#LIDRGJKLSNGFG it's just a google docs page to throw some words onto at the end of the day like

[mythvoiced]

-. and some more about jiang cheng, he really just does... not win. like, i mean, sure it doesn't get worse i guess, because at the very least the story gets some kind of resolution, but the story is a resolution for wei wuxian, jiang cheng is and remains a secondary character.

he doesn't have villain to unmask and a mystery to solve and a love interest to finally get together with.

i'm not insinuating he needs any of those things, but he also doesn't really get a lot, unless my memory betrays me, other than being 'forced' to realize that his vengeance towards wei wuxian is misguided and misplaced - even though it's completely understandable that he'd feel this way towards him at all, considering, WELL, IYKYK.

he has a future to build, that is true, a nephew to perhaps raise a little gentler as the story goes on, but his prospects aren't as dreamy as, again, wei wuxian's. and maybe jiang cheng doesn't need all of that to be happy, or at least content, or start on a proper path of healing, but isn't it still relatively maddening for him that wei wuxian yet again seems to be simply... more deserving than he is?

sure, that'd be an odd thing to hold onto all the way from his teen years, especially considering what wei wuxian is put through, but things do stick with you, you know?

jiang cheng is by no means fragile, okay, but... he's a good man too, at the end of the day, at the bottom of his heart. doesn't he deserve a lil tenderness 🥺 a little winding down 🥺 a little no more having to fulfill expectations or live according to what is needed in an heir, in a brother, in a figure of authority 🥺

#the grudge;about #gosh i'm tipsy i don't know i'm just feeling a lot about him right now it's stupid #FOR SOMEONE TO PRIORITIZE HIM TO MAKE HIM THE MOST IMPORTANT #FOR HIM TO BE THE FIRST PERSON SOMEONE WANTS TO CHECK ON #TO BE SOMEONE'S 'FAVOURITE' OR 'FIRST CHOICE' IN ANY WAY--- #gosh he is killing me #i wanna add him officially to mythvoiced but i'm too numb to fill out an about doc lmao #i mean i'm still gonna do it bc that's life baby but i'm SOOO... BIG SIGH #LIDRGJKLSNGFG it's just a google docs page to throw some words onto at the end of the day like #talk about first world problems like god fucking dammit #i don't often get that thing of 'what am i even doing here' when it comes to dumblr #bc it's just... dumblr. it's silly ol' dumblr it's just rp it's just writing #there's no harm in it so what does it matter what i am doing here it's just for fun #it's a fun thing it's a lil hobby it's just a thing it's a thing #so it was weird when it hit me just now the 'what am i even doing here' #but maybe i'm having a bad night SO MORE JIANG CHENG THOUGHTS~