#IMMORTAL BLOND GUYS WITH FAMILY ISSUES AND ANGEL IMAGERY WHO LOST THEIR CLOSEST FRIENDS GANG

[anachronistic-falsehood]

GENUINELY going 2 fucking explode. was in the car driving and angel with a shotgun came on. started thinkin about c!philza and no word of a lie i started crying. old man is immortal and has lost so much in his lifetime and became nearly apathetic about it, lost his son, got his son back, his son LEFT WILLINGLY, and then lost his best friend and his home one after the other. i was so fucking distraught about it. ohhh cphil you had so many issues and you were no good at helping people but you are so so tragic 2 me. then i started thinking abt vash the stampede and cried even harder

#whiskey yelling into the void #dsmp #IMMORTAL BLOND GUYS WITH FAMILY ISSUES AND ANGEL IMAGERY WHO LOST THEIR CLOSEST FRIENDS GANG #i think ctech is canonically gone or at least heavily implied to be which is literally the saddest fucking thing i've ever heard in my life #like fuck. god. we don't know exactly what happened to him if he just left or if he's dead but cphil acted like he was GONE gone #i think phil did that bc like. cphil is very much like ccphil and like. he didnt talk about how he felt much?? so roleplaying it with cphil #was probs a way to show it?? without saying it??? ig??? acknowledging it without rly acknowledging it #either way both cc and c being hit with the same loss is fucking devastating #sry im just rambling. thinkin abt tech and sbi a lot lately. might cry again might delete this later idk