#I know Lauren is the villian of the story but I truly loved both characters

[rottengurlz]

I finished my book

#many many thoughts…. #I’m not sure if delilah ever loved Lauren I think she wanted to love her to prove to herself she could be lovef #loved #but Lauren loved delilah so much she built her entire being around her #and she started shaping deliah into who Lauren wanted her to be and delilah went along because no one else had ever accepted her before #but to Lauren this was love even if she was hurting Delilah relentlessly because she was convinced she was saving her #alsjdjwldkdlfkf I need like a week for my mind to recover #what crushed me was Lauren telling Delilah that she would always be there to catch her when she fell but when Delilah needed the most #no one was there to save her and she just kept repeating ‘Lauren will save me’ 😭 #AND THE ENDING #Lauren realized she is hurting Delilah but can’t bare to leave her but at the same time she wants to kill her #she knows Delilah is going to leave her and is better off without her #Lauren’s entire life is built around Delilah so the only option she sees that she has left is to end her life #she literally dies embracing Delilah and that’s how Delilah wakes up and finds her #Delilah cried over her she was thankful it was all over #but also because she mourned the love Lauren had for her because Lauren loved her so much it destroyed her #the ending is surprisingly uplifting because Delilah realizes her self worth #and that life is precious and beautiful because SHE made it that way #I know Lauren is the villian of the story but I truly loved both characters #I have more thoughts but I’m so sleepy I’m going to bed so I can shut up!!