#Anyway I'm sorry for ranting so much recently! My period has been beating me up for like two weeks it feels like

[toasteaa]

Realized the reason for my sudden and very intense burnout is because I'm in front of a screen for eight hours a day, five days a week, "socializing" with customers, and then barely have any energy to spare when I get home. The want to create and talk with friends and mutuals is there, but my need to decompress for what feels like five business days overruns all of it.

It's...not the best feeling, I'll be honest. Especially when I'm having moments where I'm feeling particularly creative. Feels like I'm letting people down (I'm not, I know) or not keeping up with other creatives (it's not a competition and I don't need to compare myself to others, I know). Sometimes I wonder if I'm making anything that's actually good or if I'm just being annoying (which is fine because the point of this is to enjoy my space and what I enjoy, I know!!!) and I just have to step back and think a bit.

I'm not going anywhere, I'm too wrapped up in my faves to leave for too long, I just wanted to get my mind out for a bit. Writing posts like these helps me kinda reorient myself and reminds me that I'm decorating my blog with my thoughts, my friends' thoughts, and other things that I enjoy. Acknowledgment is nice, but is not a necessary part for me to enjoy doing what I do. And I just need to keep that in mind!

#toast talks #not really a vent just talking about *gestures vaguely* stuff #Anyway I'm sorry for ranting so much recently! My period has been beating me up for like two weeks it feels like #And has been forcing my hormones and emotional state to be in a constant state of flux #But I'm okay! I promise! Just been a weird two weeks for me this month!