#It’s so GOOD. Nick??? Frank and Ned’s relationship??? the group trauma? the men realizing they have custody of four teenagers? Henry just

[ziracona]

Tempted to read all my whodunnitmafia fic again. So sad one of my greatest creations literally exists for an audience of 1. But it’s so good. Yes it will make me want to write more and there’s no point. But my HEART

#Why the fuck did I pour so much talent into part of a story literally not only will no one else ever read but like. it /could/ only make #sense to a total of like 7 people on the planet in optimal conditions. maybe I can figure out a way to re-use and file the serials off? but #jeeze the context for Mafia itself was so batshit insane I genuinely have no idea how I could. it would be like trying to file the serials #off fuckin hetaoni or something like is such an act of — by necessity — combined canon /and/ complex au itno a totally new substance even #/possible/? probably not. do it ever regret writing it? no. I love rereading it. my only regret is I can’t always put out content at the 120 #% and climbing quality level that monstrosity is #It’s so GOOD. Nick??? Frank and Ned’s relationship??? the group trauma? the men realizing they have custody of four teenagers? Henry just #existing? god the mental illness and trauma and deep dive into the after effects of years of torture & the moral dilemmas? the courtroom #internal monologue? ‘it wasn’t enough but it was /mine/. it was the last good thing he’d ever managed to do? shouldn’t he be allowed to #keep that too? it had mattered. it had mattered to him.’