#I just believe Mikuni had a so much more terrible childhood for turning the way he is right now <3

[seysei]

CW// mention of suicide

It's the middle of the night and I can't sleep. Just thinking about how crazy it would be if it turned out Mikuni was never the one to kill his Mother, and neither Jeje, and she did it herself... And I have absolutely NO backup for this, it's just a crazy thought I want to share with ya.

To begin with how did Mikuni even overpower this bitch. Like she has a FREAKING KNIFE WITH HER AND A TALL ASS VAMPIRE- and on top of it she was ready to murder an eight years old child. Let's say Jeje didn't step in like we mostly think.

I think when she saw how her own son technically chose Misono over her and how he risked his life to protect him, made her feel terrible. Thinking about how her husband didn't love her and started thinking even her own child didn't too. She doubted Mikuni would ever look at her the same way after seeing her in this cruel and mad state she was in. She hated herself for it. She hated how she let jealousy control her and she hated how much of a bad mother she now was. she couldn't bear the jealousy, anger and betrayal she felt. So um, after blahblahblah whatever more happened between them she couldn't take it anymore and ended herself, she just couldn't bear it anymore, it drove her insane. Perhaps she wanted to free herself from the jealousy that took over her and maybe pay for her sin. Now this cought both Mikuni and Jeje off guard, and imagine how terrified Mikuni must have been when she did that right in front of his eyes.

Hmm, so why was Mikuni holding the knife if it wasn't him who killed her? (I know I should probably shut up about suicide now but bear with me) well after seeing such a thing, shit must have been going through his mind, too much for him to handle, he still couldn't process what he just saw, and he probably blamed himself. His actions drove her to do this. If he hadn't let his feelings out, maybe if he hadn't told her how miserable he felt because she and Mikado where the most awful parents. She wouldn't have done it (Now I know Mikuni is calm and collected in the most shittiest situations when he shouldn't be and of course would be very careful with his words in a situation like that, because he knows that doing anything recklessly would make everything go wrong, but maybe at that time, on that night, he wasn't able to do it properly while facing his own mother that was overcome and blinded by jealousy.)

So anyways back to where we were. He maybe intended to do it too, end his life. And I'm not saying Mikuni is suicidal or really wanted to die, but maybe felt like he should die at that moment, he felt like he just killed his mother and should pay for it, he was scared he would be the reason someone else he loves would do that too. So he grabbed the knife from her hand while shaking terribly, and before he could do any harm to himself Jeje stopped him.

Instead offered to run away, To leave this messed up mansion. There was no way for Mikuni to stay here anyway, not after Misono had just walked in on them, yikes. Of course he would get the wrong idea, and there is no point or way of explaining what just happened to a little kid. Mikuni didn't want to either. He was fine with the idea his whole family had, it didn't matter anyways because he still saw himself as his mother's killer although he didn't do it with his own two hands. He was scared, and really did want to leave. run far far away. So he did, with Jeje by his side.

This is also part of why I think my fair lady looks like his mother and why it's the way it is. Such as the rope, punishment for the sinners etc. And how ropes can usually represent something like suicide since people- um, do it that way. I know there are many explanations on what happened between Mikuni and his mother that night that makes much more sense than this lmao also on his lead that are very accurate,So um, if you read this until the very end. You amaze me.

#servamp #This really stupid #mikuni alicein #servamp jeje #I just believe Mikuni had a so much more terrible childhood for turning the way he is right now <3