#I hadn't realised how much my eating issues were related to stress til this

[wachi-delectrico]

Me, the three weeks I was home alone: Wow I'm eating on a much better schedule with a greater variety of meals and feel physically and mentally great, I haven't binged in forever and I'm able to hold back when I feel the urge to - why don't I do this when my family is around?

My family: *buys too much red meat, which I don't like much* *doesn't buy many vegetables and when they do they run out super quickly* *buys too much frozen and sugary food, which I don't like* *either nobody washes the dishes or they do but they keep stacking clean dishes on the countertop instead of putting them away, making the kitchen look super cluttered and hard to navigate* *they're downstairs all the time working and talking and yelling and doing a lot of noise and moving all over*

Me, starting to skip meals again due to the stress and lack of foods I enjoy: Ah,

#rambling #ed cw #I hadn't realised how much my eating issues were related to stress til this #Like of course I'm gonna binge to hell if i feel like the kitchen is an Overstimulation Battle Zone - #by the time Im too hungry to not do something about it I feel rushed to eat literally anything at all and end up eating whatever i can grab #Which is all stuff i don't like!! Or at least stuff I don't like eating all the time!! #Like cookies/crackers/bread/any open bag of snacks; frozen food if i have enough patience for it #I wish i could drive so i could go buy veggies on my own and bring the good stuff but alas: narcolepsy and driving aren't friends #It also just demotivates me to eat or cook in general cos I'm like ''well why am i gonna do that when there's nothing good ever'' #Hnnnnnng i really wish i could move outtttt #Also yea not a big fan of red meat #Honestly i don't usually feel the drive to eat meats unless they're seafood and sometimes chicken #Red meat is just like. So boring to me. So greasy and bulky and laborious and bland #I love food... I love eating... But family life makes that so hard for me... #Rn I'm eating frosted flakes which i didn't wanna do cos i don't like eating so much sugar it just makws my body feel bad