#I just found out my com class is done with marked attendance so you bet your ass I’m gonna stop going to that!

[victory-cookies]

bro I’ll never again be able to do it like I was doing it in high school

#I just read through my final essay for AP lang and the closing statement I wrote for my law class’ mock trial and they’re both such bangers #like genuinely the writing in both is better than what I could do today (to be fair at that time I had just taken a year of ap lang #and that had made me really really good at essays) #and like my valedictory! that shit ruled! I was told it was the best valedictorian speech most of my teachers had heard in a decade! #I was thriving! #Ok I wasn’t fully thriving but still. I had a 96% avg and was consistently churning out stellar work #plus I still had friends lol. uni has not been kind to me in that way #I miss it tbh. Like I defo had my ups and downs but god I was just such a different and better person then #I didn’t skip a single class in high school. Nowadays I skip half my lectures. #I just found out my com class is done with marked attendance so you bet your ass I’m gonna stop going to that! #like high school me could have never. high school me had 100% in bio 97% in physics and 96% in chem #and was looking forward to a career in stem. lol #anyway I’m just reminiscing #when I think about my childhood I get painfully nostalgic. When I think about high school I just feel sad that I’ve fallen so far #I miss being a good student who the teachers all liked who was in clubs and sports and leadership and the arts #and I recognize I could become that again if I really worked at it #but idk. something’s changed #I think I’m burnt out first and foremost. And then I just don’t care as much anymore. and as a result I’ve really stopped trying as hard #and it’s too bad #bro what happened to this post I was just gonna poke fun at myself for writing better in grade 11 than I do now years later #and then I had to get all sad about it