#Dysthymia does run in the family but mine is listed as MDD (clinical depression or Major Depressive Disorder I think).

[byakuyasdarling]

can’t deal with the fact people glorify anxiety,,, like yes the disorder that literally keeps me from normal functioning and is detrimental to my physical and mental health is so cutesy and so easy to live with and I can totally sleep at night and I don’t get massively painful ulcer flare-ups when I’m stressed (it is literally debilitating) panic attacks are quirky! /s

I don’t have repetitive thought cycles that make me constantly worry and exhaust me throughout the day from a whole other disorder that’s exasperated by my anxiety! It’s so pleasant in both of these ways! I love when people think me flapping my hands is so cutesy when it’s totally not a sign of distress for the most part /SARCASM

I have no clue why anyone would want to fake something I am so desperate to get rid of. Like this is not fun — especially when so many people close to me in my life atm have this strong image of me that I hate living up to.

Though I will say that most likely, even people who fake disorders do have something bad going on and is symptomatic of broader issues (there’s literally a term for this, I forgot) — so I’m not going to go haywire at confused and hurting children. Though their actions are ignorant and can romanticise what living with these things is actually like and diminish other people’s struggles — I’m fairly sure they’re too young and confused to properly process that and I doubt it’s malicious the majority of the time. You’re just going to further push them into boxes by harassing them.

#I usually just suffer in silence and deal with it but even with coping mechanisms it’s extremely hard to control #like it’s 1am here and I have to wake up in 5 hours for work and I’m still not well and I just hate my anxiety because I’m thinking of so - #- many bad things. even when I rationalised it and spoke to people I’m still nervous and upset. #I will clarify my ‘other disorder’ is not formally diagnosed — my anxiety and depression are though. #(the ‘other disorder’ was just identified as ‘highly probable’ from my therapist. that’s why I don’t speak of it in direct terms) #i would also like to say I would deal with it and my sensory issues so much easier if it wasn’t for anxiety and depression. I could be very- #- functional with it. (I know because I was once there LOL) #Dysthymia does run in the family but mine is listed as MDD (clinical depression or Major Depressive Disorder I think). #I can’t remember if they actually specified my anxiety on my record but I know my therapist generally points to GAD. #I’m talking like a weirdo again but it’s just comforting to actually say this out loud because I never do #I am literally employed as having no mental neurodivergency so I can’t really speak about it at work #but I think people kind of just figure it out I’m a little off. or very off. #vent tw #tw vent #// ask to tag