#I'm not awake enough to keep up the usual attitude of youthful cheeriness and charming idiocy you'll get your regular clownguy back by

[starpros-sunshine]

When others enjoy things in an overly emotional and enthusiastic way I find it tacky and rebarbative. When I do the exact same thing though it's different. Then it's appropriate and justified. Obviously.

#mind you I am not ralking about the concept of cringe #I don't cringe #i just think it a bit silly #but to eaxh their own whatever makes people happy I suppose #as long as it doesn't harm anyone I don't care #but you have to admit sometimes it's really very silly #honey no you have not got it. you haven't even placed the order yet. #when I do it it's fine though #completely fine #the funny thing about this is that i really hate hypocrisy #see there's a fine line between self loathing and pushing an ego the size of the universe and I walk it perfectly #so perfectly in fact that they balance each other out #I don't hate myself I think I'm too good for that but I also don't like myself because lets be real. I'm really not It. #so what I end up with is a healthy dose of self criticism and a differential worldview #because who am I to judge #god I am so good at this being normal thing I really really am #delete later #I'm not awake enough to keep up the usual attitude of youthful cheeriness and charming idiocy you'll get your regular clownguy back by #well tomorrow probably #if the humiliation of self exposure allows me to make the return ans not just lynch this blog immediately #we'll see #not that it matters anyways