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#I am so desperately adverse to receiving more than very minimal help from anyone
abandonmutt
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2 months
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#I’m good at balancing enough to feel like. pleasant normally. but fuck I hate being reminded of just how deep my disordered thinking goes
#I rly don’t know how I’m gonna like. heal in the long term
#like obviously I’m gonna try but like
#I am so desperately adverse to receiving more than very minimal help from anyone
#and half the time I don’t even know what would help
#the fucking knots I tie myself into are so convoluted and impossible that I kinda feel it’s better for me to just handle it
#I don’t know how to be helped. I barely know how to be cared about. I fear that nobody will be able to handle whatever it’s gonna take
#to break through all of that shit
#like fuck man I don’t even remember how to cry about shit
#I probably still need to cry over my moms stroke but it feels stupid now bc she’s fine
#i don’t know what to do about that
#I never thought I was a self hating kinda guy I thought I was pretty self neutral
#but literally the bare minimum opening for shame or for feeling like I’m failing can snag me
#even if it’s completely irrational
#ugh.
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