#But like. Okay cool. Is $65 a month anywhere near a living wage you dumb fucking artist????

[ask-artsy-oncie]

Its just like. I just got my drive for animation back today of all days but I've committed to making a bunch of Valentines dolls and I have to finish them early enough so people can order them and have them *arrive* on Valentines Day and AUUUGH.

Just wish my brain worked properly. Yknow?

#I don't hate making dolls but I hate not having enough time to make them to coincide with major corporate holidays!!! #I already missed Christmas!!!! #I need to make money unfortunately!!!!!!!!! #I'm not even kidding if UBI existed I would be churning out so much free shit it would be insane #I genuinely want to make my art as accessible as possible. I want to be the kind of person who makes games and movies for free. #And I'm sad that I'm never going to be able to live a life like that. #I feel like shit charging $200+ or even $50+ for dolls. It's partially why I've gifted so many of them. #But even if I put all my blood sweat and tears into making one *really* nice doll a month #It wouldn't be enough money to live off of. #If I didn't have to worry about money these dolls could be posted *on* Valentines Day or something #Because I wouldn't have to worry about if people would buy them or not #And then I wouldn't feel bad for taking a break #I think what I hate is that I just hate making these dolls in batches. I really love putting a lot of care into just one doll. #But it's impractical unless I'm only doing the 12 inch full sized dolls. #And I wanna make the little 6 inch ones too!!!! #But like. Okay cool. Is $65 a month anywhere near a living wage you dumb fucking artist???? #I know people are charging (and selling) 6 inch dolls for almost $200 if not more than that #And I'm very happy for them #But I have neither the talent or following to do that #Why did I think this was ever a good idea again? #I really do enjoy making them. But man this was definitely a turn a lot of people probably weren't expecting #And might even be pissed off about #ITS NOT LIKE I WAS REALLY MAKING SALES BEFORE THAT #ITS NOT LIKE I WAS GETTING COMMISSIONED ENOUGH TO MAKE A LIVING #I just feel like shit and I don't know what to do anymore #I just wanna draw again man... #I want to give up I'm so sick of begging for money on the internet by peddaling shit no one wants and wringing my closest friends dry. #I thought I had the drive for something today but I don't know what's going on in my head anymore #Maybe everyone *would* be happier if I just gave up. Took some soul-sucking job that only left me with barely enough time #To pull some allnighters here and there to pump out the latest Swindle pages