#(not implying that he didn't love elise/mrs. af.ton but he didn't go into or HANDLE the marriage how he should have)

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wait coming back just to add that i was thinking abt the generational element of the af.tons just being a fucked up family line and i'm. fine. i swear i'm f

#—— ✧ ooc » #˖ ✧ headcanon » ( the demon to his demons ) #william's partially a shitty father because of who he is but also partially because of his own upbringing #tries to escape it but either overcorrects or falls into it anyway #terrified of becoming his parents and both passes and fails to escape becoming them #geninely honestly despite everything wants to be better then them and can't and won't #and his parents were shit to him and jayne because they were following social roles #didn't necessarily want kids but It's Expected & although william would never admit it they instilled that in him #& he DID want kids but in many ways the family he tries to build initially is The Stereotypical American Dream #suburb house white picket fence small town wife and three children both sons and a daughter etc etc etc #doesn't let this idea go until late-stage and by that point he's already unintentionally destroying it anyway #i know i made a haha funny joke abt his ideal fam of henry & the son he loves/hates & 2 robot children #but unironically him realizing that he can & should choose what/who he wants BECAUSE he wants it/them #would have solved so many problems if he'd realized it earlier #not all of them but lmao #(not implying that he didn't love elise/mrs. af.ton but he didn't go into or HANDLE the marriage how he should have) #(everything was about appearances not abt actually being prepared for like. Married Life.) #(very much thinks 'okay i'm married. hard part's over. no more effort required' & obv ends up divorced because of it) #(which to be clear he is prone to in ANY ship if they're not willing to beat him over the head w/ reality HARD) #there's SO much more to say abt this like it's very complex but i'm gonna go chill and then go to sleep lmao