#I'm doin fine nowadays for anyone curious !

[featherdflight]

I lived, bitch.

Hi, I took a long ass break from tumblr, and, damn I meant to log into my other account but, hm

It still feels like it wasn't that long ago, but damn, two whole years huh ?

I'm back but I ain't tellin y'all where or who I am cuz, y'know !

Also my Discord Tag is different now but again, I ain't tellin cuz yeah !

Though I suppose I will say it's weird thinkin back about the way I acted during the whole kerfuffle.

I'm definitely a bit embarrassed, but I can't really fault myself, as I was scared and hurt at the time in ways I've never been before and I didn't know how to process or deal with it in a healthy way.

Thinkin back, I definitely did alot of apologizin for things I didn't have to apologize for, though I know I only did so either because I was made to feel guilty by people who were never really on my side, or to just try takin the heat away from friends. But, me doin so really only gave my abusers more ammunition to use against me in whatever ways they felt like.

I mean, I can sorta understand, it's not like I was the perfect picture of maturity, despite bein told by false friends that I was.

There were definitely things I handled in the worst way possible

But damn you really don't have any other way of copin with your stuff other than villainizin the people you've hurt, huh ?

The only thing I really have to actually apologize for is ever havin contacted you again.

And it's an apology to myself more than anything.

But eh whatevs

That was all years ago, no use holdin onto it I suppose !

You're free to do so, as I know you never really let anything go.

But livin as a victim is so dull and self-torturous, and if you feel it suits you, that's fine, you do you

I'll pass tho

Anyhow, yeah, stuff, words, woag, closure

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#All I can really do is learn from my mistakes and keep movin forward #But yea #I'm doin fine nowadays for anyone curious ! #Been lookin for a job lately #Hopin to get one soon cuz ough everything costs so much money always all the time #Other than that tho I suppose I don't really got much more to say really #Yeehaw