destination to arrive. it was why hyunjae didn’t push jiyul off of him, until the older woke up on his own.

after a series of apologies that hyunjae insists jiyul doesn’t need to express, it became apparent that the other isn’t going to back down from making it up to him—which jiyul said in a strangely malicious tone, and hyunjae wondered if there was supposed to be another meaning to that. jiyul started quite literally hunting him down all throughout campus, with many speculating the older was out for hyunjae’s life—they seem grateful about that—only for jiyul to tell him that he meant to treat hyunjae to lunch.

hyunjae ended up tricking jiyul to sit in the cooking club and eat his food instead, and that gradually became routine. it’s not out of the ordinary for hyunjae to send the older a vague and ominous text, for jiyul to run over and try his cooking.

there’s nothing wrong with that, right?

nevertheless, it’s one of those days where hyunjae is simply having a mood, plopping his switch’s controller to the ground as the win screen appeared yet again. he huffs, this is an emergency.

(  ✉  )     outgoing   →   jiyul  !

sent: hurry up over here sent: i can’t do this alone anymore

#( boy who cried wolf * jiyul ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgnjiyul

[sgnhyunjae]

beware the dog

       with @sgnjunhyung​

the habit of wandering around at late hours into the night and coming across interesting characters has got to stop, at one point. it’s almost comical, with the way he makes more strange acquaintances during the night instead of during the day, where people would be more functional. hyunjae doesn’t like conversing anyway, so in the end it doesn’t matter.

he’s not doing much, just a small jog around the block, nothing too extreme considering he had done a lot for the day. looking at his schedule, he doesn’t need to do this, it helps him clear his head though, so he continues on anyway. it’s not until he hears a small whimper and a soft bark that he stops in his tracks, head craning to try and find out where exactly the sound was coming from.

it didn’t take long for him to notice the most lovely dog from the corner of his eyes, which he almost missed due to being shrouded in the darkness of the night. he can’t help but coo at the dog as he approaches, not realising that popping out of nowhere might seem a bit unnerving to those who were passing by—not that there’s anyone else within the premises, right?

he’s wondering how a dog managed to be set loose in campus like that. he crouches down, trying to get the dog’s attention as he called out to it, completely unaware of another presence. “you’re a cutie, aren’t you,” he says absentmindedly into the night, hoping that was enough for the dog to turn to him. 

#( beware the dog * junhyung ) #「 ahn hyunjae * threads 」 #sgnjunhyung

[sgnhyunjae]

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