#And it eats you alive the longer it draws out. I mourn everything i cant do and everything i could.

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Vent piece idk

Ok to reblog but ignore the fucking tags hhh

#Charles ii of spain #Charles ii #Carlos ii #17th century #You know I havent really spoken about the grief of losing your mobility but it is so much more than that #It's also the loss of your freedom physically and socially #And it eats you alive the longer it draws out. I mourn everything i cant do and everything i could. #It's also a financial nightmare having to go to the hospital and being unable to take public transport #AND losing your job #I know it's not a lot compared to what a lot of people have gone through but #The strain has literally killed me i cry like two to three times a week now #And i just dont know when its going to get better or what worse is in store #Or how much ive fallen behind even when it does physically get better #Also there's the autism thing about freaking out if ur body doesn't remain the same so fun fun #So anyway ive thought about committing a LOT since june!! Hahahhahahahah