#𝗢𝗢𝗖: // cam you're breaking her heart

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@duefaith​   said   “ isn’t  it  funny  how  day  by  day  nothing  changes,  but  when  you  look  back  everything  is  different ”

 atlantis wasn't the plan  -   a missed opportunity swept out of reach during a time her only option was to stay    (  more anchor than anything,   not there to drown him but to stop him from slipping too adrift when grief screamed and gripped him with a strength she could never match   ).   he would have been fine,    with time,    without her.    that much she knows.   yet leaving him had still been so much more than she could manage:    for first time in life,   incapable of leaving even when every sign seemed to tell her that she should.   he stayed throughout her own recovery:    through the time it took her to recognize own skin as something hers, as something that would not be taken away again.

 they have both had their bodies turned against them,   yet the pain that he is left with seems all too unfairly harsh compared to the one she must keep.

 ❝   you do know this is sounding more and more like a breakup talk, right?   ❞    low teasing barely hides the way head tilts,     gaze as curious as it is simply confused by sudden turn of conversation.    there has been too much    –     too much forced into recent years,    loss and pain and nightmares tangling into one blur of barely spread out trauma.    could brunette truly blame him if it has become too much to see through?    a reminder of hard times over a reminder of anything good she once represented to him    –     if by missing her time to go,     she has ensured they must have a different kind of end.

 they’re hardly the people they were when they first met anymore.    growth and hardened skin are indistinguishable and haunting all the same.    ❝   truly,    cam,    seems a little bit harsh breaking up with me with so little warning.   ❞    her humour clings to what concerns seep beneath calm surface,    playful in their attempts to crack confusing ice between what he says and whatever they are building up to    (   how unlike him,    brain mutters,    that he should try so hard to build to anything but some kind of bad news   ).

 echoes of his recovery will be present for a long time still,    just as remaining pain in damaged spine or quiet nighttime panic attacks will mark them both for likely life.    the truth all rests in the open now    &&    maybe she was naïve to think it’d truly not impact them after his initial forgiveness.

 atlantis wasn’t the plan,    but sitting on couch,    awaiting what needs to be said,    any universe feels preferable to the spot that maeve is stuck within.

#duefaith #𝗖𝗟𝗢𝗦𝗘𝗗 𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗘: // would you love me when I’m gone? ( pre canon friendship | duefaith ) #𝗖𝗟𝗢𝗦𝗘𝗗 𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗘: // before the salt burns your eyes ( atlantis au | anarcalina ) #𝗢𝗢𝗖: // cam you're breaking her heart #𝗙𝗜𝗟𝗘: // answered asks #𝗙𝗜𝗟𝗘: // queue