#GOOD GOD it's 4.24 but backwards and topsy turvy

[lisbonsteresa]

oh and suddenly i don't even care OH god -

#i'm so tense this is somehow a huge step forward and three steps back for them someone help me #GOOD GOD it's 4.24 but backwards and topsy turvy #that was a hug then a confession then a shot and it was truth he couched in an act #and now this is a confession then a hug and i'm still afraid for the shot but no matter what happens i can't see him denying this #i can't see him shying away from it whatever happens afterwards #if the last confession was part of a gambit; slipping out while he took that risk to draw out red john then this is something more #he's so close this time; he's as close to confident as he wants to allow himself to be; this might be his last chance and he takes it #even if it's just starting to scratch the surface of everything he feels for her; even if she hates him for what he might be about to do #at least she'll know this much #and maybe he couldn't live with himself if she didn't...almost as much as he couldn't live with himself if he didn't follow through on rj #i'm doing SUPER well thanks #tm