#(4) a witty yet charming gentleman at a ball who acts fully refined but I later have the joy of finding out that

[wish-to-grow-a-garden]

You know, sometimes I just have a deep urge to be deeply flustered by the smooth teasing of a distinguised gentleman who is unfalteringly respectful of my boundaries, but also whos eyes sparkle as I struggle with my inability to process being spoken to in a slow and husky manner, and gently laughs after he says something remotely taunting and I momentarily forget how to function

#just a random babble #(1) I am once again playing dating sims in an attempt to replicate certain affections #(2) both because of my current lack of a partner #(3) and also because if I process them this way I can better accept that I will never fall in love with #(4) a witty yet charming gentleman at a ball who acts fully refined but I later have the joy of finding out that #(5) he has no idea how to handle proper affection when his own tactics are turned back on him #(6) In other words #(7) This asexual is yearning again