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#I can't juggle a degree two jobs and all the chores I can't do but am still expected to
yue-muffin · 29 days
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Chapter 5! Another reason why this story is great and realistic: The characters are a little older (late 20s to early 30s) and they've been in other relationships before falling for each other. The realism is actually sort of refreshing. I end up reading a lot of danmei where the MC and ML are each other's one and only true love, they never are in a relationship with anyone else even in the past, and that can be a fun fantasy in its own way, but if you like a little more realism, this one is for you.
Here's a little author's note from the side story:
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Big respect. Also, Descent was labeled a switch/reversible relationship on NovelUpdates. I'm not sure if that's entirely accurate, but it is true of the side story at least.
As for the rest of the chapter...
Alright, personally, I would never have energy to do such a stressful job and then go out drinking on my day off haha. You can forget driving an hour to go see someone right after my shift ends, no matter who it is lol. Actually, my current job is nowhere near as stressful as Fang Hao's and I still don't have the energy to do more than chores and grocery shopping on the weekends...
Anyways, back to poor Fang Hao whose ex cheated on him. Fang Hao does seem to be a very serious guy, so for him to actually develop feelings for this person who then tries to blame the relationship not working out all on HIM is...
Surprisingly, though, Fang Hao is very assertive at work (well, it's a requirement of the job), but he's not as assertive in his personal life/relationships. He "had always been unable to argue with Lu Jiawei, so he could only leave in haste".
And this last line is kind of painful. "Maybe he was just a rather boring person, as Lu Jiawei always said."
No!! You two were just incompatible, but that jerk decided to string him along instead of just ending it, then tries to emotionally manipulate Fang Hao when he gets caught. Also, "always"? What kind of partner always calls you boring...
There's an interesting part embedded in all that, though. His ex uses this as an excuse for not breaking up with him: "Every time I tried, you would become upset, and you would start to fall apart if things were out of your control".
Now, this is a guy who juggles airplanes in the sky as a job, and one wrong direction, a delayed reaction, or even mishearing a single digit can cause a catastrophic accident and loss of life. Yes, he's always in control - in fact it's essential at work that he's 100% in control when he's "on" the air. It makes sense that this bleeds into his personal life to some degree. But it makes you wonder how he acts when he does lose control. We don't see it, we only get Lu Jiawei saying he starts to "fall apart", but we can't really trust this guy's word too much. He spent the whole time explaining his infidelity blaming it on his boyfriend for being too "boring".
Overall, interesting developments in a chapter where nothing actually happens...
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david-watts · 2 years
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oh fuck’s sake they’re calling me lazy.
#I can hear them in the kitchen.#is it because I didn't finish mowing the whole lawn? I can't fucking do that it's allergy season and my back is royally Fucked#is it because I don't have two jobs like my cousin? which by the way I'm proud of her for that it was just a mistake to tell my grandmother#who will now expect me to do the same jobs here which. there aren't any and also I can't do them#I can't stand up for long periods of time on good days and I have auditory processing disorder#she'll expect me to do that while doing uni. my cousin isn't at uni because 'she's taking time to find her direction first'#LITERALLY what I tried to explain that i needed to do but was told 'no you HAVE to start next year'#y'know where that's gotten me? nowhere with a half finished degree that I've switched major and minor of three times apiece#and debt I can't crawl out of#for a degree that the government considers worthless.#I didn't even want to go I keep thinking about what happened to me at primary and high school and in college#I can't juggle a degree two jobs and all the chores I can't do but am still expected to#even if I 'wake up earlier' like. if I did that I'd be expected to study from the crack of dawn and we'd still come home the same time#because SOMEONE refuses to organise therapy and avoids home so she can play cards and online shop all day.#besides. what's lazy about trying fucking get my life in order.#what's lazy about trying to ESSENTIALLY SINGLE-HANDEDLY clear out and redecorate a whole room full of shit I don't even know what to do with#I keep getting told 'NO you have to let ME sort those things out!' and then I bring the things out and I get yelled at for doing so#because she doesn't have time or energy to sort them now therefore they have to stay in that room in the way!#my m*ther keeps saying 'oh I'll help you on the weekend' and then. doesn't. does something else.#keeps resorting her clothes pile and wardrobe. does gardening. fucks off to uni again.#will not help.#I just.#I will never escape this situation. nothing will change.#in ten years I will still fail all my classes because I don't want to be there I lose all motivation I can't study#because the room's still in the exact same state I'm trying to fish my belongings out of a hoarder's mess#she keeps going 'oh I want this spot all tidy' focus on the bigger fucking picture already#y'know for how fucking suicidal I was three years ago I still had fucking dreams of escaping of living an actual life#now? I'm barely suicidal! because I simply feel nothing at all times#other than anger? paralysing anxiety and fear? nothing. nothing at all.#why didn't I kill myself back then I should've just done it I would've been in a better place
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