#7 days til i get my cpap machine

[nexttothelamp]

feeling gay and emotional

#but thats every night isnt it #woke up at 9pm after about 22 hours of sleep so... here we are #i got some nano wrimo to catch up on #maybe ill put out a fic! doubtful #one day i'll get another toh fic out and ill dedicate it to my only fan 🥰 #ive published 1 fic thats not a drag on myself #theres one person out there who read it and loved it and keeps coming back to it #next fic i finish is dedicated to them. 100% #anyway im slowly losing it out here #7 days til i get my cpap machine #17 days til i have an intake with a new psychiatrist #itd be too optimistic to think i'll be able to start weening off the propranolol that day but #its the next step #i can dream #also this blurb counts as my paragraph of writing for the day fuck off writing gods #gays are always winning. dont forget #and yunno what? im tired of feeling out of place #i may not fit in cis spaces OR trans spaces anymore #but as far as im concerned? the less binary you are the better #fuck society #fuck the status quo! be as weird as you can! #queer EVERY aspect of your life! toast in the oven! silverware thats blue! STARE DOWN THE BARREL OF THE GUN AND PEE INTO THE WIND #its 3am #id say delete later but i wont #month 5-7 of unhinged lack of health here we gooooo