#I'm so laser focused on the nies i haven't thought that deeply about Lan Xichen outside his relationship with the nies in a long time

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For the character ask, Lan Xichen: 1, 16, 50

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1. Canon I outright reject

This is so hard, but I guess I have to go with the way he downplayed it when NMJ told LXC he *saw* Meng Yao kill the Jin disciple. I get it, they're in the middle of a war, the Cloud Recesses is still recovering, but it just doesn't sit right with me that the sect leader of Gusu Lan wouldn't have anything else to say about that whole thing, or that he would never bring this up again.

16. Deepest darkest secret they won’t even admit to themselves

That he whishes he had never known the truth.

50. A memory they’ve blocked out

Wangji's punishment. I don't remember if he's present in the moment in the book, but either way, I think he can't quite remember that day. The subsequent months and years of caring for his brother are all tangled together as well; he can remember the conversations they had, but not really at what stage of his recovery Wangji was when they happened.

#this was hard tbh #I'm so laser focused on the nies i haven't thought that deeply about Lan Xichen outside his relationship with the nies in a long time #as you can tell by the content of my replies #and i've been far away from canon for a while now too #i hope it wasn't disappointing tho #ask game