#And he is so accesible by virtue of being very authentic genuine. but i can never ever interact with him online becaaause

[lovesour]

musings below

#I would love to write fic. the ethics of RPF are convoluted but I don't bother with convoluted #I mean look. I don't know these guys so. In essence when you write fic about them you're only toying with an _idea_ of them. Not really the #Although admittedly it would be jarring to have your likeness used for fangirly wetdream daydream written in the purplest prose #the purplest prose youve ever seen and slapped onto archive of our own #The other problem is I'm not good at writing #and the Other other problem is that I actually have incredible respect for Carlos hes something of a personal hero for me #musically. theatrically. and stylistically as well. Adore that guy #and he's actually very Online. and. Present. for being an older gentleman. Alright he's not that old. #Lots of political commentary. I love to read his newsletters as well. He is actually a very warm man. Something a lot of people don't know #because they were never able to get over his theatrics and sense of style. found him arrogant or pretentious. #And he is pretentious but I say this in a strictly loving way #Anyway. Let me tell you a secret #Carlos actually has a tumblr. Yeah. And well #Frankly the idea of him being on the same platform as me horrifies me to no end. Imagine if he saw what I was doing #PFSSHSHHS. I think at the precise moment Carlos ever opened my blog. wherever i was #and whatever i was doing the flesh in which i inhabit would instantly initiate self destruct #because i couldnt live after that NYAHAHAHA #And he is so accesible by virtue of being very authentic genuine. but i can never ever interact with him online becaaause #I have a personal guideline I must always strongly adhere to. NEVER. MEET. YOUR HEROES. #So yeah. That's my musing for tonight. It's 3 AM and I'm unhinged. Like maximum of seven people will ever read this. Whatever