#*lays in bed solemnly with my hands clasped like a corpse to be buried* so tomorrow im going to a deaf event for my asl class.

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #*lays in bed solemnly with my hands clasped like a corpse to be buried* so tomorrow im going to a deaf event for my asl class. #im very nervous since i can't even get through conversations in english right so idk how i'll do with a language i only know the basics of #im still pretty terrible at receptive interpreting. i already know i can't read signs from my classmates. #i see their hands move and i can't comprehend it even when they sign it again and again. oughh. wish i didnt have forgetting disorder. #i feel like im going to forget all the vocabulary i learned. i only know about 240 words more or less. #i know the people will likely be nice and hopefully be patient and i can write things down if i need to communicate but WAUHGH. #listen. i embarrassed myself in front of a coffeeshop employee because i didn't know how to order a drink and just left immediately. #and that was IN ENGLISH. i cant have normal conversations already!! FCK!!! WAUGHH!! #oughh. it'll be ok. gonna try my best and if i fck up then i simply run away into the ocean and am never to be seen again. #VERY SCARED!! okay that is all GOODBYE.