#(not that its all or even mostly tragedy but yknow) not living ppl i feel like i should worry abt

[soldier-poet-king]

All cities (and tbh everywhere, but this is specifically happening in a MAJOR city) should have emergency mental health response teams bc I just had to call 911 about a man clearly having Some Issues and in need of help outside in the freezing weather with no shoes and barely dressed doing cartwheels and somersaults on a busy street + and in the snow and wandering about the neighborhood and I had to repeatedly stress that he wasn't bothering or hurting anyone I was just super concerned about him rolling into traffic during rush hour in an area with notoriously bad drivers + it's cold enough to be dangerous without winter gear + maybe he's got Alzheimer's or smthn like that and accidentally wandered out and is lost bc that's been known to happen

and like sure the 911 operator was nice and confirmed with me that it was a medical-adjacent call and police were NOT needed after I stressed it multiple times, but I had INITIALLY called the non emergency line BC I wanted to avoid the cops and the street outreach folk were like 'nope can't help u gotta call 911' and it's just. SO DUMB.

PLUS. Apparently there's so many 911 calls going in I was put ON HOLD for a whole ass minute and like. I'm clogging up the line for someone having a heart attack or fire or whatever, vs. I'm concerned about this guy but also I'm in the car following at a distance to make sure nothing happens + make sure someone who is less understanding of mental health crises doesn't start a fight with him because he's acting "weird" and wandering on people's front lawns, and it's not really the same level of "emergency" but I'm also 5'3 vs. A Grown Ass Man, and I've no emergency or mental health training so there's nothing I can do EXCEPT follow at a distance and call for help

#franposting #this doesnt seem like a big deal but also im anxious #and i live on the outskirts in a teeny immigrant bungalow suburb #nowhere NEAR any major shelters. hospitals. transit lines #this is not a place where you often see this #drugs? absolutely. but not this type of crisis and i didnt want to get police involved and make things WORSE #an ambulance did show up so hopefully its ok #YES IM SHELTERED BABY but i care so much about everyone all the time #my ocd and also just my personality make me #i get sad and distressed when i see someone sad on public tranist #let alone someone in ACTUAL DISTRESS #my OCD convinced me i killed my art history prof with cancer and that if i dont smile at cashiers theyll *** #WHICH IS UNTRUE #but i care so much all the time i am going to be thinking about this man forever. with no closure! #i cant compartmentalize! idk how! everything is concerning all the Time #this is why im in info management. archives. i only have to work with DEAD tragedies #(not that its all or even mostly tragedy but yknow) not living ppl i feel like i should worry abt #how does the divine worry abt everyone all the time #NOT TO MAKE THIS ABT ME #this is supposed to be about the city's shitty emergency and health infrastructure and how toronto acab #and im afraid to call them on a racialized mentally ill man