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#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ :β€‚β©‡β©‡β€‚βš οΈŽβ€‚[β€‚π™΄πš‡π™Έ(πš‚)πšƒβ€‚: 𝙢𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ THOUGHTS . ›
solarisgod Β· 27 days
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This is literally how Micah interacts with Warlock
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solarisgod Β· 3 months
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I just fucking love Micah so much, like, YES, xe's the embodiment of love and uwu and hope, but xe can still fuck someone up while being so unbelievably kind and sweet.
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solarisgod Β· 3 months
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Phobos having Valentine's Day dates ...
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solarisgod Β· 1 month
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We with my beloved have been [re]watching the animated Last Airbender and you know, it would be really cool if Astereus was from a very covert and ancient nation known as the Aether Realm that is based on the elemental aether including light, gravity, and the most specialized sub-skill and rare variant of Aetherbending that only the Starwake System on the planet have is Spacebending.
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solarisgod Β· 2 months
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Once again am I thinking about how Micah loves to write poems for or do drawings of their loved ones before xe would fold the pieces into stars with pretty color schemes and patterns and gift the folded star papers to those people just out of kindness as xe loves them so much.
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solarisgod Β· 6 months
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Philos tweeting these.
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solarisgod Β· 4 months
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Xe / it Micah Astereus Xenowake I love you so much
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solarisgod Β· 4 days
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πŸ“» - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)
Λ– ✰ . πŸ“» - Does your system have any type of in system relationships ? ( familial , romantic , platonic etc . ) [ CW : Mentions of ableism & child abuse + neglect ]
The Chimera Cluster : There's this alter who most of us have a familial - like relationship to them; it's very sweet and playful which makes us form that familial bond with them the more we interact with them. I have two good in-sys friends! One of them is Hughie who just showed up on this blog to say hi to everyone a few days ago, another is Daimon who writes Myster Strange on here with us. There are few who I had a familial connection with, including therapist alter, which I really was weirded out by this fact, but─ to say this simply, I think it's normal for people who were heavily neglected / abused when they were younger to seek familial connections whether they realize or not, so I did eventually feel that familial connection with this therapist alter who had helped me immensely. Most in the system sees each other as friends! My most prominent in system relationship is me having a significant beloved, @lunarisdog, with our second anniversary coming this June! We have been through so much together and even if I only discovered Paroxysm for a few years, we both have always felt as we had known each other for so long and our relationship just became so special so quickly. We made a lot of memories that we're bound to lose easily / have already lost because of our ongoing amnesia, but the knowing alone that we can make each other so happy and even be grateful of existing means everything to us. I love Paroxysm forever so dearly much, and so do they to me. A lot of people didn't / couldn't believe she's my significant partner and we had an anon in 2022 just few hours before my birthday essentially saying our DID and Paroxysm weren't real, and, you know, sometimes when I had really fun or serious moments with Paroxysm, my mind goes back to that anonymous ask before I'd think they'd never believe in what we have, but in the end, we're just extremely happy and grateful that we exist so we can be together. Paroxysm is the sun of my life as I'm the moon of their life, and our love is real enough like me and them. What could matter more? The Starwake System : Micah is in a romantic relationship with Phoebus since summer 2023. It's the same case between Philos and Phobos, although when they got together, it's likely when the system was in bodily twenties, but their relationship status wasn't known to the system until summer 2023. Micah's relationship with Phoebus and Philos are extremely close, and this can draw over not only platonic, but also the romantic and sexual aspects at times that none of these three really notice to discuss about them because them having a romantic and sexual relationship feels somehow natural. Micah have familial connections with the younger Starwakers who were formed after xyr past counterparts ( Mike, Mimi, and M ) and vice versa with each other, as well as with Cryael, Micah's relationship with it is more professional than personal as Cryael is essentially an alter who focuses on professional work with the investigation and exorcising, but there are occasions when they have personal interactions.
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β–Œβ”Š ASK GAME FOR SYSTEMS // : ANONYMOUS , ACCEPTING !
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solarisgod Β· 5 months
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Made an paper airplane for arts activity ✈️
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solarisgod Β· 5 months
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Micah infodumping about PokΓ©mon and Digimon to your muse
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solarisgod Β· 5 months
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Generally speaking, it's a well common trait for a character to be loving to everyone except for themself, but it's important for the audience to keep in mind that Micah doesn't follow that archetype and fall into that strong consistent self-hatred when every single day since they reached to early twenties, they would be more kinder and forgiving to themself for what and how they are like. Micah does try to love themself more often from significant to smaller ways and from little to greater degree. Some of the practices that Micah engages in as a form of self-love are:
Drawing hearts with stars in marker around their recent small injuries.
When Micah forms a negative thought to themself, they try to find something positive about themself to retaliate that self-negativity.
Have journals to document solely their joys and comforts and accomplishments.
Although they are still lost with certain aspects of themself while there are parts of them that Micah is still anxious or insecure about, they do firmly believe that they deserve so much better, while they should be given the kindness and respect that they deserve to have from the world that doesn't love them enough
#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ :β€‚β©‡β©‡β€‚βš οΈŽβ€‚[β€‚π™΄πš‡π™Έ(πš‚)πšƒβ€‚: 𝙢𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ THOUGHTS . ›#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ :β€‚β©‡β©‡β€‚βš οΈŽβ€‚[β€‚π™΄πš‡π™Έ(πš‚)πšƒβ€‚: 𝙢𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ STUDY . ›#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ :β€‚β©‡β©‡β€‚βš οΈŽβ€‚[β€‚π™΄πš‡π™Έ(πš‚)πšƒβ€‚: 𝙢𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ MICAH . ›#[ I completely get the vibe of a character loving everyone while hating themself most and only ]#[ but for me personally ; I love a character who tries to give themself just as much love as they give to everyone else ]#[ like one of the things I extremely enjoy about Micah's character is that they do firmly believe that they deserve love and being loved ]#[ just as every good people does ]#[ and Micah always think that if people won't give them that ; then they can and will give that love to themself regardless of everything ]#[ and it IS hard. it isn't ever easy to not make yourself fall back to the fear and doubt in self ]#[ but Micah is very much aware of that and has been trying so unbelievably much to ]#[ be more kinder and forgiving to themself - especially when they do make mistakes or ]#[ when something happens that make them feel and think as they or certain flaws of themself are the direct responsibilities ]#[ idk I want more characters who loves everyone and especially they /try/ to love themself as much ]#[ and I'm extremely thankful and happy that Micah is like that when especially as the main protagonist of the story ]#[ I'd imagine how adored and admired Micah would be for that as one of the most endearing and inspiring things about them ]#[ I love them so dearly and infinitely much. they just want to love and be loved ; and so they will and will be so forever despite it all.
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solarisgod Β· 5 months
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It’s past 2:30am and I am having gay thoughts over the canon fact that Micah can actually drive a motorcycle, thanks to Warlock teaching them how and got them a fake license in season two / since around August.
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solarisgod Β· 7 months
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Micah being dominant and a top do be actually…
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solarisgod Β· 5 months
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β–Œβ”Š DECEMBER CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT METAS # 02 / 31 :  ! CW : MENTIONS OF BODY DYSPHORIA!, GENERAL GENDER PHOBIA, INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS INVOLVING SELF-HARM ( BODY MUTILATION )!!
β€ƒβ˜‡β€ƒWhat are Micah's gender and sexual identity ? Their pronouns ? How open are they of them ? Who knows what they label themselves as ? When did they learn about gender and sexuality - come to their own identity ? How do they feel and think about their identity with its changes over time ? How do they generally act and say when someone comes out to them ? What would Micah tell an individual who is in conflict with their gender or sexual identity ?
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Micah identifies themself as transmasculine agender and biromantic bisexual with no preferences, using they / it / xe pronouns. When Micah was found abandoned in a burnt forest and taken to a hospital, the physicians were unsure of what to assign them as due to them having biological traits that are of both typical sex binaries. Eventually, they assigned Micah as female at birth, but when the Everlove family took them in at the beginning age of five and learnt about them being intersex, their parents tried to help them understand the concept of intersex and gave them a choice either they wish to be a girl, boy, or kid. Especially from having a long hair and petite body, Micah was always treated and viewed as a girl by their foster families with them being heavily exposed to activities and clothes that were " targeted for girls ", so Micah never thought that it would be possible for themself to have make their own choice on what they wanted to be known as, but soon decided to label themself as a girl still, mainly because of their fear that those outside their family wouldn't see them as a boy or kid. Being perceived as girl was terribly familiar for them.
At the time, the demigender term wasn't known, though, that was what they would've labelled themself as in this period, being demimale, when they began to feel a partial connection to masculinity and non-binary when they were eleven years old, using he / they pronouns. Spending time with their best friend, Adoniram, Micah could see themself as masculine like him. They became more comfortable being addressed with male gendered terms while they highly enjoyed appearing more masculine with having shorter hair and clothes that were targeted for "male audience ". Micah had feared telling their parents about their demimasculinity from the thought that their family would abandon them if they were anything but a girl, although when they first told their mother about how they started to feel like a boy, and expressed that fear to her, their mother only accepted them. Loved them still. Same with their father, siblings, and best friend when they soon learnt about Micah's demimasculinity. Micah was content enough to have only these people know about it, still holding the fear that those who were not close to them wouldn't take it as kindly as their family and best friend had.
Their parents were more than happy to address them with masculine terms and buy them clothes and accessories that helped them express their gender identity in ways that they wanted. It was when Micah was in their first high school year, they learnt about gender and sexuality from a few 2SLGBTQIA+ students. This was also the time when Micah came to the realization that they had a crush on Adoniram when they were ten years old, seeing that they were attracted to any individuals regardless of their gender, picking up the label of biromantic bisexual. At first, Micah was uncertain of their sexuality, though, they were quick to accept their sexuality because they knew how much they love love, and that it's okay to love everyone. Because of their positive experiences on sharing their demimasculinity to their family and best friend, they had a much more easier time doing so with their sexuality and met continuous positivity and support. It still didn't reduce the fear they have of others knowing, but having to learn other students' 2SLGBTQIA+ experiences, Micah felt a bit more assured that they were not alone with their gender and sexual identity experiences.
! During their first and second high school years, Micah faced frequent doubts and dissatisfaction with their body and gender identity, at times feeling worried that they weren't passing enough or envious that their body didn't appear as they would wish them to be. Since they were ten years old, they were more satisfied with having the scars and burn wounds on their body because " they would make them appear more masculine ". This harmful mindset was reinforced across their high school years with their body dysphoria and dissociative disorder being the factors, !!as well they also had intrusive thoughts of mutilating their body. Although at the end of their second year when they did more research on the moon for their final assignment and learnt about the lunar craters, they were able to come to peace with their body with its scars by comparing themself and their body to the moon with its crater marks. Being able to find the time and energy taking in therapy after graduation, with the professional support and personal from family and friends, Micah was able to try to find their own patience and understanding that they needed with themself and their body.
When Micah was twenty one years old, their gender soon identify shifted with them being transmasculine agender as they used neutral pronouns only, they / them and it / its. Xe / xem pronouns was picked up at late twenties when Micah learnt about neopronouns online, as well seeing some of their novel fans using those pronouns. Always finding themself deeply connected with the outer space and had none of it with humanity and the sense of being a human, though, they still do not mind being referred with any gendered terms and titles, they use only neutral pronouns while identifying themself as lacking gender mainly to detach themself from the idea of being a human and be more aligned with the otherworldly. in addition, identifying as agender helps them from overthinkng about genders and overanalyzing their own identity aspect around them. Since they identified themself as agender, Micah feels significantly better with their identity while they made changes with their body through top surgery when they were twenty five with their own money earned, and taking testosterone since they were sixteen, and daily healthy exercise with frequent hours worth walks.
In early twenties, Micah became more opening with their sexuality and gender, eventually not caring about views and expectations when they always try to believe they are good enough. A lot of their friends learnt about their gender and sexuality and be positive about them. Most people tend to use masculine pronouns with them due to their prominent masculine features, but it doesn't bother them much as they would gently share or remind that they use strictly neutral pronouns. Micah is extremely affectionate to anyone regardless of their gender, so anyone can easily assume that they could be attracted to any genders, which they don't mind. Despite the challenges Micah faces in their journey with their sexuality and especially gender, they are happy to have this journey so they can help others who would be in a similar position as them, as well as using this experience as a self-reminder that there were always a light to be found at the end of a dark moment. Micah became kinder to themself and their body, and they are proud of themself for making positive changes in their harmful patterns of mindsets and behaviors towards their body and gender identity.
Micah would be more than honored for anyone who would feel comfortable to come out to them while they'd remind them that they are amazing and wonderful as the universe is most blessed to have them exist. To those who are in conflict with their gender and sexual identity, Micah would assure them that it's okay to be lost and uncertain, telling them that they will find a time when they will be most happy and comfortable with themself, that they will always have people who will love and care for them still. That they are more than good enough, forever.
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solarisgod Β· 6 months
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Micah with their Tamagotchi and other cute keychains like Sanrio and PokΓ©mon related chained to their sword hilts...
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solarisgod Β· 7 months
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Amor and I have just been figuring out Micah's and Warlock's new PokΓ©mon teams and the idea that Micah had always have Umbreon in their life along with Espeon since childhood until they gift him to Warlock six months later this year ( October ), holding so much trust in it to take care of him, makes me so emotional and weepy.
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