#I DONT EVEN KNOW IF I LIKE THIS IT SUCKS IN MY EYES BJT I SHARED THE SKETCH SO I HAD TP FINISH IT. SO. YEAH. MAN STANDING EMOJI.

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hey just a heads up that i love my girlfriend so fucking much. i jusr wanna lead w that bc she. is taking multiple days to spdnd tkme with me and make sjre im safe and comfortable after the surgery, and im. so grateful she is so so kind and nice and caring i love her so muchsa

surgery was today, had meat removed from me. they said i wasnt allowed to eat it. Uh.... i shojld blog abt that

I talked a LOT to the nurses. joking with them and trying yo make them laugh is always like. my #1 priority when im at doctors offices ::p the doctors usually dont take as well (probs cuz rheyre really busy or whatever!). fun fact u cant even wear UNDERWEAR under the gown!!! bluh! did make me realizehow much ive like. grown and gotten better abiut not being nervous / not caring about shit. which makes me REALLY haply considering, well. You didn't know me back when i was <13, but i was REALLY nervous like ALL the time. And this probably would have been really scary if i was still like that!!! Also, fun fact,nurses and doctors do NOT like 1: jokes about dying on the ER table (of ANY variety!) 2: saying shit like 'yall r gonna take out both my kidneys and lungs' shen theyretrying to confirm i kmow what is being doneto me.

I mostly was nyot scared or worried except 1: putting in the IV, bc u kno what? when we put in the IV wedndsday (two days ago) it SUCKED and involved digging arounf in my arm w the needle for like multiple minutes. yeowch! 2: when the anestetic started bc oh god oh god whats happening this is really sudden and also wait dont ppl wake up from anesthesia sometimes????. butthat didnt last long! and ten i was in therecovery room talking to njrses

the nurse who stayed eith me while i woke up and got better was REALLY nice, and kinda let me ramble about stufff. i dont remember a *ton*, but i do remember her saying i had pretty eyes and i like. almost started crying while bein like. when i thought i was a boy my eyes were my favoritething about me becajse people said i had pretty eyes and it was one of he only thkngs thst cojld bdprettythen.

oh wow im feelin thag pain med. strugglego keep my eyes olen. bjt.... gotta blog.....

lol fell asleep

anyway. tyenc went home!!!! getting dressed was kind of hard but luckily i wore a dress so could get away w just dress n panties. wearing boots was a... mistake... but luckily i did not need go pur them badj on!!!! ehehehhee

mom boight me a smoothie and crackwrs so probs thays gonna be my food until tomorrow hoo hoo. thank you mom!!!

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