#Argh this took me forever to write. I'm so indecisive

[particular-one]

PLEASE THE NEW DAN HENG WAS SO GOOD 😭 my angst heart loves that the fact he never got to hear reader's last words would haunt him forever. He probably lays awake at night in bed imagining the event all over again and daydreams you dying in his arms instead of by yourself while he got help 😢

You so get me on the Oikawa simping. If you ever decide to release the hottest mixtape on why he's the most dedicated lover then I will stream it 24/7 😤. And mr.tetsurou!! He would never willingly make a fool of himself but once you get some alcohol in him 🥴 all his repressed feelings are about to come out!!!

I can't think of any requests but I see you currently have 8 in your inbox so I'm soooo looking forward to it on top of whatever you have in your drafts! Also I saw that you're closing matchups soon and that you're willing to do additionals so can you do 3 more for me with the info I sent since you already posted mine, please? (Only if you have the time and energy of course!!! I won't be too greedy for your writing and interaction now heheh) for the fandoms.....ummm...argh, this is so hard because I literally am in all those fandoms 😭 If any characters from any of your given fandoms jump out at you then I'll take them but if nobody comes to mind then I'll choose genshin, honkai and you can literally choose the last one for me hdjsks IM SORRY IM SO INDECISIVE 😣 we literally have all the same fandoms so it's so hard for me but I promise I'm not picky and I'll love whatever you write anyways so no stress LOL

I'm sitting in the doorway and just took my shoes off as I write this bc i got the notifs that you posted but i hope youre having a good day/night wherever you are!!💕💖

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teehee oh that was definitely the intention. i think it just adds to the heartbreak even more that he should have stayed by ur side for your final moments.... oh well! i love to give my comfort characters the biggest hug but simultaneously dump a truckload of angst on them .... whoops. wooHOOO oh yeah. watch me become oikawa's defense lawyer AND brand new pr manager, just going "dw sweetheart i will take care of you".... but in all seriousness, there is just so many layers to him that i really love abt him!! tbh he's probably the first few characters i really invested in analyzing, which is what got me into literary analysis and writing haha. waaa thank you! 🥹 ngl most of the stuff in my inbox are matchup requests but i rlly enjoy writing those anyways. i still have an angst idea that i would like to write out (it's been sitting in my brain since yesterday ngl) but i still have one more final to finish so maybe later this week! oh! but an anon did request for a scenario for kuroo and oikawa based on our convo so! 👀 hopefully i can get that out pretty soon<3 and on the topic of the matchup, definitely, yeah!! i think i did genshin for u already BUT i can always do a second genshin since there's lots of charas if u'd like :> keeping the last fandom a surprise till i post it. thanks for the ask as always and take care of urself! <3

#·˚ * 🔭 carlyle asks: 🐰 anon

[mxgicthot]

Second Chances | Erden & Muriel

After getting promoted as Lucio's righthand, Erden goes to confront The Scourge to resolve things. They needed to talk things over, and it's not going to be pleasant.

Cw: Language, Violence, mentions of blood

Word count : 1.5 k

He was going to confront him. It's been years since they saw each other, face to face. Of course Muriel wasn't ready to be friends again, not so soon after everything that had happened. Erden sought to resolve things, to find some way to make himself and Muriel close again, or at the very least allies. They had to talk things over, and that wasn't going to be pleasant. 

A door opens on the right side of the gate, and a guard steps out, " Be careful with this one, he's in a bad mood tonight" he warned 

"I know what I'm doing," Erden replied, and continued to walk into the gloomy hallway. 

The windowless dark and damp place, with iron bars that closed the only way out. There was no source of light other than the torch lit outside of the bars, and so was the key slot. He peeked from outside the metal bars of the cell The Scourge was in as he pushed his torch inside the bars to get a better look at its occupant. The hulking shadowy figure in the far corner of the cell. He was laying on his bed, back turned, his hands were stretched out behind him and he was looking upwards, whether his eyes were closed or opened, Erden could not tell.

He took a step back and squinted as he stared at the door's keyhole. Plucking the key ring from his belt, he looked at his keys one by one until he found the right key and pushed it in, turning it with a slight flick of his hand.

"Muriel" he swallowed 

The man before him wasn't the boy he remembered. Muriel's once silky hair hung lank and unkempt around his face. His green eyes were tired and expressionless. He knew Muriel had always been big, even when they were boys. This man, however, seemed even larger. 

He heard a low grumble come from the  corner of the sell "You finally decided to show your face"

"I tried before, but they wouldn’t let me" Erden sighed 

"Why are you here Erden?" 

"I needed to see you Muri... I wanted to say that -" 

"Then speak" he snapped 

"I never intended to hurt you Muriel, I did what I did to survive. It seemed like the only choice …" Erden paused for a moment trying to think of the right words to say. "I am truly sorry." 

"You're sorry?! You abandoned me when we were kids and I never even knew you were alive until I heard you joined the coliseum! And now you tell me you're sorry?!  I pitied you at first, but the more I think about everything, the more I resent you!" 

Erden didn't try to hide the hurt that he currently felt. Just as he'd thought, nothing was resolved. Muriel hated him. This was going to be a long conversation. 

"Would you like to know what happened after I left? "

"I don't care what your reasons were, but tell me if you must." he grumbled 

Erden closed his eyes sorrowfully, preparing to tell the story. He looked at his friend intensely.

" I stayed with the orphans for a while, things were good for us. We always had plenty of food, eventually the gang split up. I was on my own for a while, hustling, trying to find new ways to make fast money and then well… let's just say things didn't work out as I planned, so here I am."

"And now you live in the palace, alive and well. Playing Lucio's guard dog"  Muriel said dryly 

"It comes with its perks" he shrugged "When you find an opportunity you take it… you don't run and hide like a coward" 

Erden turned to face Muriel, who punched him square in the face. Erden stumbled back, and gave him a lopsided grin. 

"I thought you might do that. I suppose I deserved it - "

Muriel kicked him in the stomach before throwing a second punch. "You were like my brother! And you abandoned me" 

A trickle of blood escaped his nose, and Erden doubled over; he wiped it with his hand, smearing it on his cheek rather than wiping it away. 

"I never abandoned you! I asked you to come with me, and you made your choice," Erden said quietly. The Scourge neatly moved away from Erden's sloppy attempt at a hit back. 

"Fuck you. Those kids were complete assholes to me. " he said, and smashed his elbow over Erden's head as he tried to get back up. 

"I did what I did to survive" Erden said, picking his head up to look at Muriel  "and so did you! " 

"You choose to be with them over ME!" Muriel spat. He knocked him off balance, Erden fell and landed flat on the ground. The Scourge stopped and let him get up.

When Erden charged at him, Muriel simply stepped to the side, and twisted around in time to grab his fist before he could deliver a blow onto his face, and twisted his hand, Erden's grunted in pain. 

He released Erden's hand only after using his knee to jab him in the stomach. Erden staggered backwards, and Muriel kicked him in the shins, and he fell again. 

"Get up and fight me, you fucking coward" The Scourge said, in a dangerously icy tone.

"Oh I'm a coward? You chose to run away with your new little friend" 'Erden threw a punch in Muriel's direction, hitting him on the jaw. Muriel managed to punch him back, cracking Erden's nose. Muriel hit him again, this time in the chest, he staggered backwards, and Muriel lent over to punch him in the jaw, twice.

Erden fell again, this time his cry was in pain. The Scourge drove his foot into his ribs twice, before stopping.

"Get up." he growled at Erden, who groaned on the floor.

"I didn't come here to fight you'' He said, as Muriel stared menacingly at him.

"I told you to get up."

Erden looked at the Scourge with desperate eyes. Muriel stared back at him, then drove his foot into Erden's stomach. "What part of 'get up' don't you understand?" He shouted, grabbing Erden by the back of the shirt and dragging him up to look him in the face. "You are still the same selfish bastard. You'll never change!" He shouted, before throwing him aside 

Erden, by some miracle managed to get to his feet, only for the Scourge to punch him in the face and send him sprawling back to the ground, grazing his cheek on the cold stone. Muriel rubbed his fist with his other hand. 

"Get up." He said

Erden groans "I told you I don't want to fight you." 

Muriel stomps on Erden's hand, and Erden hears his fingers cracking. "Get up!" he  yelled, as Erden struggled to his feet. He doesn't even try to stop The  Scourge knocking him to the ground with a knee to the genitals. After waiting almost a whole minute, The Scourge started again.

He grabbed Erden by the shirt front and punched him in the face, one more time. He threw him to the ground and stood up. "Get up." He said, again. Erden physically couldn't and Muriel knew this. 

The Scourge grabbed him by the shirt front and pulled him up so they were face to face. "Did you care about me? About my feelings?'' he shouted 

"If I didn't care then I wouldn't be here, idiot!" Erden spat 

"I swear if I ever see you again, I will ruin you. Do you understand me?" Muriel said, clenching his fists as a few tears formed in his eyes.

"You could never hate me, even if you wanted to… and you know that"  Erden said quietly 

Muriel dropped him on the ground with a thud. Erden was right, he could neve hate him, no matter how much he wanted to. They came from the same place, or at least that's what he was told. Whether he liked it or not Erden was the closest thing he had to home. Both men stood there in silence, trying to catch their breath. It seemed like ages until Muriel finally spoke. 

"I still don't understand why. You were a kind, decent kid who always had my back. And somehow... you took to the cruelty of that gang so easily while I couldn't stand it, then you became so different. So different that you were willing to leave me. I'll never know why you welcomed that change." 

I'll tell you why..." Erden whispered standing up slowly, dusting himself off and spitting out the blood that collected in his mouth.  "I did it so I could SAVE us!" 

Muriel was taken aback by the burst of emotion.

"You may not agree with my beliefs," Erden said softly. "But I hope you realise that everything I did was for a very good reason. Do you believe me now, when I say I'm sorry?" Erden hesitated 

"Yes..." Muriel replied plainly " I know what you mean… "

Erden gave him a small nod. This was certainly a start. "I'll be back later, to check on you...I won't give up on you that easily… not again" 

Erden turned away, slowly shutting the Scourge's cell door closed. 

#Argh this took me forever to write. I'm so indecisive #This has so much feels I'm so sorry #I just wanted Erden to get beat up a little #oc : erden #muriel of the kokhuri

[jakeyuni]

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