#I don't mind saying I read the occasional omegaverse fanfic or whatever on main which is true and not really an underestimation either

[omegapheromone]

Sometimes I post a text post on this blog then get a note on my main blog (for some random post on there) and it absolutely never fails to make my heart stop in a second of blind panic thinking I've casually posted some ramblings about being an omega to my main blog.

#I don't mind saying I read the occasional omegaverse fanfic or whatever on main which is true and not really an underestimation either #but it's more like my posts here are so often something like 'waaah im in heat i hate it' that turn into incoherent ranting in tags #at times about which pixel men I find attractive and would like to help me through said heats #that it's genuinely a moment of true horror for me every time #seriously I'm gambling with my cardiac health having this as a side blog and not a fully separate one #if this blog mysteriously disappears one day IT'S BECAUSE I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED TO MAIN #okay #and HAD to delete all traces immediately #it's that or deleting my entire tumblr all side blogs included. and also myself. there are irl friends who follow my main. #listen they're cool and accepting but I would never survive the level of mortification #(i know they wouldn't sweat it but I don't want them to know my private life!!) #(I don't want them to be hanging out with me and then randomly think 'oh right this person is into knotting and heat cycles' even if they- #-don't necessarily MIND it!!! it's a mortifying thought! I want the cover of normalcy and to not be poked fun at!) #also I don't want to risk any drama in case it's actually somehow a turn-on for anyone in my extended friend circle #or even mainblog mutuals who live nearby but aren't irl friends #in a ridiculous turn of events I think this only solidifies my prev post #this screams 'omega pretending to be a beta for convenience (and because trauma)' #gamietxt #i do always double check which blog I am posting to but I'm not immune to forgetfulness so the thought that MAYBE... maybe I didn't check #is enough to terrorize me