#Friendships with me suck. Especially if you're a person who does mind id you don't get an reply in a day bc It can take me weeks or more to

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How to stop avoiding things that stress me out until it becomes a problem...

#miranda talking shit #I've always had an avoiding behavior but the last few years like its bad.... #I think its bc i live af home so no one will check on me and remind me about stuff #So I just repress and ignore things until they are a bigger problem and then I'm like 0: what #For some reason ive put conversing with friends in that seat to its an problem #Like logically i know i like to talk with people amd 9/10 times i feel better for it but ... Now i just dont #For like 6 months now ive gotten so bad at it. I was bad before too but now its really bad #Only reason i can think of is that my add/autistic brain feels overwhelmed bc i dont have just 4 friends anymore #Like I've onlh had like 4 friends since i was young and until my 20s but now ive slowly gotten more #And i like that and love them all but i think i feel overwhelmed somehow ... #Like i struggle to divide my attention a lot. I function best when i can sink all my attention info one thing #And now when i have 15+ friends to keep in contact with i struggle so my solution is just to isolate and talk to no one... #Friendships with me suck. Especially if you're a person who does mind id you don't get an reply in a day bc It can take me weeks or more to #Come back with an answer ... And it's never bc i dislike anyone. Its simply bc i feel overwhelmed and i worry about what fo reply #Thats also why i think tje best friendships for me are the type where they ... Get that . But also engage with me and send me an message #Once in a while. Mainly bc then its like an poke button so i can't just isolate myself ? #Im so bad at social stuff in general. Like writing first... I struggle badly. And once i do and get an answer back fairly quickly im like #Oh shit no tjis is too much. Idk man. Everything in life feels so Much ™ and im exhausted and anxious #Autism tag