#Acting like nothing is wrong is the only way for me to cope atp

[kimetsu-chan]

rant teehee 🤭

How are you so entitled that two people whispering to each other irks you to the point that you cannot eat your food.

and every time I say something that effects me in a negative way, you have to follow right after me.

a few days ago, I told dad that I felt sick.

and you just butt in and went “oh yeah, I’ve been feeling sick all day. I feel awful.”

and when I told you that I felt really bad about my body and that I felt way too overweight, you said “yeah, I feel like I’m so fat.”

like, I know you have never been taught differently because dad thinks that there is nothing he can do, but you do not need to be the main focus. Please, let me have my own problems without having to worry about comforting you.

I need you to not get angry the moment something doesn’t go your way or when someone says something you don’t like.

I need you to not blow up at me when I try to call you out on your behavior.

I need you to not scream at me to shut up and leave you alone when I try to talk about your behavior in a calm manner.

I know dad says you just don’t know how to process negative emotions very well, but I really need you to grow up and mature.

because there is only so much of your behavior I can take before I get agitated at you and then I get in trouble for “continuing the argument”

I don’t know how you have gotten away with this for so long. And I don’t understand why you continue to get away with it.

but please stop.

I cannot be around you for extended periods of time.

I feel so guilty for thinking like this.

I feel like I should give you the benefit of the doubt, but I cannot keep doing this to myself

I can’t keep pushing my frustration away because “you don’t know better” but I cannot do anything but bottle my emotions when it comes to you, because you will not allow me to express them.

you should be old enough to let me tell you that this is badly affecting me, but the slightest mention of anything negative that you have done and you yell at me like I’ve lost my mind and I’m suggesting something absurd.

#🌾 #Not me crying as I write this #This is kinda hard on me #It’s making me have bad habits 😚 #womp womp #At this point I have been convinced that I am in the wrong and being unreasonable #Because you are too childish and immature to care about my well-being. #Tw vent #tw rant #Acting like nothing is wrong is the only way for me to cope atp #I don’t know what else to do #Oh yeah #My younger sister is a narcissist if you can’t tell #Not diagnosed by a therapist #But it’s pretty darn clear